Author Topic: Changes -- Ben, K/J -- COMPLETED
val solo  2384 posts
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Date Posted: 7/25/04 8:03pm Subject: RE: Changes -- Ben, K/J
Looking forward to the next post happy .......

 

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DantanaSkywalker  6594 posts
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Date Posted: 7/25/04 11:57pm Subject: RE: Changes -- Ben, K/J
Just as good as when I first beta'd it. grin

It's too bad this is so freaking short. You need more, dangit!!


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Saber_Leader  2230 posts
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Date Posted: 7/26/04 10:07am Subject: RE: Changes -- Ben, K/J
Post and replies shall be up later tonight

Um, unless they got deleted or something, you lied again tongue

And yes, I know you're at work right now, but I can't pass up a prefectly good chance to bug you. grin

 

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-RebelScum-  16784 posts
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Date Posted: 7/26/04 7:01pm Subject: RE: Changes -- Ben, K/J
LIAR I WANT MY UPDATE! cry

 

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Date Posted: 7/27/04 2:24am Subject: RE: Changes -- Ben, K/J
Saber... come on, update~
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I'm not impatient, it's Jace, really.

up, cause this isn't allowed on the second page... tongue

 

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Vongchild  5097 posts
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Date Posted: 7/27/04 5:53am Subject: RE: Changes -- Ben, K/J - Date Edited: 7/27/04 5:58am (1 edits total) Edited By: Vongchild
ROFL!!!!!! this is so funny!

He kisses you? And you let him? HAHAHAHAHAHA! :P keep it up!

I wanna go to comic con! I'm gonna miss DreamCon and DragonCon every summer for the rest of my life... I WANNA GO I WANNA GO I WANNA GO!

 

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SaberBlade  626 posts
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Date Posted: 7/27/04 6:36am Subject: RE: Changes -- Ben, K/J
Oops... I truly didn't mean to be this evil. I just had work, and then I fell asleep, and...

Maybe this proves why I'm always sorted into Slytherin. My apologies to all for the very long wait and many broken update-promises.

I'm off to work like NOW, but to give you all something before I leave, I'll post the second part now and do reviews when I get back.

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Ben walked down the landing ramp in something of a relieved daze. Jaina wasn’t going to marry Durron, so things weren’t going to change. She understood that things changing wasn’t always good– but what had she meant by saying that it was hard to keep some things the same without changing them?

Ben slowed his steps and stopped, and forced his mind to turn that thought over in his head a few times. To make things stay the same, he had to change things? Was that was it meant? Jaina always was making twisted statements like that; his mom always said that she hadn’t ever quite recovered from being a Goddess and that she was perpetually stuck in her Trickster mentality. Whatever that meant– to Ben, it just meant that Jaina appreciated a good practical joke and said some really weird things.

But this really weird thing made even less sense than normal. Ben stifled a sigh and turned around. It was going to annoy him until Jaina explained it, so he might as well go and let her lecture him about it. He was half-certain that she said strange things to make him think about them a little too much.

He made his way back to the Trickster, and on an impulse, decided to try and surprise his cousin using the little trick his other cousin had taught him on his last visit. It took him a long minute until he felt that he managed to get his shielding right, but when he was sure that his Force-presence was hidden, Ben stepped up the landing ramp, intent on surprising Jaina.

He had gone no more than four steps toward the aft passageway when he heard the low murmur of voices coming from the galley. Ben stopped short, and listened for an intense few seconds. It was a conversation, so Jaina must have gotten a comm call before she could go back to her wiring repairs. It didn’t change anything; he’d just have to surprise her in the galley instead of the corridor.

It would be a bit more challenging, Ben realized, and he’d have to be very quiet, but he thought he could still manage to surprise her. He carefully made his way toward the galley.

He never made it there. He stopped in shock– that was Durron’s voice! And it wasn’t over the comm system.

“...told you it would happen one of these days,” Ben overheard the man saying as he drew– still silently– near enough to the galley to make out words.

“Yes, but I didn’t think it would be today,” Jaina said, and Ben knew her well enough to guess that she looked exasperated.

“So,” and Durron sounded amused, “Jag asked you three times, huh?”

“Kyp...” The way she said his name made it a warning.

Durron obviously hadn’t spent enough time in her company to recognize the danger of continuing. Then again, Ben figured, maybe he was just too stupid to care. “So does that officially make you the girl who’s turned down the most marriage proposals, or are you still working on that title?”

“Kyp!” she said, but she was laughing.

“That brings your total to– what, his plus mine– five hundred and fifty four marriage proposals you’ve turned down.”

Ben nearly choked and ruined his hiding place. Five hundred and fifty four marriage proposals? That wasn’t possible. That would mean a proposal a day every day for over a year...

Ben heard Jaina’s sigh from his place near the entry arch. “You just need to stop asking, Kyp. And stop keeping track.” Her voice sounded somehow wistful, and Ben wondered why.

“I haven’t asked you yet today,” Durron said, and his voice was lower than before. “Marry me, Jaina?”

Ben’s mouth dropped open. He’d just eavesdropped on a marriage proposal. To his cousin. From Durron. There were just so many things wrong with that, he couldn’t start to list them.

“I can’t, Kyp.” Jaina’s voice was soft, so soft. “I told you that the first time. Why do you keep asking me?” She sounded almost near tears.

“Because every time I ask, you say, ‘I can’t’,” Durron said somberly. “You never say, ‘no’, it’s just ‘I can’t’. And until I ask you to marry me and you give me a ‘yes’ or a ‘no’, I won’t stop asking.”

Jaina sighed again, and Ben risked a quick peek around the corner and into the galley. They were standing together, arms wrapped around each other, and Jaina had her face hidden against Durron’s chest. Ben pulled back and leaned against the corridor wall once more.

“Look, Jaina, just look at me and tell me you don’t want to marry me, and I’ll stop.”

Ben held his breath, waiting for her answer, and the edges of his vision were beginning to go a bit grainy before Jaina finally spoke. “I can’t.”

“Then marry me.”

“I can’t.”

“Why not?” Durron sounded frustrated, but all Ben felt was relief.

“Because things will change too much if I do!” Jaina burst out. Ben backed away a step; he recognized too much emotion and temper in her outburst for him to risk being too close. “Nothing will be the same, and I’m too happy with the way things are right now to risk changing it.”

“What do you think is going to change?” Durron demanded, and he sounded so furious that Ben wondered if he should announce his presence by darting to his cousin’s side prepared to defend her. “What about marrying me would be so awful?”

“Nothing!” Jaina shouted back, and Ben decided that they probably should be watched so that in case one of them murdered the other, there would at least be a witness. He poked his head around the corner– Jaina and Kyp had spun apart, and now were standing on opposite sides of the galley.

Jaina turned toward the wall and gazed at it, blinking furiously, and Ben doubted that she really cared about the scratched paint that she was staring at. “It wouldn’t be awful at all.”

Durron’s hands came up and rubbed at his face, and then he crossed the room to stand behind her. His hands lowered to her shoulders. “No more fighting today, Goddess,” he said, and he sounded resigned. “I’m getting too old for this.”

Ben was pretty sure that Jaina was crying, and his guess proved accurate when she turned and wrapped her arms around Durron’s waist, pressing her face against his shoulder. “I’m sorry, Kyp. I really am.”

“I know.” He kissed the crown of her head, and his arms moved to pull her closer. “I just wish I could understand why.”

There was such a long silence that Ben’s breathing began to sound harsh and loud in his ears. He took a deep breath and held it, hoping that they would go back to normal and talk about the ship or lightsabers or something boring, so that he could back away unnoticed. Instead, after a horribly long moment during which Ben debated the merits of suffocation over the perils of discovery, Jaina turned her head into the curve of Kyp’s throat, where his shoulder met his neck.

“Because if we were married, things would change,” she said, her voice so soft that Ben could barely hear her. “And things are so perfect the way they are now that I don’t want them to change because they can’t get any better than this without something going wrong.”

There was another long pause, and Ben was forced to breathe through it this time, doing his best to keep his gulps of air muffled and unnoticed.

Durron sighed and began to rub at Jaina’s back. “What’s perfect about this, Jaina?”

“You’re here,” she said fiercely, and her eyes shut tight. “You’re my friend and my lover, and I can turn to you when I need you. You make me laugh and you hold me when I cry, and I know you love me as much as love you.”

Ben winced. “You’re my friend and my lover–” Now there was some mental imagery that he could have done without. And his cousin was getting downright sappy. When had she turned into such a sentimental girl? This was cousin Jaina, the rough and tumble one, the one with oil under her fingernails and scrapes along her hands, the one who inadvertently taught him new swear words with her cursing, the one who made rather impolite comments under her breath whenever she thought no one could hear her. When had Jaina turned into this mushy girl?

Her eyes fluttered back open. “I can trust you to watch my back. I can argue with you. You’ve saved my life. I can talk about anything with you. You’re the one person I don’t want to lose, and you’re my best friend. That’s the way things are now. How can that get better? I don’t want to change it.” Her voice shook. “I’m afraid that if we do change it, we’ll lose what we have.”

“Look at your parents, Jaina,” Durron said quietly. “Look at your aunt and uncle. Did they lose any of that?”

But Jaina was silent. Ben slipped back around the corner and leaned against the wall. That was what Jaina was afraid of changing?

Durron sighed, and Ben heard movement but didn’t dare poke his head around the corner once more to see what was going on. “Goddess,” Durron said, “if we were married, things would change.”

“See?” Jaina said. “That’s why I can’t–”

“–No,” Durron interrupted. “Listen. If we were married, we wouldn’t have to do any of this just-friends stuff anymore. We wouldn’t have to listen to everyone wonder if we’re good friends or lovers or anything else more.” His voice lowered, became rougher and less controlled. “If we were married, I could kiss you in public and no one would be able to do anything about it. If we were married, I wouldn’t have to watch other men try to flatter you and make you blush because you’d be mine. If we were married, you wouldn’t have to sneak past your apprentice to see me.”

Jaina snuck past Jysella to see Durron? Ben gleefully hoarded in the blackmail information, knowing it was priceless. But Durron was getting rather sappy himself– why did all adults have to turn into idiots when they talked about love and stuff?

“Something would go wrong, Kyp,” Jaina said. Her voice was still small and shaky. “It would be too perfect, and something would go wrong. Every time I’ve had something good, it’s been ruined– and I don’t want this to be ruined.”

“Jaina,” Durron sighed. “Us being married won’t ruin this, but you forever being afraid something might go wrong– that could ruin us.”

“You think I don’t know that?” Jaina burst out. “I don’t want us to change because things are fine the way they are. I’m the Sword of the Jedi, Kyp– I’m not supposed to know peace. This is already too good to be true; if it gets any better, something will go wrong. I’m just so afraid of things changing!”

“So,” Durron said, and his voice was very soft. “You can’t marry me because that would make too many things change, and you don’t want anything to be different from how it is now.”

“Things are perfectly fine the way they are now, Kyp!” Jaina said, voice still raised.

Ben wondered why she sounded so desperate.

But his voice lashed out at her. “No, they’re not! I’m sick of people wondering just why I’m always around you. I’m sick of having to hide the fact that I’m in love with you. I’m sick of no one else knowing that you love me. I’m sick of having to hide us.” His voice was harsh. “And you know what, Goddess? If you don’t care enough to risk changing those few little thigns, then I don’t know just why I’m wasting my time waiting for you.”

“Kyp–”

“Too late, Jaina. You told Ben that sometimes you have to change things to keep things the same– well, you didn’t change anything, so it’s not staying the same. Goodbye, Jaina.”

“Kyp, no!”

Footsteps were heading towards Ben’s hiding space, and so Ben made his decision swiftly. He forced himself away from his wall and stepped out into the center of the hallway. Durron strode out of the galley, face tight and determined, and nearly ran him over; Jaina, looking terrified, was close on his heels.

“Turn around,” Ben said to Durron.

“When did you get here?” the man demanded.

Ben just glared at him. “Look, I don’t like you much,” he said flatly. “But Jaina does, so you’re going to turn around and ask her to marry you for the five hundredth whatever time, and Jaina–” switching his glare from Durron to his cousin “– is going to accept and apologize for making you wait so long. And then, Jaina, not a whole lot is going to change, because from what it sounds like you two are already practically married, and you’re going to realize that what you told me was true and to keep things the way you like you do have to change things.” He folded his arms. “And the fact that I can understand that you–” to Durron “–are afraid that she’s ashamed of you and that you–” to his cousin “–are afraid that it can’t get better– the fact that I can see this and you two can’t is just sad.

Both older Jedi simply stared at him for a long moment, then Jaina said quietly, “I’m not ashamed of you, Kyp. Never.”

The anger seemed to fade away from Durron’s eyes. He slowly turned back to face Jaina. “It can get better, Goddess. I promise.”

“Good,” Ben said impatiently. “Now you ask her to marry you, and she’ll say yes, and–”

“–No,” Jaina said, and both males stared at her in shock. She just smiled and stepped forward. “Five hundred and fifty five marriage proposals are enough for any girl– it’s time you had one of your own. Will you marry me, Kyp?”

Ben stared at her in shock. Kyp took a step forward, took her hand in his, kissed her palm, and said, “Yes.”

“Good,” Ben announced after a moment, when all they did was stare at each other. “Now that that’s been settled, I can say that Jaina, you’re an idiot, and Durron, I still don’t like you much, but at least you’ll be happy. Congratulations. You both owe me big.”

And, leaving them to stare at each other some more, Ben Skywalker turned and exited his cousin’s ship. He’d figured out exactly what Jaina had meant, and learned a lot more than he’d expected.

He’d also received enough blackmail information to last a good long while, which was the important part.

And they were both happy. That was good.

Feeling oddly pleased with himself, Ben nearly skipped down the landing ramp and out into the hangar. Even though Jaina would marry Durron– which would, he realized, mean that he’d have to call Durron Kyp because Jaina would also be Durron– nothing really would change. She’d still be Jaina, and that was what mattered. Because if all that sappy stuff they were saying was true, they’d practically been married for years– well, for as many days as it took to get five hundred and fifty two marriage proposals, not counting the three from Admiral Fel that Ben still couldn’t believe she hadn’t accepted.

But then again, grown-ups really were strange. They were probably kissing or something already.

Ben sighed. He was not looking forward to growing up. Not if that was an example of how dense grown-ups could be.

Maybe the older you got, the more brain cells you lost?

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In which Saber offers an apology to those who liked this fic because there was no angst. ::sigh:: At least I didn't kill anyone off. And yes, this is over. The end.

And the in-joke from the first post was actually the "Heard it, heard it, heard it, ooh, that's a new one..." which is something I actually said re: swearing. Rather amusing at the time. Rather amusing in general, actually.

But I'm off to work; hopefully I'll be able to do replies and get some PMs out when I return!

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djcati  2045 posts
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Date Posted: 7/27/04 7:05am Subject: RE: Changes -- Ben, K/J -- COMPLETED
*squeal*

Wow, I've had no sugar today and this fic has made me hyper enough without it...


Your characterization of Ben is brilliant, he really sounds just like a kid, just like he should, and pretty much just like I've imagined him.

Jaina's explanation is so silly, yet totally believable, and man, I'm glad Ben understood and got through to her there... silly Jaina.


I love it.
I said that before, but no, really, I do.

BRILLIANT

if only my brother hadn't kept bugging me all the way through reading it.. ack... of course reading this fic is more important than your three-hour-late lunch, Stuart... >>;

 

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Vongchild  5097 posts
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Date Posted: 7/27/04 7:27am Subject: RE: Changes -- Ben, K/J -- COMPLETED
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!! Somehow reminds me of spiderman... must be the "I love you but I can't marry you" part.


love it.

 

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Ars_longa  578 posts
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Date Posted: 7/27/04 7:55am Subject: RE: Changes -- Ben, K/J -- COMPLETED
Oh, that's priceless!

Ben is certainly taking after his mother, isn't he? happy

And I think it was extremely cruel of Luke to say this thing about the Sword of the Jedi he said. It was just... simply cruel.

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Saber_Leader  2230 posts
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Date Posted: 7/27/04 8:33am Subject: RE: Changes -- Ben, K/J -- COMPLETED - Date Edited: 7/27/04 12:53pm (1 edits total) Edited By: Saber_Leader
When had Jaina turned into this mushy girl?

grin

"Congratulations. You both owe me big."

laugh

He'd also received enough blackmail information to last a good long while, which was the important part.

Might not be quite as effective sense they know he was there, but still. . .

 

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Eowyn_Jade  2033 posts
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Date Posted: 7/27/04 9:04am Subject: RE: Changes -- Ben, K/J -- COMPLETED
lol! that was awsome! perfectly done!

Bravo grin

LOVE the last line btw...

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Trickster_Jaina_Fel  5203 posts
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Date Posted: 7/27/04 9:15am Subject: RE: Changes -- Ben, K/J -- COMPLETED
Very cute grin laugh Ben's characterization was vivid and hilarious (although, he seemed more eleven than thirteen...), and Jaina and Kyp were both written realistically, with a new problem, rather than an old, rehashed-until-your-head-is-spinning.

Great job grin

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kyps_godess  130 posts
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Date Posted: 7/27/04 9:27am Subject: RE: Changes -- Ben, K/J -- COMPLETED
that is sooo wicked!!

are you going to write a sequel? with the wedding and ben use of all his blackmail stuff?

well done!!

kt

 

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Suzuki_Akira  24040 posts
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Date Posted: 7/27/04 9:29am Subject: RE: Changes -- Ben, K/J -- COMPLETED
I honestly can say that I like your characterization of Ben. It's done well, kept constant, and (I must say) entertaining. You rule. And a half.


Score:
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