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goddess45 Registered: Jun '05	Date Posted: 8/21/05 7:40am Subject: Have You Ever? - Date Edited: 8/21/05 7:43am (1 edits total) Edited By: goddess45
	Have you ever? A/N – This is GL’s toy-box I just play in it! This is also my first songfic. (I don't read too many songfics so if some one used this song at this time frame let me know and i can change some things) I also have a LOT more respect for the people who do this alot because it's HARD. Ok now I'm done! hehe Credit- Thank you also to my trusty beta FelsGoddess who fixes the spacing and everything!! So a big round of applause to her! -The song/Lyrics to 'Have You Ever' belong to Brandy (I heard it on the radio one day! ) Ok now to actual story!! Summary- Jag’s thoughts during parts of Dark Journey and Rebel Dream, skipping some parts in between. Might be a little AU I honestly haven’t read the books in forever so I don’t remember a lot of what happened at this particular point. Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry Have you ever needed somethin' so bad you can't sleep at night Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right Have you ever Have you ever Have you ever Jag Fel sat across from the beauty known as Jaina Solo at the banquet in the Hapan court. She looked miserable, but beautiful just the same. She displayed a beautiful strapless red dress. It flared out at the hips and it hugged her petite form, showing off every curve on the young woman’s body. It was just one of the many reasons he loved her. She was beautiful in every way. She had spunk and she was stubborn. She could almost out-fly him on some occasions, but they were evenly matched in talent. He loved her so much. He knew that much. He had probably fallen in love with her that day on Ithor. She knocked him off his feet. But she didn’t love him. She was too busy to be in a relationship with anyone, let alone love someone else besides family. He wasn’t even sure what their relationship was. Jaina was staying in the palace, while her family stayed with the refugees. Although both the Solos were offered residence in the Hapan palace, Leia declined, feeling it was her duty to stay with the refugees. Jaina took up the offer. For some reason she wanted to be away from her family even with the recent death of the two Solo sons. Have you ever been in love Been in love so bad You'd do anything To make them understand Have you ever had someone Steal your heart away You'd give anything, oh To make them feel the same Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart But you don't know what to say And you don't know where to start He couldn’t actually say how he felt about her for two reasons. One, with Jaina ‘going dark,’ as Kyp had put it, he was purely afraid of her. From Kyp’s tales of what she could do with the Force, he did not want to be on her bad side, although he feared he already was. Every time they had a confrontation it ended in some sort of yelling or arguing. The second reason was he was scared of expressing his feelings, which was that this was going to be so new to him, and then being rejected. His ego, being the size of a normal fighter jock’s, would be badly bruised. He didn’t care, although it would ruin his reputation to the point of no return, he would at least never be left wondering if she would or wouldn’t have loved him or even shown affection back. Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry Have you ever needed somethin' so bad you can't sleep at night Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right Have you ever Have you ever Oh He often tried to be kind. After all he had lost three siblings himself and understood fully how it felt. Jaina, however, seemed to think no one understood, that no one could relate. Many people could. They had lost brothers, sisters, sons, daughters, mothers, fathers, cousins, aunts, uncles, friends, the list could go on forever. There were so many people who wanted to help her but she always refused. He could understand to some extent why she felt that way. She was a Jedi. She could feel her brothers die. It didn’t make it less of a loss for him when he had lost Davin, Chak, and Cherith, though. Even if she doesn’t know, he couldn’t stop loving her. Have you ever found the one You dreamed of all your life You'd do just about anything To look into their eyes Have you finally found the one You've given your heart to Only to find that one Won't give their heart to you Have you ever closed your eyes and dreamed that they were there And all you can do is wait For the day when they will care It was something he could not stop doing. He would love her always. He knew she was perfect for him. But she doesn’t love me, him he reminded himself. He stayed up at night wondering about her. She had left Hapes with Kyp. If I had taken the chance to tell her how I felt would she reciprocate the feelings? Have you ever loved somebody (So much) So much (Makes you cry) Makes you wanna break down and cry (Somethin' so bad) So, so bad (Sleep at night) Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't (Come out right) Oh, have you ever Have you ever, ever, ever Battle of Borleias A Vong warship closed in on him. It was over. His only hope is he would die fighting rather than give up completely. Jaina! Two X-Wings roared over me. It was Jaina and Kyp. What does she think she’s doing? She and Kyp can get killed! Well I guess anyone could, but now that Jaina has the Goddes role to play she can’t risk her life. Yet she came back. Maybe she does care. His heart leaped with joy at the thought. It was the only thing that kept him going for the remainder of the battle. What do I gotta do to get you in my arms, baby What do I gotta say to get to your heart To make you understand How I need you next to me Gotta get you in my world Cause baby, I can't sleep Jaina looked beat. Jag and Jaina were both lead to General Antilles’ office. Jaina was here for one reason; he was here for another. Jaina was here to be reprimanded; he was mostly likely here to be congratulated. He wondered why she did it. It’s now or never, buddy. Ask her “I need to talk to you. Privately” She looked up slightly shaken but answered quietly, “There’s a little conference room down the corridor.” That would be good. No one would notice their absence, “That’ll do.” She got up, looking horrified. She thinks I’m going to yell at her. They approached the conference room and he pushed the door open, letting her walk past and closed it behind her and himself. “I know what you’re going to say,” she said, cringing slightly. Her eyes seemed to shimmer, probably from tears threatening to spill. She thinks I’m going to yell at her and I’m afraid she’s going to yell at me. That is, if she didn’t save me for the reason I think she did. “I don’t think you do.” He collected his thoughts, unaware that she was speaking. She choked up trying so hard not to let the river of tears come forth behind her wall hiding her emotions. He caught up to what she was saying and answered calmly, “No. We both know your command decisions were far a field of common sense and effective strategy. We don’t even have to discuss that. What I have to know…,” he took a deep breath and stepped closer to her gathering all his courage here we go, “What I have to know is this: Why did you do it?” “I…I….” He finally saw the tears begin to spill, her answer just a mumble. It broke his heart to see the woman he loved cry, especially when he was the cause of the tears. “Everyone is going away. They keep going away and I can’t stop it.” The last part of her jumble of words he had to strain to hear. “I didn’t want you to go away.” She does feel something! He did the only thing he could think to do, he pulled her into his arms letting her lean on him as she cried. He could feel the tears soaking into his uniform and he rested is head on hers, gently stoking her hair. “I won’t go anywhere,” I promise, he added silently to himself. She lifted her head slightly, “Why?” What? “Why what?” “Why won’t you go anywhere?” It’s now or never. “Because I don’t want to.” He leaned down and kissed her. It was the most wonderful experience of his life. The best part was, she leaned into the kiss, accepting it wholeheartedly. She smiled slightly into the kiss. It was all going to be ok. Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry Have you ever needed somethin' so bad you can't sleep at night Have you (have you, have you ever needed) ever tried to find the words But they don't come out right Have you ever He hadn’t seen Jaina in days. He finally saw her after another battle to defend Borleias. Since the strike team got back from Corescant alive, and since Lando was Lando, he was having a huge party with pre-invasion brandy. He was going to ask Jaina to join him. He had to figure out a way to ask her without seeming like he was asking her out - so to speak. She walked towards him and asked, “What’s up?” “Calrissian got back from Coruscant alive so Calrissian being Calrissian, he throwing a party for family and friends. And friends of friends, and anyone who looks interesting. He said he has pre-invasion brandy. Care to go?” She turned to think. Does she not want to go? Is she reconsidering our relationship? “Love to.” She linked her arm through his and the new couple walked down to Calrissian’s party. Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry Have you ever needed somethin' so bad you can't sleep at night Have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right Have you ever Have you ever, ever, ever Oh, have you ever ----------------> Hope you liked it! Please R&R! (EDIT- everything below the dotted line!) -----signature----- Twin Suns 24 Crazy Duck of TKL's Wraiths Fan Art- http://boards.theforce.net/fan_art/b10020/22639294/p1/?0
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oldjedinurse Registered: Oct '03	Date Posted: 8/21/05 7:55am Subject: RE: Have You Ever?
	I like very much! Nice point of view, taking Jag's perspective about Jaina's daring rescue at Borleias. I loved the way he had to screw up his courage to say anything to her. I think you captured him very well. Good job! oldj -----signature----- Confidence is the feeling you have before you understand the situation.
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cheersweetie27 Registered: Jul '03	Date Posted: 8/21/05 8:25am Subject: RE: Have You Ever?
	Aww, that was great goddess45! I loved seeing the relationship from Jag's point of view because people usually write it from Jaina's. Loved it!! -----signature----- She's Every Woman (L/M)-http://boards.theforce.net/Message.aspx?topic=26738997&brd=10477&replies=0 Too Young (J/Z)- http://boards.theforce.net/Message.aspx?topic=22666120&brd=10477&replies=0 Tattered Memory (L,M,B)- http://boards.theforce.net/message.asp?
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FelsGoddess Registered: Sep '04	Date Posted: 8/21/05 10:01am Subject: RE: Have You Ever?
	Great job! Its always nice to have something for Jag's POV. -----signature----- Knighted by Tahi
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VaderLVR64 Title: Manager Emeritus Registered: Feb '04	Date Posted: 8/21/05 10:05am Subject: RE: Have You Ever?
	I loved it! -----signature----- R.I.P John, Alex, Jason, and Christian Never forgotten Soldiers' Angels http://soldiersangels.org/ 2114 soldiers waiting for someone to care
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Azeria_Jade Title: Tipoca City Webmistress Vancouver BC CA Registered: Feb '01	Date Posted: 8/21/05 2:02pm Subject: RE: Have You Ever?
	That was awesome. Period. -----signature----- Star Wars Alternate Universe Fanfiction: Shroud of Darkness http://boards.theforce.net/Message.aspx?topic=26793660&brd=10476&replies=1 Spoiler free for Shadows of Mindor!
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correllian_ale Title: Manager Emeritus Registered: Jun '05	Date Posted: 8/21/05 6:07pm Subject: RE: Have You Ever?
	That was terrific! I prefer J/J over J/K anyway.... (P.S.-are u a Def Leppard fan?) -----signature----- Consider this my "throw back" jersey... I govern my life around my own personal code of ethics, and I suggest that you do the same.
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Healer_Leona Title: Manager Emeritus Registered: Jul '00	Date Posted: 8/21/05 6:37pm Subject: RE: Have You Ever?
	Very lovely fic, I was so worried it wasn't going to end on a hopeful note. -----signature----- Feel so good, but I'm old 2000 years of chasing's taking it's toll
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goddess45 Registered: Jun '05	Date Posted: 8/21/05 7:34pm Subject: RE: Have You Ever?
	Healer_Leona Very lovely fic, I was so worried it wasn't going to end on a hopeful note. Thank you! Nah I wouldn't have ended on a bad note. I can't do it! Then I would be sad correllian_ale That was terrific! Why thank you!! I prefer J/J over J/K anyway.... Me too. P.S.-are u a Def Leppard fan? Would i be in trouble if i said i don't know who he is? Azeria_Jade That was awesome. Period. Thanks!! VaderLVR64 I loved it! I'm glad! FelsGoddess Great job! Its always nice to have something for Jag's POV. Thank you! I liked Jags pov too. it gives you a different side to the story cheersweetie27 Aww, that was great goddess45! Why thank you! I loved seeing the relationship from Jag's point of view because people usually write it from Jaina's. When I listened to the song it was the only way it would have worked. I'm glad you liked it! oldjedinurse I like very much! yay. I'm glad you did Nice point of view, taking Jag's perspective about Jaina's daring rescue at Borleias. I loved the way he had to screw up his courage to say anything to her. I think you captured him very well. That was my first time doing something from someones pov so i had hoped it would turn out all right Good job! Thank you! -----signature----- Twin Suns 24 Crazy Duck of TKL's Wraiths Fan Art- http://boards.theforce.net/fan_art/b10020/22639294/p1/?0
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