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LilyHobbitJedi Registered: Aug '05	Date Posted: 4/15/08 7:16pm Subject: Gravity- A Vader Songfic- Angst - Date Edited: 4/15/08 7:16pm (1 edits total) Edited By: LilyHobbitJedi
	Title: Gravity Author: LilyHobbitJedi Timeframe: Post ROTS Characters: Anakin/Vader Genre: Vignette/Songfic/Angst Summary: As Vader starts his new life, he never forgets everything he’s lost. Notes: A plot bunny bit pretty hard today and so I’m back with another songfic. The song in this is Gravity by John Mayer. Gravity Gravity Is working against me And gravity Wants to bring me down Never did Anakin Skywalker’s life did he ever imagine that breathing could be a chore. Every breath he took, Anakin couldn’t forget the set of circumstances that put him on this path. One where he was unfeeling and admittedly cruel, and one where he never would laugh or smile again. For he had to continue to tell himself that he was no longer Anakin, Jedi Knight and Commander of the Republic. Instead his existence had become that of Darth Vader, Sith Lord, and the Emperor’s right hand man. It was a shocking transition, but none more that the suit he now wore. After his grave error on Mustafar, Anakin was confined to the black suit that was now a part of him. He realized that he was more machine than man, but the human part of him loathed the transition. Learning how to walk on his cybernetic legs was a chore, not to mention eating from a tube, and having a machine force his heart to beat. He was Darth Vader, nothing more and nothing less. Oh I'll never know What makes this man With all the love That his heart can stand Dream of ways To throw it all away Padmé was gone, and every day his failure to protect her, haunted Vader. Not in his dreams, because after all he didn’t need to sleep much anymore, but during the unbidden moments when he least expected it. She turned on him, Padmé sided with the turncoat Jedi and now she was dead. Vader couldn’t prevent it from happening and now he wondered why visions of her beauty would never leave him be. His child died when she did and the glimmer of excitement Anakin felt when he learned he was going to be a father, was struck with Vader’s pain. It was during the middle of a war, and not particularly a good time to bring children into the world, but in that moment he’d been proud to think he would be a father. And now that would never be. Oh Gravity Is working against me And gravity Wants to bring me down He never knew that when he took on the role of Sidious’ apprentice, that the role would be so unrewarding. At times Vader felt as if he sacrifice meant nothing, and that he was never going to be rewarded as he felt just. He was the Emperor’s favorite, but in all actuality that really didn’t seem to mean he was treated very different from Palpatine’s other servants. Yet Vader knew that we was the Sith’s greatest tool. Everywhere he walked he intimidated, every time he spoke he struck fear, and every time he walked others ran the other way. It felt very powerful and intense, but he no longer had any friends. Oh twice as much Ain’t twice as good And can't sustain Like one half could It's wanting more It's gonna send me to my knees He couldn’t give into his emotions anymore. That was the greatest difference between Anakin and Vader. Anakin was impulsive, compassionate, and at times very immature. His new life as Vader meant that he carried none of the same flaws. He was a cold and deadly foe, and it was rare at all that he let on his true emotions behind his mask. People often speculated that he was actually a droid. Little did they know about the raging man inside. He fought and bullied himself almost more than he did to those under his command. Vader sulked daily yet this was never revealed to any. Only his Master knew of his constant inner turmoil, and yet Palpatine was satisfied with it. Oh gravity Stay the hell away from me Oh gravity Has taken better men than me Now how can that be? There were so many times over the course of his life when Vader wish he’d done something differently. Reaching his mother in time to save her and not making that jump to the riverbank on Mustafar. Yet when it came down to it, Anakin really wasn’t sure that he would’ve done anything different. His faults and strengths led him to the position Vader was in now and he would accept it. He would never again kiss his wife, have a friendly conversation, or joke. Vader would greet a stranger with a smile or a nod, or help an elderly being cross an intersection. He would never feel the wind blow through his hair as he rode a speederbike or feel the sweat on his brow after a workout. This was Vader’s existence…nothing and pain. And darkness, one that would never dissipate. Just keep me where the light is... -----signature----- Proud Master to eboneya & Alassë Eärfalas! Everybody Lies- House/SW Crossover! http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/28032689/r28039379/ A Light In The Darkness http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b1047
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little_miss_jedi Registered: Aug '05	Date Posted: 4/15/08 11:27pm Subject: RE: Gravity- A Vader Songfic- Angst
	nabs first reply This was Vader’s existence…nothing and pain. And darkness, one that would never dissipate. Wow - that sent a shiver up my spine! The song lyrics fit perfectly with the story. It felt as though Vader were describing himself in the third person...if that makes sense!!! Whatever you did, it worked really well! good work! you should be really proud of this! -----signature----- "You power crazed, obnoxious, ludicrous little jerk." Don't Go: http://boards.theforce.net/Message.aspx?topic=28203894&brd=10476&replies=0 Jacen Solo - Forever in the light... :'(
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VaderLVR64 Title: Manager Emeritus Registered: Feb '04	Date Posted: 4/16/08 8:25am Subject: RE: Gravity- A Vader Songfic- Angst
	He fought and bullied himself almost more than he did to those under his command. Vader sulked daily yet this was never revealed to any. Only his Master knew of his constant inner turmoil, and yet Palpatine was satisfied with it. Lovely! -----signature----- R.I.P John, Alex, Jason, and Christian Never forgotten Soldiers' Angels http://soldiersangels.org/ 2114 soldiers waiting for someone to care
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KELIA Title: The Pretty in Pink Fan Fic Manager Registered: Jul '05	Date Posted: 4/16/08 1:02pm Subject: RE: Gravity- A Vader Songfic- Angst
	That was very poignant but it was exactly what Vader deserved. Great job on this -----signature----- "Do or do not, there is no try." Master Yoda A Light In The Darkness: http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/28150602/p1/?8 NaNaWriMo Progress: 11,018
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epithree Registered: Aug '06	Date Posted: 4/16/08 11:25pm Subject: RE: Gravity- A Vader Songfic- Angst
	Wow... a great story paired with an awesome song! Nicely done. Kelia is right. Anakin deserves what he gets. And I know that sounds harsh, but whenever I catch myself feeling sorry for Anakin, I just think about the things he's done. That always snaps me out of it. ~e3 -----signature----- 'And so it is.' 'charge the plasma rotors!' 'hello there.'
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DarthIshtar Title: Former CR Registered: Mar '01	Date Posted: 4/17/08 9:42am Subject: RE: Gravity- A Vader Songfic- Angst
	Very nice use of the song and great introspective. -----signature----- "I feel like a more down-to-earth Pink 5 when I'm writing Leah. Same attitude, less lip gloss." ~Me on how to get in the right mindset for Twilight fanfic.
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Takianna Registered: Apr '05	Date Posted: 4/17/08 10:07am Subject: RE: Gravity- A Vader Songfic- Angst
	Awesome song fic. Great job!!!! -----signature----- http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/29819847/p1 *** Proud master of KotORBF2Female_Revan Friend of Mrs. Ben C. Blocked
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LilyHobbitJedi Registered: Aug '05	Date Posted: 5/28/08 11:35am Subject: RE: Gravity- A Vader Songfic- Angst
	little_miss_jedi: nabs first reply Wow - that sent a shiver up my spine! The song lyrics fit perfectly with the story. It felt as though Vader were describing himself in the third person...if that makes sense!!! Whatever you did, it worked really well! I'm so glad you thought it worked so well, it was interesting to try and get in Vader's head. good work! you should be really proud of this! Thank you so much! VaderLVR64:Lovely! Thank you! KELIA:That was very poignant but it was exactly what Vader deserved. You're absolutely right, he did. Great job on this Thanks! epithree: Wow... a great story paired with an awesome song! Nicely done. Thank you so much! Kelia is right. Anakin deserves what he gets. And I know that sounds harsh, but whenever I catch myself feeling sorry for Anakin, I just think about the things he's done. That always snaps me out of it. I know exactly what you mean. The irony of Anakin's life is not lost on me, he did deserve what he became. DarthIshtar: Very nice use of the song and great introspective. Thank you so much! Takianna: Awesome song fic. Great job!!!! Thank you! -----signature----- Proud Master to eboneya & Alassë Eärfalas! Everybody Lies- House/SW Crossover! http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/28032689/r28039379/ A Light In The Darkness http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b1047
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