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Jaira Title: FanForce Arkansas PR Officer Registered: May '05	Date Posted: 3/23 8:33pm Subject: RE: Betrayal (Obi/Qui angst - very AU) Updated 3/10/08
	AAAAGH!!!! I can't....And then....ARRGGHHH!!!! I'm sorry I haven't been able to keep up with my PM's. I'll try harder, I promise! -----signature----- Where has all the Siriwan gone? Need a fun break? http://z9.invisionfree.com/Jello_Anarchy/
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BrightFeather Registered: Nov '05	Date Posted: 3/26 8:10pm Subject: RE: Betrayal (Obi/Qui angst - very AU) Updated 3/10/08
	Diane, that is by far the creepiest version of Darth Maul I've ever seen. Pm me, please! I don't wander this way often these days, and if it weren't for you posting to the Qui-Gon group, I never would've realized that this was updated. -----signature----- Padawan of Layren. Creator of Darth Cookie E-sis of DaenaBenjen42 and BrentusofGath. http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/22518786/p1/?3 http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/22764026/p1/?2
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DarkAnakinfan Registered: Jul '05	Date Posted: 4/5 7:51am Subject: RE: Betrayal (Obi/Qui angst - very AU) Updated 3/10/08
	I was so far begind on this & have eagerly caught up and now I'm speechless. Maul is evil incarnate here. Your imagery is just stunning. Anakin and Mace will have their hands full. I hope they can get there in time! You really do write evil well!
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Magier Registered: Jul '07	Date Posted: 4/5 8:38am Subject: RE: Betrayal (Obi/Qui angst - very AU) Updated 3/10/08
	Okay, that post really freaked me out. Great writing. I think I read it through the eyes of a mother, terrified for her unborn child and her already living child. Poor Le. She wanted to fight, just didn't realize the magnitude of what she was up against. Please Mace and Anakin make it there quickly. Anakin is going have a time of it trying to control his emotion when he sees what has happened. -----signature----- No Legacy So Rich : Xan,OC, Obi, Qui (6/13) Threads of the Past : Obi,Ani,Qui (6/3 - Complete)
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LuvEwan Registered: Mar '02	Date Posted: 4/7 9:19pm Subject: RE: Betrayal (Obi/Qui angst - very AU) Updated 3/10/08
	I've already decided she can't be dead. Such gutting language. Beautiful, but devastating at the same time. I love how you describe Maul's actions, getting the point across about what he did to Le' without being overly gory. I honestly never have an inkling about what the next post will bring in the story, and that's great. -----signature----- So it was Anakin's butt after all. He supposed he might take a modicum of comfort from that. -Star Wars Episode III: Revenge of the Sith, by Matthew Stover
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dianethx Registered: Mar '02	Date Posted: 4/20 2:32pm Subject: RE: Betrayal (Obi/Qui angst - very AU) Updated 3/10/08
	Nem – Thanks about Palpatine. I really love writing him. He's just so creepy that it's fun to manipulate the graphic images around him. Creepy, creepy. As for the leftover collection, I can't take credit for that – much as I'd like to. It was in Heir to the Empire by Tim Zahn. I just pushed the envelope a bit. I also love the quotes you chose. Spilled blood to him would be a wonderful thing. Ewww but I did have fun writing those. Thanks about Anakin. I do actually have a lot of sympathy for him. Yes, he was arrogant and full of himself but it was a shield for him after his time as a slave. I could imagine he'd be constantly hoarding things and trying to control his environment. It would drive Mace crazy! LOL on the cliffhanger. I wouldn't assume anything at the moment. Le' might be dead or she might not. You won't find out until near the end of the story. I'm so glad that the emotions came through. I wanted it to be horrifying and horrible. Whether she lives or dies, Qui-Gon is going to be a mess – assuming he survives, of course. Glad you liked it! Jinngerbread – I love to write creepy. It's so much fun. I really love writing the evil ones, too since I can make them really over the top in the horror factor. Thanks. I'm glad that Maul came across as scary. I thought he wasn't really scary enough in the movie but once I thought about it, I figured he'd be really nuts and loving the terror enough to want to make it last. Glad you liked it! Musing – LOL about hiding under the bed. I did try to make Maul as evil as I thought he should be. Glad you liked it. wolf_kenobi – I sooo loved making Maul as creepy and evil as I could. Glad it came through. Plus the cliffhanger will be around for a while. I have other characters that need center stage for a bit. As for resolving the cliffhanger, nope, not going to for quite some time. I love to torture my readers! Thanks for reading. jedidas3 – Thanks. I'm glad you liked the creepy Maul. I had a lot of fun writing that one. He's just so overly evil that it was great playing with his character. As for the cliffie, it will be around for a while. I have other characters clamoring for attention. Thanks. Valairy_Scot – Lol on the torture. Well, it was more about potentially killing off a pregnant woman in a pretty horrible way so I figured I'd better get approval first. They didn't make me change very much, actually. A few words here and there. LOL about checking the bed. Good one! Thanks. LadyLunas – Thanks. I was going for creepy and I would seem I did it! Thanks for reading. AuroraDumalOfBoden – Oh dear, don't forget the homework. As you probably have figured out, I'm a very, very slow writer. Plus I had writer's block for a while. I'm trying to get around it by writing at least 100 words a day and it seems to be working. That being said, I've put you on my PM list as you asked. No problem. LOL on killing off Le'orath or turning Obi into a Sith. He'd make a great Sith. I actually did that in another story. But I can make no promises about this one for either of them living or turning dark. You'll just have to find out. Thanks so much for reading! jedi7 – Thanks, I'm glad you came over here and started reading it on tf.n. I'm happy that you liked it enough to keep reading even after so long between posts. But as I'm sure you are aware, I'm a very, very slow writer. Sorry about that. I wish I could write faster but it's just not working out that way. Thanks for reading. ardavenport – Yes, I occasionally love cliffhangers. Plus this one won't be resolved for a long time. We have other characters that need to show up. I've tried to write this story as a novel so there are threads that interweave. So you finding out whether she lives or dies may take a while. Yes, Anakin is finally getting his act together. Unfortunately, they were a bit late for Le'orath. Will they be in time to save Ben? You'll just have to wait and see. Thanks for reading. Kivas – Thanks. I had great fun writing it. The dark siders are just so delicious in their evilness! Ocelotl_Nesto – LOL. Thanks. Glad you liked the evilness of it. However, you are assuming that Anakin would beat the pants off Maul. Keep in mind, Maul has been killing Force users for quite some time. He's not easily defeated even by Mace. Thanks for reading. Independence1776 – Oh, yes I can just leave it there. And I will. The cliffhanger is going to remain a cliffie for a while. I have other cliffies coming up. Yes, Le won't bleed to death but she's in a bad way. She may die. As for Maul, he was such fun to write. He's so creepy and evil that his actions just poured off the page. Mace and Anakin have their work cut out for them, that's for sure. Thanks. Glad you liked it! Leona – Okay, as long as it gets opened eventually, that's okay! Yes, Le loves him so much that it's an ache for her to be without him. And do you blame her?? Good. Glad to hear that you liked it. Thanks. Kitara – LOL, another breath holder. I'm glad you liked it! Tahi – Aroha. I try to set the mood with the environment. It's so much fun to write. Le'orath knew what she was getting into when she married him but I don't think she really believed it until now. And she should have believed Ben but she was still so upset and focused on getting on with everything that it didn't really sink in until it was too late. Thanks about Maul. He was such fun to write. As for whether Le lives, it will be a while before we find out. Thanks so much for reading! Captain_Observant – Yes, I did it. I've been planning on that scene for years, building it up slowly. Most people think that I'm not willing to kill characters off but I am. So you'll just have to see – eventually – whether she lives or dies. I don't think a baby would survive getting skewered like that, do you? As for more, we will be seeing what Obi has been doing. It won't be nearly as intense. I'm of the rollercoaster ride writing style. Cliffs and then calm for a while and then more cliffs. Adds to the tension. Thanks so much for reading! Obi-Odd13 – I'm happy that the creepiness that was Maul came through. He and Sidious are two of the evil ones and I had a great deal of fun writing them. As for killing Le, you'll just have to wait and see if she survives. Same with Ben. But Anakin and Mace better hurry up! LOL on watching Jurassic Park and then reading this. Glad you liked it! Jaira – LOL. Glad you liked it. I've put you back on my PM list. BrightFeather – Thanks. I had great fun writing it. For some reason, writing creepy is easy for me. I don't know why! I'll put you back on the PM list. As for the Qui-Gon group, I think it's pretty slow these days, unfortunately. And the website is gone. It was too bad. That's why I started writing. DarkAnakinfan – Well, you've caught up in the nick of time for a cliffhanger. Good job. LOL. Thanks about Maul. He was such fun to write and you know I love, love imagery. Yes, Anakin and Mace will have their hands full and they may be quite startled at how hard they are going to have to work to try and defeat Maul. Thanks. Magier – I'm glad you liked it. I wrote it through the eyes of a mother, terrified for her son and unborn child. but she really had no chance once Maul arrived. As for the cliff hanger, it's going to be around for a while. I have other characters clamoring for attention. Thanks. LuvEwan – LOL. Okay, she's not dead. Or is she? Glad you liked my language. You know me – gotta love imagery. I did want to have Maul be so very creepy and manipulative. He learned from the best. So I've got you on your toes with what is going to happen next? Great! Thanks so much for reading. -----signature----- Betrayal - http://boards.theforce.net/s/b1/10935143 updated 6/28/08 Fragments of Illusion- http://boards.theforce.net/bts/b10475/28456473 updated 6/22/08 Freeze frame - http://boards.theforce.net/s/b10476/27820434 Master to jedidas3 Impeach Bush!
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dianethx Registered: Mar '02	Date Posted: 4/20 2:41pm Subject: RE: Betrayal (Obi/Qui angst - very AU) Updated 3/10/08
	As you all know, I'm a slow writer. Unfortunately. I'm trying to be good by writing at least 100 words a day. It seems to be working because I haven't written that little since I started. Hope it keeps up. By now you know that the cliffhanger in the last post won't be resolved any time soon. That's how authors torment their readers. Actually, I did that on purpose because I'm trying to increase tension. Plus I'm of the roller-coaster writing school - deep cliffs and then calmness leading to more cliffs. And we have characters we haven't seen in a while.... When last we saw Obi-Wan, Qui-Gon had agreed to help the Jedi and Obi wasn't too happy about it. Last-meal was full of silences. Qui-Gon had tried to talk with him, tried to get him to understand why he'd made the choices he had but Obi-Wan was tired of it. He'd heard excuse upon excuse in his long apprenticeship and it always came back to the same thing - Qui-Gon Jinn would do what he had to do to follow the will of the Force, no matter what the cost. It didn't matter that Obi-Wan might have a different perception; it didn't matter that Obi-Wan was looking at the longer term consequences of what his old Master insisted was right. It didn't matter at all. So with every regurgitation of Qui-Gon's 'doing what he must', Obi-Wan turned further and further into stone until it would seem that he was but a statue amongst living beings. Shoveling food into his ash-filled mouth, staring down at his plate as he tried to block out the sounds of protest and explanation, he ignored Qui-Gon's concern, Atel's worry staining the air. Instead he concentrated on nothing. It wasn't working. Finally, he had had enough. Shoving the remnants of the food away, he settled back into his bed. Sending a glare upward toward the lighted tower of the Jedi Council in the distance, he closed his eyes and tried to shut out the murmurs in the room. He wanted to rest, wanted to stop thinking and just sleep. After all, tomorrow would come soon enough and he'd need all of his strength to keep his foolish Padawan and more idiotic Master from getting themselves killed in an absurd attempt at arresting the Supreme Chancellor. That mission could only go badly. He just hoped he'd have enough strength to shield them from their own folly, to keep them alive past the first few seconds of battle. He didn't care much about his own chances. After all, he'd done terrible things. His deliberate rape of Tharten's mind was still a sewer-stain on him, something for which he should be punished. Yes, he'd been misused and betrayed by the Jedi, their damned agendas twisting all that was good and right with the Order into something almost blasphemous; yes, he'd been manipulated into battling Tharten to keep from losing his former Master. That was no justification for what he had done. He had chosen to inflict pain when there should have been compassion. In those horrible moments, he'd ripped into her nerve centers and tortured her. Even now, he wasn't sure if he'd done it for the Jedi Order or to punish her for trying to kill Qui-Gon. He wasn't sure he'd ever know. But whatever the answer, he knew he'd yet to pay the real price for torturing Tharten. He knew he would pay - in the end. "Obi-Wan?" The voice was insistent, reminding him that he wasn't alone in the room. "Obi-Wan?" Knowing that ignoring Qui-Gon would do no good, he opened his eyes and said flatly, "Yes?" The crabbed mouth and narrowed eyes told him that Qui-Gon wasn't pleased with his response but the older man only said, "Obi-Wan, perhaps shared meditation might help in bringing balance back to us all." "No." The thought of meditation, shared or otherwise, made him ill. The darkness within him would only bring shadows to those he loved. He could not have them contaminated with his corruption. "This is not like you, Padawan." There was disquiet in his old Master's voice. Qui-Gon straightened, pushing away his own food, and exchanging another glance with Atel, he said, "Sharing meditation often helped when...." "That was a long time ago. When I was young." Obi-Wan snapped. He looked away, half-whispering to himself, "When I was clean." "Do you think I've never experienced the Dark?" Qui-Gon was frowning, a deep ridge of worry pulling at his skin, aging him. "Have you forgotten so quickly? My thirst for vengeance when Tahl died? The fact that if you hadn't been there to help me, I'd have murdered him without a second thought?" "I haven't forgotten." He remembered that Qui-Gon's hatred had filled the Force, the venom of it building and building until it would seem nothing else existed. He had tried to help his Master but it wasn't enough. Qui-Gon had pursued Tahl's murderer relentlessly, ignoring everything and everyone but his own pain. In the end, it had been a near thing. Obi-Wan knew that it had taken his Master a long time to recover. In some ways, he never had. Now it was his own pain that poisoned the Force, contaminating the clear currents until it would seem choked with hatred. Now he was the one in need of help. He just wasn't sure it would be enough. "Let me be your guide, Obi-Wan, as you were once mine." Qui-Gon leaned forward, wincing a bit as he did. "Let it go, Padawan." Atel said softly, "Please, Master, you need this." He stared at them both, Atel radiating anxiety, Qui-Gon with that patient, pained look he'd get whenever he was trying not to appear to want something too much. They were worried about him. No, it was more than that; they were alarmed. He knew he wasn't acting normally. How could he? His choices has contaminated him and now he was unsure of what to do that might lead him back into the Light. He had always been the one to follow the Code - once he'd gotten past his early days of bad choices and insecurity. Qui-Gon would go with his instincts and land them into trouble and the Council would be unhappy afterwards, even if it had turned out well. Half the time the Councilors would look at Obi-Wan with something akin to pity or else amusement and then let them both off. It was almost as if the Council had expected him to keep his old Master in line. Of course, it never worked but Obi-Wan learned to be calm and centered as he grew older, balancing the Code and the wisdom of the Jedi with his Master's sometimes odd ideas. They had worked well together. Atel, on the other hand, was Qui-Gon's opposite in many ways. She was too rigid; the compassion that all Jedi should feel sometimes eluded her. So Obi-Wan found himself acting more like his old Master in an attempt to try and temper her driving need for rules and harsh justice with compassion for those less fortunate - the very lifeforms he'd jested about in his youth much to his shame. Until this mission, they had worked well together. Now his calm center, his fine balance between the Code and his heart, had imploded into a black hole that ate at his spirit. He had lost his way - and they all knew it. Qui-Gon would have said that the first step to recovery was acceptance; although they could learn from the past, it could not be changed. They could only move forward. Obi-Wan knew he was right but despair was still soaking into his skin, weighting him down. Fighting to keep from sinking back into the depths, he closed his eyes, drawing in a breath and letting it out slowly. He tried to empty his mind of everything but the clarity of the Force. But the currents flowed sluggishly, filled with pain and the black debris of choices gone wrong. In the distance, he could hear Atel's worried voice and his Master's gentle reply. And then like balm to his wearied spirit, he could feel Qui-Gon's steady glow on the edge of his consciousness, sending light into the murky depths. His Padawan's tentative probe followed, helping to brush aside the darkness. He let out another breath, feeling for the first time in an eternity, the beginnings of absolution. Only the first step but it was a start. Eagerly, he pushed for more, impatient to be cleaned of the filth still clinging to his spirit. Then with appalling swiftness, the Force took him. Death in the raging black, shadow billowing across the darkness, flashes of red light streaking through it, leaving trails of poison and obsidian ash. He couldn't breathe for the horror of it, his throat clogged with desperation. There were shouts in the lightless void, some he didn't recognize but Qui-Gon was hoarse with urgency. "No, Obi-Wan. Stop!" He'd never heard him so worried. The darkness roiled again, spreading the black into the corners of the universe itself and there was a wail of grief. Obi-Wan struggled to see beyond the shadows, striving to find a way free, searching for one glimmer of hope. But there was none. Pain-filled moans and the startled howl of cauterized agony. Atel struggling with something or someone in the darkness, shouting, "I won't let you hurt him. I...." She fell abruptly silent. Grunted exhaustion, the sound of lightsabers clashing, spitting, hissing and meat thudding against something solid. Obi-Wan peered into the night but there were only jagged light and the blinding curve of sabers in motion. Behind him was the shrill whimper of a woman in pain, tortured beyond her endurance and a child's broken-hearted cry. It sounded very much like Qui-Gon's son, Ben. A demon mask in red and black stained the darkness. The searing red stab of a lightstaff scrawling symbols in the air. In the shadows, a low voice, male, harsh with remorse, whispering, "It is not your fault. It is mine." And then there was only the remorseless night. Obi-Wan came out of the vision, gasping for air. Slick with sweat, every centimeter of him ached as if he'd run for kilometers; his shoulder hurt abominably. Even his hands were shaking, little half-moon cuts gleaming bloody in his palms. He looked over to see his old Master's face scored with grief. The man looked old and thoroughly lost. Atel, too, was sitting there, blinking back tears, whispering, "The same. It was the same as before." Horrified, he realized that he had broadcasted his vision to them. The shared meditation, their gift of renewed hope, unfailing compassion, and love, had failed. Obi-Wan curled inward, his head buried in his hands. It was clear that the Force was trying to show them just how badly things could go if they tried to arrest Palpatine. The darkness that they had tried to dispel in him had instead spread to the people he loved - just as he'd feared. He had damned them with his choices. Behind him, he could hear Qui-Gon ask Atel to get the guard. A shuffle of feet, a quiet question and Obi-Wan looked up to see their Knight sentry standing just inside the door, shaking his head. "Master Sle'fey left strict instructions that no messages be sent out of the Temple. I'm sorry, Master Jinn." "I need to send that message. It could mean the difference between life and death." When the guard started to protest, his Master interrupted, "Let me talk with Master Sle'fey, then. He might make an exception just this once." He swallowed hard, bowing his head for just a moment and then said softly, urgently, desperately, "Please." There must have been something in Qui-Gon's eyes or the sorrow in his voice because the guard relented, saying, "I'll ask, Master Jinn, but there are a lot of things in flux right now. I doubt if Master Sle'fey will be able to see you before morning." Qui-Gon's face paled. "That may be too late. Any help would be greatly appreciated, Knight...." "Derst, Master Jinn, Asaf Derst." He nodded and turned to go. "I'll see what I can do." Leaning back, looking much the worse for wear, Qui-Gon nodded, "Thank you." As the door slid closed, Atel, obviously still shaken by what she had seen, said, "Master, it was almost the same vision as I'd had on the ship. There were a few things different - a woman screaming and a child crying." She looked horrified. "What does it mean?" Qui-Gon seemed to shrink, his eyes filled with shadow. "It sounded like Le'orath. And Ben. I've left them alone. Unprotected." His hand scrubbed at his face. "My own hubris. Following the will of the Force, thinking I was the only sacrifice and I left them there." His voice slowed to a whisper. "I left them there." Shaking his head, Obi-Wan said, "Qui-Gon, you thought you were doing the right thing at the time. And surely Master Windu will look after them." "Le'orath won't have it. She will try and do it all on her own, staying at the farm, trying to be both mother and father to Ben. My decision to go with you...." He looked ill. "If something happens to them, how will I be able to live with that?" For that, Obi-Wan had no answer. Their choices had led them here and they were all damned for it, one way or another. The door opened again and Master Xacor swept into the room. Their guard stayed outside but at least he'd done more than they had really expected. The Zabrek looked harried, but as he stood there, looking at them, his face smoothed out and he bowed slightly toward Qui-Gon. "I was on my way to a planning session when Knight Derst contacted me saying that you wished to send a message. I don't think that's possible. We're in lock-down mode at the moment. What is so urgent that it can't wait until tomorrow night?" "My wife and child may be in danger." Master Xacor looked puzzled and not a little worried. "How do you know?" "Obi-Wan had a vision." Voice flat and unyielding, Qui-Gon seemed to be thoroughly prepared to do whatever was necessary to contact his family. "Ah." Xacor looked skeptical and not a little annoyed. "The future is always in motion." Among the Jedi precepts, the standard and accepted reaction to visions was one of cautious disbelief. The Force could send tantalizing glimpses of possible futures but often as not they were misleading. Sometimes, they brought disaster and it had made the Jedi very reticent to act upon them. Even long ago predictions of Jedi-Sith battles and mysterious Chosen ones were treated with suspicion. "Obi-Wan is exceptionally strong in the Unifying Force." Qui-Gon was not one to let something go so easily. When the Zabrek only tilted his head, clearly not impressed, he insisted, "A message to warn the Bendu, then. Something. The killer may be there already." Before Xacor could protest, Obi-Wan said sharply, "You owe him, Master. A simple message should not be too hard for you." He sent a warning glare toward the Councilor, wordlessly reminding him of all that Qui-Gon had sacrificed for their blasted plots. It must have been enough because the Zabrek shrugged, nodding his consent. "Very well. I will make sure something is sent to the Bendu warning them. We set up a system when we started sending the coded tranmissions to Naboo. However, it will take some time as it is routed so that it cannot be traced back." Obviously impatient to be gone, Xacor asked, "Anything else that we should know about?" "Only that people will be killed tomorrow." Obi-Wan couldn't keep the sarcasm out of his voice. "Yes, I'm aware of that." Xacor did not rise to the bait but a flash of shame seemed to cross his face before it smoothed back into Jedi calm. "If there is nothing else, I will take my leave." Obi-Wan's reply was biting. "You seem unconcerned." Master Xacor straightened, lifting his head to meet Obi-Wan's gaze head-on. "Don't let your anger over our past manipulations blind you to the truth, Obi-Wan. We know Jedi will die tomorrow. But that is part of the sacrifice we are willing to make if we are going to bring down Sidious." "So you would send a wounded man in to do your dirty work?" He all but snarled at the man. "Obi-Wan." Qui-Gon's gentle rebuke was ignored as Obi-Wan waited for Xacor's reply. "Since you seem to be unaware of the fact, both Master Sle'fey and I are going with you." He nodded when Ob-Wan blinked surprise and then pressing the point, he said, "We also intend to shield Master Jinn as much as possible. However, our first priority must be taking Sidious captive and preventing him from destroying the Jedi." He glanced over to Qui-Gon. "And the Bendu." He turned, facing Obi-Wan squarely. "Don't you agree, Knight Kenobi?" The question was softly spoken, almost an afterthought in the way it was delivered but Obi-Wan felt as if he'd been punched. He couldn't breathe again and the memory of the last hours, the last days were a jumble of pain and shame and fury. As much as Xacor and Sle'fey had twisted their truths, had manipulated and lied and sacrificed others for their own ambitions, the Zabrek was right. The Jedi needed to bring down Sidious before he could do any more damage. That had to be their focus, his focus - not this righteous indignation about how badly they had treated him or the way he felt about torturing Tharten but bringing a Sith Lord to justice. His own suffering was unimportant. A Jedi Knight would know that. He should know that. He finally understood just how poorly he'd been acting. He'd been holding onto his anger and his self-loathing, selfishly, stupidly, not as a Knight would but as a child having a temper tantrum when he didn't get his way. No wonder Qui-Gon and Atel were treating him so oddly, with such gentleness and worry - and alarm. Anyone else would have abandoned him, would have given up waiting for him to come to his senses. It was time to come to grips with what had been done to him, what he had done. With a nod, Obi-Wan said softly, "Yes, Master Xacor, that must remain our first priority." Qui-Gon looked at him sharply, frowning a bit, questions in his eyes. Atel was open-mouthed and then seemed to gather herself up, and sharing a glance with his Master, shrugged slightly. There would be time for talking and apologies later. "I'm glad we understand each other, then." Master Xacor paused for a moment, then gathered up his cloak around him and then bowed to them all. "Master Jinn, I will send the message as soon as I can. Now if you all will excuse me, I have other duties." And with that, he swept out of the room, closing the door behind him. For a moment, there was stunned silence. "Obi-Wan?" Qui-Gon was staring at him, looking as if he were relieved and confused at the same time. "Master Xacor was right. We have to bring Sidious to justice. Everything else is secondary." He turned away, settling down into his bed. The taint of darkness still held him and he knew he would need to deal with it but it would have to be some other time - after Sidious was in custody. "Perhaps we could try again with the meditation. It seemed to help," Qui-Gon said softly. Obi-Wan shook his head. "I think I've had enough for one day." When both his Master and Atel started to protest, he held up his hand. "I know that I need to come to grips with my actions over the past few days, that I need to release my anger to the Force." He could feel the dark emotions churning behind his heart, pulsing, fury demanding to be released but he refused to give in to it. Taking a deep breath, he let it out slowly. "But this... this will not be easy or quick. I need to come to terms with it in my own way and in my own time." His eyes pleading for understanding, Obi-Wan murmured, "Please, both of you, let it go." The two people he loved most in the galaxy, the ones he knew cared enough for him to go against his wishes if they thought they needed to do so, exchanged glances. "Very well, Obi-Wan. For now. But I can't promise I won't try again." Qui-Gon leaned back, looking suddenly tired. It had been a hard day for them all. Atel, too, was showing signs of exhaustion. The purple bruises on her face were a stark contrast to her pale skin. She looked as if she were going to argue, and then she must have changed her mind. She bowed her head, surrendering the moment. "If that is what you want. But I'd like to talk with you tomorrow if I could. To settle some things before...." "We'll talk tomorrow, then." Shamed at knowing he'd not been the best of Masters, that he'd put those bruises there - a stark reminder of assumptions and grief, he nodded. "Get some rest, Padawan." "Yes, Master." Atel looked away, her teeth worrying her lip, her hands clenched together, white bone and sinew showing her anxiety. "Yes, I'll see you before we go. Sleep well, my Master." And she fled the room. "A daughter in all but blood." Qui-Gon was watched the door slide shut. "She loves you, you know, as a daughter would." As he closed his eyes, settling down to try and rest before the storm tomorrow, trying to let go of his own pain, Obi-Wan said, softly and full of regret. "I know. But it's not enough, for either of us." -----signature----- Betrayal - http://boards.theforce.net/s/b1/10935143 updated 6/28/08 Fragments of Illusion- http://boards.theforce.net/bts/b10475/28456473 updated 6/22/08 Freeze frame - http://boards.theforce.net/s/b10476/27820434 Master to jedidas3 Impeach Bush!
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JediNemesis Registered: Mar '03	Date Posted: 4/20 4:36pm Subject: RE: Betrayal (Obi/Qui angst - very AU) Updated 4/20/08
	First post! I know this is only a breathing space before all hell breaks loose, and I know Le'orath's still clinging desperately to life (?) halfway across the galaxy . . . having that kind of upward tension left hanging is always a little uncomfortable, but I really liked this quieter post as an interlude between the mad bits. Obi-Wan's finally come to his senses. Good. Almost heartbreaking, though, to see through his eyes when he realised just how far he'd drifted from his own and the Jedi ideal. Awesome job! -----signature----- <- Fic in bio <- Black Is The Colour Of My True Love's Heart - http://boards.theforce.net/a/b1/27998377 Spindrift - http://boards.theforce.net/a/b1/28478326 + GM & Judge in the Mythology Draft +
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calimora Registered: Nov '07	Date Posted: 4/20 5:48pm Subject: RE: Betrayal (Obi/Qui angst - very AU) Updated 4/20/08
	...Dramatic Pause... Poor Obi-wan and Atel. Qui-gon at least chose his path, but the other two were mostly herded. Loved Obi-wan remembering what exactly he was. This feels like we're being reminded why we love these characters - so it will be more gut-wrenching when one of them is destroyed. I'm actually anxious for the next chapter. -----signature----- "No Force in the 'Verse can stop me!"
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Musing Registered: Oct '03	Date Posted: 4/20 7:28pm Subject: RE: Betrayal (Obi/Qui angst - very AU) Updated 4/20/08
	I can't decide whether I'm desperate to see the next post as soon as possible, dianethx, or hope that it takes a while longer since it means at least no one will die until then. It's amazing the way you've managed to show how Palpatine has managed to taint everything and everyone with his darkness. But it's equally encouraging to see that the light still manages to survive in spite of it, one way or another. A wonderfully gut-wretching post.
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Gkilkenny Registered: Mar '04	Date Posted: 4/20 8:17pm Subject: RE: Betrayal (Obi/Qui angst - very AU) Updated 4/20/08
	Lets hope the force is with them and good defeats evil. -----signature----- * More stories in my Bio * "You were right about one thing Master. The Negotiations were short. "If they find us, they will CRUSH us and grind us into TINY pieces & BLAST us into oblivion.
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PadawanKitara Registered: Dec '01	Date Posted: 4/20 8:31pm Subject: RE: Betrayal (Obi/Qui angst - very AU) Updated 4/20/08
	You are sooo cruel to leave us hanging this way. -----signature----- Courtier of the Royal Order of Shambling Dufi We are Dufi...Resistance is Futile! UCLA BRUINS
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Valairy_Scot Registered: Sep '05	Date Posted: 4/20 8:31pm Subject: RE: Betrayal (Obi/Qui angst - very AU) Updated 4/20/08
	Force I LOVE in a twisted way how you've had Obi-Wan descend believably into the pits of despair and self-hate. For someone like him, it's beyond possibility for him to be the person he sees himself as now and it's soul shattering. Yet when the chips are down and the cards are on the table, he steps up to the plate no matter the personal cost. He will be Jedi, only if he dies, it won't be a foolish sacrifice, but a sacrifice to serve the Force. He just better live, though, though who will live and who will die is very much in doubt. Obi-Wan will be shattered beyond belief if it's Qui-Gon or Atel - I think either of them could accept his death more easily at this point in time. Dianethx, you're just such a darn good writer you set the bar too high for the rest of us. -----signature----- see bio for stories and links - silly and serious [link=http://boards.theforce.net/b/b10476/25756073]Never Look Back[/link] Self-proclaimed winner: of the best readers and fans on the JC forums
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jedidas3 Registered: Apr '07	Date Posted: 4/21 4:43am Subject: RE: Betrayal (Obi/Qui angst - very AU) Updated 4/20/08
	Master, I am in awe of your writing. I think Valairy said it best. Dianethx, you're just such a darn good writer you set the bar too high for the rest of us. I agree and it makes me even more honored to be your Padawan! I loved this chapter and I love how you portray Obi and Qui-Gon. Well done! Now, back to the cliffie? -----signature----- The Past Revisited http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/28440949 Lessons Learned http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/28580784 Remembrance http://boards.theforce.net/before_the_saga/b10475/28009025 Padawan to dianethx
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bek Registered: Jul '05	Date Posted: 4/21 7:51am Subject: RE: Betrayal (Obi/Qui angst - very AU) Updated 4/20/08 - Date Edited: 4/21 8:04am (1 edits total) Edited By: bek
	Qui-Gon and Atel have every right to be worried. Obi-Wan has become complacent, resigned to what needs to be done regardless if they are in good health or not. It's not a good sign that he's pushed everything away to focus on the task to come, something he's been adamantly trying to deflect since the idea was brought up. It makes me wonder if everything he's trying to shut out will come out in the fight with Sidious, and will that be for the good or the bad. Poor Qui-Gon, having seen the ramifications of his actions: his wife and child in danger. You will put us out of our misery due to the cliffee now, right? Wonderful imagery, use of words and dialogue. Reading this always creates a moving picture within my mind, like I’m watching it instead of reading it. It’s pretty bad when you’re searching for updated fics only to think to yourself when you see the dates, I already saw that. Not, I already read that. -----signature----- Update 5/26/08- Chapter 39- Life Beyond the Code (Obi-Wan/Anakin) - http://boards.theforce.net/The_Saga/b10476/20820324 Update 5/26/08- Chapter 23 - Not Myself - (Obi-Wan/Qui-Gon/Oc's) - Before the Saga 6/5- Part 4 Additional Post! - Strength to Begin Ane
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