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Antilles2001 
Registered: Oct '01
42343_Star Wars Vendetta
Date Posted: 1/3/06 10:29am Subject: First Casualty (A clone sergeant accepts the truth) - Date Edited: 1/12/06 5:19pm (2 edits total) Edited By: Antilles2001
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Yes, I love blatant Halo references. You know you love ‘em too. wink

Oh, and ration cube goes to whoever finds the move tagline used.

EDIT- All this time and I forgot the epigraph that got my muse started. doh!

First Casualty

"It's not who I am underneath, but what I do that defines me." - Batman, Batman Begins

CT-0117 “Chief” took off his helmet and took a long, deep breath of fresh air. Any clone has gotten used to the sweaty, damp warmth of their helmets, but after a long day’s fighting, it was just plain heavenly to be rid off, if only for a moment. The clone sergeant strode through the main camp after getting out of the troop bay of a Republic gunship, still relishing that downright amazing feeling that coursed through him whenever he heard the sound of its engines.

The men under his command, Squad 0419, had given him nickname due to his unblemished reputation as their combat leader. After all they’ve been through, any one of them would follow CT-0117 into enemy fire without a thought of hesitation.

They had just gotten back from a quick raid on a would-be ambush on the Republic camp on Primus, a lush world once held by the Separatists only recently reclaimed. Now the remaining CIS forces were making vain hit-and-run attacks and were simply being hunted down, their numbers dwindling as each day went by.

Chief took a seat on a fallen log. He closed his eyes in pleasure. The basic luxuries of life, such as a nice drink of water or a simple sit down after labor, were immensely intensified when one fought all day and night for a living. He yawned as his men waved him over to the mess tent. Yeah, yeah, I’ll be with you in a second, boys, he thought as he waved back as if to say, “You go on, I’ll catch up.”

Another gunship came floating down into the militarized village, which proved more than sufficient as a makeshift HQ, for the time being. Instead of more of his white armored brethren, CT-0117 saw a family of begrimed refugees being escorted out of the troop bay. It was quite ironic really, when CT-0117 thought about it. Republic citizens, the people he was born to protect, were walking out of the ship used to ferry their white armored guardians from battlefield to battlefield.

CT-0117 had no doubt that this family was homeless due to the war. He shrugged. Collateral damage, folks, the sergeant thought, jaded to the consequences of war. Not much we can do about that.

A medic pointed to what used to be a library, now turned into a reinforced, militarized shelter for civilians caught in the war. The family of three - father, mother, and son - strode to the building utterly downtrodden. Certainly rightfully so, for what CT-0117 could see, this family must have been caught in a firefight for the father held a bloody makeshift bandage what was left of his right arm; it was nothing more than a red stump now.

Don’t you worry ‘bout a thing, pal. They’ll fix you up. CT-0117 flexed his left hand, a replacement after a escort mission gone awry. They’ll fix you up.

The boy came walking up to CT-0117. “Hi, mister. My name is Tirren.” He extended his arm in greeting.

“Hey there,” the clone replied, returning the gesturing as he shook the boy’s hand. “Where you from?”

Tirren’s sooty face took a quick look at his feet as if the answer were there. “I used to live over in Mawhen, sir.” He closed his eyes and sniffed. “What’s left of it, anyway.”

“You don’t need to call me ‘sir’, lil’ fella’,” he said in his Jango Fett inherited accent, ruffling the child’s feathery blonde hair. “That’s for my ugly mates over there.” He made a gesture at the mess tent.

“I thought you were clones, though?”

Chief sighed and resisted the urge to roll his eyes. “It’s a joke - ah, nevermind.”

“Oh. Father says I need to know my manners.”

Good man. “I see. Don’t you pay it any mind with me, though. Hell, you’re probably older than me anyhow.”

“Huh?”

The clone smiled. “Nevermind.”

“Oh…” Tirren pointed to Chief’s face, indicating a glaring scar across his hardened face. “What happened to your face?”

Chief absentmindedly reached up to rub the anomaly in flesh, a long line from under his eye to under his chin. “You best get back to your parents, kid.”

Tirren opened his mouth to talk, then thought better of it. He shook CT-0117’s hand again and ran off to the now armored library. Even after he was gone, the utter innocence in the boy’s eyes were still in Chief’s mind. It was amazing really, that children of any kind could have that aura of innocence and incorruption in their eyes, their soul clean slates for the years to come.

But was age the only thing that affected such things? Tirren couldn’t have been more than ten years old. So, in theory, shouldn’t he have that same innocence in his eyes?

CT-0117 looked down at his helmet in his hands and saw his face reflected back at him through its cold, dark visor. Despite his adult features, Chief was only eleven years old, thanks to the growth acceleration used by the Kaminoans. For a moment, he wondered just how he should feel about being deprived of any semblance of a childhood.

On one hand, fighting was all he would ever know and was all he was good at. He enjoyed it. He enjoyed victory after victory with his brothers. He enjoyed the fact that with every step he took towards an enemy position, he was making a difference in the clones’ unified goal of protecting the lives of the Republic’s citizens.

He enjoyed being a warrior. A soldier. A clonetrooper.

A childhood would have only delayed his destined living.

But on the contrary, a part of him wondered what it may have been like had he not been grown faster. Would he be any different? Best not think about it, he thought. Nothing good will come of it - not like you can do anything about your genetic. Be proud of what you are, soldier.

Chief still stared at his eyes through the very thing that protected them. He could see the confidence instilled from winning in combat and fighting alongside damn good men. He could see the sadness that never left him whenever he saw troopers leave and not come back. He could see what the effects of war had on any man, as he tilted his head to get a better look at his scar. He could see the complete absence of innocence.

“No,” he quietly said to himself, answering his earlier question. Does age affect such things seen in eyes? “Experience does.”

As he slipped the helmet back on, once more he became one of the faceless. Hiding whatever was in his eyes to any outsider. He slung his rifle, his weapon, his tool to wreak death and chaos. This is who he was. He had no objections.

Innocence is the first casualty of war.

 

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Kudzu 
Registered: Jun '05
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Date Posted: 1/3/06 5:19pm Subject: RE: First Casualty (A clone sergeant accepts the truth)
Haunting last line. Liked the comparison between Tirren's innocence and Chief's, well, lack thereof. Very nice little vig. happy

 

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Antilles2001 
Registered: Oct '01
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Date Posted: 1/4/06 11:22am Subject: RE: First Casualty (A clone sergeant accepts the truth)
Oh, thanks, Kudzu. happy

Gotta love those 117's. grin

 

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Corran_Fett 
Registered: Jan '05
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Date Posted: 1/5/06 11:52am Subject: RE: First Casualty (A clone sergeant accepts the truth)
Poor Mig, only two readers yet... gotta up this! grin wink

A nice fig, I liked it. The last line was indeed well done, as the whole of it was.

One more thing that could've increased the effect of the fic would be the boy being killed by some di'kutla Sep droid, just after Chief thought this last line.

But it's still good the way it is, even if I have to say, that you can't quite challenge Kudzu in that genre (philosophy), to be honest - yer better stay at your expertise, the blow-stuff-up tongue .

Anyway, well written, keep up the good work, ner vod.

 

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Antilles2001 
Registered: Oct '01
42343_Star Wars Vendetta
Date Posted: 1/5/06 2:53pm Subject: RE: First Casualty (A clone sergeant accepts the truth)
Corran_Fett posted:


But it's still good the way it is, even if I have to say, that you can't quite challenge Kudzu in that genre (philosophy), to be honest - yer better stay at your expertise, the blow-stuff-up tongue .




Thanks very much, Dave.

I take that as a challenge. mischief

 

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Antilles2001 
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Date Posted: 1/6/06 3:21pm Subject: RE: First Casualty (A clone sergeant accepts the truth)
Two readers and it's on page 6?

frustrated

 

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Exeter 
Registered: Feb '05
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Date Posted: 1/6/06 7:20pm Subject: RE: First Casualty (A clone sergeant accepts the truth)
Great work, Antilles. This was pretty powerful.

I especially enjoyed the part about Chief's prosthetic hand and the refugee's own stump. Amazing how battlefield medicine of the future would change the way wars are fought - agreements and conventions would go out the window and lethality would again become the focus of munitions and technique. Wounds that send men back home today and end their tours of duties might simply be week-long furloughs until a soldier's back out in the field with a replacement part. Interesting.

Equally awesome was the exploration of the clones' relative ages. While they might be only eleven years old, the combat experience they've accrued - even if you discount the simulation programs on Kamino and just focus on their deployment in the Wars - dwarfs that of a mercenary four or five times their age. It was pretty cool how you had Chief examine the childhood he may or may not have been deprived from.

It seemed appropriate when he reminded himself that he enjoyed his work. Built to war, how could he not? If only we could all be that prepared and satisfied with our chosen path.

Finally, it was perfect to end it with a Platoon reference. I can't tell you how many times I've watched that movie. The DVD must have worn grooves in it by now. Definitely the best of the Vietnam films, and probably one of the best war movies to date.

You should write more vignettes like this. Nice job applause

 

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Antilles2001 
Registered: Oct '01
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Date Posted: 1/7/06 7:34am Subject: RE: First Casualty (A clone sergeant accepts the truth)
Exeter posted:
Great work, Antilles. This was pretty powerful.


Whoa! shock Nice to see you again, Exeter. It's always a fine, fine pleasure to read your feedback. hugs Ask Kudzu. tongue

Exeter posted:
I especially enjoyed the part about Chief's prosthetic hand and the refugee's own stump. Amazing how battlefield medicine of the future would change the way wars are fought - agreements and conventions would go out the window and lethality would again become the focus of munitions and technique. Wounds that send men back home today and end their tours of duties might simply be week-long furloughs until a soldier's back out in the field with a replacement part. Interesting.


Oh, thank you. I didn't even realize I used a RoboCop quote. tongue

Exeter posted:
Equally awesome was the exploration of the clones' relative ages. While they might be only eleven years old, the combat experience they've accrued - even if you discount the simulation programs on Kamino and just focus on their deployment in the Wars - dwarfs that of a mercenary four or five times their age. It was pretty cool how you had Chief examine the childhood he may or may not have been deprived from.


Mm. If Darman in Hard Contact is any indication, they really are children at heart.

Exeter posted:
It seemed appropriate when he reminded himself that he enjoyed his work. Built to war, how could he not? If only we could all be that prepared and satisfied with our chosen path.


Kal Skirata tells the clones that they're lucky, that they don't have to go through life wondering if their choices are the right ones. Whereas the clones didn't have to worry, because they knew. Go Ms. Traviss. happy

Exeter posted:
Finally, it was perfect to end it with a Platoon reference. I can't tell you how many times I've watched that movie. The DVD must have worn grooves in it by now. Definitely the best of the Vietnam films, and probably one of the best war movies to date.


Yes, tagline is from Platoon. However, it's actually : The first casualty of war is innocence. I reversed it because it sounded better. happy

The famous scene of Elias running is moving no matter how many times I've watched it.

Exeter posted:
You should write more vignettes like this. Nice job applause


Thank you very much, Exeter. happy

 

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JadeSolo 
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Date Posted: 1/7/06 11:42am Subject: RE: First Casualty (A clone sergeant accepts the truth)
Don't make me think of Elias! That's the worst part of the movie for me, because it's so damn sad. cry

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“I see. Don’t you pay it any mind with me, though. Hell, you’re probably older than me anyhow.”

“Huh?”

The clone smiled. “Nevermind.”


I just loved that! And the rest of the vig is so very true. It's such a different view of the clonetroopers, to think of them as having lost their childhood innocence without ever really having it in the first place. sad

 

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Ceethreepio 
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Date Posted: 1/7/06 4:54pm Subject: RE: First Casualty (A clone sergeant accepts the truth)
The last line is brilliant Mig, and so very true. I love how you just capture the clone trooper POV. I also love the HALO homage you put in there too.

 

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Date Posted: 1/8/06 12:35pm Subject: RE: First Casualty (A clone sergeant accepts the truth)
Up this nice fic! (strange new icon, Mig, btw... where's Thire gone? tired )

 

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Antilles2001 
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Date Posted: 1/11/06 6:47pm Subject: RE: First Casualty (A clone sergeant accepts the truth)
JadeSolo posted:
Don't make me think of Elias! That's the worst part of the movie for me, because it's so damn sad. cry

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“I see. Don’t you pay it any mind with me, though. Hell, you’re probably older than me anyhow.”

“Huh?”

The clone smiled. “Nevermind.”


I just loved that! And the rest of the vig is so very true. It's such a different view of the clonetroopers, to think of them as having lost their childhood innocence without ever really having it in the first place. sad


Feedback from a mod! dancing hugs Thank you, JadeSolo.

And yes, Elias' death is quite emotional. Willem Dafoe rules.

Ceethreepio posted:
The last line is brilliant Mig, and so very true. I love how you just capture the clone trooper POV. I also love the HALO homage you put in there too.


Thanks, Mike. Halo homage? A homage is usually subtle. This was full-blown, blatant "I'm a Halo fan". tongue

Corran_Fett posted:
Up this nice fic! (strange new icon, Mig, btw... where's Thire gone? tired )


He's on vacation. beatup

 

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Date Posted: 1/11/06 7:02pm Subject: RE: First Casualty (A clone sergeant accepts the truth)
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Antilles2001 
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Date Posted: 1/12/06 2:13pm Subject: RE: First Casualty (A clone sergeant accepts the truth)
Oh, sure thing, Jaira. hugs

 

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Date Posted: 1/12/06 2:53pm Subject: RE: First Casualty (A clone sergeant accepts the truth)
I do love Halo references. Reminds my of my daughter who's into it big time.

A childhood would have only delayed his destined living.

I find that such a sad way to think, not that they have a choice, still...
sad

Excellent fic Antilles2001 .

 

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Antilles2001 
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Date Posted: 1/13/06 3:32pm Subject: RE: First Casualty (A clone sergeant accepts the truth)
A girl who likes Halo, hm? thinking beatup

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Glad to see another mod! happy

 

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