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JediMasterArmada Registered: Dec '06	Date Posted: 3/23 12:48pm Subject: Break Me Down (Ben Skywalker, OCs) sequel to Hide Updated 8/7 - Date Edited: 8/7 7:53pm (5 edits total) Edited By: JediMasterArmada
	Title: Break Me Down Author: JediMasterArmada Timeframe: Post LOTF Au Characters: Ben Skywalker, OCs Genre: Action/Adventure/Angst/Drama Keywords: Ben Skywalker Summary: Ben Skywalker has run away from his past, but his past is catching up with him. While impersonating an amnesiac to hide his identity his girlfriend, Rakhel Svelt, is kidnapped, forcing him to contact people from his old life to find her. But the very quest to find her will result in him either facing his demons, or running from them. Notes: This is the sequel my songfic Hide the song posted at the beginning is a summary in itself. * * * A long day alone Emptiness is so real Never having peace of mind Running from what I can't see And there is nowhere left to hide Turn and face these empty eyes All alone, heart untold Trying to find Break me down replace this fear inside Take this nothingness from me I want to find I want to shine I want to rise Break me down I try to find myself I find the stranger trapped inside And I'll take one more step away From the face I used to recognize Familiar shadows closing in Suffocating fear descends You killed a life, uncovered eyes I'm trying to find Break me down replace this fear inside Take this nothingness from me I want to find I want to shine I want to rise Break me down Replace this fear inside Take this nothingness from me I want to find I want to shine I want to rise Break me down Break me down I want to find I want to shine I want to rise Break me down Break me! Break Me Down by Red ______________ I looked at the faces of the men and women of our latest conquest. My master, Darth Caedus, was satisfied with our victory over the rebels. But I was torn between what I should do and what I had to do in order to stop my cousin from destroying the galaxy. I watched his yellow orbs fall on a woman with blond hair and grey-green eyes. She was one of the rebels, and I knew what he wanted me to do.”Kriegan, extract the information from her,” he ordered. A year ago, I would have been reviled by my Sith name, but it didn’t affect me anymore.“Very good, Master.” I dragged her into the interrogation center my troops had built. I threw her onto the floor, there weren’t any tables or chairs in the room for her to hide behind. I kicked her and threw her into a wall with the Force. “Where is the rebel base?!” I yelled. “I’m not telling you,” she said defiantly. “I think that you will.” I smiled darkly at her before beating her. When I stopped I asked her again. “Where’s the rebel base?” She mustered up her defiance and spat in my face. “I won’t tell you.” “There are other ways to gain information without using interrogation droids.” I looked at her. “You think you’ve saved yourself. Guess what? You haven’t.” I began Force-ripping memories pertaining to base out and was finished an hour later. “No one will witness this.” I levitated her and used the very energy created by life to take hers. I woke up screaming with sweat running down my face, unable to control my adverse reaction to the dream. It was one of the many crimes I’d committed to regain Jacen’s trust. People would hate me if they ever learned what I’d done to remove Darth Caedus from power. That was why I’d left my home for a new world where the people didn’t know me, were they worried about the next day on their planet rather than the galaxy. Hopefully, no one would see an image of me on the galactic HoloNet and recognize me. It wouldn’t do them any good, and if they came to me I’d send them away and Force-wipe their minds of any information concerning me. I hated it, but I had to keep my secret. When I finally regained control of myself, the woman sleeping next to me woke and turned to face me. “What’s wrong?” I got up and walked over to the large window on the far side of our bedroom. I didn’t want to lie to her, but I had to. I wouldn’t willingly tell anyone what was haunting me. I heard the bed shift and knew that Rakhel was coming over to me. She wanted me to open up about my past, but I couldn’t. The thought of what I’d face was unbearable. Almost as bad as the guilt from thinking about what I’d done to Jysella. I couldn’t afford to think about her because of what it did to me. That was my old life, and the only parts I’d kept from that were my first name and demons. “Ben.” She put her hand on my arm and turned me to face her. “What’s wrong?” I ran my eyes down her form as I considered my answer. She was slightly shorter than me, and the simmersilk nightgown she wore clung to her curves. Her braided brown hair fell to her waist and her blue-green eyes shone with intelligence. I knew that I wouldn’t be able to love her as I should, because my heart had a mind of its own and it belonged to Jysella, and that wouldn’t change. No matter how pleasant a distraction Rakhel Svelt was. “Nothing.” I knew this was going to cause a fight, but that was unavoidable. “Did you have a flashback?” she asked. I was impersonating an amnesiacto hide my identity. By the reactions of the people who “knew” me here, they believed it. I wished that I did have amnesia, that way I wouldn’t remember anyone I’d hurt. “No, just a nightmare.” “Are you sure?” “Yes.” I pitched my voice just enough to let her know that I didn’t want to talk about it. Judging from the look on her face, I knew that I wasn’t going to get off that easily. “What was the nightmare about?” she asked. I sighed. “Nothing.” “Why, Ben?” she asked in frustration. “Why won’t you tell me? These nightmares have been plaguing you for two weeks.” “They’re nothing, Rakhel,” I said. “All dreams pass in time.” That was a lie, because I knew that these dreams wouldn’t pass until I faced them or died. My past would give anyone nightmares, and I doubted that anyone in the Jedi Order could handle the truth. So where did that put her? “Then why do you wake up screaming?” She locked eyes with me. “Tell me the truth.” I shook my head and walked away from her over to the dresser. It was about ten o’clock, and was time for me to help a friend get the supplies our project. I opened the dresser and pulled out a pair of trousers and tunic. I could feel her eyes burning holes into my back as I dressed. “So that’s how you’re dealing with this?” Rakhel asked. “By running away.” “No,” I replied. “I’ve gotta help Tym get the supplies to his place.” “We need to talk about this,” she said. “There’s nothing to talk about.” I walked over to the closet and grabbed my synthleather jacket. I couldn’t talk about the nightmares. Hell, I couldn’t even face the fact that I’d become a monster in order to stop a monster. “We have to talk,” she said again. “No, we don’t,” I replied in an annoyed tone. “I’ve gotta go.” Before she could say another word, I left the room hastily and through the main room of our house to leave. I couldn’t talk to her with the nightmare so fresh on my mind. I sighed as I proceeded towards my friend’s house, watching the news feeds from the few shops on the way there. I wasn’t surprised to see reports of numerous terrorist attacks in the past week, some claiming upwards of a million lives. Though they never claimed responsibility, everyone knew who was behind the bombings. It was a group called the Galactic Alliance Shadow Council. GASC was mostly made-up of former GAG officers who were still loyal to the twisted ideology of Darth Caedus, and were trying to undermine the new galactic government. No one knew where their base was, or how powerful they were. But given the nature of the attacks and how many lives they had claimed one thing was universal: Everyone hated them. The GASC had attacked several large cities on this planet and killed half a million people. I knew the attitudes of the people well enough to know that if someone killed a GASC agent no one would bat an eye, and the planetary authorities would look the other way. Sadly, it was that very attitude that had resulted in Jacen’s rise to power, and I believed that if they pursued that course of action it would be the same here. I walked up to my friend’s old fashioned hardwood doors and grinned. While the outside of his house appeared traditional, it was anything but on the inside. I’d only known him for two and a half months, and it was largely because of him that Rakhel and I were living together. The door opened and my friend stood in the doorway. “Ben,” he said. “How are ya doing?” “I’m doing good. How ‘bout you?” His house was just short of being classifiable as a mansion. The inside of his house was like walking into a tech center on Coruscant. “The usual.” He said before walking over to a table strewn with various flismi charts. I’d never understood why he liked filmsiplast when he could’ve saved a lot of space with datapads. I walked over to him and looked at the schematics he’d drawn. “How long have you been up for?” Knowing him, he’d probably been drinking stimulants to keep him awake. The last time we’d worked on someone’s speeder together he’d been coming off of a stim pack and had fallen asleep leaving me to do all the work. Tym snorted and flicked a lock of his blond-grey hair out of his eyes. “I haven’t been on any stims,” he said. “Don’t worry about me falling asleep.” I raised an eyebrow and looked at the twenty-year-old’s rapidly greying hair. “What’s that supposed to mean, grey one?” He smirked and it reached his dark brown –nearly black– eyes. “You have Rakie, Bennie-boy,” he said. “I doubt that you got any sleep.” “What part of I don’t kiss and tell don’t you understand?” “I understand the concept,” he said. “But she’s a special case. I have to pester her boyfriends just to see if they’ll slip.” “You’ve pestered all of her boyfriends?” He nodded. “She’s like a sister to me. Someone’s gotta look out for her and torment all the guys who date her.” He looked at me. “Speaking of which. . .” I sighed. “You’ve talked to Rakhel, haven’t you?” “She might’ve commed me.” Tym looked at me. “You need to talk to her, she cares about you.” “I can’t talk to her, Tym,” I replied. “I don’t even know what these nightmares are.” That was a lie, but hopefully he couldn’t tell. He frowned. “I won’t press this further, but you should talk to her.” He turned back to the charts, dropping the subject. “The store said that my order came in and I’ve got a list of the other components we need.” I nodded.“Let’s go.” We walked out to his speeder-truck and went to the parts store. It wasn’t a long ride, things aren’t that far apart on Kestol 3. It wasn’t a large planet – in galactic terms– but its people built on the foundations of their ancestors. Despite the world being populated by billions, it still had the feeling of a tightknit community, but it was still open to other people. “How big is the order?” I asked my friend as we entered the store. “You saw the list, how big do you think it is?” The fact that all those parts where in meant that we were going to spend the better part of the day hauling stuff. As bad as that sounded, it was better than going home to Rakhel. Physical injuries were more easily mended than what I’d receive if I went home. Tym walked up to the counter and claimed his order as I went through the stacks of other parts to get the things he couldn’t have afforded when he’d placed the order. He wasn’t poor, but we’d both agreed that it was pointless for one or both of us to go bankrupt on this project, which was just another distraction for me. I followed the owner of the store to the large storage units in back after I’d paid for the other parts, while my friend brought his truck around the back of the shop. I’d known that we’d gotten a lot, but I hadn’t anticipated our order taking up three units by itself. Holy mother of kriffing stars. This didn’t make sense for the speeder we’d been planning. Tym got out of his truck and scratched the back of his neck as his cheeks flushed slightly. “I talked to a few people and they asked us to build them some custom speeders while we’re working on ours.” I looked at him. “You could’ve told me.” His face burned crimson. “I forgot and only remembered after I drove around the store.” I looked from him to the units. “Well, lets get started on moving this stuff.” It took most of the day to move the parts to his house. By the time we finished unloading we collapsed onto the couches around his holo-entertainment/communications center in the middle of the room. “That’s the last time I ever let you place an order,” I told him. “C’mon, it wasn’t that bad,” he said. “It only took us what. . . thirteen hours to move that crap here?” “I side with your statement on the composition of our cargo.” He looked at me for a moment before laughing. “I don’t think our clients would like us calling their speeders waste products.” “Just saying.” We would’ve laughed, but the comm unit chose that moment to chime. Tym looked at me. “I’m not answering it.” I grunted and sat up before reaching forward to hit the RECEIVE button. Unsurprisingly Rakhel’s shapely form filled the holoprojector. “Ben, we need to talk,” she said. I shook my head. “There’s nothing to talk about, Rakhel,” I said. “We’ve already been over this.” “Let me help you.” “I have amnesia, there’s little anyone can do to help me,” I lied. “If you don’t start telling me the truth, you’re going to ruin our relationship.” “I am telling the truth.” She glared at me. “You’re lying.” The comm went dead. I looked at Tym and saw him shaking his head. “Can I stay here for the night?” He snorted. “‘Course you can, after seeing that I wouldn’t wanna go home either.” “Thanks.” I got up and walked towards the guest room. It was times like this that made me regret leaving Jysella. While Corran’s daughter may have been as hard headed as Rakhel, she would have given me time to face my demons. But it would have been a mistake to tell the woman I loved what I’d done. I couldn’t think of a single scenario where I told her and she didn’t hate me. People say that love conquers all, but I didn’t believe it. I laid down on the bed and let a single tear course down my face as the one scenario that I didn’t believe in played itself out in my mind’s eye. What if she had been able to love me even after learning about what I’d done. As I drifted off to sleep that scenario repeated itself in my mind and haunted me. What if. -----signature----- Rebirth (Anakin Solo) - http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/27608496/p1/ Break Me Down (Ben sequel to Hide) http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/28227782/p1 Padawan to Flowerlady
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JadedSkycrawler Registered: Jul '02	Date Posted: 3/23 5:44pm Subject: RE: Break Me Down (Ben Skywalker, OCs) sequel to Hide
	w0w! That was an awesome first post! -----signature----- "All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle." -Francis of Assisi
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Jaina_and_Jag Registered: Apr '03	Date Posted: 3/23 6:36pm Subject: RE: Break Me Down (Ben Skywalker, OCs) sequel to Hide
	Great stuff! This has some amazing potential. Definitely excited to see more.
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JediMasterArmada Registered: Dec '06	Date Posted: 3/23 7:34pm Subject: RE: Break Me Down (Ben Skywalker, OCs) sequel to Hide
	JadedSkycrawler posted: w0w! That was an awesome first post! Thanks, i'm glad that you liked it.[/color] Jaina_and_Jag posted: Great stuff! This has some amazing potential. Definitely excited to see more. I'm glad that you like it. It's gonna be fun to write, but I'm not sure how often I'll be able to update it. Armada -----signature----- Rebirth (Anakin Solo) - http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/27608496/p1/ Break Me Down (Ben sequel to Hide) http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/28227782/p1 Padawan to Flowerlady
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JediMasterArmada Registered: Dec '06	Date Posted: 3/23 7:35pm Subject: RE: Break Me Down (Ben Skywalker, OCs) sequel to Hide - Date Edited: 4/18 12:30pm (2 edits total) Edited By: JediMasterArmada
	PM List: 1) Storms_Legacy 2) Jaina_and_Jag -----signature----- Rebirth (Anakin Solo) - http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/27608496/p1/ Break Me Down (Ben sequel to Hide) http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/28227782/p1 Padawan to Flowerlady
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Storms_Legacy Registered: Jan '07	Date Posted: 3/25 5:24pm Subject: RE: Break Me Down (Ben Skywalker, OCs) sequel to Hide
	Very nice, Armada. It's awesome! The only thing I didn't really like was Ben and Rakhel living together, but I don't think that can be helped. Your original characters are awesome, and I love the names. Wonderful start - I can't wait to see the next chapter. PM list, please!
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JediMasterArmada Registered: Dec '06	Date Posted: 3/25 5:33pm Subject: RE: Break Me Down (Ben Skywalker, OCs) sequel to Hide
	Storms_Legacy posted: Very nice, Armada. It's awesome! The only thing I didn't really like was Ben and Rakhel living together, but I don't think that can be helped. Your original characters are awesome, and I love the names. Wonderful start - I can't wait to see the next chapter. PM list, please! Thanks, Storm, I'm glad that you liked it. Nope, Rakhel and Ben living together can't be helped now, I wasn't originally going to have them living together but it added the possibility for more drama in the story. Rakhel and Tym are fun to write and you'll get to see more of them in later chapters. I'll add you to the PM list. Armada -----signature----- Rebirth (Anakin Solo) - http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/27608496/p1/ Break Me Down (Ben sequel to Hide) http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/28227782/p1 Padawan to Flowerlady
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Jaina_and_Jag Registered: Apr '03	Date Posted: 4/1 5:57pm Subject: RE: Break Me Down (Ben Skywalker, OCs) sequel to Hide
	Could you add me to the PM list?
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JediMasterArmada Registered: Dec '06	Date Posted: 4/18 12:29pm Subject: RE: Break Me Down (Ben Skywalker, OCs) sequel to Hide
	Jaina_and_Jag posted: Could you add me to the PM list? Sure Armada -----signature----- Rebirth (Anakin Solo) - http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/27608496/p1/ Break Me Down (Ben sequel to Hide) http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/28227782/p1 Padawan to Flowerlady
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JediMasterArmada Registered: Dec '06	Date Posted: 4/18 12:31pm Subject: RE: Break Me Down (Ben Skywalker, OCs) sequel to Hide Updated 4/18
	I sighed and walked around my house’s garden, it was the first time I been home since my fight with Rakhel. I knew that I couldn’t tell her about my past, let alone the nightmare I’d had two days earlier. It would reveal too much about me and make her suspicious, not that she didn’t have reason to be. I’d committed many more atrocities than that one, and sometimes it was hard to separate one crime from another. There were numerous other crimes that I wished would blend together with the others so that I couldn’t remember them, but they wouldn’t. It was impossible for some of the more disgusting crimes that Jacen and I had committed to confuse themselves. We’d mind warped many beautiful and intelligent young women –including rebel agents– into lust drones. Beings who were slaves to their most basic instinct. It had been wrong, I’d known it then, but I had the damned mind set that the ends justified the means. When, in truth of fact, they never did. The truth of the matter was that I was a war criminal and no one could bear to know the truth. Nor understand the demons that were eating me alive. The current circumstances on this planet were growing more frustrating each day on the planet and the situation was saddening to me. While they knew who was behind the bombings, they weren’t trying to find them. The people felt like it was a pointless pursuit and that the perpetrators would never be brought to justice. More frustrating to me was that some people chose to maintain their ignorance so that they could get on with their lives. Ignorance and resignation had led to Jacen Solo’s rise to power, and made me want to scream at the top of my lungs in the streets who I was to provoke some sort of action. But I couldn’t do, because I was too much of a coward to face myself, let alone the people. I shook my head and left my garden. Maybe the city air would help clear my mind and get it off the past, but I doubted that it would. There had been a fight outside of my work place yesterday and I’d wanted to stop it, but I knew that if I left to help the man I’d get fired despite that being the norm on this planet, and if I used to Force to stop the fight them one of them was bound to wonder why and he’d come asking question and might figure it out. So I hadn’t acted and a man had gotten beaten nearly to death before they’d stopped. Looking at the physical damage the man had sustained reminded me of the emotional truama that the woman I’d left behind must have sustained. It may have been internal, but it was no less ugly. My thoughts always returned to Jysella, no matter how much I tried to distract myself. If I wasn’t having nightmares about my crimes, then the last glance I’d gotten of Jysella was haunting me. It was one or the other, there wasn’t a middle ground. I knew that the way I’d left her was wrong, but who could blame me? I didn’t know what to do. I was little more than a war criminal with an overactive conscience. I really wished that my guilt hadn’t gotten to this point, but it had and nothing could stop that now. Yes, I still loved Jysella, but she was bound to hate me after what I’d done. She’d always been my rock, the one person I felt safe with, and I’d lost her. It was a brutally cold realization that was like a living death, making it harder for me to see anything but the past. My guilt for leaving her as I had was another contributing factor that prevented me from contacting her anonymously, something I’d learned how to do in GAG. What could I say to her even if I did muster up the courage to send her a letter? The wasn’t anything that would make it right, so what was the point? I was snapped out of my reverie by the sounds of a vigorously crackling fire and screaming. I looked around and my eyes widened when I saw a burning apartment complex. I reached out with the Force and felt only seven life forms inside, the desire to help was nearly unbearable, but I still forced myself to look around. There were no emergency services vehicles around the building, nor anyone else nearby. It was the perfect opportunity to act. I used the Force to speed my limbs as I ran towards the building and barreled through the flaming doors. I quickly located the shortest way to the nearest victim, who was on the ground floor. I threw him over my shoulder and carried him out of the building and put him down a safe distance away from it before running back in. The heat was already raising blisters on my skin, but I ignored them and ran up the stairs, knowing that I only had a limited amount of time to get to the others before they died. I didn’t believe in luck, but I was grateful that all six others on the second floor. Two were young children, and the other four were adults. I managed to throw three of the adults and the two children over my shoulder, but I couldn’t take the carry the forth adult like I was the others, and knew that if I didn’t get him out now, he make it. That left me with only one option which I quickly decided to use as the fire got hotter and started burning my skin from proximity. I used the Force to lift him up and moved as quickly as I could to the ground floor. I couldn’t risk using the Force in the open so I set him down just inside the door and ran out with the others to set them down with the first one. Then I turned and ran like hell back to the building to drag the last man out and put him with the others. There’s a reason why I don’t believe in luck, because if I’d had it, I wouldn’t have walked out with the last man as the emergency services and reporters got there. This was bad. The only reason why I’d even gone into the building was because no one had been there. Now – it seemed– that had betrayed me and I couldn’t do anything about it. The reporters rushed over to me. “Who are you and why did you save these people?” “Why were you in the area?” “Did you set the fire?” and a hundred other questions were asked before the medics and fire crews were anywhere near me. I didn’t know how to answer these questions and didn’t want to anyways. The fire crews, medics, and Planetary Authority officers rushed over to me and the victims and pushed the reporters back. “All questions will be answered in time,” one Authority officer said to the reporters. “Right now we’re just grateful for the bravery of this man.” He nodded towards me. “Now please let us do our jobs.” He walked over to me and crouched. “You’re a friend of Detective Leon, right?” he asked. I nodded. “Yeah.” “I thought I recognized you from somwhere.” He stroked his beard. “‘Kay, tell ya what,” he said. “Take these two tubes of bacta salve and go home.” He handed me the tubes. “I’ll be by to talk to ya later. I’m Detective Sadlin.” I shook his hand. “Thank you, Detective. I’ll answer any questions you have, if I can.” One of the medics came over to us. “Before you leave, one of the guys wants to speak to you.” “Okay.” I stood and followed the medic to a waiting ambulance speeder. As soon as I stepped in the medic left. “Hi.” He looked at me, a small smile on his face. “Hi.” He coughed. “I just wanted to ask you one question.” “Shoot,” I said. “How did you get me out of there?” he asked. “I didn’t remember being picked up until the end.” I hid a grimace, hopefully he could be swayed. “I must’ve dragged you then.” I shook my head. “Sorry, I’m not very sure about all that happened.” “I don’t remember being dragged either,” he said dubiously. I knew that I was going to have to screw around with his memories now. Something that I’d hoped to avoid. I reached into his mind with the Force and removed the true memory and replaced it with a fake one. I hated doing it, but it was necessary. Then I touched his head and he fell asleep. Hopefully his mind would take to that memory, otherwise he could –theoretically– recover a fragment of his memory, or have the blank spot common to people who’d been unconscious. I got out of the ambulance and walked home and was surprise to see that my face was already plastered on the screens. Ben Gefts: A New Hero, the headlines read. Great, as if it hadn’t been hard enough to keep my secret. As I entered my house I was met by the scowling visage of Rakhel. “Where have you been?” she asked. “Jumping into burning buildings,” I remarked flippantly. “I already knew that,” she said. “It’s all over the news.” “What’s this really about, Rakhel?” I asked, impatiently. “Why didn’t you tell me that you were going out?” I sighed. “You’re not my mother.” “I’m not trying to be. I just want to know why you’re not telling me anything anymore.” I could see the pain, fear and anger in her eyes and it hurt. But I didn’t want to fight with her. So I walked up to her and kissed her, despite my burns and blisters. Initially she resisted, but after a moment she melted into it and returned my kiss slowly and deeply. I knew that I hadn’t stopped the fight, only delayed it. But whether that was for a day or more didn’t matter. All that did at this moment was appeasing her doubts that I didn’t care about her, because I did, just not as much as she cared for me. I knew how much this would hurt her in the end when she figured out that I couldn’t love her and it saddened me that I would never be able to truly connect with her. There was only was one woman I loved and was connected to. I wanted her more than anything else in the galaxy, but I couldn’t have her. I knew that I was going to break Rakhel’s heart as I had Jysella’s, but I needed someone to be with me. As we made our way to the bedroom I closed my eyes and imagined Jysella happy with me again. It was the only way I was going to make it through this. -----signature----- Rebirth (Anakin Solo) - http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/27608496/p1/ Break Me Down (Ben sequel to Hide) http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/28227782/p1 Padawan to Flowerlady
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Jaina_and_Jag Registered: Apr '03	Date Posted: 4/18 3:58pm Subject: RE: Break Me Down (Ben Skywalker, OCs) sequel to Hide Updated 4/18
	Great post! Ben's thoughts are so... haunting. Sounds like he needs to confront his memories because trying to forget them isn't working. And yay for him! Rescuing those helpless people.
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Storms_Legacy Registered: Jan '07	Date Posted: 4/18 6:29pm Subject: RE: Break Me Down (Ben Skywalker, OCs) sequel to Hide Updated 4/18
	Hmmm.....Ben's getting himself into quite a bit of trouble, isn't he? If he's not careful, someone he knows is going to see the news and recognize him... Awesome update! I'm already looking forward to the next one!
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JediMasterArmada Registered: Dec '06	Date Posted: 4/21 11:51am Subject: RE: Break Me Down (Ben Skywalker, OCs) sequel to Hide Updated 4/18
	Jaina_and_Jag posted: Great post! Ben's thoughts are so... haunting. Sounds like he needs to confront his memories because trying to forget them isn't working. And yay for him! Rescuing those helpless people. Thanks. Yeah they are and he does need to face them, but facing his demons isn't going to be easy. Yup, he rescued them, but eventually he's gonna bite off more than he can chew. Storms_Legacy posted: Hmmm.....Ben's getting himself into quite a bit of trouble, isn't he? If he's not careful, someone he knows is going to see the news and recognize him... He does seem to be getting himself into trouble, doesn't he? That doesn't usually end very well for Skywalkers. Awesome update! I'm already looking forward to the next one! Thank you, I'm glad that you like it. Armada -----signature----- Rebirth (Anakin Solo) - http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/27608496/p1/ Break Me Down (Ben sequel to Hide) http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/28227782/p1 Padawan to Flowerlady
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JediMasterArmada Registered: Dec '06	Date Posted: 5/23 8:29am Subject: RE: Break Me Down (Ben Skywalker, OCs) sequel to Hide A/N 5/22
	A/N: Dear BMD readers, I'm am extremely sorry for the lack of an update. My life has been chaotic lately and I've been distracted with my other fics and outlining a galactic scale companion piece for this. I hope to have an update here soon, as well as the companion piece started. Again, I am extremely sorry. Armada -----signature----- Rebirth (Anakin Solo) - http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/27608496/p1/ Break Me Down (Ben sequel to Hide) http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/28227782/p1 Padawan to Flowerlady
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Jaina_and_Jag Registered: Apr '03	Date Posted: 5/23 9:17am Subject: RE: Break Me Down (Ben Skywalker, OCs) sequel to Hide A/N 5/23
	That's quite all right. Just take your time.
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JediMasterArmada Registered: Dec '06	Date Posted: 8/7 7:46pm Subject: RE: Break Me Down (Ben Skywalker, OCs) sequel to Hide A/N 5/23
	Jaina_and_Jag posted: That's quite all right. Just take your time. Thank you. Armada -----signature----- Rebirth (Anakin Solo) - http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/27608496/p1/ Break Me Down (Ben sequel to Hide) http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/28227782/p1 Padawan to Flowerlady
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