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Ariapaige Registered: Feb '02	Date Posted: 1/24/07 1:55pm Subject: RE: Insatiable - (Luke/Mara, angst) Updated 1/18, Chapter 22
	wow! there are no other words... wow. paige -----signature----- sometime lurker
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jackyyy17 Registered: Jan '06	Date Posted: 1/29/07 10:29pm Subject: RE: Insatiable - (Luke/Mara, angst) Updated 1/18, Chapter 22
	Oh man, what a post. Luke is being really brave for them both. I'm glad that Mara has someone. You describe Mara's situation so well. Gosh, that was really moving chapter. Keep up the good work, and please, please update soon. jacky -----signature----- Padawan to DaenaBenjen42
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JadeLotus Registered: Mar '05	Date Posted: 1/30/07 6:52pm Subject: RE: Insatiable - (Luke/Mara, angst) A/N
	A/N: Thanks to all my readers for sticking with me through this fic. It may be a while before I'm able to update again, as I'm in the process of moving to the UK so won't have much time for fic. I will try to get back to this asap, and begin the sequel to Chimera, for those of you who are reading that. There's still a good bulk of the story left, so I'll try not to leave it hanging for too long. Cheers! PM list: please let me know if you want on or off this figurative train. AriaPaige MirandaFair Jade_eyes academygrad88 Jetta jade51999 Jaira tasujad jackyyy17 ___Sithspawn___ JEDIFLYSWATTER motoish riansage Handmaiden_Azul Jedi_Luck pat_skywalker39 TnTornado strwbrystarshine MagnusPrimal Replies: ginchy - Thank gal! They do seem to be entering the seventh circle of hell, don't they? Golden_Jedi - hands tissues jade51999 - Thank you - I was really trying to capture the horrors of withdrawl. StarFighter5 - I think there'a always hope - in Luke's eyes anyway divapilot - Very true - her addiction have altered the very core personality traits she usually has, even bringing Luke down with her. This is like Pandora's box -- all the evil is out now, and all that's left is hope. I hadn't thought about it that way..er, I mean...yes, that was whta I intended all along RedGold - Thanks! And I am, in fact, very proud of myself Jade_eyes - Thank you - I didn't want to shy away from the withdrawal at all, because it is by no means and easy thing for Mara to get over. Jade_Pilot - I think Luke would try to help anyone in this situation, but to this extent? He's far too invested into MAra to not take care of it himself. ccp - Thank you Blue_Milkshake - It would be a sad galaxy indeed when Luke lost hope. JEDIFLYSWATTER - Very true - if Mara makes it past the withdrawal she'll be in an even darker place, knowing how far she's let herself go and hurt the people she's meant to care about. She will need to forgive herself, first. riansage - I think it would be too easy for Mara to 'cheat' through her withdrawal with the Force. Luckily Luke is a smart cookie and saw far enough ahead to prevent that. MagnusPrimal - Thank you I already know exactly how it's going to end, but you might be suprised and like it! maramijade - Thank you! Jedi Trace - Thanks! I actually did, you know, research. Unheard of for me! Hopefully Mara will be able to appreciate all Luke's done for her. AG88 - Thank you! If only we could all have our own Luke. MirandaFair - Thank you, raw and painful was what I was going for. Plus the fact he brought in ysalamir...wow. A huge gesture given to Mara by him so she wouldn't use the Force as a crutch. I think that's the essense of Luke's character - it must be so difficult for him to be without the Force, but he doesn't even hesitate to give it up for another. I just love my Lukie for that! Jaira - Thanks! Treepio - He's wonderful, isn't he? Ariapaige - Thank you! jackyyy17 - Thank you. Without Karrde, Luke is really the only person Mara trusts enough, that could help her in this situation. -----signature----- You are the only thing that makes sense Just ignore all this present tense
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divapilot Registered: Nov '05	Date Posted: 2/1/07 3:06am Subject: RE: Insatiable - (Luke/Mara, angst) Author's Notes 1/30
	Please add me to the PM list for this story and the sequel to Chimaera. Happy moving! -----signature----- Never tell me the odds. AKL
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RedGold Registered: Nov '04	Date Posted: 2/1/07 4:57am Subject: RE: Insatiable - (Luke/Mara, angst) Author's Notes 1/30
	Have fun moving! Hope you get to see lots of cool stuff! PM when you get back and start updating again! -----signature----- Legend... Recluse... Forgotten... Will one day return... http://www.starwarsfanfic.com
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Jade_eyes Registered: Aug '04	Date Posted: 2/1/07 6:06am Subject: RE: Insatiable - (Luke/Mara, angst) Author's Notes 1/30
	Have a safe, stress-free move And please don't forget, I'm on Pm lists for both this and the sequel to Chimera. Don't wanna miss a thing. -----signature----- Luke/Mara, most melty, moving of soulmates Stoked to beta their stuff Mush's so nummily nice, I give one of these twice! Squee! Squggles!
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MirandaFair Registered: Jun '05	Date Posted: 2/1/07 3:14pm Subject: RE: Insatiable - (Luke/Mara, angst) Author's Notes 1/30
	We will be here when you're settled in and ready! Please have a safe move and good luck with everything. -----signature----- May the Muse be with you.
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Jetta Registered: May '01	Date Posted: 2/1/07 5:49pm Subject: RE: Insatiable - (Luke/Mara, angst) Author's Notes 1/30
	I'm late but I finally made it. This was an intense chapter but the ending leaves room for hope. Luke is such a guy - remaining by Mara's side through all of it. I do hope Mara gets better to see how much he cares for her and vice versa. Your writing is incredible. Enjoy your move and don't forget about us. -----signature----- MTFBWY Wherever you go, that's where you are.
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maramijade Registered: Feb '00	Date Posted: 2/2/07 8:08am Subject: RE: Insatiable - (Luke/Mara, angst) Author's Notes 1/30
	:: sings:: come on ride a train do do and ride it! kk. . . I'll stop now.. . yes add me to the PM list not that I don't get LJ notifications of it being updated either but. . . TheForce.net was my first Internet community and my loyalty's generally lay here. . . -----signature----- If computer Geeks were wizards. . . . . . I'd be a second year at Hogwarts, born to muggles
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MagnusPrimal Registered: Jan '06	Date Posted: 2/4/07 1:50pm Subject: RE: Insatiable - (Luke/Mara, angst) Author's Notes 1/30
	Good luck with the move! I've just moved within one state, and I hate doing it, so I can't imagine the aggravation you'll go through. Hope it all goes well! -----signature----- If it makes you happy, then why the hell are you so sad?
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Handmaiden_Azul Registered: Dec '05	Date Posted: 2/6/07 11:27am Subject: RE: Insatiable - (Luke/Mara, angst) Author's Notes 1/30
	Luke is so sweet. sighs
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Jedi_Luck Registered: Dec '05	Date Posted: 2/10/07 7:57pm Subject: RE: Insatiable - (Luke/Mara, angst) Author's Notes 1/30
	Great update JadeLotus! I have to admit you have me addicted. I don't know if I am on the PM list for Chimera or not but could you add me? Heck you can PM me anytime you are working on a fic that has to do with Luke, I am obsessed! Anyone who is writing about Luke should PM me so I can read it! LOL Thanks and good luck with the move! peace, Jedi Luck
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JadeLotus Registered: Mar '05	Date Posted: 4/10/07 8:50am Subject: RE: Insatiable - (Luke/Mara, angst) Updated 4/10, Chapter 23
	Thanks to everyone for waiting so patiently, it's taken a long time for me to write this chapter. Thanks especially to ginchy for the super-fast beta Chapter 23 “Is she still in there?” Leia cast a murderous look towards Luke’s bedroom door. Somehow she managed to exude contempt, even while sitting with perfect posture at Luke’s kitchen table with a cup of caf in her delicate fingers. “Leia, please.” Luke ran a hand over his tired eyes. “Your disapproval is the last thing I need right now.” “Luke, I’m going to disapprove no matter what.” She sighed and put her cup down. “But I don't like to see you upset, so I suppose I can...condemn silently.” The beginnings of a smile found its way to the edges of her mouth, but she clamped down on the emotion. Obviously she could see that Luke was not in a joking mood. “I made a commitment, Leia,” he tried to explain. “I can’t just abandon someone who needs me.” “This isn’t just anyone, Luke.” Leia reached out across the table to take one of his hands in hers. “Do you still love her?” “I’m just focussing on getting her well again,” Luke hurriedly changed the subject. “That’s all.” “And how long will that take?” Leia questioned. “Well,” Luke shifted in his seat, “it’s already been a week, and she’s improved dramatically.” “Luke!” Leia scoffed. “A week? It could take months, or years! You don’t have the kind of experience about this sort of thing, she needs professional help.” “I know her,” Luke insisted. “I know she can do this. She wants to.” “She’s been lying to you from the beginning.” Leia reminded him gently, squeezing his hand. “How do you know she’s stillnot fooling you, and herself?” “I just know, Leia,” he replied quietly. “My eyes are open, now.” “Nevertheless,” Leia released her grip on him, pulling back into professionalism. “I’m not sure keeping her locked up in your bedroom is the best course of action.” “I don’t have her chained to the bed, Leia.” A creep of annoyance founds its way into his voice. Leia snorted unceremoniously into her caf. She put the cup down again deliberately, and managed to look back at Luke with dignity. “I just can’t help but think being in there would remind the both of you of...” Leia cleared her throat, clearly unwilling to finish her sentence and perhaps wishing she’d sent Han to talk to Luke instead. “It will do for now.” Luke replied, easing her of the need to vocalise her concerns. “There’s nothing in there that can hurt her.” ............................ “Mara...” It was a ghost of a voice, barely a whisper on the edges of her consciousness. Mara’s eyes opened in the darkened room. The air was thick – stuffy from a lack of fresh outside breeze. She would have to ask Luke to open the window. That thought stopped her – ask Luke – what had she become, begging him for a crack of air? She should break the glass, if that’s what she needed to do. But the past week of suffering, of denying her violent, needy urges, had taught her a measure of control. Re-taught her, really. Because she had been through the same process before. “Mara...” That voice again. Mara shifted in the bed, untwisting the sheets from her legs and raised herself into a sitting position. She could see well enough through the darkness, and there was no one there. “I’m here, Mara.” She knew that voice. She had heard it through her first withdrawal, years ago. It was the same voice that had talked her through the long nights, had spoken of his own experiences and difficulties. It was the voice that had forced her back to life, in that white place after she had overdosed. “Talon?” she asked into the air. “Is that you?” Mara felt tears well up in her eyes but she violently blinked them back. It was simply another hallucination, another trick of her stimulant-deprived mind. That was what her rational brain was telling her – but she couldn’t help but reach out and cling to that shred of hope. To believe that a part – any part – of Talon was still with her. She needed him, now more than ever before. “Talon?” she called again, her eyes searching the darkness. “Who else would it be?” His rich voice filled her mind, with that slight edge she knew so well. “You need me, so I’m here.” “You’re not real,” Mara said, massaging her temples as if it would restore her sanity. “That’s all relative, isn’t it?” Talon answered. “But if you want me to go...” “No,” Mara whispered, almost desperately. “I, I need...” She remembered a hundred nights he had spent at her side, talking to her until she had fallen asleep, soothed by the sound of his voice as he spoke of ordinary, everyday things. Ship maintenance, crew orders – making her forget about the hunger that burned in her veins. He had never judged her, but had never been soft on her either, challenging her every step of the way. She could never lose his love, as she had lost... Luke didn’t trust her. He never could again, she understood that. He couldn’t help either; he simply couldn’t understand. But Talon, her uncomplicated, uncritical friend... Hot tears burned her eyes, and this time she allowed them to spill down her cheeks. She wasn’t sure what she needed. *********** Leia walked quickly down the hallway from Luke’s apartment, her heart a little lighter after her talk with her brother. She had no doubt he could handle the situation – he had, after all, seen many people who had suffered a lot worse than Mara with addiction. The only problem was, he had never been as emotionally close to them. But to doubt his abilities was to doubt her own brother, and she could not allow herself to do that. No, she had to support him, but keep her distance and allow things to run their course. And maybe send Han to check up on him a few times a week. Leia was so intent on her thoughts she didn’t even notice the figure that appeared around the corner, until she ran directly into him. She stumbled a few feet back, reaching out to steady herself on the wall. “Oh, I am so sorry, Madame,” the figure was at her side in an instant. Leia looked up to see a very concerned-looking Bothan. “Are you alright?” “Fine,” Leia straightened herself up and tried to look as if she hadn’t just had the wind knocked out of her, and more like a Senate Chief should. “I’m fine.” “Were you visiting Master Skywalker?” The Bothan asked, looking down towards Luke’s door. “Yes,” Leia answered cautiously, sensing that despite the creature’s pleasant expression, he was not someone to be trusted. “Do you know my brother?” “We’ve met,” the Bothan smiled. “And I’ve...admired him from afar,” he continued, his smile becoming a smirk. “Yes, well,” Leia shifted uneasily. “I really must be going.” “Of course,” he replied, stepping aside so she could pass. “I do hope we’ll get the chance to meet again.” He grinned, showing a row of perfectly pointed teeth. “Yes,” she repeated, and walked away as quickly as she could. ************* “Mara?” Luke called as he entered the bedroom. The room was dark, and empty, and he couldn’t see her form anywhere. “I’m over here.” He heard her soft voice from the window. Despite the tightly closed windows, the room had grown chilly has the evening had fallen. He hadn’t realised just how long Leia had stayed. Mara stood gazing out the window, her fingertips touching the transparisteel. He also noticed the gooseflesh that had appeared on her bare arms, as she wore simply sleep pants and thin tunic. “Mara, you must be cold.” “I am,” she whispered. “Mara.” He put a hand on her shoulder, a little concerned about how chilled her skin was. “Talk to me.” She turned to look at him, a blank look in her eyes. “You wouldn’t understand,” she said simply. “I can, Mara,” he insisted, putting his other hand on her shoulder and turning her gently to face him. “I can help.” A hopeful smile crept onto Mara’s face, and Luke felt as if he had finally broken through to her. When she leant forward and brushed her lips to his, Luke responded without thinking. She wrapped her arms around his neck and deepened the kiss eagerly, almost frantically. With her body pressed against his intimately, Luke couldn’t help but lose himself in the moment. Her taste was so familiar, a reminder of all the blissful nights they had spent together, of how contended his life with her had been. But it had been a lie. Luke pulled away abruptly, disentangling himself from Mara’s grasping hands. “No, Mara,” He said shakily, wiping his mouth, trying to erase the imprint of her lips. “You said you’d help,” she said, her eyes pleading with him. “I said I'd listen,” he corrected her. Mara drew close to him again, her hands coming to rest on his chest. “I need this, Luke,” she said, kissing him again. “I need you.” Luke pulled away again, more forcefully this time. “Mara, no,” he said firmly. “This won’t help.” He couldn’t let her swap one addiction for another. Mara swiftly turned back to the window, hiding her face from him. “Go away,” she said stiffly, the break in her voice betraying her deep hurt. Luke almost went to her, almost took her in his arms to let her know that it was going to be okay, that he didn’t want to reject her. But comforting her, being close to her – he wasn’t sure he would have the strength to resist should she try again. Instead he signed deeply, unsure of how to react. In the end he didn’t say anything, simply turned around and walked slowly out the door. ********************** Mara pressed her hands against the window, wanting to smash the transparisteel, to feel the glass rip through her skin. Talon had been right. Luke couldn’t help her, not in the way that she needed, and he couldn’t understand how to help her, not in the way Karrde had. “You see?” Talon’s voice re-appeared in within her mind. “You were right,” she answered. Talon was the only one that could help her – the only one that she could trust. -----signature----- You are the only thing that makes sense Just ignore all this present tense
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ginchy Registered: May '05	Date Posted: 4/10/07 9:03am Subject: RE: Insatiable - (Luke/Mara, angst) Updated 4/10, Chapter 23 - Date Edited: 4/10/07 9:03am (1 edits total) Edited By: ginchy
	Great to see ya back, girl! And no worries, this chapter went great with my breakfast this morning! You've gotten Leia just perfect, and she's right. I'd think being in his bedroom would remind them of what they've lost together. Good for Luke for being able to resist Mara, this is very emotionally draining on him. And Talon... That's not Talon. I don't care what Mara thinks, that's not Talon! Oh, dear, I continue to worry for our girl. Great update, lady!! -----signature----- ginchy's gambit: http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/29089731/p1 ***
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RedGold Registered: Nov '04	Date Posted: 4/10/07 9:41am Subject: RE: Insatiable - (Luke/Mara, angst) Updated 4/10, Chapter 23
	Awesome update!! Mara is now starting to hear voices, not sure if that's good or bad... and Luke.. yeah, he might want some help! -----signature----- Legend... Recluse... Forgotten... Will one day return... http://www.starwarsfanfic.com
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