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VaderLVR64
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1/5/07 6:02am
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Under Duress - Dear Diary Entry - Sian Ny - updated 10/29
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Title: Under Duress
Author: VaderLVR64
Characters: OC (Sian Ny)
Notes: An OC from this series: Shadows of a Lost Padawan
Under Duress
First, I want to make it clear that I am doing this under duress. This diary should in no way be construed as something I wanted to do, or even that I don’t mind doing. I am lodging my most hearty protest in this, the very first entry and I do not expect to budge from my opinion of it as time goes on.
Now that that is taken care of, I suppose I should move on to the reasons for maintaining this embarrassing bit of prepubescent ritual.
Apparently, the Healer thought I would benefit from this exercise as a way to “work out my pain and grief.”
That’s so ridiculous that I hardly know how to answer, so I will only say this... If I did need to work out those particular issues, I would do it the way any male my age would: I would kick a wall repeatedly until I broke something in my foot.
However, that brilliant plan has two flaws – first, I am a Jedi and supposed to be above such petty responses, and second, I cannot move my legs at all, so kicking a wall seems a bit out of my repertoire now. Who knew being paralyzed would be such a drag?
I guess she thought I should do this because I’m still sad over my Padawan’s death.
Trin is dead.
I have to stare at those words for a few moments and let them sink in because it still doesn’t seem real. But it is real and there’s nothing I can do to change that.
Trin is dead.
He’ll never walk through that door again; never giggle in line with the other younglings at third-meal. He’ll never do anything again.
Yes, I’m still sad. I still mourn him. Is that so unusual?
I suppose for a Jedi it is, though now I must admit that I question our mandate to prevent attachments. How could I possibly train a young one, care for him and nurture him as every youngling deserves and then simply not care when he dies?
It doesn’t make sense and I don’t think it ever will.
So to keep the Healer happy I’ll continue writing in this ridiculous journal, though I fear the mortification of it will take years off of my life. Maybe that wouldn’t be such a bad thing after all. I admit, I probably would have been willing to risk her considerable wrath (after all, who is going to hit a man who can’t walk?) but she called in that big gundark, Qui-Gon Jinn, who threatened to sit on me until I complied with all of the Healer’s orders.
He would have killed me.
To pacify the idiot Healer and the overgrown Jinn, I’ll do as directed.
But I don’t have to like it.
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Layren
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Date Posted:
1/5/07 8:11am
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RE: Under Duress - Dear Diary Entry - Sian Ny
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Oh yay! I get to see more of Sian!!! He's got a special place in my heart since you made him just for me  I'm so glad to see his diary up   Even if he doesn't like it
Drex and Sian ought to get together and complain about the Healers over a drink sometime 
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KELIA
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Date Posted:
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Perhaps this diary will prove to be healing after all. At least Sian is willing to follow the Healer's suggestion.
Looking forward to more
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GraySaberFreque
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Date Posted:
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I love a good depressing story.
So much drama in this one I must say, especially with the poor guy being parylized and all.
I might also read the fic this is based on.
Great Fic.
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Star-Foozle
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Date Posted:
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Eee!!! It's Sian Ny!
I remember reading about him in a few of your earlier fics, and I really liked him. It's good to see him around again!
Poor Sian. His story's certainly a sad one, but hopefully keeping this diary will help to ease the hurt a bit. It's a little early, I know, but may I ask to be PM-listed? I'd love to see where this goes.
Nice work, can't wait for more!
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CT-13438
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what is sians last name i want to look him up.
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GraySaberFreque
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CT-13438 posted:
what is sians last name i want to look him up.
he's an Original character as in you can't look him up, the best you can do is PM the author to ask about him.
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CT-13438
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oh ok srry i didnt know.
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Lea-El
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1/6/07 9:21am
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I would do it the way any male my age would: I would kick a wall repeatedly until I broke something in my foot.
Yes so male. Girls cry and eat chocolate and guys kick something.
Jinn sit on him. Torture
Good start
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1/7/07 5:13am
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Oh this is great a paralysed Jedi, will he be able to move around again in the future? Can you put me on the PM list for this one
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correllian_ale
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1/7/07 11:14am
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Oh man, what a double-dose of bad luck...Sian is paralized and recently lost his padawan.
I forsee some very intense diary entries...if your'e keeping a list, be sure to PM me when you update.
and we don't all kick walls...sometimes its something with more give, like a dryer
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GraySaberFreque
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eh, I don't kicdk walls.
I hit myself in the head with a stick  .
Anyway, if your doing a PM list be sure I'm on it.
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Valairy_Scot
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Oh, very nice as always. I'll be watching for updates.
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Date Posted:
1/10/07 8:35am
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RE: Under Duress - Dear Diary Entry - Sian Ny
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Layren They can commiserate with each other!  Those interfering healers! 
KELIA But only with much whining.
GraySaberFreque It's more a series of vignettes, with some posted on this board and some on the forum board.
Star-Foozle Sure! And glad to know that you like Sian. He's one of my favorites.
CT-13438 As someone else said, he's an OC created for Layren.
Lea-El Personally, I like our system better.
earlybird-obi-wan His condition is permanent, unfortunately. 
correllian_ale That's because you're more civilized.
GraySaberFreque Thanks! And I will.
Valairy_Scot Glad you like it.
#2
The Jedi have a platitude for everything it seems. I’m pretty sure they write them all down and store them in the Archives under “Useless Information.”
They are a veritable font of wealth when it comes to meaningless words which do absolutely nothing and mean even less when it all comes down to it.
Excuse my bitterness, but I feel I’ve earned it.
Some might think I mourn these legs of mine, my ability to move where I want, walk free among my kind.
They would be both wrong and right in that assumption.
It is true that I miss the use of my legs; I would be a liar to say that I didn’t. But that is not what makes me feel as if my heart is a leaden weight inside my chest.
No, what I miss is that I’ll never watch young Trin grow to manhood. He would have been a remarkable Jedi, but an even better person. He had a rare spirit, one that I was honored to have known. I was proud of him for so many reasons, not just for his skills as a Jedi Padawan.
He was full of laughter, finding amusement even in those burdens that sometimes wear us down. Trin could see beyond the temporary sadness and heartache and look forward to something more, something better. He had the gift of contentment, a gift I now envy him terribly.
If only I could find contentment now, or even peace.
Those things, it would seem, are to be denied me.
I’ve seen Jinn watching me, his normally placid blue gaze worried. But we seldom speak of Trin. He skirts around the question and I dance (so to speak) around my answers when he finally dares to mention him.
My grief for Trin is still a private affair, shared only between myself and this accursed journal.
Here are some things I shall never forget about Trin:
*He liked to read poetry, though he would have been mortified if any of his fellow Padawans knew his secret taste in reading.
*Trin could wiggle his ears – he made me laugh many nights as we sat down to our evening meal. I would look up to answer some casual questions and his ears would be wagging back at me. Funny how we miss those little things, the silly little details we learn from living together.
*Though he was skilled with a saber, one of his fears was that he would be forced to take a sentient life. We talked often of the duty of a Jedi, that line between protecting the peace and the needless taking of a life. I was proud of him for questioning, for worrying.
I shall close this entry for the day. I grow tired more easily now, though you would think that since I do nothing but sit in this chair that I should have energy to spare.
Isn’t that odd?
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Lea-El
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Trin sounds like an exceptional padawan. I hope to learn more about him. Poor Sian at least he has a friend and his diary.
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Great update and a great character
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