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Author's Note: Here is the first chapter of my new story. Please let me know what you think. Should I continue this story or not. Let me know.
Title: Love Lost, Love Gained
Author: Leandrastar2000
Characters: Luke/OC
Summary: In this story you do not have to wait with baited breath for the characters to profess their love. It happens fairly early on and then there is the rest of the story.
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Chapter One:
My name is Anya Suffield and I was orphaned at birth. I grew up on the planet Sycoria. A very nice couple that found me on their doorstep and who gave me every advantage they could afford to give me and encouraged me to follow the calling of my heart raised me. So, at the age of 23, I joined the New Republic Military and in three years I worked my way up to my ultimate goal of becoming a pilot in Rogue Squadron. Luke Skywalker and I met four years after the battle of Endor just after I was assigned to Rogue Squadron. He was asked to run Rogue’s new pilots through some simulation runs.
After the simulation run that I participated in, Master Skywalker asked to speak with me privately. During that private conference, he questioned me about particular maneuvers I had used and also questioned me about my assignments before Rogue. After answering all of his questions, I was very anxious to know why he had taken such an interest in me all of a sudden.
“With all due respect Master Skywalker, I would like to know why you are asking all of these questions?” I said.
“When we were running that simulation I sensed something from you that quite surprised me,” he replied.
“What was that?” I asked apprehensively.
“Subtle changes in the Force around you when you executed certain maneuvers. I believe you have the potential to become a Force user. If you will give me permission to touch your mind, there is a way to test my theory.”
I was completely taken aback at his suggestion that I might have Force talent. My piloting skills, among others, came instinctively. I didn’t know anything about my biological family, but I always assumed that somewhere in my family tree there was an exceptional pilot I had inherited my skills from. Never once had it occurred to me that Force talent might have something to do with it.
I gave my permission for him to test his theory, and the moment he touched my mind, the universe exploded for me. It was as if I had been living in the dark all my life. I became hyper aware of everything around me and I felt connected in a way I never had before.
“What you are experiencing is the energy that binds us all together. The Force is strong in you, you simply have to learn how to control it and how to listen to its guidance.”
He fell silent then letting me explore through the door he had opened for me. It was amazing and confusing all at the same time. Part of me was scared to death of this discovery, while part of me desperately wanted to learn more.
“I can teach you how to use your talent, but it would mean leaving Rogue to travel with me. Will you be my first student?”
I was somewhat surprised at his offer, yet flattered he would ask. For many long minutes I debated with myself, but finally decided I would be a fool to pass up an opportunity of a lifetime.
So, I became Luke Skywalker’s first student, helping him to build the Jedi Academy on Yavin IV and watching, as his dream of rebuilding the Jedi Order became a reality. I trained with him on missions for the New Republic and on missions to search for information about the Jedi of old. Exactly five years after becoming his apprentice I became a full Jedi Knight.
During those five years, Master Skywalker and I became best friends, sharing everything with each other. Then just a few short months after my knighting, Callista Ming came into his life.
I was the first person he introduced her to and then it seemed he completely forgot about me. He introduced me simply as a teacher at the Academy, not acknowledging our friendship at all. This hurt me deeply and so when the call came in for a Jedi Mediator for the planet of Lycoris, I volunteered.
I thought maybe if I got away, let the newness ware off of their relationship, then maybe he would remember our friendship and acknowledge it to Callista. Yet seven months passed with no communication from him of any kind.
I thought that by going to Lycoris, I could put my own confusing feelings into perspective. Being away from it all and being able to think, I realized my feelings for Master Skywalker ran much deeper than I ever imagined. As the months on Lycoris began to pass, I came to realize and accept that my feelings would never be returned.
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Love this OC. Seems like a good, strong character. Poor unrequited attraction.
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Great OC! Those can be tricky but you did a good job!
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That was really good! Anya seems like a very interesting character. Keep going!
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Poor Anya! Luke can be such a jerk! But I love Anya already! She's awesome!!!
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Sorry guys I don't have time for individual responses right now. My grandfather is in the hospital and I can't be on the net for very long. I will make this comment. Yes, Luke was being a jerk, but he makes up for it in chapter two. As promised you don't have to wait for long for them to confess their feelings.
I really need feed back on this chapter. Does this seem plausable or is it just cheesy. Let me know, I may need to consider a rewrite.
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Chapter Two:
It was a cold night on Lycoris when the news reached me that Callista Ming had left Yavin IV and my Master. Word also reached me that Master Skywalker’s temperament had changed with her leaving. I did not need the message I received to tell me of his change, however, for I could sense his dark mood even over the distance that separated Lycoris from Yavin IV.
It was about six months after my arrival on Lycoris that I first detected the dark disturbance in the Force. Two weeks after that I began to sense the dark waves of anguish assaulting my Master and word reached me that Callista had left him. I wasn’t sure of the circumstances surrounding Callista’s departure, but I knew my Master loved her a lot and I could feel that his anguish was threatening to consume him.
My heart ached to go back to Yavin IV, to offer my Master the comfort I knew he desperately needed to be there for him just as I always had been. I knew though that my presence would probably be more painful than comforting, so I remained on Lycoris.
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Two more weeks passed, then one night I was awakened by a calling through the Force. When I came fully awake, every instinct in my body was screaming at me to go back to Yavin IV, that I was needed more there than on Lycoris. I just wasn’t sure if it was the Force urging me back to Yavin IV or my own desire to comfort the man I loved.
I spent two more days fighting myself before the urging became so insistent that I couldn’t ignore it anymore. I went to Lycoris’ New Republic Ambassador and told him I was urgently needed back on Yavin IV and that I would send another Jedi as soon as possible. He assured me he understood and I left Lycoris that very hour.
It took me three more days to reach Yavin IV and my instincts did not stop screaming at me until I entered orbit and began preparations for landing. A sense of urgency still remained with me throughout my landing and I knew it would remain until I reached my goal.
I arrived at the Great Temple in the middle of the night and since I had the correct landing codes, R2D2 didn’t wake anyone to verify my authorization. I was grateful for this because I did not want to answer any of the questions someone sent to greet me might possibly have asked.
I let the Force guide my steps and I soon found myself standing outside Master Skywalker’s chamber door. I did not knock or announce myself in any way, I simply used the entry code my Master had given me and went inside. I was a little surprised he hadn’t changed the entry code, but I also thanked the Force he hadn’t.
He was kneeling on the floor beside his bed, and the moment I laid eyes on him I knew that he had been calling to me through the Force. Calling consciously or unconsciously I didn’t know.
“You’re here,” he said his voice full of pain.
“Yes, I’m here. I will always be here. Nothing could have kept me away Master,” I replied.
My bluntness surprised even me. Luke rose to his feet and when he turned to face me, the sorrow I saw in his blue eyes broke my heart.
“I suppose I am meant to spend my life alone. Everyone I let myself care for is taken away. It’s time I accepted my destiny, my solitude,” he said.
“No, you do not have to accept solitude. You are not alone,” I answered moving closer to him. “I am here and I always will be no matter what.”
I reinforced my words by reaching out for our Force bond. A bond I had closed off when leaving for Lycoris, but a bond that would always exist between us. I let my love and comfort and encouragement wash over him through that bond and fell silent waiting for his reaction.
His head snapped up, his gaze fastening on mine. It was as if he were seeing me for the first time. Confusion then surprise then utter astonishment played across his features as my words and emotions sank in for him.
“Yes, you have always been here for me. Since the day we met you have always known what I needed and when I needed it. You have been here through everything both good and bad.”
I could sense his mind go into a whirl of thoughts and warring emotions. As the silence stretched on and our gazes remained locked, his mood began to change. If nothing else, I was glad my presence was at least allowing him to let go of the darkness that was threatening his soul.
“You have pulled me back from the darkness many times over the past six years. I have taken our friendship for granted and for that I am truly sorry.”
He to now reached out for our bond in the Force, seeking a connection that had lain dormant for far too long. I dropped my shields allowing him complete access to my mind. I held nothing back from him, sharing every memory of my six years with him right up to my arrival tonight.
Suddenly, he pulled me into his arms, holding me tight. “How could I have been so stupid?” he whispered in my ear and then pulled back slightly to look into my eyes.
“I’ve been searching the galaxy for something I’ve had right in front of me for six years. I have let myself be blinded. Well, no more,” he shouted the last three words and to my utter astonishment kissed me.
I didn’t allow myself to think about anything except his arms around me and I eagerly returned his kiss.
“Can you ever forgive me for the way I have treated you over the past year?” he asked when he released me from the kiss.
“You are already forgiven. I love you too much not to. I knew eventually you would remember our friendship.”
“Why did you go to Lycoris?” he asked.
“Because I couldn’t bare to see you with another woman. Also, I was hurt that you hadn’t acknowledged our friendship to Callista. I wanted you to be happy and if Callista made you happy, I wasn’t going to get in the way. I figured with time and distance the pain would ease and I would once more be able to consider myself just your friend.”
“Why haven’t you told me how you feel before now?”
“I didn’t realize the full extent of my feelings until I reached Lycoris and had time to really examine them. You were with Callista and I would never disrupt your happiness.”
“Even at your own expense?”
“Even at my own expense. I would do anything for you Luke, be anything you needed me to be. If all you need me to be is your friend, then that is what I’ll be.”
“You are already so much more than that,” he said tightening his hold on me. He buried his face in my neck and for a long time we simply stood holding each other. Luke clung to me as if afraid I would walk out or disappear as others had. I stroked his hair and sent reassurance to him through the Force.
I knew he hadn’t been getting much rest over the last few weeks and as we stood there, I could sense the fatigue catching up with him. I could also sense he did not want to let me go.
“Let’s lie down,” I whispered.
Relaxing his hold on me, he led me to his bed. I shrugged out of my Jedi cloak and we lay down together. He immediately pulled me close, wrapping his arms around me tightly. Ten minutes later, his hold on me relaxed somewhat and his breathing became steady and even. He had fallen into a deep sleep. I settled myself a little more comfortably and let sleep claim me as well.
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So sorry to hear about your grandfather. Will keep him in my prayers. BUt that post was very poignant, loved the revelation of affection.
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Wow! Really good story 
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I hope your grandfather will be okay!!!
Great post...this is much better than the last story where it took practically the WHOLE THING for Luke and his girl to admit their love  ! I loved the other one, but this one is AWESOME!
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Have a little time for individual responses today. Here goes.
DarthIshtar: I appreciate your prayers for my grandfather, he needs all the prayers that he can get. Glad you liked this chapter.
LaYa: Thanks!
RebelScum: Interesting name there. Glad you like my story.
Laura_Anu: My grandfather has many heart problems and he has a bad spell more and more often now. His heart is simply giving out on him. I hope and pray that he will get better and get to come back home. The doctors are doing all they can I know.
I promised you wouldn't have to wait long for them to profess their love. Now as they say I will tell the rest of the story. Which I have to admit is coming a long very slowly. So please be patient, it will come.
More later.
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Here is the next chapter.
Chapter Three:
The next morning, I awoke to find Luke propped up on one elbow looking down at me.
“What is it?” I asked.
“When I woke up with you in my arms, I was afraid it was all a dream. If this is a dream, I want it to last forever,” he replied.
“I am not a dream, I am very much real,” I said moving closer to him. He gathered me into his arms and held me tight.
“What made you leave Lycoris and come home?” he asked after a few moments of silence. That answered my question of whether he was calling me consciously or unconsciously.
“I came because of a calling in the Force. An urging I have never felt before telling me to come back. When I came in and saw you kneeling there, I knew that your soul was calling out for mine,” I answered.
Surprise was clear on his face as he realized what I was saying. Then the surprise was replaced by joy and finally by love as his racing thoughts found peace and truth in my words.
“A couple of weeks after Caliista left, I realized what I had done to you. I pushed you aside, acted as if you were nothing more than a teacher here. It was when I realized this that it registered how much you truly mean to me. When you went to Lycoris I lost something far more precious than what I lost when Callista left.
“From the moment we met, you have always been her for me no matter what I needed. You helped me found this Academy and you have stuck with me through all of the trials and obstacles that have come up over it. Through everything, I can never remember you asking for anything in return.”
“I did it all for you Master. Your friendship was all I needed in return.”
“And I took even that away from you. I am so sorry for the way I have been treating you.”
He leaned his forehead against mine and I reached up and caressed his cheek, urging him to look into my eyes. “You were forgiven a long time ago, so don’t keep apologizing. There is no need for it.”
“How can I ever make it up to you?”
“Let me hold you, comfort you, love you. Let’s put the past behind us and move into the future. Trust me with your heart as I already trust you with my life. Hold me, and love me in return and never let me go. If you will trust me Luke, I can promise you that I will NEVER leave you.”
I had barely stopped speaking when he kissed me. His kiss was gentle at first, but grew in passion as our minds intertwined.
“I can’t believe how blind I’ve been. What I have wanted for so long I could have found in you a long time ago. I feel so foolish,” Luke said.
“Sometimes, it takes making a fool of ourselves to find what we have really been looking for,” I answered.
“I am just grateful you have had the patience to stick around and put up with all of my missteps and stupidity for all these years.”
“I know that my adopted parents love me very much, but when I left Sycoria, I felt as if I had no purpose in life. Joining the New Republic Military helped, but I didn’t feel complete, whole, useful, until I met you. It was at that moment, when we were introduced, that I knew I had found my place in this life. Even before you told me of my Force talent, I somehow knew you would show me the way. You saved me from a life of feeling useless and unhappy and I have spent my years as your student and friend trying to repay you for that.”
“You have repaid me more in the last few hours than you can possibly imagine. Not to mention the many other things you have done for me over the years. However, there is one more thing you could do.”
“If it is within my power to do it, I will,” I told him.
“Save us both from a life of loneliness and unhappiness. Make both of our lives complete by becoming my life partner. Anya, will you marry me?”
I was completely stunned. Of all the things I had imagined him saying, this had not crossed my mind. I wanted to be with him. I wanted him to know I loved him and would always be there for him, but I had never expected him to ask me to marry him.
“Well?” he said and I realized I had hesitated a little longer than he expected me to.
“I want to say yes Luke, but are you sure this is really what you want? I don’t want you to regret asking me later. Just a few hours ago you were devastated because another woman had left you,” I replied.
“I have had a lot of time to think over the past several weeks and I have come to the conclusion that the feelings I had for Callista were purely superficial, a result of our experiences in a difficult situation. When my mind registered what I had done to you and what I could loose if you never came back, my pain became for what I had done to you, rather than for Callista leaving.
“What you and I share now, what we have shared for the past six years, is much deeper. Why I didn’t see it sooner, the Force only knows. I love you Anya, I love you with a passion that surprises even me. Callista leaving I could handle, even recover from. However, in the last few hours I have come to realize that if I were ever faced with the possibility of not having you in my life of never seeing you again, I would not be able to recover. I would fall into a well of darkness so deep I would never be able to find my way out.
“Some people are going to have negative things to say about my abrupt turn around, but I don’t care what anyone else thinks. I know that you make me happy in a way no body else ever has. I know we can have a long and wonderful life together. So, I ask again, will you marry me?”
I was blown away by his speech. I was overjoyed at his declaration of love. This time I did not hesitate a second before answering. “Yes! With all my heart, yes I will marry you.”
He pulled me into a passionate kiss and reached out for my mind with the Force. I gave him complete access nothing withheld and he did the same. In those moments, we shared every emotion, every dream. We already had a bond, but in those moments a connection so solid and unbreakable formed between us that only death would ever be able to truly separate us.
We were abruptly brought back to the room around us by a knock on Luke’s chamber door and a concerned voice. “Master Skywalker, are you all right? It is almost time for the midday meal.”
We recognized Kam Solusar’s calm but concerned voice. Both of us had turned our gazes upon the door at the sound of the knock, now Luke looked once more at me.
“Go ahead and open the door, I’m not ashamed to be found in your chamber,” I answered his unspoken question.
He gave me a smile I knew he would reserve for me alone, then rose to open the door as I moved to sit on the end of his bed.
“I’m fine Kam,” Luke said as he opened the door. “In fact I’m better than I can ever remember being.”
Kam caught sight of me as our Master spoke and he gave me a knowing and approving smile. “I thought you were on Lycoris,” Kam said and Luke motioned for him to enter the room.
“I was until I told the Ambassador I was urgently needed back here. I arrived late last night,” I answered exchanging a significant glance with Luke. A glance that did not go unnoticed by Kam.
“Kam, assign another Jedi to Lycoris, Anya will be staying here. Also, please have everyone assemble in the Grand Audience Chamber after midday meal, there are some things I need to say,” Luke told him.
“As you wish Master. Should I have food brought to you?”
“No, we’ll eat in the dinning hall.” Kam turned to go, but Luke stopped him. “Kam,” he called and the older man turned back toward him. “Thanks for coming to check on me.”
Kam nodded in understanding, acknowledging and accepting the apology in his Master’s words. He then left to attend to the things he had been asked to take care of.
“Hungry?” Luke asked turning to me and holding out his hand.
“Famished,” I replied. “I haven’t been able to eat or sleep much for a week. Worrying about you is a good diet plan,” I continued, getting a laugh from the man that many saw as humorless.
He took my hand and we went to the dinning hall. We received many curious looks during that meal. Many wondered about the abrupt change in the Jedi Master’s disposition. They didn’t have long to wait, however, their curiosity would be satisfied at the meeting Luke had Kam order.
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WOOHOO!
I was stunned.
I WASN'T!
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