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I'm Not in Love- Luke and Mara
AnakinsHeir
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May '04
Date Posted:
7/25/04 8:38pm
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I'm Not in Love- Luke and Mara
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Author's note: this is based on the song "I'm Not in Love" by 10 cc. Yes, it is an older song but it reminded me very much of Luke and Mara.
I’m Not in Love
I'm not in love so don't forget it
It's just a silly phase I'm going through
And just because I call you up.
Don't get me wrong
don't think you've got it made
I'm not in love
Mara stared at the message with annoyance, a fierce scowl marring her attractive face. “What can
he
want?” she said to herself.
She really wasn’t in the mood to deal with the earnest and sincere farmboy type right now. In fact, if given a choice, she would have preferred the company of a smuggler type, someone like her boss. Even Han Solo would have been less annoying than the man who tried to haunt her thoughts. He didn’t haunt her thoughts, of course, he only tried to.
She sighed as she considered that Luke Skywalker probably didn’t even know the way his blue eyes made her feel just a trifle breathless. It was also likely he had no clue that his smile made her stomach lurch within her. And he most definitely did not realize that she found herself wondering what his hands would feel like if he used them to bring her face closer to his so that their lips- She stopped herself and groaned.
She closed her eyes and tried very hard to bury the image of Luke Skywalker under mundane thoughts of shipping manifests, important memos, and even a list of holovids she has seen in the past year (a distressingly short list and thus of little distractive value). Luke, however, was apparently not in a cooperative mood and his boyishly handsome face would push its way to the surface of her thoughts yet again.
She finally gave up trying to hide from the farmboy by concentrating on the minutiae of her very dull and lonely life. If he had been here in her quarters, instead of present just in the electronic message that currently blinked on her console, she would have relieved some of her tension by blistering his ears with a few well chosen and pointed remarks. Either that or she’d kiss him until neither of them could breathe and see if his lips really lived up to the promises they seemed to offer.
She should just ignore his message. Perhaps if she did so long enough he would forget or would get annoyed enough to stop sending her messages. Yes, if she was smart she would ignore it. Obviously she wasn’t as smart as she hoped.
I like to see you but then again
That doesn't mean you mean that much to me
So if I call you don't make a fuss
Don't tell your friends about the two of us
I'm not in love.
As soon as he punched the “send” key he felt an almost irresistible urge to kick himself very hard. What had he been thinking? That was the problem, of course, he hadn’t been thinking. Once more he had let his feelings dictate his actions and yet again had put himself into a place he didn’t want to be.
He had come home tonight, restless after yet another feeble attempt to enjoy an evening out. But as had happened so many times before, he found himself looking across a small table at a woman who didn’t really see
him.
She saw Luke Skywalker, Jedi Master and hero of the New Republic. She saw the mysterious figure who had gained fame by defeating the evil Emperor and his henchman, Darth Vader.
She didn’t see a man who sometimes still woke up at night in a cold sweat, having dreamed he was being pursued by a shadow accompanied by the harsh sound of a respirator and heavy treading footsteps. What she was blind to was the man who still deeply felt his failure to protect his sister’s children. The one who endured the burden of recreating the Jedi Order and had found it to be almost unbearably heavy and lonely; that man was invisible.
That man she didn’t see, nor did she want to see him.
She saw who she wanted to see as she memorized every word he said, every gesture he made, so that she could share every moment of their time together with her very curious and envious friends the next morning. An hour into their date he had begun to feel more like a performing animal than a man. Not the most pleasant way to pass the hours.
So it was this sad state and feeling of isolation that had prompted him to send a message to Mara, asking her to meet him for a cup of caf tomorrow or the next day; whatever her schedule allowed.
But the moment the message had been sent he had wanted nothing more than to reach into the computer and take it back. Because the very instant it was no longer possible to keep it from reaching her he had thought of all the reasons he didn’t want it to do so.
He didn’t want to face the fact that Mara was the only person, outside of his family or those he had fought beside during the Rebellion, who still looked at him like he was just Luke. To her he was Luke, not some interesting phenomenon of nature who had bizarre powers. And the best part of it all was that she knew the truth, the horrible damning truth, and could look him in the eyes anyway.
She knew that Luke Skywalker was the son of Anakin Skywalker, who had been known by the much more infamous name of Darth Vader. And she didn’t care. This knowledge was not exciting or titillating to her, nor did it condemn or vilify him in her eyes. It was simply a fact, like so many others over which neither of them had any control.
He didn’t want to remember the comfortable ease of just talking to her. He chose to forget how the sound of her laughter made him smile simply because it was so beautiful and so rare, and thus to be treasured.
No, none of that mattered now, none of it at all. He had been impatient and impulsive, the two touchstones of his life, and had once more fallen to grief and regret because of it. Then he laughed at himself, recognizing the melodramatic turn his thoughts had taken.
He brightened a little as he considered her rather independent and contrary nature. She was perfectly capable of ignoring his message just to tweak his temper.
He could only hope.
But that hope died a swift and painful death as he saw the incoming message.
I keep your picture upon the wall
It hides a nasty stain that's lying there
So don't you ask me to give it back
I know you know it doesn't mean that much to me
I'm not in love.
She had agreed to meet him; surely only out of curiosity. That’s all it could possibly be, right? And it was only for caf, innocent and platonic enough. For Force sake, they were more acquaintances than friends; more reconciled enemies than anything else.
But as she fell asleep she dreamed of a rich blue sky that was exactly the color of Luke’s eyes.
Ooh you'll wait a long time for me
I'm not in love so don't forget it.
She had said yes! He wasn’t sure whether to be thrilled or make sure his lightsaber was in prime working condition. One could never predict Mara. His heart vacillated between a desperate, uncertain hope and a biting dread.
He fell asleep and dreamed of sitting in front of a fire that kissed at his cheeks, the silken touch of it remarkably like Mara’s hair.
I’m not in love.
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EmilieDarklighter
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RE: I'm Not in Love- Luke and Mara
If he had been here in her quarters, instead of present just in the electronic message that currently blinked on her console, she would have relieved some of her tension by blistering his ears with a few well chosen and pointed remarks. Either that or she’d kiss him until neither of them could breathe and see if his lips really lived up to the promises they seemed to offer.
LOL. that's our Mara! One extreme or the other, never in between. How I love her! This is great characterization. You've done Mara wonderfully!
He didn’t want to face the fact that Mara was the only person, outside of his family or those he had fought beside during the Rebellion, who still looked at him like he was just Luke. To her he was Luke, not some interesting phenomenon of nature who had bizarre powers. And the best part of it all was that she knew the truth, the horrible damning truth, and could look him in the eyes anyway.
And Luke, too! I love that side of him, and I love the way you worded it, and I just love this whole paragraph! Beautifully done, perfectly in how you've shown Luke. *bright smile*
She had agreed to meet him; surely only out of curiosity. That’s all it could possibly be, right? And it was only for caf, innocent and platonic enough. For Force sake, they were more acquaintances than friends; more reconciled enemies than anything else.
But as she fell asleep she dreamed of a rich blue sky that was exactly the color of Luke’s eyes.
She had said yes! He wasn’t sure whether to be thrilled or make sure his lightsaber was in prime working condition. One could never predict Mara. His heart vacillated between a desperate, uncertain hope and a biting dread.
He fell asleep and dreamed of sitting in front of a fire that kissed at his cheeks, the silken touch of it remarkably like Mara’s hair.
I love it! This whole story is wonderful! I hope to see more Luke and Mara from you, because this is just gorgeous!
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Abby
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Me likes...how each of them are thinking of the other...how Mara's annoyed at how Luke makes her feel, and how Luke is refreshed by how Mara makes him feel.
~Abby~
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RE: I'm Not in Love- Luke and Mara
That was excellent. Good ending, and also very good characterization. A+
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Date Posted:
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RE: I'm Not in Love- Luke and Mara
Oh nicely done! I love Luke and Mara stuff, especially before they admit their feelings for each other. They're so cute as they deny, deny, deny!
She didn’t see a man who sometimes still woke up at night in a cold sweat, having dreamed he was being pursued by a shadow accompanied by the harsh sound of a respirator and heavy treading footsteps. What she was blind to was the man who still deeply felt his failure to protect his sister’s children. The one who endured the burden of recreating the Jedi Order and had found it to be almost unbearably heavy and lonely; that man was invisible.
That man she didn’t see, nor did she want to see him.
Loved that, although it was sad in a way, too. Luke really wants someone that loves him for who he is, not what he's done. Great work! I've seen two song fics by you, good work on both. Are song fics your speciality?
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Great songfic, and perfect characterizations of L&M.
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It was on her fifteenth day in the darkness of the Nirauan cave when Mara Jade awoke to discover a rescuer had finally arrived.
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I have to say I'm not a HUGE fan of songfics but this one was really good. It was more of a vignette with a tie in to a song, and well written. Good work.
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I really, really like! You made a fascinating play of tension between how unique Mara and Luke are and the sometimes mundane details of their life (shipping manifests! dates!) And they were so cute - trying to deny their feelings.
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That was wonderful. The song fits them perfectly!
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This fic just made my whole day.
Great characterization! Hoping to see more L/M stories from you.
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RE: I'm Not in Love- Luke and Mara
Thanks to everyone! I was shocked to get so many readers.
EmilieDarklighter
Thanks so much! I'm glad you think I did a good job with them. They are one of my favorite SW couples!
Abby
Thank you! I wanted to show two people thinking about each other with a little bit different reaction in each one.
Suzuki_Akira
Thank you so much! I wanted to get the characterization right and I'm glad to know it worked. Plus, I've always liked getting A's!
VaderLVR64
I've always thought there was a core of sadness in Luke, how could there not be? Thanks so much for your kind words.
Jedi-2B
Wow! Thanks so much! It means a lot to me as I admire your work so much.
CapNJaxWench
Well I'm glad you stopped in to give this one a shot! Thanks so much!
isola
Thanks! And life is more about the mundane stuff anyway, so I wanted to bring that out. Thanks so much for reading!
Starfighter5
Yeah, I heard the song on an oldies station and I thought it fit them too! Thanks!
Jedi_Trace
Wow! So glad I could make your day a little better!
Again, thank you to everyone who took the time to read. It is only my second story so it means a lot to me, very encouraging for me. Thanks!
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Good Luke & Mara interaction! As smart as these two are you'd think they would figure it out a lot sooner, wouldn't you? Great viggie showing their emotions, as varied as they are.
She had said yes! He wasn’t sure whether to be thrilled or make sure his lightsaber was in prime working condition. One could never predict Mara. His heart vacillated between a desperate, uncertain hope and a biting dread.
He fell asleep and dreamed of sitting in front of a fire that kissed at his cheeks, the silken touch of it remarkably like Mara’s hair.
I’m not in love.
Great ending. Mara keeps Luke on his toes, doesn't she?
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Great songfic
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She closed her eyes and tried very hard to bury the image of Luke Skywalker under mundane thoughts of shipping manifests, important memos, and even a list of holovids she has seen in the past year (a distressingly short list and thus of little distractive value). Luke, however, was apparently not in a cooperative mood and his boyishly handsome face would push its way to the surface of her thoughts yet again.
That was my favorite part.
I liked it! I liked your portrayal of Luke and Mara, I think you got them just right! Good work.
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He didn’t want to remember the comfortable ease of just talking to her. He chose to forget how the sound of her laughter made him smile simply because it was so beautiful and so rare, and thus to be treasured.
Liked this one, it was good. You did a great job with Luke and Mara.
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That was great.
Is there more?
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