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MasterSareBabe Registered: Dec '04	Date Posted: 2/12/05 11:15am Subject: RE: THE FLOWER OF BAST: personal jounals of LDV
	Thanks for the pm! I can't read it right now, but I will come back sooooooon.
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kyp_durron_fan_2009 Registered: Oct '04	Date Posted: 2/12/05 3:15pm Subject: RE: THE FLOWER OF BAST: personal jounals of LDV
	Thanks for another great update Pasha! -----signature----- Currently Reading: Droids Omnibus and Night of the Wolves
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LadyZaraMarta Registered: Aug '04	Date Posted: 2/12/05 9:05pm Subject: RE: THE FLOWER OF BAST: personal jounals of LDV
	Looking forward to your next chapter, M'Lord....
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Prince_Revan Registered: Aug '04	Date Posted: 2/12/05 10:28pm Subject: RE: THE FLOWER OF BAST: personal jounals of LDV
	Congratulations again, my dear Pashamur. I look forward for your next post. His Royal Highness ,Prince_Revan, has spoken! -----signature----- ADONAI Shall Return Again !
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Aseth-Midnight Registered: Nov '04	Date Posted: 2/13/05 8:47am Subject: RE: THE FLOWER OF BAST: personal jounals of LDV
	First of all, thank you for the pm. Wonderful post, so filled with emotion and emptiness at the same time. I can actually imagine Vader writing all this down, reliving these moments. I can't capture it in words, but I'm sure you know what I mean, there you already did a much greater job in understanding by writing this. Congratulations! -----signature----- Entwined Fates...
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Jedi_Hunter_505 Registered: Sep '04	Date Posted: 2/13/05 4:51pm Subject: RE: THE FLOWER OF BAST: personal jounals of LDV
	Great Job Pasha! I always enjoy the fanfic. It is my favorite type of thread. Yours keeps me entrigued throughout the entire novel. Keep up the good work. JH505 -----signature----- Church: Then Tex beat Jimmy to death with his own skull. Tucker: Wait, that doesn't seem physically possible! Church: That's exactly what Jimmy kept screaming. Pvt. Jimmy: Getting beaten to death with his own skull THIS DOESN'T SEEM PHYSICALLY POSSIBLE!
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LordDarthUmbrus Registered: Sep '04	Date Posted: 2/14/05 8:03am Subject: RE: THE FLOWER OF BAST: personal jounals of LDV
	"Damn you, Obi-Wan!" Better words have never been said, but, even still, Darth Vader - Anakin Skywalker, was, as I always knew, more Jedi than Sith. Yoda, the fool, was always wrong about Anakin. It was never the fear, but the love that convicted him and through its users betrayed him. Sidious was right. Burn the love out and you are refined, Anakin. Happy Valentine's day, Darth Vader. Signed, Malien Encantor Your successor. -----signature----- "Great Spirit, Maker of All Life. A warrior goes to you swift and straight as an arrow shot into the sun. Welcome him and let him take his place at the council fire of my people. Tell them to be patient and ask death for speed." - Chingachgook ~~~ SDO
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Kai_Wooglin_468 Registered: Sep '04	Date Posted: 2/14/05 1:28pm Subject: RE: THE FLOWER OF BAST: personal jounals of LDV
	Absolutely beautiful. If I'm Luke, I'm crying right now. -----signature----- "I don't believe it" -- Luke "That is why you fail." -- Yoda "And I thought they only smelled bad on the outside!" - Han There is danger from all men. The only maxim of a free government ought to be to trust no man living with power to endanger the public
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SithStarSlayer Registered: Oct '03	Date Posted: 2/14/05 5:02pm Subject: RE: THE FLOWER OF BAST: personal jounals of LDV - Date Edited: 2/14/05 5:05pm (2 edits total) Edited By: SithStarSlayer
	Thank You for the PM Pasha, sorry it took me so long to read. I will say this Mahlaydee: "This is without a doubt, the finest piece of china that you have placed on this table thus far!" "You have failed me, Lord Vader, but as I have come to cherish you as a son..." " because I never left you Obi-wan, never,never!" Edit(s): I can feeeeeel what is written. What a wonderful chapter! Pasha... if you haven't decided to already, you should quit your day-job! I would pay to read your posts! -----signature----- Lucas didn't ruin my childhood but he sure wrecked Vader's ^^Foolish men mistake transitory semblance 4 eternal fact^^ o[]\|\|]ooooooooo[0]\|\|[]{ Gal: 5:19-21 Philippians 2:9-11
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LadyZaraMarta Registered: Aug '04	Date Posted: 2/14/05 5:49pm Subject: RE: THE FLOWER OF BAST: personal jounals of LDV
	M'Lord, when will you continue your story?
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pashatemur Registered: Jun '04	Date Posted: 2/14/05 6:46pm Subject: RE: THE FLOWER OF BAST: personal jounals of LDV - Date Edited: 2/15/05 3:28pm (1 edits total) Edited By: pashatemur
	Lady, I have done my utmost to please you, and so, I have anticipated myself by a day. See the new update below. Thank you for your continued support and interest. I sincerely hope you have found this, at the very least, entertaining. -----signature----- http://boards.theforce.net/The_Saga/b10476/17959370/p1 The Flower of Bast: personal journals of LDV ~\| Acroama, LD, SDO\|~ o[]\|\|]ooooooooo[0]\|\|[]{ "It's a sin to kill a Mockingbird!"
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darthkermit Registered: Oct '03	Date Posted: 2/15/05 5:44am Subject: RE: THE FLOWER OF BAST: personal jounals of LDV
	...at the least, Pash, at the least (if I can speak for the Lady and the rest of us). That last post was superb. -----signature----- got hope? One day I shall have my icon!! http://www.freewebs.com/hazelsun/SW_icons.html
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pashatemur Registered: Jun '04	Date Posted: 2/15/05 12:06pm Subject: RE: THE FLOWER OF BAST: personal jounals of LDV - Date Edited: 2/16/05 9:41am (12 edits total) Edited By: pashatemur
	We continue, and I thank all of you who are reading and who have inspired me: STRIKE! My tether, did I sever that tenuous thread? Love is a myth, I saw in that moment, as I spun adrift in the fiery tide. Were its words comforting; the voice? It spoke in tones gentle and benevolent, “Yes, my friend, love is illusion! It is a notion with which the weak comfort themselves, give themselves the pretense of control over each other. You, my Lord, are set free.” Yes, I see that now, I thought. That is when I remembered how I hated Obi wan. Then if love was illusion, so was hate, but the difference was, I willfully chose hate; at least, the veneer of hate! I sought, in the molten rage of that hour, to release the warmth of love, and form it up in the stone of hate. However, I was not yet prepared, not yet ready to let go. I did not rise transformed from the brilliant flood. No my son, no, not yet! Burning, broiling, the wafted heat bubbled up on my skin, my prosthesis melted in the ashen powdered glove. My hair exploded in fire about my face and I must have screamed. That’s what brought me out of my malignant reverie. Because, at that moment, as I looked down, my raft pitched wildly in the unruly stream that now rushed over what had once been neatly channeled and bulwarked in the igneous field. I was not the only one who hoped to channel the impetus of darkness, harness and control that dangerous energy, believing I could emerge unchanged and unharmed. Fools all! Masters of destruction, hah! Suddenly, an odd thing happened, though not completely strange, as I’d felt it once before. I did not slip from my precarious mount, nor did that hot hand reach me! The Force stirred in me, as a reification, a sign, a validation, as well as a portend! It covered me, caressed, and held me, and my being, ecstatic, vibrated in harmony with what to me was an anointing. So be it! I barely realized this when I felt the jolt of the rock as it met the screen the droids had cast across the flood from their propelled barges. I traveled from fire’s edge to litter in a blaze of numbing pain, and the skin, where grasped, slipped off where my body met with friction. I clung to the Jedi’s presence and worked hard to hate him so that I would remain conscious! * We ran along, and I forced him backwards, never breaking my long stride. I felt my influence in the Force grow with every pounding of my boots upon rock or gantry. I could feel my face fix into a snarl, my muscles flexed, and shaking with rage. I shook so much, my vision seemed to jump. I bit down and growled with every blow I delivered. “Lord Darth Vader, is it?!” He thought it amusing, I could see, as the corners of his mouth twitched, though his eyes bore that ever serious gaze. Strike! He’d shaken his head, and sighed. Oh, let’s distract, Anakin, shall we?! “I THINK NOT,” I yelled, my saber streaking down hard upon his left and cleaving metal as he dove away. There it was, the hunger of the hunt, the elation. My chest swelled with it. Sidious’ blade hummed in my hand, and I clasped and readjusted, as I felt that primate’s smile spread across my face, my teeth bared. “It’s too late to teach you about love now, paduwan,” he said softly, handling his saber’s hilt and readying for a feint only to be anticipated and blocked by the red of the new blade. His eyes, which had been heated with rousing hatred, became soft and almost loving. How he struggled with his hate, and he feared me as much as pitied. “I GROW IN YOUR FEAR, YOU WRETCHED JEDI FILTH!” (Can I laugh, now, at those theatrics, that bravado!? Like a grunt, I needed my curses to throw myself over the impediment of love!) Strike! Perhaps he could bait me by pretending to dismiss me. Yes, there was that casual stare. Camouflage! You couldn’t change the reality, Obi wan, so you sought to change my perception! Perhaps, I was more apt a student than you believed, Master! Our sabers continued to clash, punctuating each utterance, “Anakin, I was wrong, so wrong!” (Oh, yes that much was certain wasn’t it!) Strike! Ha, ha, ha! You were loosing your balance, Obi wan! “I wanted to help you, give you a chance to make good on your own, so I turned a blind eye.” Strike! Yes, and sent me right along to my destiny! I knew what he sought to do; reach me with LOVE! He pressed his point, “I thought you’d outgrow it and I thought you’d learn. But how could you?” Strike! Oh, no…you…DON’T! I cornered him, but then he advanced and pressed at me, finding a reserve which, frankly, impressed me. He was tiring, precise, schooled, patient, and forceful, and I hated him his calm, all the more. Yet, I found myself listening, seduced, and falling by my old habits, but “NO,” I yelled. “Stop it! I neither need nor desire your tutelage, Obi wan!” I spoke low and quiet. Yes, he taught me even then how to forge my rage into concentration! “Oh, yes,” strike, “you do, Anakin,” came his voice even and cool. Oh, but I could tell that behind that façade of confidence, he was desperate. Good, very good! “You don’t know what love is! ‘Love’ is knowing you have to let the paduwan you watched over,” – Parry and turn, strike! -“taught, nurtured, hoped for,” Very good, Obi wan, that was excellent form! -“stumble and fall, because it is his path and not yours.” He moved quickly along the stepped way, the grated walkway opening up behind him as I backed him along. I rushed him. Strike! He continued as my eyes bore a hot hole into that pedantic fool’s face, “Love,” he continued to instruct, “Is allowing the opportunity for tenderness to pass, because it was best for her.” Strike! He flipped across in that network of aerial walkways and industrial conveyers. “You could never have cared for her, Anakin. Look at you! A mate to care about her beyond his duty, beyond his calling! The first was wrong enough, but this…you care only for power, and you killed her for it! That, Anakin, is pathetic and pitiable.” Perhaps my quest was a greater cause, than love, Obi wan! But she would die for Obi wan’s temerity, for the blindness of a thousand years of idiocy, even as I could have saved her! Where could this go?! My head ached, my lungs burned with sulfur. The perspiration all but blinded, and the heat wore me, wore us both down. Meanwhile, we battled the remnants of the Separatists, and skirted the tenders and mites that fled in crazed irritation, here and there about us. My eyes burned! And Mustafar in concert with my fury heaved itself up and rained down its store upon the flooded crust, and soon that stygian complex would be nothing but a liquid glow! “NO MORE,” I cried out. Damn him, had she not come! Strike, strike, strike! “ENOUGH,” I roared, “YOU CAN’T POSSIBLY DARE TO LECTURE ME ABOUT SACRIFICE …AND POWER!” Strike! Lessons, yes, let me teach you Master. Parry, turn, half turn, feint, thrust, downward slice, half-turn and two-handed pull-through from behind, yes, breathe Master, breathe, shoulders relaxed, slide and one-handed block and thrust, then slice and strike, STRIKE, STRIKE, STRIKE, STRIKE…..STRIKE! My boot heel’s on your wrist Obi wan. Now what shall you do!? How fortuitous for him! The ground raged and shook, tossing us about as the rock broke open all around. No matter! I was right behind you, Master! The anger became me. I pursed my lips, the heat from the inferno pulling moisture from every cell, as I beat at him. Yes, Obi wan, and the wave of energy I’d been holding back drove me forward. That frail sack of sugars and carbons that was my body, wept itself of worth and I walked you down. This is the man who relieved the Jedi of their misery and betrayed his order. Strike! This is the man whom you watched murder …children … Strike, strike! This is the man who strangled his pregnant wife. Strike! Who couldn’t bear to…Oh, Force, let her go. Strike! …who couldn’t bear her disillusion, her insolence…who couldn’t …bear she should remember him…as a…MONSTER! Obi wan’s image swam in the pool of my sight, salted by the remnants of Anakin; Anakin’s tears and perspiration. Then with the weight of humiliation, rage, anger, grief, I bore down upon him with a single handed strike and then another, and another... STRIKE, STRIKE, STRIKE, STRIKE, STRIKE! I staggered back, my chest heaving, a snarl twisting across my face, and I stared at him where he lay on the ground. I lifted my chin and with it my arm to give him the death blow for which I now fairly salivated. Then, as if by design, the planet heaved and shivered, quaked and roared. With the pitch, Obi wan rolled away, and I sought a footing to pursue. My ire was beyond black, and I sought an advantage above him. “AAAAAAAHGH!” I roared and rained down upon him a series of blows, the which out of he turned as I'd never seen him do before. Though he fell again, he rose and staggered, then struck, again, and again…and again! So close, and he tried once more, though his heart was not in it, to find the way to bring me back. My voice came foreign to my ears, as I bit out and growled, “YOU HAVE NOTHING LEFT TO SAY TO ME, OBI WAN,” an ending and a beginning; the death rattle of Anakin Skywalker. * To be continued... -----signature----- http://boards.theforce.net/The_Saga/b10476/17959370/p1 The Flower of Bast: personal journals of LDV ~\| Acroama, LD, SDO\|~ o[]\|\|]ooooooooo[0]\|\|[]{ "It's a sin to kill a Mockingbird!"
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LukesTheMan Registered: Apr '04	Date Posted: 2/15/05 1:36pm Subject: RE: THE FLOWER OF BAST: personal jounals of LDV
	What a cliffie!!! Now, I won't be able to rest until I know what comes next. A beginning and an ending indeed! -----signature----- Of Metal and Flesh http://boards.theforce.net/The_Saga/b10476/19859245 Empty Vessel http://boards.theforce.net/The_Saga/b10476/19744934 Proud Master to Annika_Skywalker
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marcg007 Registered: Aug '04	Date Posted: 2/15/05 1:42pm Subject: RE: THE FLOWER OF BAST: personal jounals of LDV
	Greetings, I have only had time to read the first few chapters and am trying to catch up. However, I think I may have missed a few when I was downloading. Is it possible that you might post a doc containing all you have written up to this point? I have enjoyed what I have read so far and this would be greatly appreciated. Thanks, marcg007
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