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VaderLVR64 Title: Fan Fic Manager in Combat Boots Registered: Feb '04	Date Posted: 1/19/05 6:44am Subject: Futility of Regret - Captain Typho vignette - Date Edited: 11/13/06 6:54am (1 edits total) Edited By: VaderLVR64
	Title: Futility of Regret Author: VaderLVR64 Genre: vignette, angst Characters: Captain Typho, Anakin Skywalker, Padme Amidala, Obi-Wan Kenobi Time: Post ROTS Summary: Captain Typho faces the past and wonders what might have changed if only… Futility of Regret My name will not survive the passing of ages. My contributions to galactic history will not be discussed in any classroom for youngsters to marvel over or dream of matching. I do not mind that fact. The role I played in history is small, but pivotal. It is not every man who can say with certainty that he had a hand in helping end a Republic that had lasted thousands of years. But I can make that claim. Do not mistake my words for pride; I feel nothing but remorse over what I did, or perhaps failed to do. Even now I do not know which it was. In any case, identifying the problem now would not help me, nor would it make right the horrors which have descended upon the galaxy. So when I have trouble sleeping at night, when the old voices visit me and chide me for my mistakes, I remind myself of the futility of regrets. I am an old man now. I wasn’t young even when I lent my hand to the rending of the Republic. I did not have the excuse of youth or inexperience. The inexorable marching of years and my own sorrow have aged me prematurely so that one would not guess my age. The number of my years does not matter; I am an old man by any reckoning. My name is Typho; it is not a name that a student of history would be expected to know. I served my world, Naboo, for many long and faithful years before a chance assignment sent me straight into the heart of what would eventually end so many lives, and change any who survived it. Serving as the head of security for a galactic senator was the pinnacle of my career, or so I thought. My family had a long and distinguished history of service to Naboo. I was proud of that tradition and hoped to contribute to it in my own small way. I had no illusions that I would perform great deeds or become a hero. I did not crave those things, so I was content. I wanted only to serve faithfully and do my job well. A humble enough dream, to be sure. It was only a matter of seconds that changed my destiny and my role in what was to come. If I had walked a little slower or perhaps merely clicked on my comm rather than checking on things personally, what followed would have been very different. Well, for me at least. I fear that the galaxy was already doomed by the time I walked in on the two lovers as they kissed. Who knew that a kiss would end the galaxy as I knew it? I entered the room and stopped dead in my tracks. Even to this day I can still see the dual looks of shock and fear that crossed their faces. The senator was in the arms of the Jedi and I stood there stunned. She immediately began stammering out an excuse, but he merely stood there, by then an almost triumphant smirk on his face. Perhaps he felt that my knowledge of their relationship gave it legitimacy, made it real in some sense that it had not been before. I do not know for I did not ask him. I could not speak. The sight of Senator Amidala embracing the young Jedi had shocked me, but not for the reasons you might imagine. Anakin Skywalker had never really sought to hide his feelings for the beautiful young senator. His hunger for her shone on his face whenever he was in her presence. He desired her with a ferocity that took almost physical form. It was another presence in the room when those two were in proximity to each other. It frightened me on some primitive level, like a creature of the forest whose nose flares and twitches in alarm before the predator is even sighted. I did not know what I feared, merely that something had caused alarms to ring. What shocked me was the thought that the senator returned his feelings. Never had she been anything but proper- even reserved - for as long as I had known her. Longer than that, for my uncle served her before I did. His admiration for her was clear and expressed to me before I ever entered into her service. But the passion that flared between them burned away the code of the Jedi Order and a thousand years of tradition; it stole away the restraint she had cultivated since childhood. Her feelings for Anakin Skywalker were stronger than her love for the Republic. She couldn’t know, of course, what their obsession would set loose upon the universe. He could not know what his unrelenting passion for one woman would free within himself. But even had he known, I am not sure that Skywalker would have cared. We all stood there, uncomfortable and unable to rectify what had happened. I had seen something I could not forget. They had done something they could not undo, even if they were willing to do so. Her tears were what persuaded me to keep my silence; her tears and my oath to protect her, even at the cost of my own life. I vowed to keep their relationship a secret. I gave a new oath to never speak of their marriage. I had been trained to fidelity, and that is what was finally my undoing. I could not betray her. Had I been stronger perhaps something more could have been salvaged. I do not know and the passing of time has not given me wisdom. Still, I question and wonder precisely where it all went so wrong. Where did my good intentions go awry? Protecting both her life and her secret, I aided the young lovers in their need to be together. I lied and I evaded; I pretended and I deceived. But in the end, I could do nothing more than serve. By the time it all exploded I could do nothing more than protect her life and those within her. It was I who stood by her side and escorted her on to the ship which would take her away from Coruscant that last time. I was the one who held her hand as her labor pains began and the midwife took so long to arrive. And I am the one who contacted Master Kenobi to come and take the infant. When he came to her I could not meet his eyes. My shame ate at me and I knew that my efforts to protect them had helped to damn them. Standing guard one last time outside her door, I listened to her sobs as her son was taken from her arms. The Jedi walked past me and then stopped. I held my breath, fearful that what he would say would slice through me and leave me a broken man. But he put his right hand on my shoulder, the baby squirming in his left arm. He looked into my eyes and I know he sensed my disgrace. He spoke to me then. The words are not important and they are mine alone to keep. But in those few moments he gifted me with forgiveness and lifted some of my burden. No one could take all of it from me, for like his words, it is mine alone. A part of my soul flew free then. I knew that no matter what happen, no matter where I might roam, I would never forget his kindness and nobility. It was in that encounter that I saw the true greatness of the Jedi Order and its knights. I never saw the senator again. She was whisked away to Alderaan to live with her daughter. The boy was taken by Master Kenobi to a secret place; I was never told where. And I was given a small sum of money to provide for me in my old age. I found a comfortable cottage to live and I learned to co-exist with the voices of my past. The secrets I held were too important to risk being found. I kept a blaster and a small poison capsule with me at all times. I would end my life rather than risk revealing what I knew to my lady’s enemies. I would have provided that one last service if I had to. But time passed and I was not discovered. I have lived out my days, enduring the shameful burden of my failure. I am not an important man, merely one who did the best he could. It was not good enough, as sometimes happens; but it was my best. There are days when the knowledge of my lady’s children torments me. And there are days when that is the only hope that makes me face another sunrise. One day, perhaps, they can help right the wrongs that swept across the galaxy. Until then I will wait, as always, ready to serve. -----signature----- Someone who loves me carries an M16. My baby boy wears combat boots.
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lvk1978 Registered: Sep '04	Date Posted: 1/19/05 6:54am Subject: RE: Futility of Regret - Captain Typho vignette
	Another superb vignette from the acknowledged master...brava! I love this perspective from an otherwise unimportant character. It's interesting to me that nearly everyone feels guilty about the galactic disaster except those that are the most to blame (or so it seems to me). Of course I also lurve that my Practically Perfect Jedi® is the one to offer comfort to the poor Captain Typho. As always, thanks for sharing. -----signature----- “Kenobi was luminous, a transparent being, a window onto a sunlit meadow of the Force.” "This is Obi-Wan Kenobi: He is modest, centered, and always kind. He is the ultimate Jedi. And he is proud to be Anakin Skywalker's best friend."
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BrokenNoseOfQui-Gon Registered: Nov '04	Date Posted: 1/19/05 7:18am Subject: RE: Futility of Regret - Captain Typho vignette
	Very cool to see a character that almost never shows up in Fan Fiction. I've never seen him have his own viggie before! Great job. -----signature----- My Name is Boba Fett http://boards.theforce.net/The_Saga/b10476/18371227/?0 Broken Nose of Qui-Gon http://boards.theforce.net/message.asp?topic=16981717& Luminous Beings http://boards.theforce.net/Before_the_Saga/b10475/17766838
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AnakinsHeir Registered: May '04	Date Posted: 1/19/05 11:06am Subject: RE: Futility of Regret - Captain Typho vignette
	The words are not important and they are mine alone to keep. But in those few moments he gifted me with forgiveness and lifted some of my burden. Nice to see Typho show up! Great viggie! -----signature----- Let Me Go http://boards.theforce.net/The_Saga/b10476/18359174/?2 Master to JediCallista_1_6_e54 A Mother's Wishes http://boards.theforce.net/The_Saga/b10476/20272243/?0
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LukesTheMan Registered: Apr '04	Date Posted: 1/19/05 1:43pm Subject: RE: Futility of Regret - Captain Typho vignette
	Typho carries off the eye patch very nicely, doesn't he? Nice viggie! -----signature----- Of Metal and Flesh http://boards.theforce.net/The_Saga/b10476/19859245 Empty Vessel http://boards.theforce.net/The_Saga/b10476/19744934 Proud Master to Annika_Skywalker
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Knight_Aragorn Registered: Jun '03	Date Posted: 1/19/05 9:07pm Subject: RE: Futility of Regret - Captain Typho vignette
	Wow... excellent job, VaderLRVR. You really nailed Typho as I picture him. And the way you painted Anakin, Padme, and Obi-Wan through his eyes... So good! I really loved the way you described Anakin's fascination for Padme... 'hunger' is a good word to capture it. ('Creepy' is another, but maybe that's just me ) And that section with Obi-Wan was wonderful. It's exactly the sort of thing that he would do. Standing guard one last time outside her door, I listened to her sobs as her son was taken from her arms. The Jedi walked past me and then stopped. I held my breath, fearful that what he would say would slice through me and leave me a broken man. But he put his right hand on my shoulder, the baby squirming in his left arm. He looked into my eyes and I know he sensed my disgrace. He spoke to me then. The words are not important and they are mine alone to keep. But in those few moments he gifted me with forgiveness and lifted some of my burden. Beautiful job! -----signature----- Time is an illusion. Lunchtime doubly so. Pieces of Air (ESB short story, complete) - http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/27283200/p1
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WhosScruffyLooking Registered: Nov '04	Date Posted: 1/20/05 6:56am Subject: RE: Futility of Regret - Captain Typho vignette
	I liked Typho's guilt, although I'm sure he was just one small part of the situation. I think a part of him realizes that, but his guilt eats at him. Loved the description of Anakin's "hunger" for Padme. Very apt.
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Sara_Kenobi Registered: Sep '00	Date Posted: 1/20/05 9:07am Subject: RE: Futility of Regret - Captain Typho vignette
	That was simply a beautful look into a character likely not many would consider, and how those events would have affected him too. I love his words on how he thought of Padme and Anakin's relationship. Of how likely nothing could have prevented them from falling in love. Well done! -----signature----- Fall of the Knight (OT, PT, AU, Obi-Wan, Leia, Han) http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/29025519/p1/?74 The Kamino Rendezvous (Han/Leia, Leia/Other, Vader, Luke, Pre-RoTJ, AU) http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/29612398/p1/?0
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Layren Registered: Oct '03	Date Posted: 1/20/05 10:27am Subject: RE: Futility of Regret - Captain Typho vignette
	What a interesting and unique vignette! A great look at a little known character -----signature----- Proud Master to Ara-gon The Triad Chronicles http://boards.theforce.net/before_the_saga/b10475/25934993/p1/?177 (OC's) Into Another Day http://boards.theforce.net/before_the_saga/b10475/27926050/p1/?0 2008 Dear Diary Challenge I am Jinngerbread.
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Gina Registered: Jun '03	Date Posted: 1/20/05 12:39pm Subject: RE: Futility of Regret - Captain Typho vignette
	I loved seeing something written from Typho's perspective, a character often overlooked, but this piece illustrates how Anakin and Padme's actions impacted all those close to them. Her feelings for Anakin Skywalker were stronger than her love for the Republic. A very powerful statement! Brilliant job. -----signature----- A long time ago in a house far away, there was a mother who was strong in the ways of the Force. She "forced" her sons to clean their room, she "forced" her sons to behave. - Part of a story written by my 9 yr. old sons I found while cleaning their desks
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AthenaLeigh Registered: Aug '04	Date Posted: 1/24/05 4:54pm Subject: RE: Futility of Regret - Captain Typho vignette
	Wow, now there's something unique. I love seeing the little guys getting some attention. Marvelous depiction. What a great story, again! -----signature----- Master to jedi_artorius Imperturbable Serenity http://boards.theforce.net/Before_the_Saga/b10475/17159240/ "Hey, you monkeys are smarter than I thought!" "I smile because it hurts too much to frown."
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RebelScum77 Title: Manager Emeritus Registered: Aug '03	Date Posted: 1/24/05 6:40pm Subject: RE: Futility of Regret - Captain Typho vignette
	I don't know why I haven't read this before! Wonderful job with Typho. I think this is one of my favorite viggies of yours. Sometimes it takes a person just little out of the core group to make you understand them better. I can only imagine his pain if Padme had died in this viggie. It makes me wonder what your own personal view of her fate in ROTS is VaderLVR. Outstanding job, as usual. -----signature----- CHEAP SLIT!!
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VaderLVR64 Title: Fan Fic Manager in Combat Boots Registered: Feb '04	Date Posted: 1/27/05 8:06pm Subject: RE: Futility of Regret - Captain Typho vignette
	lvk1978 Yeah, it's just like the old sweetie to offer a word of comfort even when he's carrying such burdens himself! Thanks for reading. BrokenNoseOfQui-Gon I just thought he needed a little something of his own! AnakinsHeir Thank you so much for reading! I'm glad you liked it! LukesTheMan He wears it like no other! Knight_Aragorn Thank you! He's always fascinated me since he gave Anakin that "look" when the boy is stuttering all about Padme growing more beautiful. It said, "Geez kid, give it a break!" WhosScruffyLooking Thank you! Sara_Kenobi Yep, I wanted to convey the idea that their relationship really impacted a lot of lives. And I wondered what old Typho might have thought about it all! Layren Thank you! And back on the Saga boards? Shame on you! Gina Thank you! I liked this character and the plot bunny bit, so... AthenaLeigh Thank you so very much! I wanted to do something a little different, write a character I hadn't done before and Typho held up his hand and said "ME!" RebelScum77 Wow, thank you! I'm really glad you liked it. It was something out of my usual arena, which is a good thing. I needed to stretch my wings a bit! -----signature----- Someone who loves me carries an M16. My baby boy wears combat boots.
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