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Aleria Registered: Apr '07	Date Posted: 6/30 8:58pm Subject: RE: Burden of the Throne {J/J, post-LotF, drama/action/romance} Interlude II - 6/30/08
	The next part is here. This idea actually sprang into my mind after reading a review by JEDI_MARAUDER. So thank you for the inspiration! I hope you all enjoyed the teaser, and without further ado - here's the whole thing! Thanks everyone for reading. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Interlude II. Pain. Shattering pain and blackness were all she knew. They were all she could still comprehend. She was aching, the completeness of it swallowing her and sending her tumbling down its bottomless well. It enveloped her in its wrenching grasp. It tortured her body with tearing seizures, shackled her mind in the darkness that had started to grip her. Resistance was hopeless. With each push against the pressure she felt, it’s power grew and taxed her strength. Trying to seduce her to give in, it pulled her into its depths. She had to shut herself down, erecting shields around her to keep the churning at bay. She needed to at least try to keep some semblance of sanity in her torment to survive. She couldn’t let her pain take control, to overwhelm and destroy her. She had to fight, had to hold on to her identity, to prove she hadn’t failed in the forging for her destiny. But the memory of striking down Jacen, for he’d always be her brother no matter how hard she would try to deny it, still disturbed her. Still plagued her mind in the blackness. She could see it all too vividly through the lightless void she’d been thrust into. She convulsed as a vision of a crimson blur whirled at her, raining lethal blows towards her. They barely bounced back as they hit her violet blade swishing around her as a shield and parrying each strike. But the blood seeking sabre wasn’t Caedus’s only weapon, as suddenly the heavy meditation chair sitting by the viewport of his Command Salon flew at her. She somersaulted through the air and got just out of the plunging chair’s course. But Caedus had fooled her, and she wasn’t fast enough to block the attack before a vibroblade slashed at her knees. Letting out a vulgar cry that sounded more like a battle shout than a pained scream, she sank down on the floor and parried the Sith Lord’s fast blow at her neck. Again he was faster than her and turning his sword nimbly around in his hand he sharply brought it down towards her face. She felt how her lip split open as the hilt came into brutal contact against her cheek and upper jaw. She cursed her fighting, still somewhat stiff and controlled, constrained by the dread of what killing him would do to her parents. To her. Her hesitation quickly found its cost, giving Caedus another chance to attempt a fatal blow. Her flightsuit burnt open as the blade scorched at her side. Her breathing instantly exploded into an agonising firestorm in her chest but it gave her the certainty she had lacked before. Striking at her fallen brother, she knew there simply was no other way. Then the darkness had claimed her. It had washed over her as she lay on the deck. The duel had drained away her strength, leaving her into ignorance filled with newly rising fear for others still fighting. All she could do was wait, praying for help but somewhere secretly wishing for death that would free her from the agony, take away the burden she’d be forced to live with for the rest of her life. Where were her parents? Where were the famous Han and Leia Solo as their only daughter struck down their treacherous son like the mortal weapon she had been made to be? She couldn’t know, and the fear she felt for their lives mixed with her dread of seeing them again. She was despaired by the horror they’d had to feel over what she had been forced to do. Despite their assurances of having accepted her mission, she still felt a hint of blame chewing at the back of her mind. Confused, she wasn’t even sure it was theirs. And Jag – where was he. Was he even going to survive the battle? Would she ever get the chance to tell him how she really felt? In the darkness she could distantly feel him. Their bond was still there but filled with terror. Suddenly she was gripped by a pang of utter fear and paralysing pain. An explosion of despair drowned her and left her agonising in barely controlled rage that wasn’t hers. Something terrible had happened to Jag and she couldn’t know… Her rock was crumbling and there was nothing she could do to stop it. Everything slipped away from her into the surrounding void and her strength was lost. Through the blackness there was only a lone thing she could comprehend. One thing that constantly followed her, one thing she had dreaded longer than she wanted to admit. In her tormenting solitude, burning eyes haunted her. Their insane gleam was etched into her memory, spouting rage at her. They gripped her, choked her. Even now she was at their mercy in the forlorn prison she had been thrown into. She couldn’t stand the gaze. Despair and dread billowed over her, leaving shame in their wake. Hopelessly she fought their power - turning away, closing herself down and vanishing behind her shields. But the eyes kept coming back. They would never let her go. As she fought for the control over her own mind, she was somehow aware she wasn’t alone. In her state time was lost on her, but she knew she was still alive. Brief flashes seemed to penetrate her shields. Sounds and thoughts, many aimed at her but stopped and deflected before they could reach the final barrier her unconscious mind had built. She could feel the ripples of emotions surrounding her - a dome of fear and anxiety, of love and defiant hope. She was torn in her pain, wanting to reach out but unable for the fright of facing the reality still bound her. Her shields simply wouldn’t let her. There were familiar presences calling to her. They tried to touch and comfort her, hold her with them even if she was too exhausted to fight herself. Her mother was there, desperately knocking at the walls around her mind to get to her. And if she was there, so had to be her father, too. In this they would never leave each other. Somewhere there was also Luke’s steady and calm presence and those of other Jedi, friends bound together by shared memories. Zekk was there, his aura torn by love and regret - radiating anticipation and growing anger in the Force. He stayed with her for what felt like forever, but it wasn’t enough. She needed someone else and he wasn’t there. Where was Jag? Blackness and fear came to claim her again, the swept over her and made her lost in herself. She ached to be free, to be rid of the shackles restraining her mind into the antagonizing void. So she fought, hammering the shields around her - but they just wouldn’t crumble. She was using up almost all her strength and knew she simply wouldn’t be able do it for much longer, but she couldn’t stand the ignorance. Suddenly a wall of guilt covered pain rushed at her in her exhaustion. It grabbed hold of her, freezing streams of horror flowing through her. She could feel her body convulsing, reacting on its own accord before her mind had time to register the threat. It sprang fear and unexplainable hope to swirl in her mind. They tangled together in their desperate dance, thrusting her into a whirlpool of confusion. Something grasped her, held on to her as a primal instinct screamed at her, making her jerk painfully. She didn’t struggle again, even though she wasn’t free. From this she would never be free and she somehow knew it. The realization only barely preceded a nearly violent burst of desperation – and love. It shone brightly in the Force, it filled her and enveloped her, exiling the darkness she had succumbed into. It was the confirmation she had been hoping and yearning for. Jag. He was alive and waiting – waiting for her. As if it were a whisper travelled across the galaxy, she heard him, felt his words. He was finally there, his Corellian stubbornness promising forever, giving her a reason to live on. It was the well of strength she needed, and thirstily she gulped from it, fighting for her life stronger. Her anxiety calmed as she knew she could rely on him again. She would get through this, she wasn’t alone anymore. The blackness returned, but this time it wasn’t the devouring void that had tormented her. Now it was a healing womb of peace that was filled – no, created – by the Force. Finally she could sleep and as she slumbered, the galaxy moved on. The future once again became a thing to wait for, to plan for, even to dream for. Slowly the dark and constraining cloak of dread started to flutter away and be replaced by tentative hope and anticipation. The Force flew through her again. It broke her shields, shattered them and came to rest around her in their place. It filled her mind and body with its healing powers as she found her patience and let herself be mended. In its steady stream, she was shown visions, flashes of events yet to come. And she didn’t fight them, finally the future was something she truly wanted to look forward to. She could see a huge and before unseen fleet, flying under the Imperial crest, an unmistakable sign of a once again thriving Empire. It was a powerful and fearsome sight hanging in space, flecking the cluster of stars in constellations she had never seen before. Yet it all seemed somehow familiar. The vision changed, bringing her on the deck of the flagship. She saw a man standing by the transparisteel viewport, looking into the void and over the entire fleet. Pride and strength emanated from him, he was a firm and fearless leader, one who would never waver from his beliefs. He wore the white uniform of an admiral, elegantly bearing the insignia of the Supreme Commander. It caught her eye that around the third finger of his left hand glistened a sleek and beautiful wedding band. Then the admiral turned and she found Jag’s green eyes gazing straight into her soul. He smiled, that rare warm and genuine smile that melted her heart every time he graced her with it. From somewhere a sound drifted to her ears, a strange one aboard a battleship. It was a child’s laugh, joyous and completely uncontrolled. It confused her, but somehow she thought it didn’t sound even remotely wrong. As she wondered about the uncharted feelings that filled her, she stared through the viewport at a slowly growing disk of a planet. She had never visited it in her life, only heard stories and seen it on holonews and reports. It was Bastion – it was home. She had finally found – An explosion filled her senses. Simultaneously it erupted around and inside her, thrusting her into agitated trepidation. She felt a drowning wave of blazing rage swelling from somewhere close, targeted straight at her. Suddenly she knew she had failed, and in that heartbeat her future shattered into millions of fragments impossible to gather again. The threat she had been supposed to rid the galaxy of, even with the cost of her own life, was still there. Caedus was still alive, his hate and revulsion towards the rest of the universe a growing wildfire, fanning itself with the hopeful feelings slowly spreading over the base. Somehow he had found a way into her mind, used their bond as an outlet for his horrific emotions. He drank on her dread and pain, drew strength from her agony and guilt. Realization shocked her and she was once again seized by the corroding darkness. Her mission was still incomplete, her destiny yet unfulfilled. She fought Caedus’s power and in her struggle a breathless scream escaped her. “JA…” -----signature----- Burden of the Throne - http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/28365918/p1/?0 Liaison to the House of Fel of the Corellian FC "You know, sometimes I amaze even myself." - Han
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jadesabre75 Registered: Nov '07	Date Posted: 6/30 9:08pm Subject: RE: Burden of the Throne {J/J, post-LotF, drama/action/romance} Interlude II - 6/30/08
	Damn....just...damn. That was so freaking awesome!!!!!!! I can't really say anything else. Beautifully done! Can't wait for more!!!!! -----signature----- Stories are in my bio! Have at it! "Writers block is when your characters get tired of everything you do to them and go on strike." Lucky Member of the Jagateers: Jagateer of the Imperial Red Swim Trunks
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Jag4Me Title: BYK and Man Bites Dog Hostess, Monopoly Winner Registered: Jan '08	Date Posted: 6/30 9:18pm Subject: RE: Burden of the Throne {J/J, post-LotF, drama/action/romance} Interlude II - 6/30/08
	Geez, that was simply brilliant. You could feel the waves of emotions from the physical pain, emotional pain, having to kill her twin, not opening to the other Jedi, where was Jag...then elation that Jag was there he was ok. Being at peace, then all hell broke loose again. What a ride! Don't leave me hanging!! Is she going to wake up now? -----signature----- "Your new nickname, especially in the TIS circle, is the Stoner." - Trika_Kenobi "All biologists know that the peacock with the most extravagant tail wins the peahen." Archy McNally
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ccp Registered: Apr '05	Date Posted: 7/1 4:56am Subject: RE: Burden of the Throne {J/J, post-LotF, drama/action/romance} Interlude II - 6/30/08
	Wow! -----signature----- Padwan to Big Fatty If someone says, "Have a nice weekend," I never say, "You too." Because I never know if, perhaps, by the time the weekend rolls around, I will have other plans for that person. Come Friday, I may wish to have them slain. - George Carli
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Solo_and_Fel Registered: Apr '04	Date Posted: 7/1 5:08am Subject: RE: Burden of the Throne {J/J, post-LotF, drama/action/romance} Interlude II - 6/30/08
	You could definitely feel the weight of the emotions pushing Jaina down. Well-written! -----signature----- "Hurling black lightning is one thing, but quoting Kyp Durron puts me lower than I ever expected to get." To Suffer & Be Strong: http://boards.theforce.net/Message.aspx?topic=28435487&brd=10477 Check profile for more fics.
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dancinut1080 Registered: May '08	Date Posted: 7/1 7:09am Subject: RE: Burden of the Throne {J/J, post-LotF, drama/action/romance} Interlude II - 6/30/08
	Amazing Aleria! Where were her parents? Where were the famous Han and Leia Solo as their only daughter struck down their treacherous son like the mortal weapon she had been made to be? I love this line, it's chilling but it fits who Jaina has had to become. She couldn’t know, and the fear she felt for their lives mixed with her dread of seeing them again. She was despaired by the horror they’d had to feel over what she had been forced to do. Despite their assurances of having accepted her mission, she still felt a hint of blame chewing at the back of her mind. Confused, she wasn’t even sure it was theirs. I love this whole section, you can feel Jaina's emotions almost overwhelming her and you capture the tension between what she has to do and how much she hates herself for it. She's the sword of the Jedi on one hand and the distraught sister/daughter on the other. Marvelous job Aleria! . . . ...more soon? (I know I'm shameless) but maybe some J/J mush when Jaina wakes up? Please? -----signature----- Why do I have the feeling you'll be the death of me? ~Obi-wan to Anakin Skywalker
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angry_bendu1 Registered: Apr '07	Date Posted: 7/1 11:27am Subject: RE: Burden of the Throne {J/J, post-LotF, drama/action/romance} Interlude II - 6/30/08
	Wait just one minute here... Caedus is alive?! faints The things you do to me... and just when I thought everything was gonna be okay! Great post Aleria! -----signature----- Ramblings of a Jedi (snarky Jesika's diary- filled w/ romance, sarcasm, etc.): http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/28753761/p1/?0 I was staring at the orange juice because it said "concentrate". Proud owner of a '96 Geo Metro. "To the Crapmobile!"
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Jerisa_Skywalker Registered: May '08	Date Posted: 7/1 1:34pm Subject: RE: Burden of the Throne {J/J, post-LotF, drama/action/romance} Interlude II - 6/30/08
	Wow, I definately like it. So the battle is not done yet?!? I hope Jaina is waking up now. She doesn't deserve a guilt driven coma. The future vision is nice too. Bastion as home and it doesn't even strike her odd. Jag must be making her very happy in this vision... Well, if there is a PM list could you add me? Anyhow, waiting for more... -----signature----- Sometimes I miss my sanity!
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Aleria Registered: Apr '07	Date Posted: 7/3 7:00am Subject: RE: Burden of the Throne {J/J, post-LotF, drama/action/romance} Interlude II Replies - 7/3/08
	jadesabre75 posted: Damn....just...damn. That was so freaking awesome!!!!!!! I can't really say anything else. Beautifully done! Can't wait for more!!!!! Thank you! More will be coming in a couple of weeks. Jag4Me posted: Geez, that was simply brilliant. You could feel the waves of emotions from the physical pain, emotional pain, having to kill her twin, not opening to the other Jedi, where was Jag...then elation that Jag was there he was ok. Being at peace, then all hell broke loose again. What a ride! Don't leave me hanging!! Is she going to wake up now? Thanks very much! That's quite a list! Glad you picked up on all of those. Jaina's is not a simple mind... What happens to her next? That will be revealed in a few weeks. There are a couple of other things I need to address, too... ccp posted: Wow! That's simple! Thanks! Solo_and_Fel posted: You could definitely feel the weight of the emotions pushing Jaina down. Well-written! Thank you! There are so many things swirling in her subconscious, I'm glad the heavy toll they take on her comes across. dancinut1080 posted: Amazing Aleria! Where were her parents? Where were the famous Han and Leia Solo as their only daughter struck down their treacherous son like the mortal weapon she had been made to be? I love this line, it's chilling but it fits who Jaina has had to become. She couldn’t know, and the fear she felt for their lives mixed with her dread of seeing them again. She was despaired by the horror they’d had to feel over what she had been forced to do. Despite their assurances of having accepted her mission, she still felt a hint of blame chewing at the back of her mind. Confused, she wasn’t even sure it was theirs. I love this whole section, you can feel Jaina's emotions almost overwhelming her and you capture the tension between what she has to do and how much she hates herself for it. She's the sword of the Jedi on one hand and the distraught sister/daughter on the other. Marvelous job Aleria! . . . ...more soon? (I know I'm shameless) I don't mind! but maybe some J/J mush when Jaina wakes up? Please? Thanks so much! I'll try to get the next part up in two weeks. With some luck and a burst of inspiration, it could get written even earlier. We'll see. And mush? You'll have to wait just a liiitle bit longer, but it'll come. And trust me, as the story unwinds there will be plenty more coming your way... As for now, you could try this: Final Harmony. It might yet be important. Thanks for reading! angry_bendu1 posted: Wait just one minute here... Caedus is alive?! faints The things you do to me... and just when I thought everything was gonna be okay! Great post Aleria! Shocked you, did I? Things getting better that "easily"... no such luck with this imagination! And thank you! Jerisa_Skywalker posted: Wow, I definately like it. So the battle is not done yet?!? I hope Jaina is waking up now. She doesn't deserve a guilt driven coma. The future vision is nice too. Bastion as home and it doesn't even strike her odd. Jag must be making her very happy in this vision... Well, if there is a PM list could you add me? Anyhow, waiting for more... Thank you very much! The battle is still going on... And you're right, Jaina doesn't deserve this agony after all she's been through. But then again, if it didn't occur, would she still be human enough? Would being even slightly indifferent make her too much like the brother who's causing this in the first place? I'd like to think that Jaina and Jag have the chance for happiness together. Even if it often feels like a long shot... Also, there's a PM list, which you're now added to. -----signature----- Burden of the Throne - http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/28365918/p1/?0 Liaison to the House of Fel of the Corellian FC "You know, sometimes I amaze even myself." - Han
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Jerisa_Skywalker Registered: May '08	Date Posted: 7/3 12:09pm Subject: RE: Burden of the Throne {J/J, post-LotF, drama/action/romance} Interlude II Replies - 7/3/08
	PM list right! I always forget to ask... so good to be added Of course Jaina has to be devastated. I think she would be even if she hadn't fought him himself. As I said I really liked the post. I just hope she can start to heal now. So please keep up the good work -----signature----- Sometimes I miss my sanity!
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melino Registered: Apr '08	Date Posted: 7/3 1:26pm Subject: RE: Burden of the Throne {J/J, post-LotF, drama/action/romance} Interlude II Replies - 7/3/08
	That was.....WOW....i mean....AMAZING....i had to re-read it a few times to fully appreciate the depths of Jains's mind that you go to. The moment that she realizes Jag is with her and she starts to relax and think of the future was beautiful....and then in the next instant she is once again distraut when the realization that Cadeus is still alive hits her. Great work! I can't wait to read the next chapter and i don't mind having to wait for mush....as long as ther will be mush to come!
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Aleria Registered: Apr '07	Date Posted: 7/6 9:58am Subject: RE: Burden of the Throne {J/J, post-LotF, drama/action/romance} Interlude II Replies - 7/3/08
	Jerisa_Skywalker posted: PM list right! I always forget to ask... so good to be added Of course Jaina has to be devastated. I think she would be even if she hadn't fought him himself. As I said I really liked the post. I just hope she can start to heal now. So please keep up the good work Well, now you don't need to try to remember. It'll come and haunt you! And Jaina will eventually find what she needs to heal and move on... Thanks again! melino posted: That was.....WOW....i mean....AMAZING....i had to re-read it a few times to fully appreciate the depths of Jains's mind that you go to. The moment that she realizes Jag is with her and she starts to relax and think of the future was beautiful....and then in the next instant she is once again distraut when the realization that Cadeus is still alive hits her. Great work! I can't wait to read the next chapter and i don't mind having to wait for mush....as long as ther will be mush to come! Thanks so much! I loved writing the hopeful parts, something comforting in the middle of all the darkness. But paralysing revelations are just too tingling to leave unexplored... And as I've promised, the mush scenes will come - in numbers! -----signature----- Burden of the Throne - http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/28365918/p1/?0 Liaison to the House of Fel of the Corellian FC "You know, sometimes I amaze even myself." - Han
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Aleria Registered: Apr '07	Date Posted: 7/16 7:11pm Subject: RE: Burden of the Throne {J/J, post-LotF, drama/action/romance} A/N & TEASER - 7/16/08 - Date Edited: 7/16 7:12pm (1 edits total) Edited By: Aleria
	AUthor's Note: Sorry it's turned into another long gap between posts. And it won't end yet, I'm afraid. I'll be abroad for a week, but hopefully I can get some mind work done concerning the next chapter during that time. If I manage that, the next part should probably make it here at the end of next week. But for now, here's a little something for you to think about... Next up: Chapter 3 - Peace negotiations start Teaser posted: This was where the galaxy was inevitably moving. Remove one young leader from his throne and instantly there was another lining up for the job. Or one much like it. The amusing part in this particular case was, that the subject of the change didn’t even know about it yet. “So, you’re the little mynock who simply had to get the last shot of the battle,” she said coolly, nothing making the utterance sound like a question. Yet the reaction she received was slightly surprising. The man just looked down at her suspiciously, his cold eyes calculating her. But finally he raised his chin back up and stood tall and in rigid control like any well-trained soldier should. He was certainly an Imperial under all the coating. The result of years of intense grooming for a destiny he probably hadn’t even realized. I hope you like... -----signature----- Burden of the Throne - http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/28365918/p1/?0 Liaison to the House of Fel of the Corellian FC "You know, sometimes I amaze even myself." - Han
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jadesabre75 Registered: Nov '07	Date Posted: 7/16 7:14pm Subject: RE: Burden of the Throne {J/J, post-LotF, drama/action/romance} A/N & TEASER - 7/16/08
	Oooooo. Teaser is nummy! Have fun on your trip! -----signature----- Stories are in my bio! Have at it! "Writers block is when your characters get tired of everything you do to them and go on strike." Lucky Member of the Jagateers: Jagateer of the Imperial Red Swim Trunks
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Aleria Registered: Apr '07	Date Posted: 7/16 7:19pm Subject: RE: Burden of the Throne {J/J, post-LotF, drama/action/romance} A/N & TEASER - 7/16/08
	jadesabre75 posted: Oooooo. Teaser is nummy! Have fun on your trip! Glad you like! And thanks, I certainly will! -----signature----- Burden of the Throne - http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/28365918/p1/?0 Liaison to the House of Fel of the Corellian FC "You know, sometimes I amaze even myself." - Han
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