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AvenKiel Registered: Oct '03	Date Posted: 2/7/04 4:31pm Subject: Jacen's Return two weeks post NJO- AU J/TK Updated 2-10 - Date Edited: 6/21/05 1:10pm (2 edits total) Edited By: AvenKiel
	The War is over, life goes on. I don't own these characters, and I'm poor so don't try to sue me! ****** Rolling out of bed in the morning was something Jacen Solo was beginning to get reaquainted with, not having had a bed for quite a few months. Stumbling with eyes half open to a sonic shower with steaming, blissfully hot water was a welcomed luxury as well. So many things he had taken for granted were now things he treasured. Living among a species that coveted pain and discomfort had taught him to value what little he had. Donning the freshly cleaned and pressed jedi robes, Jacen left his quarters, clipping his lightsaber to his belt as an afterthought. A lightsaber. An emblem, figurehead of the Jedi. A thought niggled at the back of Jacen's mind as he headed towards Council Hall. Could he really call himself a Jedi anymore? This deeper understanding of the Force that Jacen had come by pushed him farther beyond the others, even his Uncle Luke had a hard time grasping what Jacen proclaimed. Jedi were warriors, that's why they carried lightsabers. Jacen was a teacher, and a student. He pushed these thoughts to the back of his mind as he approached the hall. Jedi or not he would wear his lightsaber, he had to look good for the holos. Jacen entered through the back of the hall, scanning faces for his mother or Uncle Luke. Instead his father found him first. Jacen smiled to see Han Solo push through the crowds, decadent in his General's Mess Dress. The white uniform covered in medals looked as though it could stand up by itself. Han looked about as pleased as a taun taun. Jacen stifled a laugh, no doubt his mother had her hand in this. After all, the Solo's had to look good at their own awards ceremony. Inwardly Jacen balked at recieving personal recognition for his role in the war with the Yuzhan Vong. So many more had done things just as great as he. Zonama Sekot was not getting a medal. Anakin wasn't getting a medal. However, Jacen was a Jedi, at least at one time he was, and as such he had to make some sort of effort. The Jedi had been shunned, spit upon, and betrayed through most of the war, and now they were being honored. Ironic. The Solo's were joined onstage by numerous other Jedi, the Skywalkers, Zekk, Tenel Ka, Kyp Durron, Tahiri and several others. All of them were well aware of the twist of opinion that led to them being honored for all of the Galactic alliance to see. Chief of State Cal Olmas rose from his seat onstage and stood behind the podium. The crowd of people, species from every planet in the alliance and holo-reporters to boot, hushed as he prepared to speak. "Gathered behind me are a collection of Jedi whom I would not go so far as to call leaders or even heroes." Silence settled in quickly as everyone leaned on his words. "I would call this group of people the foundation of the Galactic Alliance. Even when the New Republic labeled them as outcasts they continually fought and sometimes gave their lives for our cause..." *** Grabbing a drink off a tray passing by, Jacen watched her and found himself breathing faster, heavier. He slid back to the wall and became one with it, blending into the background as he observed. Or rather he drank in the look of her with a hunger that emerged in the pit of his chest and spread to an ache in his heart. Her hair, shining like the glory of the sun, was swept up into a twist, kept off of her smooth, freckled shoulders. Jacen smiled, those were cute freckles. Small jewels shaped like stars were placed on her part, adding light to her grey stormy orbs. The stunningely electric blue dress that topped her breasts and encased her lithe form swept out behind her in a modest train. She was the Queen Mother of sixty-three worlds, there was no one worthy to keep pace with her, or occupy the space behind her. Matching blue gloves sheathed her delicate fingers and encased her elbow, a blue satin cap covered the place where her other elbow should be. Jacen winced, knowing he had taken away her other arm and that he couldn't give it back. She had forgiven him though. That was a long time ago.. Jacen relaxed into a chair and fell into his memories. Tenel Ka was part of a good number of his happiest ones, as well as number of bad ones. But it was only the good memories that mattered. He remembered the only kiss he'd ever shared with her. How shocked he'd been. How what he had felt then was similar to what he was feeling now. Which was a bit confusing to him. What was it that he was feeling? Attraction? Of course! But there was something else, an invisible connection that created pull upon him. There was something that tugged Jacen towards Tenel Ka, he surprised himself by not resisting the tug in the least as he rose and moved towards her. Sensing his presence immediately, Tenel Ka turned towards Jacen and rested her eyes upon his. The other young ladies she had been talking to, the Queen Mother's handmaidens in cognito incidentally, got the hint and dispersed into the crowd. Giving Jacen an inconspicuous once over with her eyes, Tenel Ka fought for composure when the insides of her wanted to jump and shout. He was alive and well, breathing! She had seen Jacen at the ceremony, but now as he headed towards her she didn't have the protection of jedi seated between them. His arrival in the Galactic Alliance, back from the dead, had given Tenel Ka great cause for joy where before there had been none. Now he was headed towards her, glass of punch in hand, smiling widely, unaware of how badly he really affected the stoic, unflappable Tenel Ka. She tightened down on her mental shields as he approached yet closer. "Queen Mother, it's a pleasure to see you again." Jacen took Tenel Ka's hand in his own and brought it to his mouth for a brief kiss, his velvety smooth, brown eyes connecting squarely with her's. Tenel Ka remained straight and stiff backed, keeping in line with the stature of her position, not daring to let her true reaction to his warm kiss on her hand show. She felt Jacen probe the outer edges of her mind and felt his retreat as he found the solid wall blocking him. "Please, Jacen my friend, formalities are not needed. How have you been?" Her smooth, rich voice, tinted with her Dathomiri accent, washed over Jacen like a kiss of the wind, soothing his ears. It's been far too long since I've heard that voice. "I've been fine, thank you. What about you Tenel Ka? You're a Queen Mother, anything interesting happen lately?" Jacen's heart felt like it would jump from his chest and fly away on wings when he saw her smile. The upturned corners of Tenel Ka's mouth, a thing rarely given to anyone, warmed him. "My tenure as the Queen Mother has been what I would expect from the position." "So you've had what, two attempts on your life then?" "Three." Jacen chuckled lightly, grateful for the time to readjust to being near her. Before his capture they had been friendly towards each other. As friendly as they could be in time of war. Emotions like attraction had been put on hold for a while because there was just no time between waging war and all that. During his time with the Vong Jacen had no time or need, or even precedence for feelings like love or attraction. Those were frivolous emotions one could only afford to have in peace time, when he wasn't fighting to save the galaxy. Being in the embrace of pain had forced Jacen to shove all feelings of love deep down into his psyche where he wasn't even sure he could find it again. Jacen had been mildly attracted to Danni Quee for a period of time, but something had always held him back. He never really let that attraction get under his skin, he'd never done anything about it. Danni Quee hadn't seemed upset over the outcome anyways, she was engrossed in one of Jag Fel's Chiss pilots and their relationship was deep. Jacen had felt that ring through the force and felt just a twang of jealousy. Jedi or no, he wasn't immune to the emotion. Danni and Jetenn shared a bond that Jacen was missing out on, a bond that he never knew he wanted so badly. With the way Jacen's life was beginning to shape up, would it be right for him to even have such a bond? Something inside him was desperate to think so. Jacen was pulled from his thoughts as he noticed Tenel Ka looking at him, waiting for a response. "I'm sorry Tenel Ka, what was that?" Tenel Ka raised an eyebrow, "I asked you if you would like to come to my chambers for lunch at 1500 tomorrow afternoon?" "I would love to." "I will notify my guardsmen, and if that is all, I must leave you to talk to other guests. Until tomorrow?" "Yeah, Tenel Ka, I'll see you tomorrow." Picking up the hem of her dress, Tenel Ka swished away as her handmaidens steathily slipped in beside her. -----signature----- I'm a naughty little Kitty... Meow! Grilled Cheese..... mmmmmmmmm..... http://www.livejournal.com/~jediliz/ I don't know what I'd do if I couldn't dance , sing and hop around all day, I'd probably die. Death from fidgeting!
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Eowyn_Jade Registered: Jan '03	Date Posted: 2/7/04 4:46pm Subject: RE: Jacen's Return two weeks post NJO- AU J/TK
	yeah!!! ::jumps up and down excitedly:: A good J/TK fic! Thank goodness! I'm so looking forward to more! Please don't keep us waiting long! This is great! EJ -----signature----- "You guys are like ravenous wolves." -Devin ~ Defying Gravity ~
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JainaDurron Registered: Aug '02	Date Posted: 2/7/04 4:50pm Subject: RE: Jacen's Return two weeks post NJO- AU J/TK
	Ooo... I like this. Will have to keep my eye on it. ~~Jilly -----signature----- Qeryné, Handmaiden of the Crest Beta for Midnight_Jedi and Amidala_Skywalker Proud K/Jer (Rogue and Goddess); Twin Suns Lead- KDFC Winner for Best Romance Beyond the Saga, SFFA K/J is love!!!
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AvenKiel Registered: Oct '03	Date Posted: 2/7/04 9:09pm Subject: RE: Jacen's Return two weeks post NJO- AU J/TK
	Thanks so much!! I'm so glad you guys like it!! I'm working on it right now! More soon! -----signature----- I'm a naughty little Kitty... Meow! Grilled Cheese..... mmmmmmmmm..... http://www.livejournal.com/~jediliz/ I don't know what I'd do if I couldn't dance , sing and hop around all day, I'd probably die. Death from fidgeting!
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JAGSGURL15 Registered: Jul '03	Date Posted: 2/7/04 9:29pm Subject: RE: Jacen's Return two weeks post NJO- AU J/TK
	UPPPS Me likey! -----signature----- Mush Queen of TKL's LOMIN ALE WRAITHS Living In DE'NILE i <3 JJ REDICK ~&NY YANKEES&~ (((DUKE BLUE DEVILS)))
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J_M_Bulldog Registered: Apr '03	Date Posted: 2/7/04 9:44pm Subject: RE: Jacen's Return two weeks post NJO- AU J/TK
	Ooooooh a J/TK fic. Must keep me eyes on this one. Great start. More. Please. -----signature----- BA(bad attitude), aka Thwack, of TKL's Lomin Ale Wraiths I am never down. I am either up or I am getting up, but I am never down. Stop telling God how big your storm is; instead tell the storm how big your God is.
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Rogue_of-Peace Registered: Mar '02	Date Posted: 2/7/04 10:07pm Subject: RE: Jacen's Return two weeks post NJO- AU J/TK
	Hi AvenKiel! How have you been doing? Haven't seen you in awhile. This looks very nice indeed. I look forward for more. I especially liked this: "So you've had what, two attempts on your life then?" "Three." -----signature----- http://boards.theforce.net/message.asp?topic=10933644&replies=17 ]
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-Tenel-Ka- Registered: Apr '02	Date Posted: 2/8/04 1:20am Subject: RE: Jacen's Return two weeks post NJO- AU J/TK
	DEAR!! You know exactly what face I'm going to use for this: I love it so far and I can't wait to read more!! I LOVE the description of Tenel Ka when Jacen sees her, awesome job! -----signature----- [ http://echuta.net/ - we're doomed! http://whatthefun.net/cosplay - my cosplay site! http://echuta.net/chivalry - my J/TK fanthings <3 http://echuta.net/oc - EU costuming http://tenel-ka.livejournal.com - the eljay ]
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AvenKiel Registered: Oct '03	Date Posted: 2/9/04 6:27am Subject: RE: Jacen's Return two weeks post NJO- AU J/TK
	I'll post more tonight, probably the last post Thanks!!! -----signature----- I'm a naughty little Kitty... Meow! Grilled Cheese..... mmmmmmmmm..... http://www.livejournal.com/~jediliz/ I don't know what I'd do if I couldn't dance , sing and hop around all day, I'd probably die. Death from fidgeting!
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AvenKiel Registered: Oct '03	Date Posted: 2/10/04 5:55pm Subject: RE: Jacen's Return two weeks post NJO- AU J/TK - Date Edited: 6/21/05 1:16pm (1 edits total) Edited By: AvenKiel
	Hey everybody, thanks for reading!! Individual thanks will come later but I'm on the run. Thakns so much for reading!! I had fun, hope you did too!! Let me know what you think! ****************************** "No, Neven, I will get the door. Thank you." The guardsman nodded and stepped aside, making room for Tenel Ka as she passed. Confusion was quite evident in the guardsmen's thoughts, as well as the handmaidens'. Not only was there a person entering into the Queen Mother's personal quarters, but the Queen Mother also had shed her formal clothing for a pair of pants, a blouse, and sandals. Things like this just did not happen. Tenel Ka chuckled inwardly, That is what they think. "Open." Voice activated controls lifted the door from it's place, revealing Jacen, dressed casually as well. Tenel Ka fought to keep the smile off of her face as she felt her staff's disapproval radiate from them. Mentally, she prepared herself for more of their unhappiness. "Please, come in Friend Jacen." "Thank you." Tenel Ka turned and led Jacen into her guest suite before turning towards her handmaidens. "You may leave us." "Queen Mother -" A guardsman began to protest. "Take your men with you as well Neven." A stern look from Tenel Ka was enough to quell their protests. Neven bumped into Jacen accidentally on the way out. The door swooshed closed and Tenel Ka returned her attention to Jacen. “Please, follow me, lunch is on the patio.” Jacen followed Tenel Ka onto the balcony where sandwhiches and drinks were waiting. “You make this yourself?” Jacen raised an eyebrow to Tenel Ka. “Yes, thank you.” Jacen chuckled at the missed joke and sat at the table. “I see you’ve been doing well for yourself.” “I have done what I can, Jaina and your mother have helped me as well. What of you Friend Jacen? How have you faired since we last talked?” Jacen sat back to think about the length of time that had passed. At least two and a half years had transpired between their meeting, well before he had been captured. It occurred to him that he had not stopped by to see her since his return. Why was that? “That’s a loaded question.” “Forgive me Jacen, I did not mean to bring up bad memories.” Silently Tenel Ka berated herself for her slip of words. “It’s alright, not all of them were bad.” “Do you hold any resentment towards your captors?” “Not really, wouldn’t do me any good if I did.” Tenel Ka nodded and bit into her sandwhich. Resentment wasn’t doing much good for her either but it was there all the same. Jacen watched Tenel Ka as she ate. The contrasts in her character triggered something in Jacen. Her strength to endure showed plainly in her stiff posture, and yet he could see traces of vulnerability in the way she tilted her head and in the way she watched everything intensely. As if something might happen and destroy the serenity they were enjoying together. Another contrast came to the forefront of Jacen’s mind as he watched the Queen Mother of Hapes, quite possibly the most sophisticated women in the galaxy, eat sandwhiches with her fingers. Jacen smiled, loving the act of just sitting next to Tenel Ka, watching her eat. Stars, how much had he missed while he was gone? “Is there something wrong ?” Jacen realized he’d been staring at Tenel Ka for too long. “No, no, I was just thinking about everything and everyone I’d missed while I was gone.” Tenel Ka set her sandwhich down and leaned back into her chair, her demeanor growing somber. “You were greatly missed as well Friend Jacen.” She tightened her mental shields as memories of her pain and sorrow came rushing back and she remembered the rage that had overcome her upon feeling Jacen’s death. Would Jacen be dissappointed to know how she had nearly fallen to the dark side in a rage while tearing apart her ship? Could he know how she had silently suffered under her proud visage as Queen Mother, crying herself to sleep at night? How would he feel if he knew how deeply she had mourned his death. To many Jacen’s was the death of a brother, a friend, a son, a nephew, a hero, but to Tenel Ka, it had been the death of possibility, the death of a future. Her relationship with Jacen had been hard to communicate, hard to define, but it definitely had had potential, potential that had died in Tenel Ka and was simultaneously replaced with a deep-seated need to overcome his murderers. Some said Tenel Ka was a woman of no passion, the captain of the ship she nearly destroyed could tell a different story. Jacen gazed at Tenel Ka intently as a range of emotions flashed quickly through her force presence, her shields momentarily splitting to let them through. Sorrow, pain, slips of anger, all of these things washed over Jacen, stunning him that they’d come from Tenel Ka. His death had indeed caused these emotions in her and he felt ashamed that he hadn’t protected her from them. If only he could have reached out to her, to his family, to let them know he was alive. Jacen brushed those feelings aside, their assumption of his death had been crucial to his survival and success, unfortunately at the price of his loved one’s happiness. “I’m sorry Tenel Ka, that I had to let you believe I was dead. I never wanted to cause you such grief, it just couldn’t be helped.” Jacen prayed she would accept his apology and let her anger and pain slip away. “Why was it so necessary to make us believe?” Jacen rose from the patio chairs and motioned for Tenel Ka to follow him into the living room. Her shields had tightened again and Jacen could not tell what she was thinking. They sat in chairs facing each other and Jacen continued. “When I was captured by the Vong, I was put in the care of a creature aptly named, the Embrace of Pain. The creature had me suspended in the air by its tentacles, which could inflict and then heal the damage it wrought.” Tenel Ka’s expression remained stoic. “The only catch was that the pain it inflicted was triggered to my thoughts. All pleasant thoughts, or even mildly nice ones, triggered the pain. Thoughts of escape, thoughts of rescue, thoughts of family and friends, even thoughts of food caused pain. They designed this pain to break me, to make me forget all that I loved and wanted, everything I was trying to get home to. Everytime I thought about mom, or Jaina, or Anakin, even you Tenel Ka, I was hit with enough electricity to take me to the brink of death.” Tenel Ka sat rigidly in the chair, fighting to control the sorrow pushing against her mind shields. To know that she had caused Jacen such pain hurt her more than she could say. Jacen saw the tear escape out the side of her eye and took her hand, causing Tenel Ka’s shields to slip at his touch. He winced at the grief that roiled through their connection. “Jacen, why are you telling me this?” “I needed to tell someone and you needed to know. The only way I could survive was to accept the pain that came with these thoughts and feeling because I couldn’t stop them, thus I couldn’t stop the pain.” “I would rather you had not thought of me than put yourself through that.” Jacen reached up with his thumb and brushed the tear from her cheek. “You don’t understand! I had to think those thoughts, of Mom and Dad and escaping, of you. If I hadn’t they would have succeeded! Thinking of coming back to you kept me going Tenel Ka, you gave me hope! I cut myself off from the force, I let you all think I was dead, because if I hadn’t then some of you would have come after me and gotten captured yourselves. But I still thought of you, of Mom and Dad, and it kept me alive.” Jacen reached through the force to caress Tenel Ka’s presence with his own, “Thanks for being there for me.” Bringing Tenel Ka’s hand to his mouth, he kissed it tenderly and rubbed it with his thumbs. Tenel Ka let out a half choked sob as her barriers came crashing down around her. Jacen tugged her onto the couch next to him and put his arms around her, comforting her as tears rolled down their cheeks. Theirs were tears of joy, together at last. -----signature----- I'm a naughty little Kitty... Meow! Grilled Cheese..... mmmmmmmmm..... http://www.livejournal.com/~jediliz/ I don't know what I'd do if I couldn't dance , sing and hop around all day, I'd probably die. Death from fidgeting!
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Eowyn_Jade Registered: Jan '03	Date Posted: 2/10/04 6:00pm Subject: RE: Jacen's Return two weeks post NJO- AU J/TK Updated 2-10
	Awww THEY HUGGED! Loved it! EJ -----signature----- "You guys are like ravenous wolves." -Devin ~ Defying Gravity ~
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AvenKiel Registered: Oct '03	Date Posted: 2/10/04 6:39pm Subject: RE: Jacen's Return two weeks post NJO- AU J/TK Updated 2-10
	Thanks! -----signature----- I'm a naughty little Kitty... Meow! Grilled Cheese..... mmmmmmmmm..... http://www.livejournal.com/~jediliz/ I don't know what I'd do if I couldn't dance , sing and hop around all day, I'd probably die. Death from fidgeting!
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-Tenel-Ka- Registered: Apr '02	Date Posted: 2/10/04 6:58pm Subject: RE: Jacen's Return two weeks post NJO- AU J/TK Updated 2-10
	siiiiiiiiigh I loved it. I really like the last paragraph, it was powerful. hugs -----signature----- [ http://echuta.net/ - we're doomed! http://whatthefun.net/cosplay - my cosplay site! http://echuta.net/chivalry - my J/TK fanthings <3 http://echuta.net/oc - EU costuming http://tenel-ka.livejournal.com - the eljay ]
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JainaDurron Registered: Aug '02	Date Posted: 2/10/04 7:09pm Subject: RE: Jacen's Return two weeks post NJO- AU J/TK Updated 2-10
	Awwwwwwww! I loved it! Sequel? ~~Jilly -----signature----- Qeryné, Handmaiden of the Crest Beta for Midnight_Jedi and Amidala_Skywalker Proud K/Jer (Rogue and Goddess); Twin Suns Lead- KDFC Winner for Best Romance Beyond the Saga, SFFA K/J is love!!!
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JAGSGURL15 Registered: Jul '03	Date Posted: 2/10/04 7:31pm Subject: RE: Jacen's Return two weeks post NJO- AU J/TK Updated 2-10
	Great POSTIE! -----signature----- Mush Queen of TKL's LOMIN ALE WRAITHS Living In DE'NILE i <3 JJ REDICK ~&NY YANKEES&~ (((DUKE BLUE DEVILS)))
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J_M_Bulldog Registered: Apr '03	Date Posted: 2/10/04 7:57pm Subject: RE: Jacen's Return two weeks post NJO- AU J/TK Updated 2-10
	Awwwwww, I it. Sequel? Please? -----signature----- BA(bad attitude), aka Thwack, of TKL's Lomin Ale Wraiths I am never down. I am either up or I am getting up, but I am never down. Stop telling God how big your storm is; instead tell the storm how big your God is.
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