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MsLanna Title: CR GSFF Central = Offizieller Burger Brater Registered: Jul '05	Date Posted: 1/7/07 10:27am Subject: ~ Who I am ~ - Dear Diary Challenge 2007, COMPLETED 12/21 - Date Edited: 12/21/07 4:51am (47 edits total) Edited By: MsLanna
	Title: Who I am Author: MsLanna Characters: Now that wuld be major spoilers at this time But not an OC this time. Timeframe: 1 Year ABY Notes: Written for the Dear Diary 07 Challenge Cover Art to be found on page 4, because of spoilers... Day 1 They say I will live. They say it will take much more time than it already has, but I will live. I cannot remember how long it has already taken. They say, I should write this all down so I will remember. They say, I might remember again - one day. But they also say, I might forget what I know now then. I don't know if they are right. I don't know who they are. They look at me with sad eyes, and I feel that I have seen them before. But I do not know. I do not remember. I don't know who I am, and neither do they. A child has found me in a street, believing me dead. And I must have scared it terribly by opening my eyes. Now I am here and nobody is looking for me. They say, my finger prints and retina scans match none in the registers, not of Coruscant, not anywhere else. But neither is there a bounty on my head. I am nobody. And nobody is looking for me. -----signature----- "You will kill yourself trying to live up to their expectations." "That's okay for me." Cuyir adate jate, bal droten ori'dush Proud Master and buir'ika of Commander_Ducky. My New Title: Lords and Ladies of the Empire
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G__Anakin Registered: Apr '06	Date Posted: 1/7/07 10:34am Subject: RE: Who I am - Diary Challenge 2007
	Looks intresting! Do you mind PMing me with updates! -----signature----- Master to tahiriveilax - - - My fanfic - - - Fate of the Jedi - Abyss : http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/30246540/p1/ Yeah, I used the real title for the next book. Beware Omen Spoilers.
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GraySaberFreque Registered: Nov '06	Date Posted: 1/7/07 10:41am Subject: RE: Who I am - Diary Challenge 2007
	I love depressing mysteries like this. Two thumbs WAY UP. -----signature----- Without (10,000 ABY)-http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/26293075/p1/?16 Padawan to Correlian_Ale Member Of The GDG Member Of the Anti-Hapan Society [CENTER][IMG http://www.wizards.com/magic/images/whatcolor_isred.jpg [/IMG][URL=http://www.wi
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Sith-I-5 Registered: Aug '02	Date Posted: 1/7/07 10:49am Subject: RE: Who I am - Diary Challenge 2007
	Certainly reads very well. -----signature----- Crowning Moment of Awesome – THE MASTER. Summoning six billion robotic beach balls Of Doom to decimate the Earth, blowing a good-bye kiss to the Doctor, all the while dancing to "Voodoo Child". EPIC. EVIL. WIN. 007 Family - DVC's twin bro'.
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correllian_ale Title: Manager Emeritus Registered: Jun '05	Date Posted: 1/7/07 11:02am Subject: RE: Who I am - Diary Challenge 2007
	Ooo! Ooo! waves hand around frantically I know who it is! Probably not. I'm really looking forward to this as it goes on MsL! -----signature----- Consider this my "throw back" jersey... I govern my life around my own personal code of ethics, and I suggest that you do the same.
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Star_Angel Registered: Jan '06	Date Posted: 1/7/07 11:16am Subject: RE: Who I am - Diary Challenge 2007
	I loved this, very mysterious. Great beginning Lanna and I’m looking forward to read more. -----signature----- “It’s not our abilities that shows us what we truly are, it is our choices” – Albus Dumbledor (CoS) <- fanfics/fanart + a funny video in bio SWEDEN HOCKEY forever
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MsLanna Title: CR GSFF Central = Offizieller Burger Brater Registered: Jul '05	Date Posted: 1/9/07 4:24am Subject: RE: Who I am - Diary Challenge 2007
	Thank you all for reading. I hope I can keep up the mystery a bit longer without everybody finding out who he is too soon. gives c_a a stern look And no spoilers, right. Day 2 I read the entry of yesterday. I know I wrote it, but I can't remember. The longer I stare at the flimsy the more confused I get. I understand now, why they didn't give me a data pad. I recognize my handwriting. I wrote - but I don't remember. They said that would happen. I believe them now. I will write everything down, even if reading it is creepy. I have already lost a month. But that does not mater much, I can't even remember. They said, I needed a name and they are right. They have names and they wear them on little nameplates on their shirts. It is a good thing, because I cannot remember the names. I know I must have seen them before, they have told me their names many times. But I can't remember. I closed my eyes to think about it, I tried to find anything that connected me to my past. In the thick fog that clouded my memory, little rung out, and even less that was a name. I was in the fog for a long time, almost like walking, trying out sounds. My name is Lancer. For now. It sounds about right, especially when I think about free-lancers. It is not much of a clue, though, since you can do anything free lance. But I like the idea that I am my own boss, that I decide what to do. Because I should decide. I know what is right and what is wrong. They ask me how I can know, but I cannot explain. It is like writing - when they put the pen in my hand, I knew how to do it. And I also know that it is important to know right from wrong. It is fundamental, essential -- without this knowledge, you are nothing. Rape is wrong -- and so is slavery, theft, murder. This I know. When I look into the mirror and see Lancer, his face is strange. I should recognize it, but something about it is wrong. The eyes, for example, big dark eyes with dark brows. I think they should be more slit-like and the brows belong closer to them. And the nose is much too short. My cheekbones do not protrude enough, my ears are too big and I cannot remember that sensual mouth at all. Lancer looks back at me, and I know, we have very little in common. The body is one thing. I am well-muscled, not overly, but -- shaped. I go into the gym every day and work out. It is something to do and if I liked to be in shape before, well I certainly still liked it now. But now, I like running best. I hold on to the rails of the conveyor with both hands and close my eyes. I can believe that I am running to forget for a while, I run and close my eyes and lose track of the world. When I open my eyes, I will walk back into my life, take up the daily routines, my family. But, of course, I never do. When I open my eyes, I look at the monitor that displays any kind of landscape going by. I see the gym around me and I know that I have not run far enough to escape. I am covered with sweat, tired and still nobody. I cannot run -- this I know. -----signature----- "You will kill yourself trying to live up to their expectations." "That's okay for me." Cuyir adate jate, bal droten ori'dush Proud Master and buir'ika of Commander_Ducky. My New Title: Lords and Ladies of the Empire
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VaderLVR64 Title: Manager Emeritus Registered: Feb '04	Date Posted: 1/9/07 4:44am Subject: RE: Who I am - Diary Challenge 2007, updated 1/9
	A great diary! Please PM me with updates. They ask me how I can know, but I cannot explain. It is like writing - when they put the pen in my hand, I knew how to do it. And I also know that it is important to know right from wrong. It is fundamental, essential -- without this knowledge, you are nothing. Rape is wrong -- and so is slavery, theft, murder. This I know. When I look into the mirror and see Lancer, his face is strange. I should recognize it, but something about it is wrong. The eyes, for example, big dark eyes with dark brows. I think they should be more slit-like and the brows belong closer to them. And the nose is much too short. My cheekbones do not protrude enough, my ears are too big and I cannot remember that sensual mouth at all. I like your OC. -----signature----- R.I.P John, Alex, Jason, and Christian Never forgotten Soldiers' Angels http://soldiersangels.org/ 2114 soldiers waiting for someone to care
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G__Anakin Registered: Apr '06	Date Posted: 1/9/07 7:03pm Subject: RE: Who I am - Diary Challenge 2007, updated 1/9
	Cool! -----signature----- Master to tahiriveilax - - - My fanfic - - - Fate of the Jedi - Abyss : http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/30246540/p1/ Yeah, I used the real title for the next book. Beware Omen Spoilers.
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correllian_ale Title: Manager Emeritus Registered: Jun '05	Date Posted: 1/11/07 9:17pm Subject: RE: Who I am - Diary Challenge 2007, updated 1/9
	My name is Lancer. For now. It sounds about right, especially when I think about free-lancers. It is not much of a clue, though, since you can do anything free lance. But I like the idea that I am my own boss, that I decide what to do. Because I should decide. I know what is right and what is wrong. No not much at all...though I have my suspicions. The way your OC has bouts with both amnesia, and basic self-knowledge is really well balanced! (thank-you again for the sneak peek) You know already, but a fabulous entry! I understand now, why they didn't give me a data pad. I recognize my handwriting. By the way, that's a great little tidbit to add in! -----signature----- Consider this my "throw back" jersey... I govern my life around my own personal code of ethics, and I suggest that you do the same.
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KELIA Title: The Pretty in Pink Fan Fic Manager Registered: Jul '05	Date Posted: 1/12/07 7:51am Subject: RE: Who I am - Diary Challenge 2007, updated 1/9
	Very intense. How tragic Lancer cannot remember himself or his life but at least the Empire is not looking for him - that's always a good thing. Looking forward to more -----signature----- "Do or do not, there is no try." Master Yoda A Light In The Darkness: http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/28150602/p1/?8 NaNaWriMo Progress: 11,018
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MsLanna Title: CR GSFF Central = Offizieller Burger Brater Registered: Jul '05	Date Posted: 1/16/07 4:31am Subject: RE: Who I am - Diary Challenge 2007, updated 1/9 - Date Edited: 2/22/08 3:01am (2 edits total) Edited By: MsLanna
	Consider yourself added, VaderLVR. But this time, first time ever indeed, I do not write an OC. I put that in the header. But it might be AU, I have no idea what happened to him at that time. Of course, with this amnesia thing going on, I can pretty much make him everything I want. A word of clarification, G__Anakin. (I hope) We all know common amnesia, buit somewhere I read about this special kind when you remember everything up until a certain day and then -- nothing. I think he was a soldier who still believed to be in his midtwenties, when he was already over fifty. I liked the concept, very interesting to dabble with. Woah, c_a no spreading of the OC mistake. BTW, now you do know, don't you? I had to add that, because I wondered why he should believe he has written anything on a pad. It did not make sense. Well, KELIA the latter remains to be seen. But right now, I'd say he's pretty safe. Day 3 I cannot remember writing the two days before. I whack my head. I try to hammer the act in: "Every day I write. Everyday, I will write." Remember! Only tomorrow I will know if it worked. They say, I should write down what I do in a day. But this isn't much, and it's boring. I get up at seven, I shower, and I shave. I shave my head, too. Somehow the short dark stubble is irritating me, so I cut it off. Breakfast is served at eight, I sit in the room with many other patients, I cannot remember any of them. There is the lady that says she is my mother. There is a man who says he is a droideka. I know the word, how I know, I'm not sure. I know what a droideka is and he is not one. I laugh when he activates his shields or tries to roll off. There is a girl saying she is the Queen of Coruscant -- she also says she is a tea kettle. There is spyboy, who believes that at the Emperor himself is after him. He always carries broken electronics to monitor his Majesty's activities. I wonder if I am the only one with a memory problem. They say I am. They say, they have no place for me to go, I have no money. They are wrong. I have money, I am not a poor man. I have a ship -- this I know. They showed me pictures of all kinds of ships, and I tell them mine is not among them. They exchange meaningful glances. They don't believe me. But I know I have a ship. I can't remember what it looks like, but I would recognize it, I'm sure. After breakfast I have therapy, mostly finding out what I can do and what not. I can write, read, calculate and know everyday objects and their uses. I know of many places, though I don't know if I have ever been there or not. When they show me blotches of ink, I see blotches of ink. I don't think my imagination is very good. But I know many species, I can tell a male Hutt from a female. They are surprised. What I don't know is current politics. This government is an Empire. When they showed me a picture of Lord Vader, who is second in command, I said: "He looks like me." They exchanged more meaningful glances. They shook their heads. But he did look like me, only his face is different. I cannot explain it to them. They don't like to hear that I think my face is all wrong. I think, it worries them. What I don't know is how do I link all this information, everything that I do know together, and how it relates to me. I know many streets on Coruscant, but I cannot link them to anything I might have done. I knew what a flat looks like in general, but I don't know what mine was like. I knew various vocations, but I could not remember my profession. I pace around the park until lunch is served, and then I go spend time in the gym. Sometimes I have more talks with the doctors. I eat dinner, I write things down. This is not enough. I must see and find all objects I know about. I must get to a computer terminal, I need more information. -----signature----- "You will kill yourself trying to live up to their expectations." "That's okay for me." Cuyir adate jate, bal droten ori'dush Proud Master and buir'ika of Commander_Ducky. My New Title: Lords and Ladies of the Empire
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karebear214 Registered: Sep '02	Date Posted: 1/16/07 12:59pm Subject: RE: Who I am - Diary Challenge 2007, updated 1/16
	Very well done. You do an excellent job capturing what I imagine must be an enormously difficult state of mind. The character's drive to find out who he is carries the reader through the story with him. Just like him, I hunger for more information. It's a great hook, and I'm looking forward to following it. -----signature----- "I don't like it that you can win an argument without using verbs." - Luke Skywalker to Ben, "Outcast"
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G__Anakin Registered: Apr '06	Date Posted: 1/16/07 4:53pm Subject: RE: Who I am - Diary Challenge 2007, updated 1/16
	Cool chapter -----signature----- Master to tahiriveilax - - - My fanfic - - - Fate of the Jedi - Abyss : http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/30246540/p1/ Yeah, I used the real title for the next book. Beware Omen Spoilers.
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correllian_ale Title: Manager Emeritus Registered: Jun '05	Date Posted: 1/19/07 3:29am Subject: RE: Who I am - Diary Challenge 2007, updated 1/16
	Even though I think I've figured it out, I still like the pacing...throwing clues here and there. Remember, you've got almost a year to fluxh him out. When they showed me a picture of Lord Vader, who is second in command, I said: "He looks like me." That's what threw me off, but then I thought bout it and it made sense... That and the fact he has a ship. -----signature----- Consider this my "throw back" jersey... I govern my life around my own personal code of ethics, and I suggest that you do the same.
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VaderLVR64 Title: Manager Emeritus Registered: Feb '04	Date Posted: 1/22/07 4:44am Subject: RE: Who I am - Diary Challenge 2007, updated 1/16
	Superb update! After breakfast I have therapy, mostly finding out what I can do and what not. I can write, read, calculate and know everyday objects and their uses. I know of many places, though I don't know if I have ever been there or not. When they show me blotches of ink, I see blotches of ink. I don't think my imagination is very good. But I know many species, I can tell a male Hutt from a female. They are surprised. What I don't know is current politics. This government is an Empire. When they showed me a picture of Lord Vader, who is second in command, I said: "He looks like me." They exchanged more meaningful glances. They shook their heads. But he did look like me, only his face is different. I cannot explain it to them. They don't like to hear that I think my face is all wrong. I think, it worries them. You're doing a great job of exploring his confusion and doubt. Wonderful! -----signature----- R.I.P John, Alex, Jason, and Christian Never forgotten Soldiers' Angels http://soldiersangels.org/ 2114 soldiers waiting for someone to care
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