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Vergere
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so its been 7 yrs...has Leia found another guy? what about Chewie? and Lando...and Luke, yes i want to see luke too!
[(am I the only one who gets butterflies doing this??)]
--when i first started posting, yes. now i just get butterflies when i read, "that was soooo great!" 
and it was so great! this is going wonderfully. the thing with tatooine...now that suggests the EMpire wasn't defeated, or at least not totally or as quickly. so what happened to Vader?
i think maybe Jawas might have moved Han into the dwelling...or maybe Bobba Fett LIVES! 
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StonedRose
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Okay, here's the next part. And don't worry, Luke finally makes his first appearance
Thanks for the responses, guys. It's nice to know people are reading.
The former princess of Alderaan sat before a desk swamped with paper work, the heal of her hand pressed firmly against her forehead as if to physically ward off the headache she knew was brewing. While working directly beneath Mon Mothma in the building of a new government was often a great honor, and a position she usually occuppied with aplomb, it could also be completely overwhelming. Leia cautiously eyed the precarious stacks and piles, as if nervous that they might actually come to life and literally engulf her. She bit her lip in frustration, it honestly felt like they might sometimes.
Suddenly her intercom beeped and Leia stifled a groan as she reached for it. She didn't know if she could take any extra demands at the moment. "Yes?" She asked warily.
"Master Skywalker to see you Princess."
Leia immediately perked upon hearing this. She could use a good healthy dose of encouragement from her brother right about now. "Oh, by all means, send him in."
As the door slid open, Leia sat up straight, trying to regain some of the regal composure for which she was famous. Luke made his way across the room and Leia gave him a genuine heartfelt smile. It never ceased to strike her how distinguished her brother looked in his jedi robes. So noble. Yet serene. Leia stood up and offered him a hug.
"So," Luke whispered as they embraced, "how are you feeling?"
Leia backed away and looked up at him with a curious expression upon her face. "What do you mean?"
Luke gave her a knowing smile, "I mean how are you? I had a feeling you were a little stressed so I thought I would stop by." The jedi eyed the stacks of papers on her desk. "And from the look of things, I would say my hunch was correct."
Leia rolled her eyes at his use of the word "hunch". She was pretty sure she knew what *that* really was. "A hunch, huh?" She said as she made her way back to her desk.
"Yeeaaaah," Luke said cautiously as he slid into the chair across from her, "so what's going on?"
Leia smiled weakly at her brother. She appreciated his concern. She appreciated having *anyone's* concern these days. "Just feeling a little overworked."
Luke raised an eyebrow, "A little? I would say from your appearance you haven't gotten much sleep either."
She gave the Jedi a pointed glare, "Oh, so now on top of things I look horrible too?"
Luke stifled a chuckle. "Hey, I didn't mean it that way. But seriously, you look really tired. Are you sleeping okay?"
"Yesss mother" Leia answered in mock annoyance, although it secretly pleased her when he fussed over her. She was about to add another smart remark, but faltered as the events of last evening came back to her. "It was just, well, last night I had some trouble. But I don't normally."
"What happened last night?"
Leia shrugged and feigned a sudden interest in straightening all the piles on her desk.
Luke suddenly widened his eyes in alarm, "It's not Bailey is it? He's not sick is he?"
Leia smiled absently at the thought of her six year old son, her eyes automatically flicking over to the holocube of him sitting on her desk. She warmed with pride as she took in his appearance. In this image he was beaming crookedly up at the camera, his hazel eyes squinting in the pleasure of the moment. His expression was so endearing. So adorable. *So familar*. It was enough to make Leia's heart ache. In the boy's right hand he clutched his favorite worn wookiee doll. A present from Chewbacca on his Name Day. "No, Bailey's fine," Leia sighed, "thank gods."
Luke's shoulders sagged with relief. "Good. So what....is it the stress? Did that keep you up?"
Leia turned back to the task of re-organizing her desk. She tried to convey a sudden lightness in mood that she did not feel. "Yeah, I guess that must've been part of it...."
"Part? Part of it? What else was it then?"
Leia let out an exasperated sigh as she looked at her brother, "Wow, you just don't give it a rest do you? Why don't you just pull out the interrogation droid while you're at it?"
"Hey," Luke said defensively, "I'm only asking because I care."
"I know," Leia admitted.
"So why don't you throw your dear old twin a crumb, and tell me what's going on."
The princess gave a casual shrug, "I just had some weird dreams, that's all."
Luke's brow furrowed in concern. "Nightmares?"
"No, not nightmares," she replied slowly. Leia rubbed her cheek absently with her hand. Her gaze was drawn inward, as if reliving last night's dreams in her head. The corners of her mouth were pulled down slightly into a sad frown as she continued, "they were just so..*vivid*. It was disturbing."
"Leia," Luke said, trying to control the excitement in his voice, "tell me what you dreamt."
"Why?" She asked absently, the softeness of her voice making it obvious that her thoughts were still lost somewhere in the previous night.
"It's important."
"Why?"
"Because," Luke took in a deep breath, "because maybe what you had was not a dream at all. Maybe you had a force vision."
At the word 'force' Leia suddenly snapped back to full alertness, and her mood darkened.. "No. It wasn't a force vision," she snapped with conviction.As if to punctuate her certainty, Leia once again returned to sifting through her paperwork. She straightened the piles with a sudden newfound urgency.
"But how do you know," Luke asked gently. "Leia you have to begin to accept that you have this gift too and-"
"Luke, *trust me,*" Her gaze was unwavering as she looked him steadily in the eye. "It wasn't a force vision. It couldn't possibly have been one."
"It's not impossible. Nothing's impossible with the force," Luke took a breath and Leia could tell that meant he was about to go on another diatribe about the great wonders of the ancient religion. Eventually he would get around to Leia, and her stubborn unwillingness to explore her full potential. The princess didn't think she could sit through one of his lectures at the moment. Not today. "You see Leia," Luke said, unperturbed by his sister's lack of enthusiasm, "the force can come upon on us in the most unexpected of ways. In some of my experiences-"
"I dreamt about Han," Leia blurted before she could stop herself.
Luke looked at her wide eyed, his hands frozen in mid-motion. The utterly stunned expression on his face might have been humerous to Leia if she wasn't feeling so distraught. The room was eerily silent for a long moment. Finally Luke regained his speech, "Oh," was all he said.
Leia looked away towards the large window overlooking the city of Coruscant. The familar tears threatening to overtake her once again. She cupped a trembling hand over her mouth. "I-I don't know why....." She sniffed quietly and continued to keep her eyes steadily on the glass in front of her, but it was doubtful that she even saw the steady traffic gliding by. "It's just that....it seemed so *real.* Like he was *there*."
Luke had made his way from his chair and now kneeled before his sister. He took her other hand into his and gave it a gentle squeeze. "Tell me."
Leia bit her quivering lower lip, her mind muddy and uncertain where to begin. She didn't know how to sort through all her thoughts and emotions. "I-..." Her voice faltered, "He was with me. And we were walking. Together. I was telling him all about Bailey and-" The princess stopped, her face contorting as she fought off a wave of sudden grief.
Luke could feel the emotional pain radiating from her body as if it were his own. He gave her hand another encouraging squeeze. "Leia," he prodded gently, "it's okay."
Luke kept his voice steady, although he was still reeling a bit from his sister's confession. It's not that the dream was that particularly odd in itself, it was just that he had heard Leia barely even *mention* Han in several years. Atleast not directly. It's not that Luke had believed she had forgotten about him. Bailey was a daily reminder if anything, but it was as if she had just declared the topic too painful to dwell on and so instead she tried to ignore it completely. Leia had shut the emotional door on that chapter of her past and had declared the subject closed.
Much like the subject of her home planet of Alderaan. Or their biological father.
Leia turned back towards her brother, her lips drawn in a tight line. Her eyes hardened as she consciously tried to regain her composure. "It's not okay Luke. I shouldn't be thinking of him. He shouldn't still have this effect on me. I can't allow it."
"Leia that's silly," Luke pressed lightly, "you can't just shut down your emotions. It's all right to let yourself feel. Han is-"
"Dead," she said with finality. "And the past.I can't keep dwelling on him."
"And," Luke continued, "he's the father of your child. And someone you loved. You've hardly been dwelling on him. If anything you've been deliberately suppressing your memories of him for years-"
"What do you know?" Leia snapped, her eyes firey with indignation. "You think because I don't want to sit down with you and Chewie and exchange war stories of 'the good ol days' then I must have totally forgotten him?"
"Of course not."
"Because I think of him everyday. Every *single* day, Luke. It's unavoidable." Her gaze wavered a bit, and Leia hastily turned her head back towards the window. "Everytime I look at my son I *see* him. Everytime. And it seems," Leia sniffed softly before continuing, "it seems every morning I wake up and discover that Bailey has developed another one of his mannerisms literally overnight." Leia paused, her eyes closing for a moment. " So you see," her voice was now throaty with emotion, "it's not that I don't think about Han. It's that I can't *stop* thinking about him." Leia turned back to her desk and suddenly began rummaging through her top drawer. "And that's really unfair of me."
"Unfair?" Luke gave Leia a quizzical look before understanding suddenly dawned. "Oh.." he said slowly, "you mean for Simon."
"Of course it's unfair to Simon!" Leia apparently found what she was looking for, as she had paused in her frantic search. Suddenly she pulled out a handerchief and begain wiping her eyes. "What kind of wife..." she started, "what kind of wife would continously look at her husband and silently berate him for not living up to another man? A man who's been dead almost seven years?" Leia's cheeks pinkened with shame. "I am constantly holding him up to an impossible standard. Comparing him..." She shook her head, "and it's so incredibly unfair of me. And I know it. But I do it anyway."
"Don't beat yourself up-"
But Leia continued on as if Luke hadn't even spoken, "And he's always been so nice to me. To Bailey. He's been a terrific father to Bailey-don't you think?"
"Yes."
"And he's just a good man. A nice man." //I'm a nice man.// Leia winced.
"He's a very nice man," Luke agreed, "that's why I think if you talked to him about it-"
"Noooo," Leia shook her head insistantly, "this is definitely not the time for *that* conversation. Believe me."
"Oh?" Luke was curious about her tone, but he didn't press.
"No." Leia finally tossed the tissue aside as if in resignation. "He's off planet at the moment anyway. Meeting with other Alderaanean refugees."
"I'm surprised you didn't go with him."
"I have a lot to do here," Leia answered shortly. "I couldn't of possibly gone. Besides there's Bailey.."
Luke tried to give her a small reassurring smile. She knew that he could have taken the boy, or even Chewbacca would have gladly looked after him, but he dropped it. He was treading in an area that really wasn't his business unless Leia wanted to let him in on it. But he would be ready to listen, if she ever wanted to share.
Luke reached over and placed a comforting hand on her arm. "I love you, you know."
Leia smiled weakly.
//I know.//
*to be continued...*
(I hope that wasn't too long)
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Marie_Jadewalker
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Oh wow. It'll take a minute for me to digest all that. So Leia had Han's child after he "died" and later married someone else? Wow. This will make for an interesting reuinion. For some reason I'm having visions of the recent movie "Castaway" but I'm sure your story will evolve in a different direction. The piece was very well written and I think you captured the characters well.
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You've definately got me wanting more, Stoned Rose! So how will this situation work itself out, I wonder? I do like the way you've portrayed Luke. Kind, insightful, but quite capable of being forceful and making a point when he wants to. Yup, nicely done. :-)
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Fascinating! I loved how you described Leia saying it wasn't that she didn't think of Han, it was that she never stopped thinking of him. And Luke might well be right with his guess of a force vision. It was also very powerful, the way we heard Han's voice echoing in the conversation. "I'm a nice man." Well written! Now I'm looking forward to finding out who this other nice man, Simon, is. Why did Leia marry him--where did she even meet him at all?
More soon, please!
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sigh. this is getting complicated! Why is life never simple?
How is this all going to end up? Poor Han..... Poor Leia. Poor Simon.
Phew. good post.
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Good! More! So Simon is from Alderaan... ?
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Whoa. Ditto what everybody else has already said.
I also loved the way we kept hearing Han in the conversation (that "I'm a nice man" scene is one of my faves).
I'm also wondering about Simon and how Leia came to marry him when she obviously still loves Han.
And how everyone will deal with the news that Han is still alive, assuming they find out.
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Great story.
I'm a Han fan and even though we haven't seen him in the story yet, you have the characterizations down great. I feel so sorry for Leia.
Can't wait for more.
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"Leia cautiously eyed the precarious stacks and piles, as if nervous that they might actually come to life and literally engulf her."
Ah, paperwork. Glad I'm not the only one who feels that way!
I just loved the way that scene played out. REALLY fascinating. Loved her thoughts about Han, and great job with the Luke/Leia interaction, too. Hope for more soon!
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Ooh, let's keep the posts coming.
UP!
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i have a bad feeling about this...
this isn't gonna be an angst fic is it? i don't know if i, as a reader, could stand them just being friends...
and i already hate simon. i thought you'd want to know but he's going to come between Han and Leia, and so he's now the bad guy 
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WOW!!!!!! Great post Rose!!!
Bailey. What a cute name!! After Bail Organa right?
Please, I need to know more about Simon and is Han really gone for good?
Up, up and away!!!
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*jaw drops* StonedRose... I'm... speechless... this is incredible... I am going to continue to keep an eye on this thread, that's for sure.
And I agree with Marie_Jadewalker, this reminds me of Tom Hanks new movie castaway. I don't want to ruin it for the people who are visiting this thread that haven't seen the movie, but lets just sad the ending, while realistic, was painful for me. I hope the exact opposite of what happens in the movie happens here. I can't bear the thought of Leia with another man. 
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Yay, thanks for the feedback.
As for those of you who are worried out there I will just say this:...nah, I don't want to spoil anything. ;-)
I'll try to put up another post this weekend.
Thanks again,
StonedRose
EDIT: Oh, and yeah, the boy is named after Bail Organa.
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