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dianethx Registered: Mar '02	Date Posted: 1/19 2:30pm Subject: RE: Not Myself (Obi-Wan, Qui-Gon, OC's) Updated 1-18-08 / Chap. 15
	The poor kid. He's so confused about what has happened and what is going to happen in the future. He's so used to being treated poorly that he doesn't know which way is up. “What good is potential if you’ve been raised to believe that all you can be is what someone molded you into?” The teen looked toward the healer. “It doesn’t matter, really. It’s not like I haven’t heard it all before.” “What haven’t you heard?” “That I’m worthless…that I won’t amount to much…that all I’m good for is how much the next job brings in…that people who want to help would just be wasting their time on such a messed up kid.” He tucked his foot beneath him and thought over everything he had just said. It may take him a long time to get over that feeling. But Qui-Gon may be the key. And Dex's reminder to make your own choices. Great job. -----signature----- Betrayal - http://boards.theforce.net/s/b1/10935143 updated 9/22/08 Fragments of Illusion- http://boards.theforce.net/bts/b10475/28456473 updated 11/20/08 jedidas3's Master At last - Hope for our country
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silverfighter Registered: Apr '07	Date Posted: 1/20 10:20am Subject: RE: Not Myself (Obi-Wan, Qui-Gon, OC's) Updated 1-18-08 / Chap. 15
	Sorry I haven't been able to reply to this or your last post sooner. Unfortunately my patience at the moment isn't strong enough to be able to reply to all my favorite parts of your last post (caffeinated coffee tends to do that) , but know that I liked it. “I remember when I was a padawan; my master brought me here shortly after our partnership began. When we arrived, a meeting was in session.” Hebsley motioned to the pods around the room. “I remember being awed by the fact that the platforms were able to float away from their docking point and hover before the Chancellor’s throne. I kept thinking how fun it could be if I could just get in one and see how fast it could go.” Obi-Wan smirked while turning to look at the healer. “There’s no one here now; why not find out?” Heh heh, doing something of this sort is something I can really see Obi-Wan doing... The man smiled as a child would when finding some hidden treasure. “It’s nothing I haven’t faced before. I’m forever getting kicked out of this place.” Hebsley made a mental note: Obi-Wan was a thinker; he took in every word and pondered their meaning. I like that sentence. It's just so... I don't know what the word for it is, but I really like it. “He just wants to be a father to his son. He doesn’t expect you to be anything other than who and what you are. He just wants to find a place where he fits into your life.” Again, really like this part. Good updates, and thanks for the PMs! ~Silverfighter -----signature----- My Dear McClellan: If you are not using the army, I should like to borrow it for a short while. Yours respectfully, Abraham Lincoln Completely failed at NaNoWriMo.
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wolf_kenobi Registered: Nov '07	Date Posted: 1/20 7:19pm Subject: RE: Not Myself (Obi-Wan, Qui-Gon, OC's) Updated 1-18-08 / Chap. 15
	“He just wants to be a father to his son. He doesn’t expect you to be anything other than who and what you are. He just wants to find a place where he fits into your life.”[/quote] This was a beautiful line. I really enjoyed how the healer dealt with Obi-Wan - not the sort of 'sit down and talk' behavior he has learned to expect from other therapists that never really helped, but just letting him do what he wanted for the day, which put him more at ease, and let him actually get through to him for a bit. Great post! -----signature----- Is God willing to prevent evil but not able? Then he is not omnipotent. Is he able but not willing? Then he is malevolent. Is he both able and willing? Then whence cometh evil? Is he neither able nor willing? Then why call him God. -Epicurus Proud Vegan
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jedidas3 Registered: Apr '07	Date Posted: 1/22 11:57am Subject: RE: Not Myself (Obi-Wan, Qui-Gon, OC's) Updated 1-18-08 / Chap. 15
	Sorry it took me a couple of days to reply, I had some health issues going on, so I wasn't on the computer that much. Anyway, what can I say, it's an awesome update! I really like the healer and the relationship that is developing with Obi-Wan. He really needs an unbiased party to trust in while he's trying to decide what direction his life is going to take. This is such a wonderful story and I can't wait for the next post! -----signature----- The Past Revisited http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/28440949 Lessons Learned http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/28580784 Remembrance http://boards.theforce.net/before_the_saga/b10475/28009025 Padawan to dianethx
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Itachi-Uchiha Registered: Jul '07	Date Posted: 1/22 6:56pm Subject: RE: Not Myself (Obi-Wan, Qui-Gon, OC's) Updated 1-18-08 / Chap. 15
	I really like Hebsley. Hopefully she can draw Obi-Wan out more and make him see that he needs his father. And more importantly get him the point where he can forgive himself for doing what he had to in order to survive. -----signature----- Headstrong : http://boards.theforce.net/before_the_saga/b10475/27188681/p1/?5 Xanatos/Quinlan/Qui-Gon/Obi-Wan/Dooku Updated Sept 28th In Memoriam: Itachi Uchiha
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bek Registered: Jul '05	Date Posted: 1/30 10:25am Subject: RE: Not Myself (Obi-Wan, Qui-Gon, OC's) Updated 1-18-08 / Chap. 15 - Date Edited: 1/30 12:24pm (6 edits total) Edited By: bek
	Valairy_Scot It's official - I love the healer. for both of them, and Dex. It's going to take time, but I think Obi-Wan is beginning to think. I’m glad you like Hebsley. He’s a rather fun character to write. Obi-Wan is coming around, slowly. I think Dex kick-started the process of recovery. Lovely update. He made Obi-Wan realize that even if circumstances are beyond his control, how he responds to them is not. ratna His father had almost died and he and his mother had not even known about it. What if he had perished during one assignment or another? (you convey the terror and grief that would hold for a child very well) Obi-Wan realized for the first time how dangerous his father’s profession can be. Great story, great writing! Thank you! Cole_Kenobi Dex makes sense and I see a long friendship starting with Obi-Wan. Dex sees a lot of Kale in Obi-Wan; thereby, making the boy important to him by default. VaderLVR64 Lovely! Thanks! dianethx The poor kid. He's so confused about what has happened and what is going to happen in the future. He's so used to being treated poorly that he doesn't know which way is up. You’re so right. He feels out of sorts because he doesn’t know where the boundaries are so he’s pushing to find them. Only the reactions he’s getting isn’t what he’s used to and it’s frustrating him. It may take him a long time to get over that feeling. But Qui-Gon may be the key. And Dex's reminder to make your own choices. Sometimes it’s easier to take and believe advice from someone other than your parents. Great job. Thank you! silverfighter Sorry I haven't been able to reply to this or your last post sooner. Unfortunately my patience at the moment isn't strong enough to be able to reply to all my favorite parts of your last post (caffeinated coffee tends to do that) , but know that I liked it. No problem! I’m glad your still enjoying it. Heh heh, doing something of this sort is something I can really see Obi-Wan doing... He knows how to have fun! Hebsley made a mental note: Obi-Wan was a thinker; he took in every word and pondered their meaning. I like that sentence. It's just so... I don't know what the word for it is, but I really like it. I saw the cannon Obi-Wan as a thinker. He would strategize before taking action, at least after Qui-Gon’s death. Before that, he was a bit reckless. Again, really like this part. Good updates, and thanks for the PMs! Thank you! You’re welcome. wolf_kenobi I really enjoyed how the healer dealt with Obi-Wan - not the sort of 'sit down and talk' behavior he has learned to expect from other therapists that never really helped, but just letting him do what he wanted for the day, which put him more at ease, and let him actually get through to him for a bit. Great post! The traditional therapy sessions as some would view them can be intimidating. The thought of someone bringing himself down to the level his patient was on and seeing things from that view was appealing. I’m glad you liked it and that it worked! jedidas3 Sorry it took me a couple of days to reply, I had some health issues going on, so I wasn't on the computer that much. Anyway, what can I say, it's an awesome update! I really like the healer and the relationship that is developing with Obi-Wan. He really needs an unbiased party to trust in while he's trying to decide what direction his life is going to take. This is such a wonderful story and I can't wait for the next post! I’m glad your feeling better! Thank you for your kind words! Hebsley has been a joy to write because he isn’t your usual Jedi. He’s willing to go against the Council if it’s better for his patient that he do so, and he has no qualms about doing so. The people he helps are more important to him than the rules and regulations the Council tries to set. Itachi-Uchiha I really like Hebsley. Hopefully he can draw Obi-Wan out more and make him see that he needs his father. And more importantly get him the point where he can forgive himself for doing what he had to in order to survive. He’s learning things that are new to him, and the way he is used to being dealt with is non-existent in this new place he finds himself in. He wants to just let everything go and start new, to pick up where he left off before the accident, but his fear is greater than his need at this time. He’s sticking with what is comfortable rather than stepping out and conquering his fear. Chapter 16 The door to the apartment opened to admit one of its occupants. The morning Obi-Wan visited his father, they had openly discussed the young man’s sense of jealousy over Reed and Kale’s relationship. The teen still felt unsure around Reed and hadn’t spoken to him since the night he had let his feelings concerning his friend's apprenticeship be known, but with his father’s help and after speaking with Qui-Gon, he came to an understanding of what the Jedi life involved in the training of their younglings. Once the air had been cleared between them, Kale went out on a limb and asked the teen to move back in; Obi-Wan readily agreed. Although he enjoyed his stay with his aunt and Master Tahl, he was tired of the two women continuously fussing over him as if he were an infant. He couldn’t remember Jes ever having acted like that before. She was constantly hovering, making sure he was all right and all his needs were met. What he learned a few days after switching quarters was that the two women had behaved that way on purpose, hoping it would drive him to reconcile with his father even if that meant making him wish that Tahl and Jes would disappear. Kale stepped out of the kitchen and smiled at his son, who was lost in his own thoughts. "How’d it go?" "It was…different." The young man replied. "He’s a unique individual." Obi-Wan gave him a half smile. "So is Dex." Kale went over to the couch and sat down as his son perched himself on the arm of a nearby chair. "So he took you to the diner." "And the senate." "What did you think of our fair political center?" "The structure itself is amazing, but the senators we passed in the hallways are a rather uptight bunch." Sitting forward, Kale clasped his hands together. "How do you feel about leaving for Nyve in a couple of days?" It took a moment for the young man to switch topics. When he finally caught up, he said, "I’m rather surprised you’re not asking more questions about my session with Hebsley." "What you did or did not talk about is between the two of you. If you want to discuss things with me I would be happy to listen, but I will not force you to disclose anything you do not wish to speak of." Not replying to his father’s words, the young man instead took them to heart as his father wanting to help but not wanting to further widen the gap between them. Dex’s words came back to him. The Besalisk was right: it was up to him to decide how to view his new life and those around him. Shifting his body so he slid down the arm and into the chair, Obi-Wan replied to Kale’s previous question. “Would it be just us or are others going?” “Jes and Qui-Gon have volunteered to accompany us, not that we need chaperones. I think Jes wants to test the waters with the world she used to call home; I have a feeling she may want to return.” The teen had no problem with those who would accompany them but wondered about his father’s padawan. “What about Reed?” he asked, his mannerisms and tone on the hesitant side. “He received a mission this morning. He’ll be leaving later this evening.” “And your friend Callen?” Kale smiled. “You aren’t too fond of him are you?” “He’s not you or Qui-Gon.” Taking that as a complement, Kale replied, “He and his apprentice, Aalto, left on a mission two days ago. They’ll be gone for a while.” Thinking this over, Obi-Wan voiced his concern, "I’m not so sure we should go." "Why the reservation?" The teen shrugged. "It’s just a feeling." "Would you be willing to meditate on it?" "Are you going to be inside my mind?" "Not if you don’t want me there." The teen nodded his consent; Kale gestured to the couch and Obi-Wan accommodated him by sitting beside him. "Do you remember what I taught you?" Obi-Wan’s smile was on the shy side. "I remember." "Lead on." The young man’s smile was on the joyous side. He was being given a responsibility, something he knew he could accomplish. Granted it wasn’t anything large or miraculous, but it was a step in giving him some control over something involving himself. He gave Kale a look of gratitude, though the older man was at a bit of a loss as to why until the force whispered the reason. The Jedi understood. His son needed to feel needed but more than that, he needed to feel as if he had a say in what he did and did not participate in. Another thought came to Kale’s mind regarding the trip: he needed to check with Obi-Wan’s instructors to inform them of the boy’s impending absence. The youth had attended several courses already and seemed to be enjoying his classes save one. Deciding to concern himself with that later, Kale let himself go and answered his son’s call. Together, they drifted in the sea of tranquility and searched for an answer to Obi-Wan’s reluctance to return home. X The force offered no sense of danger in traveling to Nyve, but left no doubt that some risk was involved. Whether that was a good or a bad thing, it did not reveal. Obi-Wan struggled over the matter, unable to release his emotions. He had a bad feeling about this trip but did not have any evidence to convince Kale otherwise. When they finally surfaced, the teen blew out a harsh breath and leaned back into the sofa. Both were quiet, each going over what had and had not been revealed. Kale approached the situation with caution. He did not want his son to think he didn’t believe him because he knew what it was to feel somewhat at odds with a mission. And yet, he didn’t want this to be something that would hold Obi-Wan back from approaching things head on no matter the consequences. One could not get through life allowing fear to direct his course of action. "If we don’t go to Nyve, do you think this feeling will disappear?" Obi-Wan shrugged. "I don’t know. It’s been a constant ever since the trip was mentioned." "I think we should go and face whatever awaits us, good or bad." "I can’t face anymore unpleasantness right now," the teen whispered. "Do you think this could involve the fact that neither of us have been there since…." Kale trailed off knowing that Obi-Wan would know what he referred to. The youth looked at his father. "Perhaps. But it’s also something else, something elusive." Kale watched his son in silence, carefully allowing the teen to feel his presence through their bond but not pushing. Finally, the young man nodded his consent to the trip, having found the strength he needed. X Three Weeks Later Healer Hebsley leaned back in his chair while laying the data pad he held in his hand on the desk in front of him. Eyeing the two Council members who walked into his office, he wondered how far they would push before finally accepting that there was little information he could actually give them beyond the basics of the boy's file. "Spoke with him you have." Hebsley grinned when the elder of the council members immediately got straight to the point. He had a feeling, not for the first time, that the teen in question had somehow managed to garner Yoda’s interest. "I can almost set my watch to the two of you where certain patients are concerned. What can I do for you?" When Yoda’s ears briefly flickered back, the soul healer answered, "Yes, Master, I have." "And?" Yoda questioned. "You realize I can’t tell you any of what he has said within patient/healer confidence." "Yes, yes, know that we do. But skim from the surface you can." Hebsley sighed. "It’s more than likely information you already know. Obi-Wan’s a bright young man with a bright future ahead of him, but only if he learns how to live in the present. His past is a visible weight upon his shoulders, holding him down. It’s the influence of that burden that tells him he can be nothing more than what he has become." Yoda sat in deep thought. "Believe he can overcome this do you?" "Yes, I do. He has an incredible rapport with people though he doesn’t realize it. Instead he covers with short answers and indifference." "Humph…didn’t realize that turbolift platform races could loosen ones tongue." Yoda smiled somewhat. Hebsley smirked and stood his ground. "The important thing is he’s talking. Would you rather he still be closed off?" Mace shook his head as he moved about the room. "So how fast do those things move?" The healer grinned. "Faster than you would have thought. Young Obi-Wan was rather impressed with their maneuverability. The lad is quite knowledgeable of mechanics and how they work." "You do know you’ve been prohibited from entering the building for the next two cycles…again." Hebsley shrugged in unconcern. "Just as I was when I took the boy’s father and let him try one out." "You have a strange way of counseling, Hebs, but I must admit…it works." Having watched the debate between the two old friends, Yoda saw something in the healer’s eyes. "How feel you about the boy?" The healer smiled. "I think you know how I feel because I can see it your eyes as well. Having spent some time with him, I have a better understanding of why his family is so determined to save him from himself. He has a gentle heart and beneath that a fierce determination, even if he has yet to tap into it." "Based on his sessions, do you feel he should be allowed privileges outside the Temple, on his own?" Mace questioned. Hebsley wasted no time in answering. "He loves to be outdoors. I recommend he be allowed to come and go on his own, but assign him a curfew. If we want to earn his trust, we have to give him something in return." Hebsley looked back and forth between the masters before going ahead with his next recommendation. "I also believe we should allow him to train with a lightsaber." Mace immediately shook his head ‘no’. "Saber training involves use of the force, and he is not to be trained at this time. When his evaluation comes due, we will discuss the possibility then, and it is only a possibility." "He already uses the force on a subconscious level, Mace. He doesn’t even know how to do the things he does. If he’s in a situation where he needs something, the force supplies him. It’s that simple. So whether you allow his training or not, if he begins a regular meditation routine which I have suggested he do, he will not only become more in tune with the force but he’ll discover new skills whether you wish it or not. Meditation is afterall, a large part of how we learn. And from what I understand, Kale and the others gave the boy some lightsaber tips on their trip here. Not only did they confirm he was a natural, but they also corroborate what I’ve just told you about his relationship with the force. Besides, he needs something to focus on, to direct his energy into." Mace thought back to the council’s first meeting with the young man in question, remembering the boy’s awe. "When I saw that she would be okay, I somehow jerked the blaster from Traest’s hands into mine," he looked at the palm of his right hand in wonder and then clenched it shut." The boy did seem confused as to how he ended up with the weapon. Perhaps Hebsley was right. Mace looked at Yoda and the elder council member nodded his consent. "All right. We’ll allow him to learn katas, but he’ll have to use the initiate’s version of a lightsaber. We wouldn’t want him to hurt himself or anyone else on accident." The healer smiled in relief. "Thank you gentlemen." "You can be the one to tell him. I don’t believe he thinks too much of the Council," Mace added, smiling. He knew Obi-Wan wasn’t fond of the circular group of Jedi, and the interrogation they had imposed on him did not help them to gain his favor. Perhaps this would aid their quest. X "I left a message for your instructor’s so they'll know not to expect you for a while. However, Master Okleb has requested a meeting. I was wondering if there was anything you wanted to tell me before I met with him." An intent look of dislike crossed Obi-Wan's features before he smoothed them out. "I’m sure he’ll be more than happy to fill you in." Kale nodded in response to his son's reply. Leaving the apartment, he wondered what had happened to cause the boy to dislike his instructor. "Master Kenobi, thank you for coming." "The insinuation was that this was urgent." The elder shook his head. "No, not urgent, just infuriating on my behalf." "I don’t understand." Master Okleb gestured to the seat beside his desk. "Please, make yourself comfortable." As the two colleagues sat down across from one another, Kale began to have the distinct feeling that he should have pushed his son for his side of the story, whatever that may be, before dealing with this instructor. Okleb shuffled through some paperwork and then set it aside, clasping his hands together on the surface in front of him. "Master Kenobi, how do you think Obi-Wan has adjusted since he's arrived?" Caught off guard by the question, Kale answered to the best of his ability. "Given the circumstances of his life, I think he’s adjusting as well as can be expected. Granted, there have been some mishaps, but we’ve handled them. Why do you ask?" "I’ve noticed in class that he seems almost bored with the material and yet he questions every detail we’re covering." "I don’t understand, Master. Isn’t questioning a good thing? Isn’t that how they learn?" "Normally, yes; however, he isn’t questioning for clarification or facts, he’s questioning the method of my instruction and my knowledge of the material at hand. Obi-Wan has become disruptive to the point that there is more debate going on that actual learning." Kale’s eyes narrowed slightly as he thought over the other’s words. For the past few weeks, Obi-Wan had appeared for all intents and purposes to be getting along fairly okay in this new environment. They had had a few altercations involving his attitude, but otherwise things seemed better. Now, Kale was wondering how much experience, if any, Obi-Wan had in the art of deception. "I will speak with him." Master Okleb sat forward. "I hope you know what you’re doing, Kale. From my point of view, and I apologize if this offends, I believe your son to be a lost cause. I don’t understand what you hope to accomplish by detaining him in a world he doesn’t know how to live in. I’m honestly not sure why the Council agreed to house him; he should have been sent to one of the teen rehabilitation centers on Corellia or Alderaan. You shouldn’t have to waste your time on a worthless case like him." Before Okleb could blink, Kale was leaning menacingly across the desk. "My son wasn’t raised as a Jedi and I don’t expect him to act like one. But what I do expect is that he be given the same chance at a fresh start that we as 'keepers of the peace' give to so many others." He paused a minute trying to reign in his anger at Okleb’s blatant disregard for Obi-Wan. Hands clenching, he continued, "He is worth more to this galaxy than you and this order combined. If you so much as say anything of the sort to Obi-Wan that you just said to me, I cannot be held responsible for what will happen." Kale stood and started for the door. "Are you threatening me?" "I don’t make threats…I make promises." X A few days later, Kale finally decided to approach the subject of Master Okleb. He was about to find out how obstinate his son could be. Obi-Wan stood silently while his father paced in front of him. The Jedi Master was renowned for his patience in dealing with difficult situations and the people who caused them. In all his years of training, not one individual had ever been able to break through his exterior of calm, that is, until now. Kale stopped and turned to face his son. "Would you mind explaining to me why you felt the need to belittle your instructor in front of the entire class?" The teen shrugged his shoulders and took a step back to lean against the wall. "He was wrong." Kale’s eyebrows lifted in question for the young man to continue. When silence was all that hung in the air between them, Kale lifted his arms out to his sides and asked, "And what does that mean, exactly?" "It means that the information he was giving was inaccurate." "What information was that exactly?" "It would seem that the mission to Lladnar has become a source of teaching material for Okleb's course. He claims to teach current events. Only the information he was giving was incorrect." Kale looked at the teen in disbelief. "He actually accessed those files?" Obi-Wan nodded. "How much depth has he gone into?" "So far he's left my name out of it; otherwise, he's mentioning every detail in a rather disillusioned way, not to mention he's completely off base as to what Lladnar's laws entail." "And you felt the need to correct him." "If he’s going to teach the course, then he needs to have his facts straight." A thought suddenly struck Kale. "How much education did you receive while living with Jes and Nayt?" The Jedi saw the slight flinch from his son at the mention of his uncle. "We moved around too much; Jes taught me,” the teen murmured in response. That made sense. Jes had gone to university to become an educator but had never actually taught anywhere, having married Nayt soon after. He was aware of the courses she had taken and the level of instruction she had received; she was more than qualified. However, during the course of her marriage she was made to depend on her husband for every need. In teaching Obi-Wan, she found a way around Nayt's need to keep her dependent. Perhaps she hadn't lost quite as much as he had first believed. Not replying to the boy’s explanation, Kale asked, "You didn’t feel that it could have waited until after class?" Obi-Wan shook his head ‘no’. Kale took a deep, calming breath. "Why not?" "The others would have left class with false information." "Did it ever occur to you that Master Okleb could have informed the class of the error during their next session?" "It’s harder to change impressions once they’ve been meditated upon." "Perhaps, but they can be changed." Obi-Wan pushed away from the wall and walked around his father to sit on the couch. "What is it exactly you want me to say? I know what he thinks of me. The whole class knows what he thinks. His thoughts are loud enough to hear without trying to hear them. Nayt and Traest were right. I’m viewed the same no matter where I am." Releasing his emotions to the force, Kale walked over and sat down across from his son. He admitted to himself that Master Okleb was obviously looking for a way to discredit the young man. Accessing files on a mission that involved the teen and then discussing the situation in front of his class was inappropriate and unethical to say the least. Missions of current events were studied, yes, but not at the expense of having a discussion with a member of said team in the course at the time. Kale ran a hand over his face in frustration. Okleb’s behavior was causing Obi-Wan to regress where he had previously been making progress. Learning forward, he reached across the distance between them and briefly touched the teen's arm to gain his attention. "Nayt and Traest put you down because they knew if you ever discovered the truth, if you ever discovered your real potential, you’d realize that you could be far more than what they led you to believe. By keeping you in your place, it gave them a sense of power. If you succeeded where they failed, it made you stronger than them." Obi-Wan listened to his father’s words, noticing how similar they were to Healer Hebsley’s. He offered his own thoughts, his voice quiet, serious. "When I went out into Coruscant with Hebseley, it was the first time I can remember someone treating me as an equal. When he introduced himself, he offered his hand for me to shake as if I was somebody. He talked to me, and not at me. Don’t get me wrong, you and Qui-Gon have gone out of your way to make me feel wanted and to feel secure but there was something different in the way he and Dex approached me. For so long, I always just dealt with what life gave me because choices weren’t an option and I resented never having a say in where I was headed or what I was doing. And now that I’m free of Na…of them, I still find myself being pulled along in life’s current and not sure how to escape it." He looked at his father and found that Kale was listening with rapt attention. He then realized that this was the most he had said to his father, in quite some time, not only about his life but about his inner most thoughts. "My life has been a ride that I've been trying to get off of, but every time I gain the courage to take that step, the faster it spins." Kale wasn't sure how to answer or if a reply was even needed. Obi-Wan's words had been heart felt. He did have a question though. "You seemed to be getting along well these past few weeks. Was that real?" "I've been trying," was the sincere response. -----signature----- Update 10/2/08- Chap. 40- Life Beyond the Code (Obi-Wan/Anakin) - http://boards.theforce.net/The_Saga/b10476/20820324 Update 11/12/08- Chap. 27 - Not Myself - (Obi-Wan/Qui-Gon/Oc's) - Before the Saga Update 9/3/08 - Part 6 - Strength to Begin Anew
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jedidas3 Registered: Apr '07	Date Posted: 1/30 10:58am Subject: RE: Not Myself (Obi-Wan, Qui-Gon, OC's) Updated 1-30-08 / Chap. 16 - Date Edited: 1/30 10:59am (1 edits total) Edited By: jedidas3
	Another riveting chapter! What a great surprise when I went on break and saw that there was an update. I really like how the trust is slowly coming back between father and son. Undoubtedly, this will be a long road and a difficult path for both of them. I think the trip will help them both. I thought this line aptly described Obi's life up to this point. "My life has been a ride that I've been trying to get off of, but every time I gain the courage to take that step, the faster it spins." Great job and I'm looking forward to more! (Hopefully really soon...please? Edit: *Yippee! Snagged first response!* -----signature----- The Past Revisited http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/28440949 Lessons Learned http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/28580784 Remembrance http://boards.theforce.net/before_the_saga/b10475/28009025 Padawan to dianethx
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Valairy_Scot Title: PT Rewrite Winner Registered: Sep '05	Date Posted: 1/30 12:17pm Subject: RE: Not Myself (Obi-Wan, Qui-Gon, OC's) Updated 1-30-08 / Chap. 16
	I've been impatiently waiting for an update...and now we have one. I doubt Obi-Wan realizes it, but he has made tremendous strides forward. Not always appropriately but he is beginning to realize just what he needs to face and overcome - and that's half the battle. Obi-Wan listened to his father’s words, noticing how similar they were to Healer Hebsley’s. He offered his own thoughts, his voice quiet, serious. "When I went out into Coruscant with Hebseley, it was the first time I can remember someone treating me as an equal. When he introduced himself, he offered his hand for me to shake as if I was somebody. He talked to me, and not at me. Don’t get me wrong, you and Qui-Gon have gone out of your way to make me feel wanted and to feel secure but there was something different in the way he and Dex approached me. For so long, I always just dealt with what life gave me because choices weren’t an option and I resented never having a say in where I was headed or what I was doing. And now that I’m free of Na…of them, I still find myself being pulled along in life’s current and not sure how to escape it." He looked at his father and found that Kale was listening with rapt attention. He then realized that this was the most he had said to his father, in quite some time, not only about his life but about his inner most thoughts. "My life has been a ride that I've been trying to get off of, but every time I gain the courage to take that step, the faster it spins." See, Obi-Wan is realizing what he's facing. -----signature----- http://boards.theforce.net/fan_fiction_resource/b10304/25405090/p3/?52 Prolific Author thread: list & links there. Muse fueled by coffee. Often AWOL despite frequent sipping. Writes on inspiration, not a schedule. Proud master of several padawans
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Gkilkenny Registered: Mar '04	Date Posted: 1/31 2:10am Subject: RE: Not Myself (Obi-Wan, Qui-Gon, OC's) Updated 1-30-08 / Chap. 16
	Excellent chapter. It is good to see Obi-Wan and his father talking at length I think they need to get away from the temple for a while. Well done. -----signature----- Padawan to p_stotts Peace over anger - honour over hate - Strength over fear. Links to Stories in my Bio. Obi-Wan forever.
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VaderLVR64 Title: Fan Fic Manager in Combat Boots Registered: Feb '04	Date Posted: 1/31 5:21am Subject: RE: Not Myself (Obi-Wan, Qui-Gon, OC's) Updated 1-30-08 / Chap. 16
	Another amazing chapter! He looked at his father and found that Kale was listening with rapt attention. He then realized that this was the most he had said to his father, in quite some time, not only about his life but about his inner most thoughts. "My life has been a ride that I've been trying to get off of, but every time I gain the courage to take that step, the faster it spins." Loved it. -----signature----- If you have to choose between tears and laughter, remember that laughter burns more calories. Army Mom! HOOAH! Adopt a soldier: http://soldiersangels.org/
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dianethx Registered: Mar '02	Date Posted: 1/31 9:15am Subject: RE: Not Myself (Obi-Wan, Qui-Gon, OC's) Updated 1-30-08 / Chap. 16
	Obi-Wan has made a lot of progress in the few weeks he's been there. He's had to deal with worthlessness and the feeling that no one wants/accepts him outside of a few people. It must be tough. The teacher isn't helping at all. In fact, it's quite unethical for him to be doing that. Releasing his emotions to the force, Kale walked over and sat down across from his son. He admitted to himself that Master Okleb was obviously looking for a way to discredit the young man. Accessing files on a mission that involved the teen and then discussing the situation in front of his class was inappropriate and unethical to say the least. Missions of current events were studied, yes, but not at the expense of having a discussion with a member of said team in the course at the time. Kale ran a hand over his face in frustration. Okleb’s behavior was causing Obi-Wan to regress where he had previously been making progress. I hope the Council finds out and reprimands him. He deserves to learn compassion. Great job. -----signature----- Betrayal - http://boards.theforce.net/s/b1/10935143 updated 9/22/08 Fragments of Illusion- http://boards.theforce.net/bts/b10475/28456473 updated 11/20/08 jedidas3's Master At last - Hope for our country
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silverfighter Registered: Apr '07	Date Posted: 2/1 1:38pm Subject: RE: Not Myself (Obi-Wan, Qui-Gon, OC's) Updated 1-30-08 / Chap. 16
	This will be most interesting, to see what ends up happening on Nyve. I have come to find that one's gut instinct is normally correct, and since Obi-Wan's is telling him there's danger... "Are you threatening me?" "I don’t make threats…I make promises." Even though it probably wasn't meant to be funny, those lines struck me as rather humorous. Heh heh... "...I still find myself being pulled along in life’s current and not sure how to escape it." ""My life has been a ride that I've been trying to get off of, but every time I gain the courage to take that step, the faster it spins." I really liked those metaphors (metaphors, right? I always get those mixed up with something else ). They so perfectly describe how I picture Obi-Wan's look on things. Good work! Thanks for the PM! ~Silverfighter -----signature----- My Dear McClellan: If you are not using the army, I should like to borrow it for a short while. Yours respectfully, Abraham Lincoln Completely failed at NaNoWriMo.
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Itachi-Uchiha Registered: Jul '07	Date Posted: 2/1 2:45pm Subject: RE: Not Myself (Obi-Wan, Qui-Gon, OC's) Updated 1-30-08 / Chap. 16
	Nice update. It was interesting to see how Obi-Wan thinks. And particularly nice to see him and Kale engaging in a calm and open discussion. -----signature----- Headstrong : http://boards.theforce.net/before_the_saga/b10475/27188681/p1/?5 Xanatos/Quinlan/Qui-Gon/Obi-Wan/Dooku Updated Sept 28th In Memoriam: Itachi Uchiha
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wolf_kenobi Registered: Nov '07	Date Posted: 2/1 4:17pm Subject: RE: Not Myself (Obi-Wan, Qui-Gon, OC's) Updated 1-30-08 / Chap. 16
	"My life has been a ride that I've been trying to get off of, but every time I gain the courage to take that step, the faster it spins." This metaphor was a brilliant description of Obi-Wan's life. Very fitting. Mace shook his head as he moved about the room. "So how fast do those things move?" This was hysterical! Excellent chapter! Very well done! -----signature----- Is God willing to prevent evil but not able? Then he is not omnipotent. Is he able but not willing? Then he is malevolent. Is he both able and willing? Then whence cometh evil? Is he neither able nor willing? Then why call him God. -Epicurus Proud Vegan
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bek Registered: Jul '05	Date Posted: 2/8 11:47am Subject: RE: Not Myself (Obi-Wan, Qui-Gon, OC's) Updated 1-30-08 / Chap. 16 - Date Edited: 2/8 11:48am (1 edits total) Edited By: bek
	jedidas3 Another riveting chapter! What a great surprise when I went on break and saw that there was an update. I really like how the trust is slowly coming back between father and son. Undoubtedly, this will be a long road and a difficult path for both of them. I think the trip will help them both. This trip may not be the blessing Kale was hoping for. Great job and I'm looking forward to more! (Hopefully really soon...please?) Thank you! Valairy_Scot I've been impatiently waiting for an update...and now we have one. I doubt Obi-Wan realizes it, but he has made tremendous strides forward. Not always appropriately but he is beginning to realize just what he needs to face and overcome - and that's half the battle. He’s slowly beginning to realize that his life is not a dream he will awaken from. Gkilkenny Excellent chapter. It is good to see Obi-Wan and his father talking at length. I think they need to get away from the temple for a while. The trip to Nyve may or may not be a blessing. Well done. Thanks! VaderLVR64 Another amazing chapter! Thanks! dianethx Obi-Wan has made a lot of progress in the few weeks he's been there. He's had to deal with worthlessness and the feeling that no one wants/accepts him outside of a few people. It must be tough. He’s been made to believe that all anyone would see was what Nayt and Traest made him to be. He’s starting to doubt what he’s been taught and that’s a good thing. And yet, sometimes, old habits are hard to break. The teacher isn't helping at all. In fact, it's quite unethical for him to be doing that.I hope the Council finds out and reprimands him. He deserves to learn compassion. Master Hebsley is ahead of you. silverfighter This will be most interesting, to see what ends up happening on Nyve. I have come to find that one's gut instinct is normally correct, and since Obi-Wan's is telling him there's danger…. Kale doesn’t doubt Obi-Wan’s gut feeling, but he also doesn’t want his son to run from that which scares him the most. He’s trying to teach Obi-Wan how to face his fears head on. Good work! Thanks for the PM! Thank you! And you’re welcome! Itachi-Uchiha Nice update. It was interesting to see how Obi-Wan thinks. And particularly nice to see him and Kale engaging in a calm and open discussion. Unfortunately, their world isn’t quite stable yet. wolf_kenobi Excellent chapter! Very well done! Thank you! I’m glad you enjoyed it! -----signature----- Update 10/2/08- Chap. 40- Life Beyond the Code (Obi-Wan/Anakin) - http://boards.theforce.net/The_Saga/b10476/20820324 Update 11/12/08- Chap. 27 - Not Myself - (Obi-Wan/Qui-Gon/Oc's) - Before the Saga Update 9/3/08 - Part 6 - Strength to Begin Anew
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