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magehound Registered: Jun '06	Date Posted: 7/13/06 5:49pm Subject: My Immortal(songfic, A/T, angst, post-NJO) - Date Edited: 7/13/06 5:58pm (2 edits total) Edited By: magehound
	Title: My Immortal Author: magehound Timeframe: About one year after the NJO series Characters: Tahiri Veila, Leia Organa-Solo Genre: songfic, angst, drama Keywords: A/T, Leia, Anakin, Tahiri Summary: One year after the end of the war with the Vong, Leia, Han, and Tahiri decide to investigate the remains of the Solo household on the Vongformed planet Coruscant. Tahiri finds herself drawn to one special room... Notes: In my world, Han Solo offered a different tribute to Chewbacca and Anakin on Kashyyyk. Anakin's lightsaber wasn't recovered...then. You'll see why..I'm also using another Evanescence song, "My Immortal. ********************************* I'm so tired of being here Suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave Because your presence still lingers here And it won't leave me alone He's everywhere in this room. I can feel him. Tahiri Veila stood in the center of the bedroom. Her quick eues took in every feature in the light that came through the damaged window, bathing everything in the bright light of late morning. She took in the work table, stacked with different projects in various states of completion. She saw the bed, clean linens now covered in thick dust since the last time it was used. She noticed his dresser and closet, all packed with clothes perfectly matched, as if that was just one more puzzle to figure out. Her gaze fell upon the holo's on his desk. She felt a little stab of fear at the thought of looking at them. Fear that it would simply tear open the scar on her soul anew. It had been one year since the end of the war, and every time the blonde haired young woman thought she was over him, thought that the pain had gone, something reminded her once again of him, and her anguish sprang forth anew. These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase Steeling herself against the fear, against the ache in her heart, the young Jedi Knight from Tatooine carefully walked over to the line of holo's. The Solo home had not fared very well when the Yuuzhan Vong had taken Coruscant, and now was in shambles and disrepair. Tahiri had to be careful where she put her bare feet. She picked up the first holo, realising that this was the first one that they had ever taken together. It was at the Jedi Academy, all those years ago. They were both sitting on a log outside the Temple, looking all stiff and formal in their trianee robes for the picture, Master Ikrit situated between them. Her hand gently brushed the image of his face, and once again the hole inside of her very being opened up, and threatened to consumme her. Anakin. [CHORUS:] When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears I held your hand through all of these years But you still have All of me She set the holo down as memories came to her unbiden. Their first adventures together, training to become the next hope of the galaxy. Their awkwardness around each other at first, which was soon replaced by warmth, comradarie, and friendship. Tahiri had secretly marvelled at how someone so smart, so caring, so selfless, could just...be. That's around the time when she realised Anakin Solo was more then just her friend. He had grown into something the Sand People didn't have in their culture. He had become her hero. You used to captivate me By your resonating light Now I'm bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts My once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away All the sanity in me The next holo was taken shortly after Fondor, one of Anakin's spur of the moment things. No one else knew about the times Anakin woke up screaming at night for weeks afterward. Even though he had not been the one to fire Centerpoint Station, his guilt over having activated it in the first place ate away at him. He blamed himself for all the deaths of everyone close to him. She had been the one to comfort him in the middle of the night, to dry his tears, and make the bad dreams go away. Now where was he when she needed him to do the same for her? Dead. She hated that word. It was so final. So absolute. Tahiri knew that he was one with the Force. She felt him all around her, inside her. It was starting to drive her insane. She looked down at the second lightsaber she wore. His lightsaber. They had said it was crazy, that it was suicide to even try to find it. She didn't care. All she knew was that it was a part of him that she no longer had, and she had to get it back. She returned after two weeks in Coruscant's underbelly, broken bones, bleeding cuts, and badly malnurished. But she had her prize. A piece of his soul. She thought that maybe it could cover the hole in hers. She was mistaken. Nothing could do that. These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase The rest of the pictures were of him with family and friends. Her green eyes fell upon an object in the corner beside the desk. Cocking her head slightly, she crept up for a closer look in the shrouded corner. The object was about four-feet long, and wrapped so expertly in wrapping paper, she knew that only Anakin could have done it. She looked at the note on the side: To Tahiri, with all my love. Happy Lifeday! Anakin. Hesitanting only a moment, she took the object and set it on the desk to undue the wrapping. What she found made her weep with joy and sadness all at once. It was a gaderffii. Any not just any kind. One look told her it was made out of durasteel. To carry one of these was a sign of great wisdom and honor among her people. Anakin had to have made this. For her Lifeday that year. The one he never got to see. Clutching the last remnant of her love that she had to her chest, she struggled against the overwhelming tears. Against the horrible feeling of loss. [Chorus] When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears I held your hand through all of these years But you still have All of me With all the symbols of Anakin Solo around her, she felt like he was there with her, in that room, trying to put her spirit at ease. But at the same time, she knew that half of her soul was gone, and had been for many years now. She let the tears flow freely now. I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone And though your still with me I've been alone all along Leia came by the room, and gently knocked on the door, having sensed the unbearable sadness through the Force. "Tahiri, how bad is the damage?" Sniffing away some tears, Tahiri managed to croak out, "It's pretty bad in here." Leia opened the door to survey the room, and seeing the young woman shaking form the tears and grief wraking her small frame, realised that she hadn't been talking about the room. "Oh, honey.." Leia went over to sit on the bed next to her, and wrapped the sobbing Jedi in her arms, pouring as much unconditional love and understanding as she could through the Force to Tahiri. They sat like that for a long time. Finally, after she could cry no more, Tahiri looked up through swollen eyes at Anakin's mother, "Thank you, Ms. Solo." Releasing the young girl from her arms, she said, "You're welcome, honey. And please, call me Leia." She smiled one of her most radient smiles. Then she noticed what Tahiri was holding, "What is that, dear?" Tahiri thought about what the present meant to her. Although one day far away, she might eventually be able to overcome her pain and loss, this gaffe stick would always be a reminder to her of the Anakin Solo she had known, and had come to love. She would treasure it forever. Holding it out for Leia to see, Tahiri Veila said, "This? This is immortality." -----signature----- "I choose you, PikIshu!" Knighted by SilSolo. Gracias, senorita. I J/TK! Keywords: Love and Red Hair! Vi veri veniversum vivus vici. "Jaina. Cooked. Dinner. Jace, it's looking at me! It's not dead yet!"-Zekk
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Jek_Windu Registered: Jan '03	Date Posted: 7/13/06 8:28pm Subject: RE: My Immortal(songfic, A/T, angst, post-NJO)
	That is the best A/T viggy I have ever read. [face_clap]. -----signature----- Tryanids: You don't have enough bullets! Imperial Guard: YES WE DO! R.I.P. Trini
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Healer_Leona Title: Manager Emeritus Registered: Jul '00	Date Posted: 7/14/06 3:52am Subject: RE: My Immortal(songfic, A/T, angst, post-NJO)
	A fabulous song used in a most beautiful way. Really pulls on the heartstrings. -----signature----- Feel so good, but I'm old 2000 years of chasing's taking it's toll
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G__Anakin Registered: Apr '06	Date Posted: 7/14/06 4:39am Subject: RE: My Immortal(songfic, A/T, angst, post-NJO)
	Great story I don't understand songfics so I didn't read the bold. Sorry I really liked it though and the idea is very nice! -----signature----- Master to tahiriveilax - - - My fanfic - - - Fate of the Jedi - Abyss : http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/30246540/p1/ Yeah, I used the real title for the next book. Beware Omen Spoilers.
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magehound Registered: Jun '06	Date Posted: 7/14/06 5:21am Subject: RE: My Immortal(songfic, A/T, angst, post-NJO) - Date Edited: 7/14/06 5:21am (1 edits total) Edited By: magehound
	Jek_Windu posted: That is the best A/T viggy I have ever read. [face_clap]. Considering how long you've been on the boards, that is a very great compliment inded. I thank you. Healer_Leona posted: A fabulous song used in a most beautiful way. Really pulls on the heartstrings. [b]Yes, i've liked this song ever since I first heard it. I had been planning to use it for some J/TK, but i realised it would fit Anakin and Tahiri better. Yes, at several points, i had to stop and...cry. Did you like the part about the gaffe stick? that part occured to me only as i was writing it. I hop it came out well. G__Anakin posted: Great story Thank you for reading it! I don't understand songfics so I didn't read the bold. Sorry That's ok. The story is really what matters, anyway. I really liked it though and the idea is very nice! Thank you very much and i thought it was just something they would do, y'know? People go back into homes that are flooded, why not ones that have been Vongformed? -----signature----- "I choose you, PikIshu!" Knighted by SilSolo. Gracias, senorita. I J/TK! Keywords: Love and Red Hair! Vi veri veniversum vivus vici. "Jaina. Cooked. Dinner. Jace, it's looking at me! It's not dead yet!"-Zekk
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mastermeg_0228 Registered: Jan '06	Date Posted: 7/14/06 8:16am Subject: RE: My Immortal(songfic, A/T, angst, post-NJO)
	Wow that was amazing!!!!!!!!!!! wonderful job with this...i think you did a wonderful job explaining the pain Tahiri was going through... DS -----signature----- My sarcasm is my best quality! Music is a total constant.... A song can take you back instantly to a moment, or a place, or even a person. If you can tell me where I got this quote from then you're enlightened! mage's muse!!! My friends call me Sparky
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magehound Registered: Jun '06	Date Posted: 7/14/06 9:26am Subject: RE: My Immortal(songfic, A/T, angst, post-NJO)
	mastermeg_0228 posted: Wow that was amazing!!!!!!!!!!! Grade A words for a Grade C work. You are too kind. wonderful job with this...i think you did a wonderful job explaining the pain Tahiri was going through... Going back, I see a lot of place I could have added even more anguish, and maybe i should have left some parts out. But for now, it'll stay as is, i guess. DS -----signature----- "I choose you, PikIshu!" Knighted by SilSolo. Gracias, senorita. I J/TK! Keywords: Love and Red Hair! Vi veri veniversum vivus vici. "Jaina. Cooked. Dinner. Jace, it's looking at me! It's not dead yet!"-Zekk
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Darkwriter Registered: Jan '06	Date Posted: 7/14/06 10:02am Subject: RE: My Immortal(songfic, A/T, angst, post-NJO)
	So amazing! I totally loved the last line!!!!!!!! I have a friend who used to sing this song all the time. I'm so going to give her this link! Great job, magehound. -----signature----- Jacen Solo Rest in Peace Jagged Fel for Emporer JAG: I came for an apology JAINA: Make it quick. I'm busy. JAG: Actually, I came to listen.
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magehound Registered: Jun '06	Date Posted: 7/14/06 10:34pm Subject: RE: My Immortal(songfic, A/T, angst, post-NJO)
	Darkwriter posted: So amazing! I totally loved the last line!!!!!!!! I'm very glad you liked it. I was very unsure whether that entire scen with the present would drag the story down or not. I have a friend who used to sing this song all the time. I'm so going to give her this link! I'm glad I could..help? Great job, magehound. Thank you, Darkwriter, I always look for your words of encouragement. -----signature----- "I choose you, PikIshu!" Knighted by SilSolo. Gracias, senorita. I J/TK! Keywords: Love and Red Hair! Vi veri veniversum vivus vici. "Jaina. Cooked. Dinner. Jace, it's looking at me! It's not dead yet!"-Zekk
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