Author Topic: My Immortal {An A/T Agnst Viggie} <3 Bring Tissues If You Must <3
Courtney_Solo 
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Date Posted: 4/4/07 8:56am Subject: My Immortal {An A/T Agnst Viggie} <3 Bring Tissues If You Must <3 - Date Edited: 6/1/07 7:41am (3 edits total) Edited By: Courtney_Solo
Title: My Immortal {An A/T Songnette} <3
Author(s): Courtney_Solo
Timeframe: BytS
Characters: Tahiri Veila & Anakin Solo
Keywords: "My Immortal" by Evanescence
Summary: Tahiri mourns the loss of Anakin Solo.
Notes: Yes, I'm in a very agnsty mood. tongue Naw, actually, a friend of mine found this song and I went insane over it. It's so good! As you might have noticed from the title and the "Keywords" section, this song is called "My Immortal" by Evanescence. Some of the lyrics have not been included. Sadly, because of my spell checker, LOL. This was written at first for my own pleasure, but then I decided to weasel in the little "not for the eyes of a youngling" Anahiri challenge. happy This isn't my best vignette ever, but it's the plot bunny's fault! It bit me, then left! tongue
Disclaimer: Must I state the obvious? I suppose I must. I don't own Star Wars. Sadly, I probably never will. tongue

CoverArt:

Base Images: Anahiri Burning City // Anahiri Waterfall // Anahiri Marsh // Tahiri Veila; “Aloneâ€&#65533;.

rose - - rose - - rose - - rose - - rose

15 year old Tahiri Veila grinned at her seventeen year old boyfriend, Anakin Solo. "Race ya!" She exclaimed, running down the Temple halls towards the cafeteria. Anakin caught up with her quickly. He wrapped his arms around her small waist and swung her around. Her bare feet nearly hit an innocent bystander. "No fair!" She screeched. He tickled her, his right arm coming around her legs and hoisting her fully into his arms.

"Yes, fair," Anakin protested, his ice blue eyes meeting hers.

"Says who?" Her deep green eyes sparkled with stubbornness that Anakin had become accustomed to.
He kissed her cheek, his strong arms tightening around her protectively.

"Says me," his eyes twinkled. "A man always has the right to hold the woman he loves."

"Well, I'm not going to argue with that," Tahiri gave her boyfriend a special smile.
She was awarded with a tender kiss on her lips. And another, and another...




Tahiri was helping the younglings with their lightsaber practice. "Here, sweetie, you don't want to point it that way."
You might slice your friend's eye out. Or worse.

Anakin came into the room, not even bothering to talk to anyone else. He came up to Tahiri and gave her a soft kiss on her lips. "Hey, baby," he whispered.

"Look away, younglings," Tahiri muttered before accepting another kiss. "That was nice. What was it for?"

"Hoping you'll go out with me tonight," Anakin admitted with a grin.

"Ah. What's the occasion?" Tahiri asked, her eyes twinkling as they normally did in his presence.

"I love you," he whispered into her lips.

"Oh," she grinned back at him. "That occasion."




- - Myrkr - -

Anakin clutched his chest, forcing himself to take each step forward. Tahiri put a hand on his shoulder. He looked into her eyes, which were darkened with concern. "You can't keep going like this," she whispered. "You have to rest. You have to let Tekli help you!"

Anakin shook his head. "No. I have to keep going. I'll worry about my wounds later."

"Later? Ani, when is later?!" Tahiri's lower lip wobbled. "When you're dead? Once you've left me here all alone?"
Anakin silenced her with a kiss.

"I won't leave you, Angel," he promised. "I could never leave you."

Tahiri wasn't satisfied. "I hope I don't have to say 'I told you so.'"

Lowbacca came up beside her. [Battle isn't for younglings. Younglings shouldn't see such things.] Tahiri turned towards him.

"If you think I am a youngling, you are very mistaken," she narrowed her eyes.

[You are a youngling,] Lowbacca persisted. [You have a whole life ahead of you.]

"Hopefully," Tahiri muttered under her breath.

~ * ~ * ~ * ~

Anakin looked into his brother's eyes.
Tahiri felt a message pass between them through the Force, but she did not care to pay attention to it.
She couldn't bring her eyes from her boyfriend.
He turned towards her, their eyes locking. At least I'll die looking into the face of an Angel, he sent her.
Tahiri's eyes overflowed with tears and she ran towards him.
He fell, and she caught him before he hit the ground.
He inhaled roughly and exhaled in exhaustion. You can say 'I told you so', now.

Tahiri sobbed and shook her head. "I would never say that."

His hand reached up to touch her dirty, tear-streaked face. You're so beautiful. Tahiri's green eyes produced more tears than before. He wiped away her tears. I love you.

"I love you, too, Anakin Solo," Tahiri kissed him passionately on the lips.

Then, he died.




I'm so tired of being here...
I'm suppressed by all my childish fears.
And if you have to leave...
I wish that you would just leave.
'Cause your presence still lingers here...
And it won't leave me alone!



Tahiri was now eighteen. Three years since his death. She laid back against her pillow.
If she closed her eyes and brought those events back to her mind, it might as well have been three days.

These wounds won't seem to heal.
This pain is just too real.
There's just too much that time cannot erase!





The ghost of Anakin Solo watched his girlfriend sob into her hands. He reached out to her and touched her cheek, as he did so many nights. But, as always, she could not feel him. "I love you, Tahiri Veila," he said to her. The words came out of his mouth and Tahiri heard them as whispers in the whirling air. The air from his lungs exhaled onto her soft cheek as a breath of wind.

When you cried,
I'd wipe away all of your tears.
When you'd scream,
I'd fight away all of your fears.
I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still held...
On me.


Anakin held her limp hand as she sobbed into her pillow. He rubbed and kissed it tenderly. "Tahiri," he whispered brokenly. He wished he could be there to comfort her. To hold her in his arms and kiss her as he'd done so many times before. To be hers. And for her to be his.




Tahiri sat up in her bed, drying her eyes. Her grief was so great that night. Jacen had kissed her. It was a friendly kiss, though. Nothing more. He had said that Anakin wished him to.

Those words had nearly killed her on the spot. She had come so close to forgetting him...
Tahiri closed her eyes in pain.

I'm bound by the life you left behind.
Your face -
It haunts my once pleasant dreams.
Your voice -
It chased away all the sanity in me!


Tahiri wished she could lose the ability to dream. Every night, she dreamed Anakin was alive.
Every night, she dreamed he took her in his strong arms and held her tight. Forever.
And then she would wake up and realize it was all just wishful thinking.

These wounds won't seem to heal.
This pain is just too real.
There's just too much that time cannot erase!





When you cried,
I'd wipe away all of your tears.
When you'd scream,
I'd fight away all of your fears.
I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still held...
On me.


Anakin held Tahiri against his chest, which to her, was a pillow. He kissed her forehead.
To her, a breeze had come through her open window and blown the pillow's ruffle against her brow.
She sobbed against his chest, though she knew it not. "Why'd you leave me, Ani?" Tahiri cried.

Tears came to his eyes. "I have asked that of myself too many times," he told her, wishing she could hear him. "I don't know, Tahiri. I should have listened to you. I'm sorry."

Tahiri looked down to her clasped hands.

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone.
But though you're still with me,
I've been alone.


She took out her knife. Anakin paled. "No, Tahiri, don't," She sliced at her wrist, tears coursing rapidly down her cheeks. Again and again, she sliced recklessly. Anakin seized her wrist. "Tahiri, stop!" She didn't.

I am alone!

Anakin turned his whole body towards her. His ghastly fingers wiping her cheeks of her tears. "Tahiri, don't do this! Stop!" He slapped her cheek softly with his hand. "Tahiri! Listen to me! Listen! Stop this!" Tears came to his eyes. "You can't join me yet."

Tahiri came to her senses. "Oww," she called her first aid kit to her uninjured hand. Anakin relaxed. "Tahiri, you're stupid," she chided herself. "That only prolongs the pain." She called her lightsaber to her hand.

"No!!!" Anakin screamed. His hands caressed her face. He shook her violently. Anything, anything to save her. Tahiri brought the muzzle of her lightsaber to her neck and closed her eyes. "NO!" Anakin reached out with the Force and tossed the lightsaber away. Tahiri opened her eyes in surprise. Anakin cupped her face in his hands. "Don't do this!!!"

She saw him. For a brief instant, she saw him! "Anakin?" She asked meekly.

He shook her. "Don't do this, Tahiri Veila! Don't kill yourself! Don't kill yourself over me. I couldn't bear it," he kissed her quickly. "Do you hear me? I couldn't bear it. I love you, Tahiri Veila."

Tahiri's eyes couldn't focus on his. "Ani? I can feel you, and I can hear you, but I can't see you."

"Immerse yourself in the Force," he stated. She closed her eyes and reached out. Her hand touched his cheek, and her eyes immediately flew open. "Can you see me?"

She couldn't speak. She only nodded and flew into his arms. "Oh, Ani...," He clung to her, kissing her hair, her cheeks, her forehead, her lips. "Ani, I'm so sorry."

His whole body trembled. "You gave me quite ... quite a scare," Anakin managed to say.
Tahiri wrapped her arms around him and hugged him close.

"You're not real," she whispered. "You're a dream. I'm going to wake up, and you'll be gone," her next words broke his heart. "Don't leave me, Ani. Please, don't leave me, again."

"Tahiri, I've always been here," he stated truthfully. "You could never hear, see, or touch me before, but ... I have been," Anakin looked into her emerald eyes and grinned. "C'mere, Ms. Veila," he whispered before kissing her deeply. She clung tightly to his shirt and returned the kiss, her eyes closing. "I love you," he kissed her again. "I love you," his arms tightened around her waist and he didn't even bother coming up for air that he didn't need. His heart soared. "I love you, Tahiri Veila. Once it's said three times, it's established forever."

Tahiri sighed deeply. "I don't want to wait any longer. I can't live without you," tears stung her eyes once more. "I just can't! How will I go on?"

"Simple," Anakin couldn't bring himself to stop kissing her. How many times had he hoped for this moment? That he would be able to hold her close once more. "Every night, I'll visit you. Every night, I'll talk to you. Every night, I'll hold you," Tahiri leaned against him and sighed. "Promise me one thing, Tahiri," she looked up at him and nodded. "That you will not attempt to take your own life, again. Please."

Tahiri grinned up at him irresistibly. "There's no danger of that."

He kissed her again and again, long and hard.




When you cried,
I'd wipe away all of your tears.
When you'd scream,
I'd fight away all of your fears.
I held your hand through all of these years.
But you still held...
On me...


Tahiri died five months later.
She was the last Jedi in the battle.
Surrounded by the Yuuzhan Vong, determined to accomplish her goal, she died.
Her mission was completed, and her memory was never forgotten.

She and Anakin lived on forever - - immortal lovers never parted.




Author's Note: Okay, I wanted to clarify something: I think cutting is one of the the stupidest things in the world. However, the only way I could figure to convey Tahiri's deep pain was to have her cut herself, and Anakin interfere. Some of the emotion that I've worked into the plot is kinda weird, I guess, but ... *sigh* sue me. (No, don't. LOL.)

Thank you for reading!
Courtney rose Solo

PS: I'm sorry about the quotation marks, it messed up, and I don't have time to correct them all.

 

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DARTH_MU 
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Date Posted: 4/4/07 12:33pm Subject: RE: My Immortal {An A/T Agnst Viggie} <3 Bring Tissues If You Must <3
Courtney.
Why did you do it? Why do you bring pain to my already tortured soul?
Now I can never let go of my hate.

 

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Date Posted: 4/4/07 12:44pm Subject: RE: My Immortal {An A/T Agnst Viggie} <3 Bring Tissues If You Must <3
Ohhhh- so powerful! cry *runs for tissues* Amazing!

 

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MirandaFair 
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Date Posted: 4/4/07 2:22pm Subject: RE: My Immortal {An A/T Agnst Viggie} <3 Bring Tissues If You Must <3
And I was so strong. Until the end...

She and Anakin lived on forever - - immortal lovers never parted.

Oh boy...I'm off to get a tissue. Beautiful and tear-jerking work. cry applause

 

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Date Posted: 4/5/07 12:43am Subject: RE: My Immortal {An A/T Agnst Viggie} <3 Bring Tissues If You Must <3
Wow.
That raised a pit into my stomach.
I think this is the only story that has ever made me cry ...
There have been songs that have caused me to weep at their beauty and their meaning ...
but it's what sparked this that has made me think about what's in the mourning.

 

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Date Posted: 4/5/07 3:46am Subject: RE: My Immortal {An A/T Agnst Viggie} <3 Bring Tissues If You Must <3
Tissue warning just doesn't help the tears that well.

 

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Courtney_Solo 
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Date Posted: 4/7/07 11:24am Subject: RE: My Immortal {An A/T Agnst Viggie} <3 Bring Tissues If You Must <3
Awww, thanks for replying, guys!
I wrote this because I had fallen into an obsession with the song (LOL) and I was feeling agnsty the other night. happy
I'm so glad that I got a reaction to it, I was afraid y'all would just think it was cheesy...

hugs

C rose S

 

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Date Posted: 4/24/07 3:20pm Subject: RE: My Immortal {An A/T Agnst Viggie} <3 Bring Tissues If You Must <3
Wow, very sad, Courtney [face_crying] Lots of emotion and angst in this one. Tahiri is having some pretty dark thoughts. I can't believe she was going to kill herself worried Thanks for participating in the A/T challenge grin

Good post happy

 

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Date Posted: 4/25/07 2:29pm Subject: RE: My Immortal {An A/T Agnst Viggie} <3 Bring Tissues If You Must <3
cry Poor Tahiri Poor Anakin *sit down sobs why Troy Denning Why?*
Good Job and I would like some some more stories like this.

JR

 

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Date Posted: 4/26/07 12:52pm Subject: RE: My Immortal {An A/T Agnst Viggie} <3 Bring Tissues If You Must <3
LOL, thanks, guys. grin

(JainaRox - I actually have a lot of agnst viggies in my viggie bios. grin tongue )

 

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Date Posted: 6/1/07 2:14am Subject: RE: My Immortal {An A/T Agnst Viggie} <3 Bring Tissues If You Must <3
Very emotional. And poor Tahiri in the depths of depression kind of meshes with the beginning of the FH series. Lovely ending withthem together at last in peace. happy

Really enjoyed this response to the challenge. happy

 

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Date Posted: 6/1/07 7:40am Subject: RE: My Immortal {An A/T Agnst Viggie} <3 Bring Tissues If You Must <3
Tahi posted:
Very emotional. And poor Tahiri in the depths of depression kind of meshes with the beginning of the FH series. Lovely ending withthem together at last in peace. happy

Really enjoyed this response to the challenge. happy
Thank you! blush

I'll probably go back over it soon and change the wording and fix the first couple of quotation marks. LOL!

 

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