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indiefic Registered: Jun '07	Date Posted: 9/18/07 8:44am Subject: The Senator's Wife - AU - Padme/Vader - updated 5/23 - "Condolences" - Date Edited: 5/23/08 1:09pm (7 edits total) Edited By: indiefic
	TITLE: The Senator’s Wife AUTHOR: indie MY SITE: starwars.indiefic.com SPOILERS: PT DISCLAIMER: Characters and universe respectfully borrowed from George Lucas. No profit is gained from this work. PAIRING: Padmé/Vader (mentions of Padmé/Anakin and Padmé/Bail) SUMMARY: AU is created during AotC. Anakin and Padmé never married. Sidious rose to power and destroy the Jedi with Vader's help, but Padmé did not die. AUTHOR'S NOTE 1: The Senator's Wife is both a vignette and an AU world. The Senator's Wife sets the stage for the world, but there are additional stories as well. The additional stories aren't necessarily sequels, but they are set in the same alternate universe and will be added to this thread. AUTHOR'S NOTE 2: The theme of this AU is fairly dark. The versions I am posting here comply with the family friendly rating, however, there are alternate versions of most chapters available. If you are over 18 and would like the link, let me know. PM LIST: laurethiel1138 dtdang2 JediMasterJessica geno SilSolo AnakinsFavorite Jaded_Rose randomangel22 Amidala66 Kelli_LB MoAngel Thrawn1786 Kyana-Morgaine HandmaidenVeme Darth_Drachonus nabooqueen2008 dianethx penguinsrpals Vivid_Scripts * TITLE: The Senator's Wife (1/1) TIMELINE: 4 years after RotS SUMMARY: In an opulent apartment, Senator Organa’s wife waits for her lover and catalogs her sins. * She paces the living room, glancing out the window at the panoramic view of Imperial Center. Despite the luxuriously comfortable furnishings, she does not sit while she waits. She hates this place, this chic apartment in the most exclusive address on the planet. This apartment is not all she hates. Her loathing for herself far outstrips any animosity she feels toward the place reserved for their clandestine affair. He’s late – as usual – and she despises him all the more for it. He may be the one person she hates more than herself, yet perversely that fact makes her hate herself even more. He makes her wait in order to prove a point, to prove that it is his schedule that matters, his wants that matter. He needs to prove to her that she means nothing to him. She looks at the door and considers leaving. Her cloak is draped over the back of the absurdly expensive repulsor couch. She needs merely to scoop it up and head for the turbolift. She turns back to the view. She has no intention of leaving, any more than he has any intention of not showing up. He’ll be here. He always is. Belittling and cruel, he makes her regret their physical passion every time. But if she ignores his words, if she ignores the way he treats her when they are both in the armor of their own clothes, then she can almost believe he is the man she still loves. His words can lie, but his touch cannot. The apartment has an impressive view of the Senate complex and she knows it is no accident. He undoubtedly chose this apartment for that very reason. He wants her to stand here in his arms and be forced to think of the husband she betrays. Her eyes fall shut at the thought. She will not cry. For if she cries, he will know why and he will be doubly vicious, doubly demanding. Bail Organa deserves so much more from a wife than the bitter deceit she provides. He is a good man, proud and just. He is a wonderful father to Luke and Leia. As a lover he is kind and considerate. And yet, her body does not burn for his touch. She does not hunger for the texture of his skin beneath her fingers, for the taste of his kiss against her tongue. With a huff, she resumes her pacing. She is achy, impatient. Her temper is waspish. She hates her lover all the more for these facts. She knows this feeling, this insatiable hunger within her. She wants to hit and bite and scream and love. Everything inside her hungers for his touch – now. She knows her body. She knows what these feelings mean and the consequences they herald. She knows it just as well today as she did five years ago. If he comes to her here and now, if they sate their passions today, a child will be conceived. The child will be a full sibling to her beloved Luke and Leia. Only this child won’t be fathered by her loving Jedi protector, Anakin Skywalker. This child will be fathered by the Emperor’s most vicious servant, Darth Vader. She is disgusted with herself, with her weakness. It took everything she had to turn him away at Geonosis, to verbally deny her feelings toward him. And then he was wounded and so vulnerable and she could not stay away. He wanted more – of course. He always wants more. His passions are insatiable. After the first encounter, he pursued her relentlessly. He wanted to marry her – she actually laughed in his face at the idea. He did not respond well. She would not marry him. The very idea was absurd. She was a senator, he a Jedi Padawan. They would have been forced to lie to everyone they loved, everyone they trusted. So despite the aching void she felt for him, she crushed the idea. If only she could have crushed what she felt for him so easily. It was difficult to ignore him. As the Clone Wars progressed he became increasingly more famous, The Hero With No Fear. She found it nearly impossible to escape talk of him, holonet reports of his exploits. Every dinner conversation of the war effort included mention of him. And then came the rumor that he was killed. It brought her entire existence to a grinding halt. Anakin could not be dead. It wasn’t possible. She was in mourning, in a state of constant agitation and depression, desperate for any word of him. Even worse, she could not admit her feelings to anyone. And then, unexpectedly, she did nothing more proactive than glance over her shoulder one afternoon on her way into the Senate buildings and there he was, lost in conversation with two other Jedi. He saw her and quickly extricated himself from the conversation. She was unable to speak, overwhelmed with the reality that he was standing in front of her, whole and unharmed. Unable to stop herself, she immediately reached out for him, kissing him greedily. He took full advantage of her reaction. Grace forgotten, he half-dragged, half-carried her to her private shuttle. It was clumsy and inelegant and glorious. They finally ended up in her apartment, in her bed. Thanks to the war and her own cruelty, he was older, quieter. He did not beg her for promises or effusively profess his feelings. He was gentle and loving. Perhaps he came to the same realization as she - their relationship was doomed. There was no talk of their future together, no talk of a next time. That fact did not stop either of them from enjoying their stolen moment. She was desperate to imprint him indelibly on her memory and body. She had no idea at the time just how successful she was. When he finally left he had missed the convoy to the Outer Rim and most certainly would be disciplined. When he finally left, she was pregnant with Luke and Leia. Bail was always one of her closest friends and he became her lone confidant. She told him everything about Anakin and her condition. She told him she had no intention of informing Anakin of the pregnancy. The knowledge would not, could not, change either of their paths and it would only make their choices harder. Bail was widowed several years earlier and when he suggested a marriage, she immediately rejected the idea. She would not be a burden to him. She would not force him to claim another man’s child. But Bail persisted in his own kind and logical way. He cared for her, he respected her and he finally admitted, he was rather smitten with her. He swore he had wanted a child for a very long time, had thought himself too old. He said he would welcome the opportunity to raise a child with her regardless of the child’s true paternity. It was not genetics, he said, but rather actions that made a man a father. Padmé was fond of him and he made a very convincing argument. She did not relish the idea of showing up on her parents’ doorstep pregnant and jobless in need of shelter. She accepted Bail’s proposal. She resigned her seat in the Senate and she became his wife. And then came the end of the Clone Wars, Order 66 and Palpatine’s rise to Emperor. Despite Padmé’s affection for her new husband she mourned the death of the Jedi – the death of Anakin Skywalker – so profoundly it sent her into early labor. The twins were born healthy and strong. Bail supported his wife, pretending not to notice how soul-deep her sorrow ran. She clearly remembers the first time she saw Darth Vader, the Emperor’s wrath. The menacing, shadowy form draped in black Zeyd-cloth robes was indistinguishable as human. Yet there was something so familiar about him, even from the great distance which she viewed him at one of the Emperor’s grand parades several months after the end of the war. She went out of her way to walk alone, knowing, somehow, he would find her. He did. His voice was broken, rasping. The only part of his face visible beneath the black hood was his jaw. A human jaw. He ordered her to stop. She did. One of his black gloved hands grasped her jaw, forcing her face toward his. She was still unable to distinguish any of his features beneath the hood. But there was something there. Something she could not deny. “Anakin?” she asked, her voice quavering with emotion. He immediately released her, pushing her away so abruptly she stumbled and fell. “Whore!” he spat at her in his gravelly voice. And then he was gone and she knew. Anakin Skywalker had survived. She never told Bail about the encounter. She couldn’t. She didn’t want to admit the man who fathered her children was now the most feared creature in the galaxy. She didn’t want to admit whatever role she may have played in his transformation. Yet, she knew he would not stay away. Whatever goodness in Anakin Skywalker allowed him to set her free was destroyed. Lord Vader clearly viewed her as a possession. For months the harassment persisted. It was a vicious dance, a careful ballet she stepped through with herself as much as with him. She warred with her own desires as much as she did with his demands. He could have forced her, that much was always shockingly clear. Yet he never did. As much as he wanted – and intended – to win, it was not in such a manner. Coercion, manipulation, those are his tools where she is concerned. Yet for all of his lies and petty threats, it was his truth that finally drew her to him. He hassled her for months, when she shopped or walked or did anything alone. He never approached her when Bail or the twins were near and for that she was intensely grateful. But she knows she found more and more excuses to be alone in public, giving him the opportunity for contact. It was to this apartment he finally brought her. It was here he finally revealed what lay beneath the hood and robes. She knew from the damage to his voice he was grievously wounded. He stood there, vulnerable, allowing her to bear witness to the damage Obi-Wan inflicted. He refuses to elaborate on what exactly happened on Mustafar. She only knows there was a vicious battle and he was nearly killed in the process of murdering his former mentor. His face was left unscathed and for that she is secretly happy. His torso was not so lucky. Most of it is covered with raw skin grafts that make her question the Emperor’s true intention toward his apprentice. His right leg was amputated above the knee and replaced with a mechanical limb. He was quiet, watching her reaction, waiting for her horror or refusal. She gave him neither. She gave him herself. She wonders if it is his failings rather than his abilities that have always attracted her. She wonders if he remembered her reaction after the Battle of Geonosis and counted on her sympathy to draw her near yet again. Regardless of what brought them here, it is done. She is Lord Vader’s lover. She betrays her husband, finding pleasure in a Sith’s arms. She knows Bail is neither stupid nor naive. She knows he must suspect. And she knows he probably understands far more than she would ever allow herself to admit. They often discuss the Empire’s problems, the most egregious human rights violations. Now and then Bail will discuss a particular project of his with such passion, explain it to her so pointedly she has the distinct impression he wants her to champion the cause to her lover. Now and then, she does. For all of his high-handed pronouncements and power plays, there are times when her lover is quiet, gentle. There are times when he touches her so carefully, so lovingly, she knows there is good in him. She wonders if in several months time he will suspect the child conceived today is his. As far as she knows, he believes Luke and Leia to be Bail’s children. He never mentions them and he bristles when she slips and does so. But then again, maybe not everything is as it seems. She often wonders why he shares her affections with Bail. She suspects it has much to do with the Emperor. As long as she is publicly viewed as Bail Organa’s wife, as the mother of Bail Organa’s children, the Emperor has no reason to suspect she means anything to his apprentice. Surely Lord Vader would not suffer such an insult as to share his lover. Surely Lord Vader would not allow another man to claim his children. The door to the apartment hisses open and she turns, watching him walk into the room. She crosses her arms, regarding him warily. “I’ve been waiting for you.” End Section -----signature----- my site: http://www.indiefic.com email: indiefic@hotmail.com Journal: http://indiefic-sw.livejournal.com/ Y!IM: ndfic
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laurethiel1138 Registered: Feb '03	Date Posted: 9/18/07 10:51am Subject: RE: The Senator's Wife - AU - Padme/Vader - updated 9/18 - Date Edited: 9/18/07 10:53am (1 edits total) Edited By: laurethiel1138
	Wow. is speechless Honestly. Just breathtaking. And heartwrenching. This is a very fine start indeed. Spot-on characterization, with amazing psychological depth. Please PM me when you update. Also, could you send me the links to the unabridged versions? Cheers, Lauré -----signature----- "You don't fall in love, you rise up to it." - Padawan Lunetta's 'Shadows' Lioness of Kele-en's Serenity-2 crew Elf of TKeira_Lea's Wraith Squadron Links to my SW and non-SW fics in bio
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dtdang2 Registered: Jun '05	Date Posted: 9/18/07 11:42am Subject: RE: The Senator's Wife - AU - Padme/Vader - updated 9/18
	I love your writing and your stories! Please put me on your PM list. I am hopelessly hooked! Also, I'm WAAAY over 18, so please PM me a link to your other versions too! -----signature----- Reunited: Anakin's Journey in the Afterlife http://boards.theforce.net/The_Saga/b10476/20612562/?0 Reincarnation (AU/Romance with Vader, Cloned Padme) http://boards.theforce.net/message
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Anakins-girl Registered: May '05	Date Posted: 9/18/07 11:43am Subject: RE: The Senator's Wife - AU - Padme/Vader - updated 9/18
	I read this story on your LJ but i had to comment that it's so good! -----signature----- I'm a sucker for a good A/P love story & I don't mind alittle Vader love too! I talked to Hayden Christensen on 7/22/06
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Anakin_Heartbreaker Registered: Sep '04	Date Posted: 9/18/07 12:06pm Subject: RE: The Senator's Wife - AU - Padme/Vader - updated 9/18
	Whoa!!!! Now that was an intense read that made me forget how to breathe for a few moments. So much raw emotion, and incredibly gifted story telling! A truly marvelous start!
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JediMasterJessica Registered: Jul '05	Date Posted: 9/18/07 12:51pm Subject: RE: The Senator's Wife - AU - Padme/Vader - updated 9/18
	Awesome start! I'm hooked on this already. Can I be added to the PM list? I'm also over 18- so if you could send me that I'd be really happy. Thanks so much. -----signature----- Proud lover of A/P, Siriwan, L/M, & TK/J Yo mamma is so stupid, she thought Jar Jar came with Pickles Pickles
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geno Registered: Jul '07	Date Posted: 9/18/07 12:52pm Subject: RE: The Senator's Wife - AU - Padme/Vader - updated 9/18
	interesting story and look forward to more. If you have a pm list please add me and I also like the alternate versions
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SilSolo Registered: Mar '04	Date Posted: 9/18/07 2:25pm Subject: RE: The Senator's Wife - AU - Padme/Vader - updated 9/18
	I'd like to be Pm'ed if you update -----signature----- http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/27517284/p1/?11 Like this quick sketch: http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/32848083/ ? Then commission me. Prices are negotiable.
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Amidala66 Registered: Jul '05	Date Posted: 9/18/07 6:27pm Subject: RE: The Senator's Wife - AU - Padme/Vader - updated 9/18
	Well you know from previous requests on one of your other stories that I am past 18yrs old. If you could send me the link for the otherversions, i would be happy. This is a great story and it is only beginning. -----signature----- I am Angel #2 of "Anakin's Angels" The Practical One It's baseball season: time for all good Jedi to use a bat and not a saber
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AnakinsFavorite Registered: Apr '06	Date Posted: 9/18/07 7:01pm Subject: RE: The Senator's Wife - AU - Padme/Vader - updated 9/18
	I must say that this looks like a very promising piece of fanfiction It snagged me right away- something that seems to rarely happen these days. I'm really big on character development, and I love how you've written Padme here. Keep up the great work, and I shall eagerly await the next post to see how this wicked tale unfolds. Could I please be added to your PM List? I'd hate to miss anything! AnakinsFavorite -----signature----- "I want not fame, beauty, love, or money- all I desire is to make a difference and be remembered for it. Life demands this of me, and I am its humble servant." ~Me
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Jaded_Rose Registered: Nov '06	Date Posted: 9/18/07 7:21pm Subject: RE: The Senator's Wife - AU - Padme/Vader - updated 9/18
	I'm with AF on this one - I've found myself cutting back on fanfic, yet your story compelled me to reply! It is really wonderful, and all the characters are very sympathetic. J_Ro -----signature----- The pen is mightier than the sword, if it has been sharpened to a fine point, dipped in deadly poison and thrown from ten feet away. But really, you're better off with a sword. -America, The Book
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indiefic Registered: Jun '07	Date Posted: 9/21/07 3:29am Subject: RE: The Senator's Wife - AU - Padme/Vader - updated 9/18
	TITLE: Mine (1/1) TIMELINE: 8 weeks after the events of “The Senator’s Wife” SUMMARY: Lord Vader and Lady Organa have a candid conversation NOTES: There is an extended version of this chapter. If you are over 18 and would like the link, let me know. *** She is loathe to wake and grunts in annoyance as she feels the mattress depress under his weight. “Go away,” she mumbles, rolling away from him while using her cloak to shield her eyes from the afternoon light. “Feeling unwell, my love?” he asks. Oddly enough, his tone is not unendurably mocking. “Tired, grouchy, sick,” she mumbles. “I suppose it’s too much to expect you to do me the courtesy of informing me you’re pregnant,” he says dryly, grabbing her arm and rolling her over to face him. She looks up at him, watching his face for any hint of feeling. She had no illusions about keeping the pregnancy a secret from him, but she didn’t expect him to realize quite so soon. She hasn’t even started showing yet. “It’s none of your business,” she says, rolling away again. “You are my business,” he says imperiously. She grunts in disagreement but doesn’t have the energy to actually argue with him. She isn’t sure if it’s merely a difference in pregnancies or perhaps she blocked out memories of her first trimester with the twins, but she cannot remember ever feeling so exhausted in her entire life. Simply making her way to the apartment sapped every bit of energy. Between the exhaustion and the morning sickness she isn’t certain she’ll make it to the birth. He laughs again and this time there is genuine humor. “You’ll live,” he says dryly, obviously sensing her emotions in the Force. “You have no one to blame but yourself. I trust you know how to avoid these inconveniences if you truly wished.” She wouldn’t have answered him even if she possessed the energy. He’s right, of course. She is quite capable of using birth control. But as he so aptly pointed out, she didn’t. She could lie and pretend it is because of Bail. Her guilt over his rearing of another man's children is more than sufficient for her to attempt to present him with his own son or daughter. However, after four years of never using any contraceptives with her husband, she suspects it is never destined to happen. And she wanted another child. Another of his children. But she will die before she admits that. “Bail wants more children,” she says. It is both true and has the added bonus of reminding him of her sex life with her husband. She almost wishes she had the energy to roll over and watch the scowl on his face. There is an ominous silence. “And which of your lovers sired this parasite?” he finally demands. His tone is hard, biting and she regrets her provocative comment, not least of all because he always knows when she’s lying. Dammit, she’s so tired. She doesn’t have the energy to fight with him. She searches for a politic answer that doesn’t require her to lie. “The same one who fathered Luke and Leia,” she says. He grunts in reply and then falls silent. She has almost drifted off to sleep when his hand touches her hip. “Mine then,” he says quietly, possessively. She shivers uncontrollably and he rolls her over at the same time stretching out next to her on the bed. She curls into his much larger form, nestling her head under his chin. His arm wraps around her back, drawing her near. “You thought I didn’t know?” he asks quietly. “I didn’t want to know if you knew,” she answers honestly. “Why do you think I allow Bail Organa to live?” he asks darkly. “You best pray he never succeeds in getting you pregnant.” She pulls her head back far enough to look into his eyes. “Bail is a good man,” she says. “A good father.” He flinches ever so slightly at the implication that he, unlike Bail, would not be a good father. “A pity you can’t bring yourself to love him,” he says cruelly. “I love Bail,” she counters honestly. “You aren’t in love with him,” he replies. It is not a question, but a statement of fact. She doesn’t bother to deny it. He would know she was lying. She looks away. Indeed it is a pity that Bail is such a good man and yet she cannot bring herself to fall in love with him. That sacred emotion is reserved for the vicious, possessive creature in whose grasp she rests. She blames her raging hormones for the single tear that streaks down her cheek. He leans over her, tracing the track of her tear with his tongue. “My love,” he rasps, pulling her closer. His teeth nip gently along the line of her jaw and his hand finds its way beneath her cloak to caress her skin. Her breath hisses between her teeth as she arches into his touch. "I hate you," she says. She means it. She also means I love you. And he knows it. *** Much later, when they are both sated and sleepy, he pulls her close yet again. As she fades into slumber, she hears him say, "Mine." *** End -----signature----- my site: http://www.indiefic.com email: indiefic@hotmail.com Journal: http://indiefic-sw.livejournal.com/ Y!IM: ndfic
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indiefic Registered: Jun '07	Date Posted: 9/21/07 3:38am Subject: RE: The Senator's Wife - AU - Padme/Vader - updated 9/21
	Oops! Forgot to post these before the latest update laurethiel1138 - Thanks! You're added to the PM list. dtdang2 - You're added to the PM list. Anakins-girl - Thanks! Anakin_Heartbreaker - Thank you so much for the great feedback! JediMasterJessica - You're added geno - Added! Thanks! SilSolo - You're added to the PM list. Amidala66 - Thanks! Glad you like it. AnakinsFavorite - Aww! Thank you. You're added to the PM list. Jaded_Rose - Thank you. That's incredibly humbling. -----signature----- my site: http://www.indiefic.com email: indiefic@hotmail.com Journal: http://indiefic-sw.livejournal.com/ Y!IM: ndfic
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Mirik Registered: Dec '05	Date Posted: 9/21/07 5:18am Subject: RE: The Senator's Wife - AU - Padme/Vader - updated 9/21
	It must be an addiction, but I re-read your stories on - livejournal - ff.net - your own site - here -- and save as files on my HDD and I can't get enough thank you for your amazing talent of weaving whole new AUs -----signature----- Mothers lose all memory of their own wrong doings when confronted with those of their
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AnakinsFavorite Registered: Apr '06	Date Posted: 9/21/07 6:24am Subject: RE: The Senator's Wife - AU - Padme/Vader - updated 9/21
	Whoa! So the one thing she knew would happen- and probably didn’t want to happen (deep down, because she knew it was wrong-) was getting pregnant! This is going to make things interesting and complicated, but I’m the sort that likes that sort of stuff! Whew! That conversation gave me the shivers… Vader was particularly cold (that was horrible how he asked “who fathered the parasites”! ) That conversation was anything but candid- it was on so many levels and left me wanting more! My favorite part was the very ending… very wicked! Terrific post! AnakinsFavorite -----signature----- "I want not fame, beauty, love, or money- all I desire is to make a difference and be remembered for it. Life demands this of me, and I am its humble servant." ~Me
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Anakin_Heartbreaker Registered: Sep '04	Date Posted: 9/21/07 6:58am Subject: RE: The Senator's Wife - AU - Padme/Vader - updated 9/21
	That was an intense altercation between the two. I'm not surprised that he could sense the twins were his. Excellent post! Looking forward to more.
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