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Freedom in Bondage (2008 DDC; OC; Angst; Drama; Romance) update, 9/28
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silverfighter
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Apr '07
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Date Posted:
3/5 10:57am
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RE: Freedom in (2008 Diary Challenge; OC; Angst; Drama; Romance) Update 2/3
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Wow, that's quite a lot of information Meb learned. Poor guy. I just want to hug him after that last line.
Good update! 
~Silverfighter
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star_writer24
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3/5 3:09pm
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RE: Freedom in Bondage (2008 Diary Challenge; OC; Angst; Drama; Romance) Update 2/3
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OMG!
Poor Neb!
I hope he chooses to stay with his master.
And Asta, I hope she starts treating him
like he deserves.
Great Update!
SW24
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Meredith_Kenobi
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3/8 8:43pm
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RE: Freedom in Bondage (2008 Diary Challenge; OC; Angst; Drama; Romance) Update 2/3
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What's gonna happen next?!?!  
I can't wait to see what Neb deides to do. More soon, Alexis_W!
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Alexis_Wingstar
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Date Posted:
3/9 10:34am
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RE: Freedom in Bondage (2008 Diary Challenge; OC; Angst; Drama; Romance) Update 2/3
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3/10 4:29am (2 edits total)
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earlybird-obi-wan posted:
Loved that update with Meb finding who his parents were. And what a nice family he has with master Ander.
Yes, family doesn't always mean you're related by blood.
LordNyax113 posted:
Wow..love the story. Really character driven. Please put me on the PM list. 
Thank you, and yes, you shall be on my PM list.
callista_gseran posted:
Add me to the PM list please???? 
Why certainly.
KELIA posted:
I hope Meb comes to realized DNA does not make a family. I think he's better off with Ander - the man who cares so much for him and who he has come to care for.
I am glad he got to hear his parent's story, though. Heartbreaking as it was
I'm considering not washing that cheek for quite some time
Ooohhh he's got it bad!
Great update
Yep, he has it, and doesn't wanna get rid of it. 
silverfighter posted:
Wow, that's quite a lot of information Meb learned. Poor guy. I just want to hug him after that last line.
Good update!
~Silverfighter
Thank you. It is a lot to take in at once, especially after so much has happened in that day already!
star_writer24 posted:
OMG!
Poor Neb!
I hope he chooses to stay with his master.
And Asta, I hope she starts treating him
like he deserves.
Great Update!
SW24
Thank you.
Meredith_Kenobi posted:
What's gonna happen next?!?!
I can't wait to see what Neb deides to do. More soon, Alexis_W!
You'll see real soon.
BTW, it's Meb with an "M".
Entry 10:
I went out into the courtyard and watched as Telma, Caen's wife, tended the garden and their two children played tag. I don't remember having fun and laughing so much like Goel and Felmon. I hope they grow up to realize how lucky they are. I hardly know my own brother. If things had gone differently, would Undar and I be close? I'd like to think so.
I wonder why Master Ander took so long to tell me who my family was, and why he told me now. Is he hoping I go live with them to get me away from Asta? I hated myself for thinking he had anything but my best interests at heart, but then, Asta is his daughter, and I hit her. I wouldn't blame him if he didn't want me to stick around. Having me go stay with my real family would absolve him of any sense of responsibility he felt towards me and keep his daughter safe.
As I sat there feeling bad about thinking this way, Caen came and sat next to me. Watching his children play, he spoke casually, "He'll miss you if you leave."
I sat back to look at this large Zabrak. I knew he'd been with Master Ander for a long time... longer then I've been alive. I didn't know what to say. I knew he was beyond loyal to Master Ander. He would die for him. So would I, truth to tell, but... I can't keep these doubts out of my brain. I mean, like thinking that Master Ander would not be entirely straight with me. I think if I voiced my doubts, Caen would belt me. "I'll miss him too... if I leave."
We sat quietly for a few minutes, watching Goel and Felmon.
"Do you know them?" I finally asked. "My family I mean. What are they like?"
"They're very close knit. They have a lucrative family business." Then he looked at me with those bright green eyes of his... I swear they glow in the dark. "Master Ander, Glens and your father were very close. When Nev was killed, it put a rift between Glens and Master Ander. Glens blames him for Nev's death."
I swear Caen's fists tightened as he spoke.
"It wasn't Master Ander's fault! Nev was a reckless fool..." He stopped and looked embarrassed as he smiled shakily at me. "I'm sorry. I don't mean to put down your father."
I laughed slightly. "I don't even know him." A deep emptiness opened up within me as I said that. I will never know my father except for little tidbits of things those who knew him choose to throw my way.
I think Caen realized how I felt in spite of my trying to act like it didn't bother me. He started telling me what he knew about the man who was my father. "Of the three, Master Ander, Glens, and him, the light-hearted jokester. All three of them had a hatred for slavery, and they worked together to do what they could without endangering their families. Nev was the one who kept the three of them grounded with his humor. When he fell in love with Brialla, he was devastated that Gardulla would not sell her to him. Master Ander tried to talk sense into him... refused to help him get himself killed. He thought Nev would see reason... wouldn't try to kidnap Brialla on his own, but..." Caen sighed and shook his head sadly before continuing. "Nev went and got himself killed, and Glens blames Master Ander for not going with him. He thinks if he were there to give Nev backup, he and Brialla would both still be alive today."
"Or Master Ander could be dead, too." I said quietly.
Caen nodded.
Again there was a silence which I broke with another question. "What about Undar's mother? Does she know about me?"
Caen smiled gently. "Yes, I was the one who told her. When she heard, she immediately wanted to find you. She loved Nev very much, and could not rest with his child lost... even if you weren't hers, she wanted to hold and raise you as his child."
Gods, I wish he had told me she didn't want me. Then I wouldn't feel so torn!
I want to meet her.
But...
Master Ander... I don't want to leave him.
At least I'm no longer scared.
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earlybird-obi-wan
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3/9 11:21am
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RE: Freedom in Bondage (2008 Diary Challenge; OC; Angst; Drama; Romance) Update 2/3
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more and more is revealed about Meb and his family. Nice to see this and he should stay with master Ander.
Great update
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KELIA
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3/10 4:19am
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I can certainly understand Meb being torn.
I hope he will go and meet his mother - that would be so wonderful for both of them.
He can always return to Master Ander and Asta.
I loved Caen sharing what little he knew about Meb's father
Great update
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Meredith_Kenobi
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3/11 7:42pm
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Yeah, I know it's Meb.  Typoes for the win? 
What will Meb decide on?!?!
I'm thinking he'll probably stick with what he knows, and stay with Ander and Asta. *crosses fingers*
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Alexis_Wingstar
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Date Posted:
3/13 9:22am
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RE: Freedom in Bondage (2008 Diary Challenge; OC; Angst; Drama; Romance) Update 3/10
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3/14 8:14am (3 edits total)
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earlybird-obi-wan posted:
more and more is revealed about Meb and his family. Nice to see this and he should stay with master Ander.
Great update
Thank you. Even more will be revealed as Meb's story progresses.
KELIA posted:
I can certainly understand Meb being torn.
I hope he will go and meet his mother - that would be so wonderful for both of them.
He can always return to Master Ander and Asta.
I loved Caen sharing what little he knew about Meb's father
Great update
I'm glad you enjoyed it.
Meredith_Kenobi posted:
Yeah, I know it's Meb. Typoes for the win?
What will Meb decide on?!?!
I'm thinking he'll probably stick with what he knows, and stay with Ander and Asta. *crosses fingers*
I didn't mean to embarrass you. I thought it was kind of funny that you and StarWriter24 both had the same typo.
Patience, his choice will be revealed shortly.
Entry 11:
After talking to Caen, I headed to my room. On the way there, however, I stopped in front of Asta's door. I don't know why I stood staring at it for a couple minutes. All I know is I wanted to talk to her... but at the same time I felt awkward, even though I knew her feelings for me. Perhaps it's because I knew her feelings for me. I had promised Master Ander not to get serious with her until we were older, and talking to her in her bedroom would make it hard to keep that promise. Yet, I needed to talk to her so bad. I finally knocked on her door. She answered, and when I asked to speak with her, she took me by the hand and guided me in... and shut the door behind her.
When I told her that I was thinking of going to live with my family, she became confused. That's when I realized she didn't know about her father's connection to my family. She didn't know that Undar and I were half brothers. I told her what her father told me.
"That explains why you resemble each other..." she reached out and traced my jaw with her fingers as she said, "along here, especially."
I'm embarrassed to say I started to cry after I told her that I didn't know what to do. She took me in her arms, and I wept like a baby. I'm not sure how we ended up on her bed, but when I finally stopped crying, I suddenly became aware that my face was pressed against her bosom. She had just said that she'll be there for me whatever I decided to do... and well I pulled away slightly and stared at her... gods she is so sexy! I wanted to reach out and touch her where my head just lie... I wanted to make love with her. It didn't make it any easier when I gazed into her eyes and she whispered that she loves me. I could tell she wanted me, too.
I knew because of some things I was forced to do with my last master. Life as a slave sucks.
That being said, I felt... feel... dirty. Asta... well, I'm sure she's a virgin. I don't want to sully her. Plus, there is the promise I made her father. I won't go back on that promise.
I got off the bed, and said I'd better go. She got up and hugged me. Gods, her body was pressed against mine as we kissed... passionately. Damn, I had to go to my room and... well, never mind. Suffice it to say, this didn't make it easier to make a decision. I want to stay with Asta and Master Ander, but how am I going to keep my promise to him when I'm so attracted to her... and her to me?
We'll see how it works out, because after I came down off the physical high that my contact with Asta inspired, I went to talk to Master Ander... by the way, I forgot to say that when we spoke earlier, he also said he didn't need to read my journal any more. He encouraged me to continue writing my thoughts and feelings in it, but said he thought the purpose this journal was originally for could be better served with essays on various non-personal subjects. So, he won't be reading this entry, nor the last one.
Anyway...
I told him I wanted us... him and I... to tell Glens and Undar who I am. "I want to meet my father's wife..." I just realized I didn't know her name. "... but I'd like to come back here to live. That is, if it's alright with you." I still wasn't sure if Master Ander wanted me here, even though he had given me the choice. I felt nervous as he stood quietly looking at me.
"Yes, it's fine with me." Then he smiled very wide, looking for all the world like a boy who got a brand new swoop bike for his birthday. "Let me comm Glens, and we'll see if we can go over to talk to them."
We're going to meet them at the hotel room for lunch in an hour.
Gods, I'm so nervous.
And hungry!
EDIT: Had to edit to make this TOS compliant. 
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Loved it and is he going to stay with master Ander?
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KELIA
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I'm glad Meb is going to meet his family.
He doesn't need to live with them to have a strong relationship.
I admire his restraint and determination not to go back on his promise to Asta's father.
Great update
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Alexis_Wingstar
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earlybird-obi-wan posted:
Loved it and is he going to stay with master Ander?
I believe so.
KELIA posted:
I'm glad Meb is going to meet his family.
He doesn't need to live with them to have a strong relationship.
I admire his restraint and determination not to go back on his promise to Asta's father.
Great update
Thank you. 
Entry 12:
I never knew an hour could pass so slowly! I felt all tied up in knots, and I alternated between wondering if I could actually keep any food down and being so hungry my stomach growled in complaint at it's lack of food. Normally I go work out to relieve my nerves, but I didn't want to get all sweaty. Then I remembered I already was sweaty, so I went to take a shower. After I got out, I looked in the mirror. My hair is such a scruffy mess! I look like some wild boy with dark curls in my eyes and the scar on my cheek. I can't do anything about the scar, but...
Well, I did something really stupid.
Again.
I got a knife and chopped off some of the hair in front. Now it looks even worse. It's all... well... choppy looking. I went to my room and changed my clothes, feeling even more nervous than before. Gods, I can't go meet Undar and my uncle... I can't believe I have an uncle... like this!
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uh oh his looks  Maybe the girl can help
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Oh poor Meb!
Talk about a bad case of nerves.
I hope he'll come to realize his family isn't going to care so much how he looks.
Great update
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Oops, missed a post. Sorry.
He cut his hair. Oh dear me, That's never good, especially when he's going to meet someone!
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earlybird-obi-wan posted:
uh oh his looks Maybe the girl can help
Actually... well you'll see.
KELIA posted:
Oh poor Meb!
Talk about a bad case of nerves.
I hope he'll come to realize his family isn't going to care so much how he looks.
Great update
Well, Meb hasn't grown up with a family, so he doesn't know many things about having one... but he'll soon learn.
silverfighter posted:
Oops, missed a post. Sorry.
He cut his hair. Oh dear me, That's never good, especially when he's going to meet someone!
 It'll turn out alright in the end. His hair is the last thing he has to worry about.
Entry 13:
At first I thought of going to Asta, but I didn't want her to see me like this. Since it was only about fifteen minutes before we had to leave for lunch, I went and knocked on Master Ander's door, then went in when he said, "Come on in, Meb."
I wonder how he knew it was me? Maybe he was just expecting me.
Anyway when he looked up from whatever he was doing, he looked shocked at first, and then the corners of his lips kinda shook like he was trying not to laugh. "What under the twin suns have you done to your hair... and why?"
I looked down at the floor as I muttered, "I cut it because it was a scruffy mess. I wanted to look good." I looked up at him when he got up and came over to me, placing a hand on my shoulders. "I can't go like this!" I felt like crying.
"Well, it really isn't that bad, Meb." I guess I looked more miserable, because he sighed before adding, "We don't have time for Telma to make it look decent..." he quickly went to a closet, opened it and got something from a shelf, "... you could wear this to hide your hair." He handed me an explorer's cap.
I put it on and he let me look in the mirror. It looked even more ridiculous than my choppy haircut if you can believe such a thing! My assessment was verified by Master Aster's laughter.
"I'm sorry, Meb." He kept laughing though.
I decided to go without the hat. They are going to accept me or not on me, not my appearance.
We're at the restaurant now waiting for them to show up.
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