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Grown and Still Growing (OC; DDiary2008 challenge)Update 9/13 Mind Tricking a Master
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Alexis_Wingstar
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2/12 7:06pm
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RE: Grown and Still Growing (OC Kavin, DDiary2008 challenge) Update 2/3
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earlybird-obi-wan posted:
Poor Kavin, let him help Miri
All he can do right now is be there for her.
KELIA posted:
Oh Kavin!
I can only hope Miri will remember soon. As devastating as that would be, it would be a lot better than returning to that brute of a husband.
Great update
Actually, he's her fiance. They haven't married yet.
Thank you.
VaderLVR64 posted:
I don't know how I will be able to keep my memories from her... our bond is strong, and she can sense I'm holding back.
In fact, she feels like I'm rejecting her.
I can't help it. When I held her and she kissed me, I couldn't help but relive the attack in my mind... damn it, I pulled away... and couldn't tell her why.
I don't know what to do.
Thank you.
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Entry 9:
Kormik was found and arrested today. Not only is he being charged in the assault and rape of Miri, other women have come forward to say he has raped them in the past... and a man accuses him of murdering his sister. Apparently Kormik's family was influential enough to cover up these crimes until now.
I spoke with Mr. Hiroma. I feel for him. He is feeling guilty for what happened to Miri. He told me about how Mr. Di'Grell, Kormik's father, pressured him to live up to their aggreement to have Miri marry his son. He said that he did not realize how brutal Kormik was. He had only been concerned with 'saving face' and keeping his status in the upper eschelon of the business and political arenas.
"I lost sight of what meant most to me... my family... and now my baby girl..." he broke down weeping, no longer able to speak.
I felt awkward. Even though he had asked me to come and I knew he felt bad, a part of me was blaming him for what happened. A part of me was angry at him for forcing Miri to marry someone she didn't love.
However, listening to him admit to his selfishness and seeing him break down... I could no longer hate him.
Yes, a part of me had grown to hate him. Some jedi I am.
I reached out and put a hand on his shoulder as he cried and told him it wasn't his fault. If he had known everything, he would never have let Miri come to harm. Next thing I was holding him as he wept on my shoulder.
Once he stopped crying, he was embarrassed for his emotional outburst, but felt better.
I felt better as well.
We're both still worried for Miri, but at least we are now on the same page and will be able to help her together.
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VaderLVR64
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2/13 6:15am
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RE: Grown and Still Growing (OC Kavin, DDiary2008 challenge) Update 2/3
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However, listening to him admit to his selfishness and seeing him break down... I could no longer hate him.
Yes, a part of me had grown to hate him. Some jedi I am.
Oh Kavin, it makes you a better Jedi!  He's human, and yet he's able to move past those very natural feelings. Wonderful OC here!
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KELIA
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2/13 9:04am
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Poor Mr. Hiroma!
What a horrible burden he has to carry...I hope he will be able to come to terms with what has happened and put it behind him.
I'm glad he and Kavin are now working together to help Miri heal.
Great update
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Love Kavin, showing his feelings and again a great update
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Alexis_Wingstar
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3/1 7:48pm
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VaderLVR64 posted:
However, listening to him admit to his selfishness and seeing him break down... I could no longer hate him.
Yes, a part of me had grown to hate him. Some jedi I am.
Oh Kavin, it makes you a better Jedi! He's human, and yet he's able to move past those very natural feelings. Wonderful OC here!
Well, it wouldn't truly be Kavin if he wasn't hard on himself. 
KELIA posted:
Poor Mr. Hiroma!
What a horrible burden he has to carry...I hope he will be able to come to terms with what has happened and put it behind him.
I'm glad he and Kavin are now working together to help Miri heal.
Great update
Yes, it's hard to deal with the guilty feelings one can get when your child gets hurt because of a danger you inadvertantly put them in.
earlybird-obi-wan posted:
Love Kavin, showing his feelings and again a great update
Yeah, Kavin is a sweetie.
Entry 10:
Miri is back home now, and I'm staying in a guest room in the Hiroma estate. I was going to stay in a modest hotel room, but Mr. and Mrs. Hiroma wouldn't hear of it.
It is hard to be so near Miri and not be with her. Things have been strained between us. Even though she can sense I love and desire her, whenever we kiss, she can't understand why I close myself to her. She still cannot remember what has happened between her and Kormik. I can't stop remembering. Especially when we kiss.
I don't know how long I can stand this! I must be strong for her though.
I feel bad that I both look forward to and dread a comm from the council calling me back to the temple.
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earlybird-obi-wan
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Be strong Kavin and talk to Miri about it.
Great update
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VaderLVR64
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I feel bad that I both look forward to and dread a comm from the council calling me back to the temple.
I think that's a very normal reaction.
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KELIA
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I feel bad that I both look forward to and dread a comm from the council calling me back to the temple
Oh no!
One should never look forward to being summoned by the Council 
As relieved as I am Miri doesn't remember, I wish Kavin could find a way to be with her and not remember himself. That has to be tearing him up.
I loved her parents allowing him to stay with them.
Great update
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earlybird-obi-wan posted:
Be strong Kavin and talk to Miri about it.
Great update
That's just it, he can't because the doctor said it'd be best if she remembered on her own... there's a theory that people repress memories they aren't ready to deal with, and it's best if they aren't told about what happened.
Thanks for reading. 
VaderLVR64 posted:
I feel bad that I both look forward to and dread a comm from the council calling me back to the temple.
I think that's a very normal reaction.
Thank you.
KELIA posted:
I feel bad that I both look forward to and dread a comm from the council calling me back to the temple
Oh no!
One should never look forward to being summoned by the Council
As relieved as I am Miri doesn't remember, I wish Kavin could find a way to be with her and not remember himself. That has to be tearing him up.
I loved her parents allowing him to stay with them.
Great update
Thank you. Yeah, he's not in an easy positon.
Entry 11:
Mr. Hiroma has an appointment to see Kormik at the prison tomorrow. He want's me to go with him... "To keep me from killing the bastard," is what he said. When I asked him who was going to keep me from killing him, he laughed... until he realized I was serious.
"Kavin, I know I made a serious mistake with trusting Kormik. I let my fear of losing face blind me to what I saw. I can't even look my wife and daughter in the eye right now because of how ashamed I am of that. When I look at you, I see the opposite of that scumbag. You are not a murderer."
He pleaded with me to consider going with him.
I'm considering it out of respect to him.
I don't share his confidence in me.
There has not been a night that has gone by where I have not been haunted by the nightmare of seeing the rape through Miri's eyes... and feeling everything she felt when he did it.
I just now had to get another stylus, as I snapped the first one as I wrote.
I am filled with rage.
I want to kill Kormik for what he has done.
This is why I must go.
I must face him.
This is my trial.
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Kavin, be a Jedi, don't turn to the dark side.
Great update.
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I want to kill Kormik for what he has done.
This is why I must go.
I must face him.
This is my trial.
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I must face him.
This is my trial.
Uh oh! I can only hope Kavin can find the strength to control himself because I doubt Mr. Horima or the guards could stop him.
Great update
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Thanks for reading everyone.
Entry 11:
I took a step towards the dark side today.
When we went to see Kormik, the sithspawn kept making slurs against Miri. Mr. Hiroma went at him, and I held him back. After calming him, I used the force to convince the guard he did not need to be in the room, suggesting he needed to use the refresher. Having just kept Mr. Hiroma from strangling the prisoner, the guard had trust in me.
He's weak minded. He didn't need to go to the refresher at all, but he rushed out of the room.
Kormik started to get nervous. The guard was his safety net, and he knew it. Yet, he opened his mouth one more time. "She liked it. She opened up for me nicely."
He was pinned against the wall in nothing flat. I didn't touch him. I barely heard Mr. Hiroma trying to talk me down. All I could hear was the satisfying sound of Kormik panicking. His heart beat rapidly, and he was having trouble breathing... I wasn't choking him, just holding him against the wall.
I slowly walked toward him and got in his face. "Give me one reason not to kill you."
He begged and pleaded for his life... and dirtied his pants.
I released him. "You aren't worth it."
I turned away from Kormik just as the guard came back in. "We're through here," I said.
Mr. Hiroma and I left.
I didn't kill him.
I did enjoy scaring the crap out of him.
I enjoyed having his life in my hands and making him squirm.
I hate myself for it.
I'll PM everyone who is on my list after I get home from work.
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Would you mind putting me on the PM list as well? 
Kormik is sooo evil!
I wonder what it'll do to Mira once she remembers what happens. Poor thing.
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Kavin knew he did and he can think and write about it. That way he can redeem hinself.
Great update
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