Author Topic: All of Me - The Jade Prophecy missing scene. (Han)
J_M_Bulldog  2837 posts
Registered: Apr '03
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Date Posted: 2/15/04 2:12pm Subject: All of Me - The Jade Prophecy missing scene. (Han)
This is posted with permission from LadyPadme. In fact she was the one who asked if I was going to post it. I wrote this after reading her story The Jade Prophecy and listening to My Immortal by Evanescense.

Disclaimer: I don't own Star Wars. George Lucas does. I didn't come up with the problem Han deals with during this, LadyPadme did. I don't own My Immortal. That belongs to Evanescense.


Title: All of Me
Author(s): J_M_Bulldog
Timeframe: This is a missing scene to a fanfic on the boards
Characters:Han
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Summary: Han's thoughts while listening to a song
Notes: As I said, this came from LadyPadme's story and the song My Immortal I sent it to LadyPadme. She asked me if I was going to post it.


This is dedicated to LadyPadme. Thanks for the story and the permission.

Enjoy!

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I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone


Han jerked as the haunting echoes sounded through the dim room he was presently in. Though it was a woman singing he felt the song was made just for him. Even being on the other side of the galaxy fighting in another war Leia’s presence lingered with him. It was as if she were in his very soul. Of course that should have come as no surprise. She had been since he had first meet her in the prison block aboard the first Death Star. He had been unable to get away from her then and even though they were nothing more than strangers now, he found he could not get her out of his mind, out of his heart. He knew that losing their daughter had been tough on her. It had been tough on him as well. He dropped his head from where he had been looking out the transparisteel windows and sighed. Parsecs stretched between them physically and even though those same parsecs seem to separate them emotionally, Han knew he could never be truly rid of her. He did not want to.

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase


When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have

All of me


He slammed his fist onto the slight sill that jutted out from the wall under the window. The nights Leia had awaken, screaming from another nightmare, he had held her and wiped her tears - all the while desiring to literally fight something, anything to bring her the peace of mind she so desperately needed. But she had pushed away when Ralia was miscarried. She would not let him touch her, hold her, wipe her tears from her face. She would not even acknowledge him.

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me


Tears began to stream down Han’s face. Many nights he know woke with Leia’s pale, unanimated face staring out of the dark, like some freakish nightmare he felt he was destined never to wake up from. She used to have a spark, a spirit in her. That was what first attracted him to her. No matter what was going on around her, no matter how many times she fell, she got right back up and continued on. Her daughter’s death was the one thing she could not bounce back from. Not as quickly as she normally would have. Han remembered the agnizing pain he had felt when he was informed that his baby had died, before she had really begun to live. Though that was awful, the resulting distance Leia put between them hurt him worse.

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase


When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have

All of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
And though your still with me
I've been alone all along

She is gone,
he thought. And she wouldn’t let me follow. He placed his hand over his heart.
But even though I can’t reach her, she’s still here. She will always be here.

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me


“You still have me, Leia,” he whispered into the dimness. “I’ll still wipe your tears, I’ll still fight your fears, I’ll still hold your hand. If you will just let me. No matter what, Princess, you will always have all of me.”

 

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LaYa_  8908 posts
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Date Posted: 2/15/04 2:20pm Subject: RE: All of Me - The Jade Prophecy missing scene. (Han)
.. cry Great... it's great!!

Good job! grin

 

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Jedi-2B  3751 posts
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Date Posted: 2/15/04 2:52pm Subject: RE: All of Me - The Jade Prophecy missing scene. (Han)
Beautiful! So glad you shared this with us. happy

 

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kristeh  917 posts
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Date Posted: 2/15/04 2:53pm Subject: RE: All of Me - The Jade Prophecy missing scene. (Han)
Hi, JM,

Well, I haven't read "The Jade Prophecy" (but I'm intrigued, I may have to now), but this was a very well-written piece. I loved how Han and Leia's souls were intertwined, and the portrayal of their grief was very realistic.

Kristeh

 

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RogueSticks  928 posts
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Date Posted: 2/15/04 4:11pm Subject: RE: All of Me - The Jade Prophecy missing scene. (Han) - Date Edited: 2/16/04 12:43pm (1 edits total) Edited By: RogueSticks
You know, I was JUST starting to move beyond the pain and emotional scarring LP left on me with Jade Prophecy and you go and post this. Now, once more, I'll be miserably morose for a week.

TO ALL HAN AND LEIA AUTHORS:
YOU ALL NEED TO STOP WRITING HAN AND LEIA ANGST SO WELL! IT'S MAKING ME SAD!

 

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J_M_Bulldog  2837 posts
Registered: Apr '03
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Date Posted: 2/15/04 4:48pm Subject: RE: All of Me - The Jade Prophecy missing scene. (Han)
LaYa: .. cry Great... it's great!!

Good job! grin
Hmm, I knew I'd forgotten something. *leaves huge crate of tissues* There.

Glad you liked it. Though the praise should go to LadyPadme for setting this up. If she had not of been so good at being so evil to Han and Leia I don't think this fic would have been written.

Jedi-2B: Beautiful! So glad you shared this with us. Thanks and your welcome.

kristeh: Hi, JM, Hi, kristeh

Well, I haven't read "The Jade Prophecy" (but I'm intrigued, I may have to now), but this was a very well-written piece. I loved how Han and Leia's souls were intertwined, and the portrayal of their grief was very realistic. Thank you. Yes, I would recommend LadyPadme's story, though you might want to start with Of Spies and Sabacc and In Love and War as they are the start of it all.

RogueSticks: You know, I was JUST starting to move beyond the pain and emotional scarring LP left on me with Jade Prophecy and you go and post this. Now, once more, I'll be miserably morose for a week. sad Sorry. This just wouldn't leave me alone til I wrote it. *hands RogueSticks some tissues*

TO ALL HAN AND LEIA AUTHORS:
YOU ALL NEED TO STOP WRITING HAN AND LEIA ANGST SO WELL! IT'S MAKE ME SAD!
Um, like I said to a reader in L/M story, 'Were there is much angst the joy is sweeter in the end.'

Thanks for reading.

 

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TKeira_Lea  6788 posts
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Date Posted: 2/15/04 4:59pm Subject: RE: All of Me - The Jade Prophecy missing scene. (Han)
BA: Oh, you made me cry! cry

I love that song and it fit so well with his thoughts. Well done! grin

 

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LadyPadme  5235 posts
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Date Posted: 2/15/04 6:12pm Subject: RE: All of Me - The Jade Prophecy missing scene. (Han)


J_M_Bulldog: * Sighs * What a lovely, sad, poignant, and moving vignette. And the song goes so perfectly with it. Thank you so much for writing it and sharing it with us all happy

 

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J_M_Bulldog  2837 posts
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Date Posted: 2/15/04 10:26pm Subject: RE: All of Me - The Jade Prophecy missing scene. (Han)
Commander: BA: Oh, you made me cry! *hands Commander some tissues* sad Sorry.

I love that song and it fit so well with his thoughts. Well done! grin Thanks. Glad you liked it.

LadyPadme: * Sighs * What a lovely, sad, poignant, and moving vignette. And the song goes so perfectly with it. Thanks. I'm glad you liked it. To be honest I had thought of writing a Jaina thinking about Anakin viggie but it didn't seem to work. Then my crazy brain came up with this. Thank you so much for writing it and sharing it with us all Thanks for letting me and for writing such an awesome story.

 

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kayladie97  1129 posts
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Date Posted: 2/16/04 6:58am Subject: RE: All of Me - The Jade Prophecy missing scene. (Han)
That was so beautiful! I loved it. Poor, poor Han. cry cry

Still makes me want to step into the GFFA and slap some sense into Leia... angry Han lost a child, too and he's the one who could comfort you better than anyone, Leia!!

Oh, well, we just have to hope LP doesn't leave us hanging too long. tongue

Again, wonderful job and that's one of my all-time favorite songs. grin

 

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GreatOne  3725 posts
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Date Posted: 2/16/04 8:26am Subject: RE: All of Me - The Jade Prophecy missing scene. (Han)
I agree with Kayladie97... Leia needs to be slapped!

 

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LaYa_  8908 posts
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Date Posted: 2/16/04 11:52am Subject: RE: All of Me - The Jade Prophecy missing scene. (Han)
Yes you're right J_M_Bulldog happy But this is really great! grin

 

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Solo_Fan  1631 posts
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Date Posted: 2/16/04 8:09pm Subject: RE: All of Me - The Jade Prophecy missing scene. (Han)
After reading this, I hope that somewhere in LP's sequel to "The Jade Prophecy" Leia realizes how much Han loves her and how much she has really hurt him by neglecting him. Like someone mentioned elsewhere, Leia needs to start thinking of someone other than herself. Great writing!!!!

 

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J_M_Bulldog  2837 posts
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Date Posted: 2/16/04 8:38pm Subject: RE: All of Me - The Jade Prophecy missing scene. (Han) - Date Edited: 2/16/04 9:02pm (1 edits total) Edited By: J_M_Bulldog
kayladie97: That was so beautiful! I loved it. Thanks. Poor, poor Han. *hands kayladie some tissues*

Still makes me want to step into the GFFA and slap some sense into Leia... Han lost a child, too and he's the one who could comfort you better than anyone, Leia!! *graps Leia and stands her in front of the readers. * Go for it. Sometimes one just needs tough love wink tongue

Oh, well, we just have to hope LP doesn't leave us hanging too long. You hear that LP. Please resolve this soon [face_puppy_dog_look] *hands LP some chocolate chip cookies*

Again, wonderful job and that's one of my all-time favorite songs. Thanks. Hey, I didn't know that. I just heard it like the day before I wrote this.


GreatOne: I agree with Kayladie97... Leia needs to be slapped! *gestures at Leia standing in front of kayladie* Have at it. tongue

LaYa: Yes you're right J_M_Bulldog But this is really great! grin Thanks.

Solo_Fan: After reading this, I hope that somewhere in LP's sequel to "The Jade Prophecy" Leia realizes how much Han loves her and how much she has really hurt him by neglecting him. Like someone mentioned elsewhere, Leia needs to start thinking of someone other than herself. I hope so too. And you're right Leia needs to stop thinking about herself. Grieve for the baby, yes, but she took it too far. Great writing!!!! Thank you.

 

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