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Smoke (a moment between Qui-Gon and Tahl; vignette - Updated with Cover Art)
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Title: Smoke
Summary: A moment between Qui-Gon and Tahl.
A/N: Unbeta'ed.  [edit] Also my very first in this forum!
Feedback: Adored, treasured, loved, and reread.
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His presence is heralded by more than the deep well of strength he feels like in the Force; there is a change in the air, a subtle alteration that means he is present. Then, as he comes closer, I begin to smell him, as air currents waft his scent over to me. As always, it’s a combination of many scents – his clothing, his soap, his sweat. It’s another thing to mark him as being him.
“What are you thinking about, Tahl?” he asks quietly, knowing better than to announce his presence as if I were helpless and irritate me. His breathing is slow and calm, not shallow and harsh, as it would be if he were upset. I remember he was to speak to the Council about something before coming here to me, but whatever it was, it must have gone well.
I consider my response. I could hardly tell Qui-Gon I was thinking about him . . . can’t let the old boy get arrogant. “Smoke,” I reply.
“Smoke?” A shift in the Force, a sense of movement. I let my fingers barely brush against his cloak as he passes by me, knowing by the rough texture than he is wearing a new one, instead of one the many worn and soft ones he possesses. He sits across from me, somewhere on my small couch, settling comfortably after a few moments. I lean back against my chair, and nod sightlessly. I don’t even bother to do it in his general direction. I’ve found that knowing what people are doing, when you’re not even looking at them – as I cannot – often has an unnerving effect. And I couldn’t let an opportunity to disconcert Qui-Gon pass by, after all. What would be the fun in that? Though I think he’s catching on . . .
“Why smoke?” Qui-Gon asks me.
I shrug, then after a moment reply anyway. “It’s easy to remember.”
Another pause, a small hitch in his steady breathing, then the steady resumption that to me, indicated thought. I could sense a diffused uncertainty in the Force. “What do you mean?” he asks.
“Smoke . . . it’s always changing, never the same. Always moving.” I reach out, keeping track of where my hand was relative to my body, remembering where the glass was when I trailed my fingertips over it as I sat down, and grasp the full glass without a hitch.
“I don’t understand,” Qui-Gon admits. I smile at him, turning my head to face him. I can feel his intensity, his focus sharper than his earlier uncertainty.
I take a sip of my tea, unhurriedly, letting the faintly bitter taste spread on my tongue before swallowing. I didn’t used to like this tea, finding it too bland, but now I enjoy it’s subtle flavor. I put the glass down again, the constant awareness of where I was in relation to other things keeping me from making a mistake. And that dreadful robot Yoda helpfully insisted on giving me isn’t around – locked in the closet, actually – to clean up any spills.
“It’s taken some time, but I’m starting to forget,” I say finally. “There are so many things that you forgot, from day to day, even Jedi. The little details, a gray hair there, a mole here, the way you can see the texture of a painting . . . Just the little things. Until things are smoothed and streamlined in your mind.” I shook my head. “Not smoke.”
“Ah,” he says, with a note of finality to it. He understands – or at least he thinks he understands. There’s a unique quality about Qui-Gon’s voice . . . I used to think it was deep, manly, but later on I realized that wasn’t the case at all. His physical appearance, even his presence, added to that illusion. In fact, his voice is almost normal in tone, not very deep at all, except for this wry twist in the way he speaks. His voice carries a lot of emotion, a lot of his presence. I think that’s why people edit their memories so it’s deeper.
“It’s not important,” I say, shaking my head. He’s touching my hand before I realize what he’s doing, startling me slightly. He rubs my knuckles with his thumb, and then raises my hand slowly, turning it over, until I feel his soft, slightly dry lips kiss my palm.
I hear him shift, the sound of cloth against cloth, against skin. He’s closer, until I can feel the bare whisper of his breath. While his hand keeps holding mine, his other hand comes to my face. He traces my brow, first, then down the curve of my cheekbone, under my lower lip. I smile, and his touch firms.
“This isn’t smoke,” he tells me, softly.
I don’t know why he suddenly needs this reassurance, but I reach out, finally touching his hair, soft naturally and coarse in the tangles and little care he gives it. “No,” I agree.
“And it won’t be,” he adds.
“I already promised to be careful,” I retort sharply, raising my chin, and his fingers fall to my neck. “I survived New Apsolon. No need to get over-protective.”
He laughs, perhaps more of a gentle chuckle, and I feel his breath against my face in small, sporadic bursts. “You’re always here to remind me,” he says, dryly, but with a hint of contentment.
I snort. “And yet you do it anyway? Still the same, I see.”
“Of course,” he replies nonchalantly. “If I wasn’t, would we be here?”
I shake my head, and let my fingers trail further through his hair. I squeeze his hand, his rough calluses rubbing against my equally rough ones. “No, we wouldn’t be,” I say softly. “We wouldn’t have agreed to keep this a secret.” This, of course, being our love.
“Let’s not forget Obi-Wan,” Qui-Gon says wryly, even a touch of embarrassment to his voice. When I thought – and Qui-Gon thought – I was dying, we had pledged our hearts to each other . . . in Obi-Wan’s presence. The boy had told no one, and indeed, had given even us only a small indication that he would remain silent. His loyalty to his Master, no doubt, was what made him do it. Bant, my own apprentice, still didn’t know of it. I didn’t intend to burden her with the knowledge of my and Qui-Gon’s forbidden love affair, even though I had opened up to her, since nearly dying because of my own stupidity and recklessness.
I giggle. I cut it off almost immediately, of course . . . I don’t often giggle. I think Qui-Gon is the only person I giggle in front of, for that matter.
I know he’s smiling, even though I can’t see it. I move my hand from his hair, to his lips, moving with their curve – yes, he is indeed smiling. I move my hand from his lips to his cheek, and with my other hand, I grab his shoulder, leaning in, closing my eyes instinctually.
Our kiss is as gentle as could be. Qui-Gon is always gentle with me, sometimes to my irritation, and sometimes to my joy. His lips are soft and dry against mine, and his hands run through my hair, caress my shoulders. He still finds me beautiful, as I still find him handsome – because he is who he is. In sappy terms.
I’ll never forget this, I think suddenly. This will never fade away, the details indistinct or gone. Because it’s different each time, and wonderful all the same. Our love for one another is always growing and changing.
Rather like smoke in that way, I think, after all.
[fin]
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female_obi_wan
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*worships you*
Thank you thank you! I love stories with those two!
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Oh wow. Tahl surived!
That's really cool how you portrayed how life moves on but smoke doesn't and that Qui will always love her. I hope Jude Watson is listening.
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I'm not a fan of Tahl, but that was beautifully done! Lovely vignette!
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*Gives a respectful bow*
Well done indeed! I like how you wrote their love without it sounding to sappy. It was beautiful.
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Well done indeed. Have to agree that it seems you have written both characters and their feelings for each other in such a beautiful way that it not only is nice to read but doesn't make me want to get so sappy.
Love it.
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It's funny. When I found this, I was thinking that I don't saw Qui-Gon stories written by you. Others than "The Water's Edge", I mean.
It's a beatiful story. You made your caracters so... human, so...
I need a dictionary bilingual
Nice to read you, as always.
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Sarah: *giggles*  Thank you! I'm glad you enjoyed - I wanted to write something with Qui-Gon in it, and Tahl was convenient for other reasons . . . and so here we go.
Hananiah: The idea of the story is that smoke is easy to remember because there are no small minute details to remember - it's always changing. Then Tahl compares that to her love for Qui-Gon - it's always changing. So even after he's gone, or when he's away, she'll still remember it - like smoke.  And aye, I decided to have her survive! And thank you.
Mistress_Renata: I wouldn't say I'm a fan of her either, but I don't dislike her, and I regretted she died and caused Qui-Gon so much pain. And thank you.
Xanatos_son_of_Crion: Thank you! Aye, whenever I write romance I try not to make it too sappy. I strive for realism . . . what, what fandom am I writing in again?
Seraphena: Thank you. I'm glad you enjoy it, and that you think it's not sappy.
ARIEL_ANTILLES: Part of the reason I wrote this is because I feel like I don't write enough of Qui-Gon - TWE isn't enough.  So isn't that funny we were thinking the same thing?  Anyway, thank you.
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Not overly mushy; just sweet
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Thanks, PadawanKitara. I try.
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This is so...neat!!!
I hope I can write that well someday!
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Skywalker_Vader2be: Thank you!
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"Wonderful" 7
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Gotcha! Posting without telling me again...though...you never tell me.
Tres good, dearheart!I approve, even if I should be asleep, or writing critically reflective essays.
Alas, the only kind of writing I seem to do these days...
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jedi7: Thank you.
Burkie: *thwacks* Silly boy. I did tell you. Apparently you weren't listening. And thank you. And the reflective essays can wait, darn it!
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Oh wow... 
If I were to quote all the good parts, I'd be re-posting the whole flaming vignette! This was fantastic! So unique and yet everything about it was familiar.
There’s a unique quality about Qui-Gon’s voice . . . I used to think it was deep, manly, but later on I realized that wasn’t the case at all. His physical appearance, even his presence, added to that illusion. In fact, his voice is almost normal in tone, not very deep at all, except for this wry twist in the way he speaks. His voice carries a lot of emotion, a lot of his presence. I think that’s why people edit their memories so it’s deeper.
That was the most precise description of Qui-Gon I have ever read in my entire life. Every word of that paragraph was so true! The comment about him being so very gentle was perfect as well. You have obviously explored his character thoroughly to have been able to convey that sense of utter...Qui-Gon-ism... that is the blue-eyed man we all know and love. I am going back to read this over again!!
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