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Author Topic: Blurred Visions -Obi/Qui/Ani/Ami AU~*~NEW POST 10.8
OBI_GURL_KENOBI1 
Registered: May '04
8122_Obi-Wan Kenobi
Date Posted: 5/4/04 6:16pm Subject: RE: Blurred Visions -Obi/Qui/Ani/Ami AU~*~NEW POST 2.5~*~
Hey OBI_GURL_KENOBI1 here! I just found this story yesterday and did some speed reading. I give u props on it it's one of the best I've read. Especially the Anikan bashing. LOVE IT! MORE MORE MORE!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

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LuvEwan 
Registered: Mar '02
6458_Ewan and Temuera
Date Posted: 5/5/04 1:58pm Subject: RE: Blurred Visions -Obi/Qui/Ani/Ami AU~*~NEW POST 2.5~*~
**trudges in, hiding face**

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I'm sorry for the lack of updates, you guys. cry This fic has always been the biggest challenge out of anything for me, and currently I'm in a real corner with it. Thanks SO MUCH for all your ups and wonderfully sweet comments. I'm going to start writing again on this mammoth, and try to post it in large chunks once summer starts...that's only nine days for me... wink

 

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PadawanKitara 
Registered: Dec '01
6383_Barriss Offee
Date Posted: 5/5/04 9:25pm Subject: RE: Blurred Visions -Obi/Qui/Ani/Ami AU~*~A GOOD Note 5.5~*~
I love you summer break happy

 

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jedi_keladry 
Registered: Jan '04
7901_Obi-Wan Kenobi
Date Posted: 5/6/04 9:37am Subject: RE: Blurred Visions -Obi/Qui/Ani/Ami AU~*~A GOOD Note 5.5~*~
*Keladry does the happy dance*

Hooray!

 

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Lurkalidth 
Registered: Feb '03
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Date Posted: 5/6/04 7:50pm Subject: RE: Blurred Visions -Obi/Qui/Ani/Ami AU~*~A GOOD Note 5.5~*~
Don't diss yourself. I mean, this is over 100 pages so far, right? 100 pages of some very thrilling writing. happy Plus you've shares some other wonderful literature, easily over a half-dozen short stories, vignettes, etc., all of them irresistible.

While I would love to read more of this story (just so long as there's a happy ending wink ), you have a life too. You've got obligations you have to meet...and running from pillar to post just isn't fun.

Take it easy, and I look forward to reading you again soon, whether it's this story or another one. grin

 

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LuvEwan 
Registered: Mar '02
6458_Ewan and Temuera
Date Posted: 6/1/04 2:43pm Subject: RE: Blurred Visions -Obi/Qui/Ani/Ami AU~*~A GOOD Note 5.5~*~
Well, I just got back from iceskating in hell, so I have a post for everyone! grin

Shaindl Oh, not good Nope. sad

diamond Uh oh! My reaction exactly!

diane I loved that you started to tell Dex about Naboo. I just Obi-Wan is up to it... That remains to be seen! shock

Sheila OH NO! Don't worry. It's a little calm for awhile now...not for long, but still... wink

PK I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop Why, what would give you the idea that that would happen? devil

jedi7 YIKES! Indeed! wink

Seraphena That woudl definitely fall under the catagory of Opps Definitely. sad

jenny Thank you for the review. love

jedi_keladry What an ego-booster you are! grin Thank you so much for your comments, and your ups. wink

Trigger292 After so long, you've probably forgotten it again, but thank you! love

Darth_Bunny Thanks! wink

OBI_GURL_KENOBI1 Thank you so much! happy

Lurkalidth Happy ending? Well... devil




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Qui-Gon was walking towards the table when he glanced out the window--and froze.

Strolling down the street was his apprentice.

What's Anakin doing in this area? What errand could Master Espella have assigned him down here?

He wanted to rush out and confront the boy, but Anakin was already disappearing into the crowd, and friends were waiting for him.

Besides, he probably has a legitimate reason for being here. Straightening slightly, Qui-Gon rejoined Dex and Obi-Wan.

Obi-Wan, increasingly sensitive to his surroundings as time progressed, smoothed out the brooding lines on his face and folded his hands. Perhaps he didn’t understand Dex’s wording…had misinterpreted his meaning. In any case, it was too small a matter to bother Qui-Gon with. Why turn a falling star into an asteroid?

Still, he couldn’t dismiss it completely.

He was beginning to understand that he wasn’t wired to take much of anything lightly. He didn’t act on impulse. Every situation was under his scrutiny long enough to be viewed from numerous angles. No, he would not ask Master Jinn about Dex’s comment—but he would not forget it, either.

Qui-Gon resumed his place at the booth and took up his fork, but there was something noticeably different, albeit almost imperceptible, in his expression.

The bulging entrepreneur didn’t act as if he was aware, and was only too happy to revert the conversation to merry topics.

Both Jedi participated in the talk, yet much of the spirit had been drained from them.

And Dex was immensely troubled, when they departed, to discover there had not been one wisecrack directed at his cuisine while they ate.

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Obi-One passed the small, cold lead ball over and under his fingers, weaving it through like a thread. The movement redirected the panic from his heart to his hand, and he focused his mind entirely on that task.

But no diversion could last through the tumultuous emotion, the confusion that had bombarded him without warning.

"I can't tell ya how glad I am to see you friends with him again."

Again?

Obi-One turned his hand so that his palm faced upward, and the ball rolled into the middle of it. Again? When weren’t we friends? I don’t recall… The frustration tightened his fingers around the cool, round object. Even now, there was such an unimpressive list of what he could recall. Over half was already returned to him, he reminded himself—but at the shore of unknown waters, with a single question rising, it was as if he were a stranger to himself all over again, and unarmed against the current.

Perhaps it would not consume him so, this strange comment, foreign to his recollections, if it wasn’t for Qui-Gon’s behavior afterwards. Obi-One knew his former Master was not present during his conversation with Dex, but regardless, the man wasn’t the same once he returned to the table.

Jedi could sense things, Obi-One had been told from the start, from Qui-Gon himself. Had Qui-Gon sensed the renewal of a sore subject from the past?

Obi-One leaned back against the couch and searched his limited realms of memory, for the tiniest argument, the smallest difference in opinion that could have bred an estrangement.

Then, a dark tingle, in his head and roiling in his stomach.

Tahl?

The issue had seemed resolved, back on the transport. Words were exchanged, the truth was revealed and peace was made. They had forgiven each other for the mistakes of that grimly shadowed time.

But was it worse than Qui-Gon had let on? Did the death of his only love create a larger breach between he and Obi-One, a separation that Dex would lament?

He promised to be truthful. I must trust in that. His sightless eyes gleamed in the darkness of the apartment. He took care of me, when I felt nothing for him—or anything else. I can’t doubt him now.

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Qui-Gon sat in the armchair, finding it uncomfortable for maybe the first time in his life.

Anakin was stretched across the sofa, a data pad in his hands and his face expressionless. The room’s lighting left traces of gold to tint his skin, reminding Qui-Gon of the sunburned little sprite, smudged with dirt, running beside him through the Tatooine dunes.

Which made it that more difficult to do what he needed to. He wanted to leave it alone, ignore the signs of dishonesty that made themselves known in the lower levels of Coruscant. It wasn’t completely unheard of for a Master to have business in that area of the planet…it was just very unusual.

“Anakin?”

The young Jedi glanced up from his reading. “Yeah?”

“Did you complete that errand for Master Espella?”

Anakin didn’t even pause before giving his answer. “Yes, Master. It didn’t take that long.” He returned his eyes to the pad.

Qui-Gon nodded, but the niggling feeling in the Force wasn’t satisfied. “If I may ask, what did she want you to accomplish?”

Anakin shrugged. “She just wanted me to deliver something. I wasn’t allowed to open it. Private, I guess.”

“Oh.” Qui-Gon looked away, his brows knitting very lightly. “Where did you go?”

Anakin’s eyes narrowed in puzzlement. “Why’re you so interested, Master?” He paused, his features losing their harder edges, “I told you I was sorry I had to turn down the trip to Dex’s.”

“No, it isn’t that, Padawan.” Qui-Gon shook his head with a small smile. “I understand that some duties come before social gatherings.”

“Alright…Then what is it?”

The Master studied his apprentice’s countenance for a moment, searching for something he himself could not identify. After a moment, he lifted his hand. “Never mind, Anakin. You may continue with your studies.”

Anakin’s gaze lingered on Qui-Gon a beat longer, than he obeyed.

Qui-Gon rested his chin on his hand, fingers framing his cheek. Sometimes, he nearly regretted the depth of his experience with Padawans. Xanatos had been corrupted in part by Qui-Gon’s tendency to indulge him. With Obi-Wan, he sought to avoid that grievous mistake, and hurt the boy very much in the process.

So what was he to do with Anakin? Leave him be, as he had done with Xanatos, and refuse to recognize his errors? Or analyze the situation with a measure of suspicion, the behavior that had robbed his relationship with Obi-Wan of closeness for so long?

Where was he to find a middle ground?

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PadawanKitara 
Registered: Dec '01
6383_Barriss Offee
Date Posted: 6/1/04 5:08pm Subject: RE: Blurred Visions -Obi/Qui/Ani/Ami AU~*~UPDATED 6.1 !!!~*~
Suspicions and mistrust abound. Isn't that what started the problems int he first place?

 

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dianethx 
Registered: Mar '02
46246_TFN Turns "10"
Date Posted: 6/1/04 5:21pm Subject: RE: Blurred Visions -Obi/Qui/Ani/Ami AU~*~UPDATED 6.1 !!!~*~
Qui-Gon needs some sage wisdom. Maybe he could talk to Mace or Yoda. The apprentice thing doesn't seem to be easy for Qui-Gon... I still think he should call Anakin on the lie!

And Obi-Wan needs to call Qui-Gon on his!

Good job.

 

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jeday 
Registered: Jan '04
8122_Obi-Wan Kenobi
Date Posted: 6/2/04 2:07pm Subject: RE: Blurred Visions -Obi/Qui/Ani/Ami AU~*~UPDATED 6.1 !!!~*~
Hope that Qui-Gon can work trough the suspicions and mistrust. If he cant't open up to Obi-Wan and be honest with Anakin both'll be lost. sad

 

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Shaindl 
Registered: Jun '02
Date Posted: 6/2/04 4:58pm Subject: RE: Blurred Visions -Obi/Qui/Ani/Ami AU~*~UPDATED 6.1 !!!~*~
PK and Diane summed it up for me. Nope, not very original, am I? grin

Great job, LE - so glad to see you've come back to this. happy

Shaindl

 

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Sheila 
Registered: Oct '02
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Date Posted: 6/4/04 6:13pm Subject: RE: Blurred Visions -Obi/Qui/Ani/Ami AU~*~UPDATED 6.1 !!!~*~
I was so excited to see an update on this story LE. happy However, I hate that Obi-Wan and Qui-Gon are starting to hold back with each other, it will only make matters worse when the truth is revealed. sad

 

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jedi_keladry 
Registered: Jan '04
7901_Obi-Wan Kenobi
Date Posted: 6/6/04 12:14pm Subject: RE: Blurred Visions -Obi/Qui/Ani/Ami AU~*~UPDATED 6.1 !!!~*~
I agree with Padawan Kitara and Diane, too. Qui-Gon, just park that stupid pride and open your mouth, for Force's sake!

Dex was immensely troubled, when they departed, to discover there had not been one wisecrack directed at his cuisine while they ate.

That is troubling, indeed.

So what was he to do with Anakin?

Smacking him upside the head would be a great start. You make me love to hate him, you know that? And I usually don't hate Ani, he just pales when compared to lovely Obi-Wan. (And not just in looks, either.)

 

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Captain_Observant 
Registered: Dec '02
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Date Posted: 6/8/04 12:32am Subject: RE: Blurred Visions -Obi/Qui/Ani/Ami AU~*~UPDATED 6.1 !!!~*~
Huzzah!

An update...finally (yea, like I have the right to complain about making people wait wink )!!!!!!

The post was great. Seems that Qui-Gon is running into a bit of trouble with both Obi and Ani. He's best be careful, else he end up back where he was before with Obi-Wan and completely loose all control of Ani.

Good Stuff...and I am guessing that what is yet to come is gonna be even better!

~The Captain

 

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LuvEwan 
Registered: Mar '02
6458_Ewan and Temuera
Date Posted: 6/17/04 4:11pm Subject: RE: Blurred Visions -Obi/Qui/Ani/Ami AU~*~UPDATED 6.1 !!!~*~
Well, I have to give a huge thanks to diane, whose words in the Obi-Wan Workshop Thread suddenly jumpstarted me into another post, and I think worked me through the huge boulder that was wedged between me and the rest of this story. Thank you! love

And of course, thank you to my wonderful readers. applause

PK Suspicions and mistrust abound. Indeed. shock

diane Perhaps both lies will be called. mischief

jeday Anakin could be a lost cause, but who knows? devil

Shaindl Thanks. happy

Sheila I was very excited to see some readers return. I've so missed writing this. It was always the best experience for me on these boards. Especially when I updated frequently. sad Thank you for your support. love

jedi_keladry I seem to bring out those sentiments towards Anakin in people. blush Thank you. happy

C_O Writer's block can be a real challenge. cry But I'm glad to be moving forward with great readers like you. grin



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Two more hours found Anakin preparing for sleep, tossing his clothes in a pile and moving bare-chested toward his bed. He paused to place his saber with ever-reverent hands in a wooden holder he designed specifically for the beloved weapon.

A decade on Tatooine and a decade on Coruscant had taught him to be prepared.

There was a tapping at the door. He turned around to see his Master on the threshold. "Master?"

Qui-Gon took a breath, his keen blue eyes looking especially thoughtful--even troubled. "Padawan, I have always given you my trust."

Anakin felt a strange thrumming at his fingertips. Panic? No. Never. "I know, Master." He answered cautiously.

The man walked into the lamp lit bedroom with his arms crossed. His considerable frame threw a long shadow across the ground. "And in return, I've always assumed you would give me no reason to doubt that trust."

The apprentice's lips were like chiseled stone, pressed together. "What's wrong?"

"Anakin, I want to believe what you've said about Master Espella and that errand on the lower levels. And at the surface, I do." He glanced downward, to gather the strength needed to forge on, "But there is more to consider. More that, as a Master, I must consider."

The first molten sparks of anger ignited in Anakin's chest. "You think I’m lying?"

"As I've said. I don’t want to believe that. And I still trust you." Qui-Gon leveled his eyes. "Which is why I'm allowing you the chance to clear up any…inconsistencies that may exist between the story you've told me, and the one I will be told by Master Espella herself. I went to Dex's this afternoon with Knight Kenobi. I saw you, in an interesting area of town to concern business with a Jedi Master. Particularly Espella, who limits herself to lightsaber instruction and rarely leaves the Temple."

Anakin didn't avert his eyes from the intimidating stare of his Master. If he was to be revealed now, he wouldn’t do so in petty surrender. "If you truly trusted me, you wouldn't have to ask." His throat was bubbling up with ire, flushing his face. "You wouldn't have to run to Master Espella to hear her story!"

"I've accused you of nothing."

"Except deception, Master. A serious accusation, I would say." His fuming stare bore into Qui-Gon. "And wouldn’t a true Master, a devoted Master, already know the answer?"

Before Qui-Gon could muster a reply, Anakin had torn past him, leaving the Jedi in a cold stir of air.

He sealed his eyes. "Now I know." He whispered.

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Anakin had enough wits about him to grab his cloak before fleeing the apartment, and he pulled it over his half-naked form. Every step pounded in his head. His head, spinning and shouting and crying out from the pain.

What did you expect? The deception was real. Did you think it would never come to light?

But to combat the voice was another, a voice that sounded foreign to his own, an inflection sour and cracked.

You are the Chosen One. Who should you EVER have to answer to? Qui-Gon Jinn? Qui-Gon Jinn who can think of nothing but his past? Qui-Gon Jinn who runs from his Padawan in the midst of battle…

Anakin stopped abruptly, whipping his braid behind his shoulder. The wild dejection in his face turned to a tremble of pure rage.

His Padawan. And his past.

He went to Dex's today. With Knight Kenobi.


He felt silly for the tiny burst of surprise within him. Why should he be the least bit shocked by the connection? It was Obi-Wan Kenobi that waited in the wings, the shadow in the sun that engulfed all that Anakin loved, all that he cared about.

Anakin had been on the verge of tears. Now, they dried, replaced by something far less emotional. Far more intense.

If Chancellor Palpatine had been there in body, although he was surely at Anakin's shoulder in sinister spirit, he would have recognized the expression that overtook the young countenance.

And he would have smiled.

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So it was Anakin's butt after all. He supposed he might take a modicum of comfort from that.
-Star Wars Episode III: Revenge of the Sith, by Matthew Stover
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PadawanKitara 
Registered: Dec '01
6383_Barriss Offee
Date Posted: 6/17/04 5:47pm Subject: RE: Blurred Visions -Obi/Qui/Ani/Ami AU~*~UPDATED 6.17
What is that saying? "only a guilty person runs from the scene of the crime?"

You screwed up Ani!

I love that parting comment LE- gave me shivers!

 

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