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Luna_Nightshade Registered: Jan '06	Date Posted: 2/28/07 12:14pm Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Drama. Obi-Ani., Siriwan. Ch6posted 022807 Bad times are a'coming
	Oh dear... Such a wicked cliffie. I love the portrayal of Obi-Wan as the consummate general, taking care of everyone and not giving attention to himself. I really enjoyed seeing Anakin learn from that and do it himself, going to all the clones and taking care of them in the way Obi-Wan would. It was really touching to see him doing that. I'm really glad that Obi-Wan's torture came from Alpha's point of view... it helped us see it but remain detached from it. It really made it more real. And then the ending, with our Sadistic Asajj... oh dear. What did she do to him?!? Much , VS--I hope that Anakin is able to come to Obi-Wan's rescue soon. He obviously needs it... Loved it as always, especially your deft and artful treatment of torture. Can't wait for more! -----signature----- It’s dark now and I am very tired. I love you, always. Time is nothing.
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Alley_Skywalker Registered: Sep '05	Date Posted: 2/28/07 12:45pm Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Drama. Obi-Ani., Siriwan. Ch6posted 022807 Bad times are a'coming
	Great update Looking forward to more! -----signature----- Knight of the Fanfic Order (trained by oqidaun) Master to CodyMonKenobi & mujapple-juicey Proud Obi/Ani shipper! Facades: http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/24152038/p1 Class of '09 forever!!!
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JediMasterJessica Registered: Jul '05	Date Posted: 2/28/07 1:46pm Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Drama. Obi-Ani., Siriwan. Ch6posted 022807 Bad times are a'coming
	I feel so bad for him! That last line just made me shudder. Great chapter, Thanks for the PM! -----signature----- Proud lover of A/P, Siriwan, L/M, & TK/J Yo mamma is so stupid, she thought Jar Jar came with Pickles Pickles
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Noelie Registered: Jul '05	Date Posted: 2/28/07 5:20pm Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Drama. Obi-Ani., Siriwan. Ch6posted 022807 Bad times are a'coming
	What sort of a person takes joy in doing such things? She calls the Jedi soft, I call her soulless. Enjoyment of pain is horrible Good Charactrization on your part, but icky icky on hers! Like all the others I am worried now. What is happening to our poor Obi? You leave us all wanting MORE!!! Great job -----signature----- The relationship that has been created in this unique universe is so memorable, and so beautiful. It makes the heart ache. As far as I'm concerned, it's canon.~Ratna on the Noelaverse Proud member of the UPR
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barriss31 Registered: Apr '05	Date Posted: 2/28/07 5:28pm Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Drama. Obi-Ani., Siriwan. Ch6posted 022807 Bad times are a'coming
	I have not had time to post for a while, but I love the writing thus far. The memorial scene for Obi-wan was moving, especially Siri's feelings as she comes to the realization of what his loss will signify in her life. It truly makes me feel for two individuals that loved each other for years, would make an awesome couple, yet have been kept apart by "life" and the most ridiculous of all the edicts of the Code. Blast the Code into perdition. Make it one with the Force instead of Obi-wan. Your characterization of Obi-wan in the dungeon apolpgizing to Alpha for being ill and not having the strength or ability to access the Force was classic Kenobi. Always trying to take responsibility and guilt for everything and everyone whether it is relevant or not. I hope Ventress has an end as wonderful as the one she has planned for him.
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aabbccdd Registered: Jul '05	Date Posted: 2/28/07 6:37pm Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Drama. Obi-Ani., Siriwan. Ch6posted 022807 Bad times are a'coming
	wow great update. i feel like this sets things up for the next chapters so i can't wait to see what happens next!
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Fifilla Registered: Mar '06	Date Posted: 2/28/07 10:56pm Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Drama. Obi-Ani., Siriwan. Ch6posted 022807 Bad times are a'coming
	In the months they had served together, Alpha had developed a respect for the Jedi general he felt for few others. Kenobi was no fool. He could act quickly when required by circumstance but he never acted rashly or without thought of the consequences. He did not hesitate to order a squad or platoon onto a suicidal mission while calmly taking advantage of the diversion to wrest victory, yet all the while grieving those whose deaths lay heavy on his conscience. It was not mere safeguarding of his troops, Alpha had discovered, it was genuine regret for the waste of life. His men, clones or not, were not mere pawns to him, pieces to be sacrificed without thought for the goal of securing victory. Kenobi valued life, and mourned whenever it was lost or sacrificed. That's so Obi-Wan! Great characterization! “Where’s the general, sir?” one clone asked, half sitting up one elbow. He was swathed in bandages, looking much like the patients in the beds nearby. The only way to distinguish one clone from another was by the wounds or bandages. (...) “He’s coming,” Anakin answered, spying General Norcuna coming through the doorway. The clone looked that direction and back at Anakin. “No, sir. I mean ‘the’ general.” “The general is - oh.” Anakin found that he was stammering. Obi-Wan – the clone meant Obi-Wan. He wished he knew just where he was; he would be on the way there. “He’s – General Kenobi is – he’s unable to be here now.” First of all I loved that you told the first part of the chapter from Alpha's POV - that was really interesting. And then that, I think the clones really respect Obi-Wan! Such a mean cliffhanger! But it's not an AU, so Obi-Wan will survive?! Please, let him be all right!!! -----signature----- "There's always a bigger fish." Fear Of Failure - young Qui-Gon (WIP) > http://boards.theforce.net/before_the_saga/b10475/27642896 Padawan to Valairy_Scot
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General_Kenobi_66 Registered: Oct '06	Date Posted: 3/1/07 7:37am Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Drama. Obi-Ani., Siriwan. Ch6posted 022807 Bad times are a'coming
	Ooohh, evil cliffie But like Fifilla said, it's not AU... Is it? I have a feeling that the worst is still on it's way; our poor Obi will probably have to endure far more. But this is another incredible update, and I anxiously await more Oh, and thanks for the PM -----signature----- Everybody has a photographic memory. Some don't have film.
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Valairy_Scot Registered: Sep '05	Date Posted: 3/1/07 8:01am Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Drama. Obi-Ani., Siriwan. Ch6posted 022807 Bad times are a'coming - Date Edited: 3/1/07 8:04pm (2 edits total) Edited By: Valairy_Scot
	Just a few general comments before any specific ones: Now that I’ve scared you, Obi-Wan and Alpha live. So will Ventress – I’m not venturing that far away from the comic. A few other characters from the comic will have their minor parts to play, and all the referenced torture comes from the comic, just so you know. All of them, though they’re only a sentence or two there and a chapter or two in my story. I’m changing the timeline, deepening the characterization and making it at least partially a Siriwan. That last being said, I haven’t decided how to end it with Siri and Obi-Wan, but IMHO, I think the Jedi prohibition on attachments has been largely misunderstood by most of the Jedi, and deeply internalized by Obi-Wan. This is the not the place to philosophize, but if you look around various SW boards, you will find discussions on attachments (love with possession – i.e. Anakin) vs unconditional love (ability to want what is best for the other, even to letting them go, etc.). I am contemplating having Yoda realize this and say so to Siri and Obi-Wan. This would create an internal struggle within them against what they think they have known to be part of the Code vs. what they only thought was part of the Code. I welcome PMs and speculation on the boards on this subject, as well as some other things you might speculate on in further chapters. In fact, I know some readers will be against them “getting together” and some will want them to be – and of that group, some will want “implied” vs “more explicit without going graphic;” I don’t know if there is a strong preference for one vs the other and the story hasn’t decided that yet. Feedback may influence me. Gkilkenny: Alpha tensed as a gurgled scream broke the air. Ventress stepped back with a triumphant smile and a knife held aloft, dripping. Oh she's stabbed him. – Did I say that? I'm minimizing graphic depictions. The Jedi’s body hit the ground with a sickening thud. Ventress your dead meat if I catch you!! – Oh, oh, she’s turning to the darkside. Find forgiveness…Obi-Wan will struggle (well, maybe a reference or two, nothing major) with rage vs. forgiveness what he finds out what drives Ventress, but he’ll forgive her and (in the comics, not my story) try to “save” her. Dianethx: Great job. I can see that it's not an AU so I believe he will survive. But at what cost? – Of course he’ll survive and be fine, but NOT at first. I am trying to set the stage for “the cost” part of the story which is one of the 2 major points I wanted to show in this story, so I’m afraid I have several chapters of “torture” ahead so you’ll understand the later chapters and not think it out of character. It’s all too easy to have our “superheroes” bounce back without consequences. Our Obi-Wan will be back, but he’s not going into one meditation and come out of it the same as before his experiences. VaderLVR64: Oh, yeah, the torture is just getting started, and then I will have to work Siri back in. But I’m still trying to avoid graphic details, and believe it or not, there will be pathos and humor to be found in this story, too. Veloz: Ventress seems totally evil. So did Vader when we first saw him in ANH. I firmly believe most “evil” people didn’t start so warped – bad choices, bad experiences and poor judgment slid them from “human” to “evil.” Earlybird-Obi-Wan: The knife – you’ll see within a chapter or two. You’ll be surprised at what she did – it’s good, though the purpose is ultimately bad. Ascal_Elessar: I couldn’t resist the cliffhanger. I almost junked this chapter, but it set up another chapter that I should probably junk too, but I like the banter in that one and the cliffie in this one. Luna: hope that Anakin is able to come to Obi-Wan's rescue soon. He obviously needs it... Loved it as always, especially your deft and artful treatment of torture. – Obi-Wan will save himself this time, though I suppose Anakin will find a way to claim it. Thanks for your kind words on the torture – I don’t want this to be an Obi-torture story, but torture has been established as part of the Jabiim arc so it is important to the storyline and does drive some of the characters to later actions and reactions. Because of that, there will be a number of chapters devoted to the atmosphere, Obi and Alpha’s reactions, and discreet torture. Alley_Skywalker: Plenty more. Thanks for reading. JediMasterJessica: That last line just made me shudder. – Good, it was supposed to. Noelie: What sort of a person takes joy in doing such things? She calls the Jedi soft, I call her soulless. Enjoyment of pain is horrible Good Charactrization on your part, but icky icky on hers! - Someone who was terribly hurt when young and lashed out, found something good, saw it destroyed in front of her eyes and swore revenge. That’s it, in a nutshell. barriss31: It truly makes me feel for two individuals that loved each other for years, would make an awesome couple, yet have been kept apart by "life" and the most ridiculous of all the edicts of the Code. Blast the Code into perdition. Make it one with the Force instead of Obi-wan. – I address this in my intro remarks, but in short, does the Code forbid love, or do the Jedi interpret “no attachments” to mean “don’t love?” Their duty is to others, the galaxy, not personal needs, so I can see how the centuries might twist the meaning of the actual words. In fact, if you are reading Lincoln_6_Echo’s story: Never Too Old to Love, Yoda has a very telling scene with Obi-Wan that verbalizes my take on it. Yoda speaks of this much later on, though he has already commented, “Parting you was wise at the time; keeping you apart perhaps not. To duty both of you devoted.” Later on, he also said, “For each other both of you cared deeply. Wrong that was not.” I, the author/narrator also wrote: That was the danger of attachment, born of friendship, affection or love. Letting grief, loss, or fear of such, affect one’s behavior. Anakin Skywalker had always felt deeply, but rather than letting his feelings guide him, he often let them dictate his actions. The ability to move beyond this was what Jedi sought; it was a requirement that one achieve this before knighthood I hope Ventress has an end as wonderful as the one she has planned for him. She doesn’t get the end Kenobi hopes for her, at least in my story. Aabbccdd: feel like this sets things up for the next chapters so i can't wait to see what happens next! – Yes, I’ve set the scene for the Obi-Wan/Alpha arc which will dominate the middle section of the story. Fifilla: You and Dianethx both noticed the Alpha POV…it’s less a conscious decision than the way the story tells itself, but in hindsight, I wrote it that way because – most of that scene was really from his POV. Besides, would it have been so dramatic if I’d had: “Obi-Wan wondered why he was dragged to his feet, not having registered the conversation. Ventress walked behind him; he had an uneasy feeling about it and a gurgled scream escaped him when he felt a blade driven into… he never heard the thud when he hit the ground”? General_Kenobi_66: I have a feeling that the worst is still on it's way; our poor Obi will probably have to endure far more Sigh..yes, I'm afraid so. -----signature----- http://boards.theforce.net/fan_fiction_resource/b10304/25405090/p3/?52 Prolific Author thread: list & links there. Muse fueled by coffee. Often AWOL despite frequent sipping. Writes on inspiration, not a schedule. 2007-2008 the quality years
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obsessedwithSW Registered: May '05	Date Posted: 3/1/07 9:42am Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Drama. Obi-Ani., Siriwan. Ch6posted 022807 Bad times are a'coming
	With a wicked grin of anticipation on her face, Ventress moved behind the Jedi and threw a look at Aidus that brought an answering grin in return. “I shall enjoy this. Take this as a token of my regard, Obi-Wan.” Alpha tensed as a gurgled scream broke the air. Ventress stepped back with a triumphant smile and a knife held aloft, dripping. The Jedi’s body hit the ground with a sickening thud. She is evil! Nice Ventrss btw! -----signature----- Yes Darth Maul -bring sexy back! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JW8kOYvwVng Avid SiriWaner ! Stories in Bio
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barriss31 Registered: Apr '05	Date Posted: 3/1/07 8:18pm Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Drama. Obi-Ani., Siriwan. Ch6posted 022807 Bad times are a'coming
	I agree there is a big misconception or at least misinterpretation in the Code as to whether a Jedi can love. In the scene between Anakin and Padme in AOTC on the way to Naboo he specifically tells her that attachment is forbidden as a Jedi must have compassion for all life, so in his perception they are encouraged to love. He sees compassion for all as loving all lfe in the galaxy. I may be horribly misquoting, but the overall message seems to encourage putting others before self. Now we come to the crux of the matter. Anakin's love became obsessive because he let his own fears overule him. Unconditional love is said to be liberating and uplifting as it puts the good and well being of another before the desires of the self. To me this implies compassion for another over oneself. As the Jedi must go beyond the self and release all of their emotions into the Force both before knighting and as part of the everyday (it is the very essence of the Jedi), then love without conditions would be the pure and compassionate love they are expected to extend. The profession of that love to another individual does not limit the capacity to feel compassion or empathy for all life;it is merely an extension of the compassion because by touching one life they in turn touch all the other ones that will come after. Okay, that sums up my philosophy as convoluted as it may be. Would you please put me on the pm list for this story?
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Valairy_Scot Registered: Sep '05	Date Posted: 3/6/07 12:38am Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Drama. Obi-Ani., Siriwan. Ch6posted 022807 Bad times are a'coming - Date Edited: 3/6/07 12:46am (1 edits total) Edited By: Valairy_Scot
	obsessedwithSW: Ventress is no one I'd like to meet in a dark alley. barriss31: ...a Jedi must have compassion for all life, so in his perception they are encouraged to love. He sees compassion for all as loving all lfe in the galaxy. I may be horribly misquoting, but the overall message seems to encourage putting others before self. Now we come to the crux of the matter. Anakin's love became obsessive because he let his own fears overule him. Unconditional love is said to be liberating and uplifting as it puts the good and well being of another before the desires of the self. To me this implies compassion for another over oneself. As the Jedi must go beyond the self and release all of their emotions into the Force both before knighting and as part of the everyday (it is the very essence of the Jedi), then love without conditions would be the pure and compassionate love they are expected to extend. The profession of that love to another individual does not limit the capacity to feel compassion or empathy for all life... I could not have said it better myself. Yes, yes, and yes. So if Obi-Wan and Siri "get together" as now seems probable in this story, it is because they come to recognize that their love does met the test they themselves would demand - it can not be selfish, exclusive, or obsessive or interfere with their duty. They would rather walk away from each other a second time than compromise their duty to others, as Jedi. I'm still ironing out some details, so I cut (postponed) the last 3 pages of this chapter to post the first part. It has some of the necessary "expository" elements for this not familiar with the battle of Jabiim. I may get the 2nd part of this chapter posted this week. The muse isn't cooperating the last few days. Current PM list (?) VaderLVR64 Dianethx Luna_Nightshade earlybird-obi-wan Jaded_Rose obsessedwithSW Cael-Fenton Gkilkenny JediMasterJessica Ascal_Elessar Noelie Alley_Skywalker Darth_Draconus aabbccdd Alley_Skywalker Veloz General_Kenobi_66 Barriss31 Chapter 7. Absence Makes the Heart Grow Fonder “Pack your master’s things, Padawan, ready to ship back to the Temple.” With those words, Anakin knew the Jedi would never believe that Obi-Wan was alive. The words had not been said unkindly, but the Jedi had made up their minds. They had condemned one of their best and brightest to certain death and suffering, and in so doing, condemned the padawan also. Damn them all! His master deserved better of his fellow Jedi. He deserved better of his padawan. He deserved to be searched for, found, and rescued, yet he was only a statistic. Missing in action! Anakin supposed it was a concession to him, perhaps the Council had not decided to declare Obi-Wan Kenobi dead for some political reason – if that were so, the knowledge of that alone would kill his master, considering Obi-Wan’s fondness for politics and politicians. Apparently several days of medical observation had convinced everyone that Anakin was deluded but not delusional; he was to be allowed to return to duty. The cynical side of him figured that they needed Anakin Skywalker: the tide of battle had been turning in the last several days minus Kenobi-Skywalker, the famed Jedi duo. Obi-Wan would call it pride and reprimand him for the thought; Anakin knew it was the simple truth. His master’s refusal to stand up for himself and his padawan, his acceptance of the dictates of the Council, and his deference to others he considered possibly his betters, certainly his equals, only impeded what might have a speedier resolution to the war. Inwardly fuming, thankful to be away from prying eyes, Anakin returned to his tent, the one he shared with Obi-Wan, faced with the knowledge that this night no light would burn at the far end of the tent as his master wrestled with adapting to the circumstances he faced. He would not feel the Force being drawn around the man as he sought release from the day’s stresses by submerging himself into its comfort for a few moments of intense meditation. He would not feel the soft peace that Obi-Wan would then find in sleep, granted a few precious hours without pressures or dreams to disturb his richly deserved rest. Dreams and nightmares were for the padawan: of nights with Padme, dreams that brought him awake with scowls when there was no one in his arms or bed; nightmares, that found him awakening with his master’s touch to his forehead and a sense of trembling relief that the dreams were vanished with the gray light of day. His nights were certain now to be haunted by nightmares; long nights of loss and grief, trapped in a cage not of his making but one from which he was powerless to escape. Tonight, especially tonight, his first back, was going to be a long night, a long night of trembling silence when usually there was the sound of light, even breathing, a night when the sound of his own heartbeat would be too loud to allow sleep. Anakin could barely remember the last night he had slept alone, with no one breathing near or beside him…when at the Temple, he snuck out almost every night to be with his wife. Padme, dear, sweet, loving Padme of soft lips and welcoming arms, his dear, darling angel - and Anakin suddenly knew how to banish the silence of Obi-Wan’s absence. Without his master nearby, he was free to dream of Padme, of nights spent in her arms, indulge in dreams without restraint and tight shields, able to give voice to the sound of their passion. For the first time in his life, Anakin understood what his master meant about finding a ray of hope in the darkest of circumstances, joy amidst pain, or of happiness amidst sorrow. He hadn’t understood when Obi-Wan first spoke such a thing, probably only a week or so after they had returned to the Temple. Obi-Wan had still been mourning Qui-Gon and he had still been a bit in awe, a bit scared, and a bit awkward amongst so many strangers. The dutiful padawan would do as commanded; he made his master disappear from all but memory. Anakin packed his master’s few personal possessions – a spare cloak, several changes of clothing, and a small engraved case holding miscellaneous spare parts and a small repair kit. O-W K. Q-G J. The case had been a present from Qui-Gon when his padawan became a senior padawan. The next achievement was knighthood, now closer than ever, even if still years away. Obi-Wan prized it highly: not for its intrinsic value but its symbolic value as a visible sign of his master’s approval and affection at a time it had not been in doubt. It would accompany Anakin back to the Temple; he made sure it would not be left behind by tucking it within his belt. It had taken only moments to remove all signs of Obi-Wan’s presence, and that’s when reality punched Anakin in the gut. Obi-Wan was gone. Not dead. He would argue that Obi-Wan was alive to his dying day. Obi-Wan was missing, and considering no one believed that fact, he was likely to remain missing until he was truly gone, truly dead. Anakin could do nothing, boxed in by hard realities and painful awareness of his choices. In that first week, the Republic had taken three outposts, faced only with those Jabiimi siding with Alto Stratus and his coup deposing the pro-Republic political leadership. They had encountered no battle droids nor seen signs of Confederacy support. Victory had seemed a slow, but certain outcome, for the civil war had been ongoing for some time in a near stalemate. The Republic forces were sure to swing the battle, it seemed. Jabiim was too valuable a Republic planet to lose, its ores too important to the Republic and the Confederacy both. The world had been firmly aligned with the Republic, but the Republic’s apparent failure to care or concern itself with an outbreak of brainrot plague, with invasion by the Trandoshans, or with Lythian pirate activity had inflamed anti-Republic sentiment and ultimately led to the political coup. The Confederacy had promised aid and money to break away from the Republic, in return for access to its ores. It was welcomed by those who felt neglected and outcaste and the Jedi, once considered mere legendary beings rather than actual beings, were considered as heartless and uncaring as the Senate that refused to act – baby snatchers as well, beings who just as much killers as the fighters themselves. Outright civil war and the fear of losing the ore deposits had sent the Republic to Jabiim, where few now welcomed it. Ever since Obi-Wan’s apparent death, the Republic had lost ground, lost outposts, and most importantly, seemed even further away from capturing Alto Stratus. Capture the leader, end the battle, was the thought in everyone’s mind, but Stratus was proving elusive. The thought was no less true for Anakin, but it did not crowd out his anger and desperation. He had rarely been so torn in two. Orders and duty could not keep him from rushing off to find and bring his master back, but what orders and duty could not do, loyalty and need could. Obi-Wan needed him. He was needed on Jabiim. That was just as certain. He was not the senior padawan in what had been dubbed the “Padawan Pack,” padawans orphaned by battle. None of them were children anymore, regardless of age. None had Anakin’s experience in battle, so they all deferred to him as if he was the most senior in rank amongst them. He was also given respect out of respect to his fallen master – Master Kenobi had been well regarded by them all and his padawan was, by extension, granted the same regard. Before turning in for the night, Anakin buried himself in his cloak to stave off the persistent rain and idly wandered around the camp. He had no tears for his master to shed, not at this date, but had he had any, they would have been excused as rain drops. Should he give in to tears, it would be outside where they would be hidden, he resolved. “Anakin, wait, I’ll walk with you.” Anakin was pulled out of his thoughts by the padawan’s call and his head snapped up and around. “If you don’t mind, Aubrie, I would rather be alone.” “That’s what we all said and thought we meant.” There was sympathy, but no pity in her brown eyes. “I’ll be silent if you want, but it’s nice to have someone standing at your side.” “Okay,” Anakin answered. He was reluctant, but perhaps having lost her own master, Aubrie would not shower him with pity. He couldn’t handle that. They made a circuit in silence, the squishing of their boots the only sound other than the sound of the rain pattering against their cloaks, the tents, the standing puddles of water. From out the dimness, a soft voice said softly, “Tears falleth like rain from the Heavens.” When Anakin turned to look, Aubrie was looking up at the sky as rain sheeted over her face. She didn’t seem to notice. “I’m sorry – what did you say?” Anakin wasn’t certain what he had heard. Aubrie looked embarrassed. “Just a saying – that seems so true. I couldn’t stop crying when my master was killed. The more I tried to hide my tears inside, the harder they fell, so I would go outside where no one would see. It seemed the Force was crying right along with me, so I, well, didn’t feel quite so alone. Is that why you are out here, feeling the Force’s tears?” “Uh, no.” Anakin suddenly felt a lump in his throat. He wasn’t the first padawan to lose – missing-lost, not dead-lost – his master. “No, I don’t cry for my master. He’s not dead – not to me. I miss him more than I ever thought I would, though. I guess one kind of gets used to having one master’s always around, and when he’s gone – you suddenly notice that something you’ve always taken for granted is gone. I didn’t expect to feel this – hollow spot inside.” “Yeah. Mind if I ask you something?” Aubrie waited for Anakin’s nod and she drew her cloak tighter around her. “They say that your master and his made one of the strongest master-padawan teams seen in years, that they could actually talk to each other through the bond, and that you two could do the same. Could you?” “Yes, not right at first, though. It sure makes you work on your shields – I got a mental swat through the bond more than once when I – ah – let’s just say Master Obi-Wan wasn’t pleased with what I was thinking and also saying over the bond about the Council or some such. It was more of a curse than a blessing in the early days. Why, couldn’t you and your master?” “No, not conversations and things – mainly impressions, emotions, that kind of stuff. They say that the ability to actual converse is very rare and is a sign of a really strong bond that isn’t often seen. That’s why severing such a bond is so painful.” “I suppose.” Since his bond with Obi-Wan was merely dormant, not severed, Anakin shrugged off the comment. “They asked me to pack up his things earlier. It’s funny how little a Jedi has to leave behind when he’s gone.” “I know. Do you have a holocron of your master to return to the Temple?” Anakin was startled from his thoughts and he frowned. Obi-Wan had laughed at the idea. He remembered the amusement in his master’s voice as he had said, “I have no particular wisdom to leave for those who follow us. What I leave behind me as my legacy to future Jedi is you, my padawan, the Chosen One. If I am remembered at all, it will be for having been the one to train the best amongst us – assuming we both survive each other until the day you come into your own.” The words, as well as the warmth behind them, had stunned Anakin into stammering praises of his master’s wisdom. In typical Obi-Wan fashion, the Jedi had brushed them off. “What wisdom you hear from me is wisdom I learned from Yoda and my own master; I take no credit for they have taught me all that I know and it is their teachings I pass on to you.” It was not so simple as that: Obi-Wan had learned well but he had not become recognized as a great Jedi for his ability to repeat words he had been taught. Anakin recognized that, even when he disagreed with his master. Obi-Wan was far from being right all the time, in his padawan’s opinion, but he could always make a case for his opinion that Anakin could not always rebut with words, and he was right far more often than many other Jedi in Anakin’s limited experience. In fact, Anakin had adopted the conclusion that Obi-Wan was always right, except when they themselves disagreed. “Yes, you are little more than a droid spouting platitudes and Jedi wisdom learned at its master’s knees,” he teased, pleased with the answering sparkle in his master’s eyes, and quickly ducked away so that the descending hand could not tweak his padawan braid. How he hated that tug and how he now missed it. He missed the hand dropped onto his shoulder with the little squeeze that always followed. He missed the tight grin when they were about to spring a trap, or the queasy look in Obi-Wan’s eyes when Anakin was piloting. All he said to Aubrie in return was a simple no. All that Obi-Wan had left behind for the moment was memories and lessons. “We all mourn him, Anakin.” “Of course.” He said it automatically and Aubrie gave him a sharp look. “Anakin, we all miss our masters very much. Every single one of us knows how you feel. But we all mourn Obi-Wan, too. He taught us all at one time or another, in class, on the field. Your grief is far greater than ours; we know that, but know that you are not alone in grieving for your master as we are with the loss of our own. We grieve together.” “I do not mourn him as you do, Aubrie. You don’t mourn what is not dead. My master is alive, Aubrie, alive. What I mourn is being stuck here, unable to save him. Why can’t I save him?” “Let him go, Anakin. Let him be at peace in the Force,” Aubrie entreated. “He’ll be at peace in the Force only if I let him die. I won’t let that happen. I also know he won’t know any peace until he is rescued. He is suffering, Aubrie, because if he’s alive, he’s in pain and suffering and I – I only know he’s alive, but not where he is. It’s tearing me apart. You wouldn’t understand – your master is dead. Mine will be if I don’t get to him.” He wheeled and stalked off, not seeing Aubrie’s stricken face, all of his frustration and pent-up anger spilling forth in a burst of words. He had to go where the merest trace of his master lingered, the closest to consolation he would find on Jabiim. “I miss you, Master,” he said, dropping onto his cot. “Please stay alive until I can get to you. I can’t bear to lose someone else I care for. I miss you popping into my mind and hinting that I behave myself or stop being so reckless. I want you at my side when I am finally knighted.” He got to his feet and started pacing, trying to burn off his frustrations. He was alone. Even when Obi-Wan couldn’t take away his pain, or totally ease his discomfort, he was always there at his side, his very presence reassuring the padawan that he was not alone, that his master was there if he wanted to reach out. I’ll always be here for you, you know that. He wanted to reach out, now. Obi-Wan was not there; he had lied. You lied to me, Obi-Wan! When I want you – you aren’t here! Anakin threw a datapad across the tent and flopped on his cot, face buried in his pillow. Tell me where to go, what to do, Master. Help me find you! I don’t want you to die. -----signature----- http://boards.theforce.net/fan_fiction_resource/b10304/25405090/p3/?52 Prolific Author thread: list & links there. Muse fueled by coffee. Often AWOL despite frequent sipping. Writes on inspiration, not a schedule. 2007-2008 the quality years
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Gkilkenny Registered: Mar '04	Date Posted: 3/6/07 1:41am Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Drama. Obi-Ani, Siriwan. Ch7 posted 030607 The Tide of Battle is chan
	Ooh I love it. The emotions were just like they say up and down like a roller coaster. Anakins emotions were brilliant one minute he was sad and missing his Master the next angry and demanding to know where his master was. Wanting to believe that he was alive and wanting to go and find him. Then angry at him the next minute. Well done -----signature----- Proud Padawan to p_stotts Peace over anger - honour over hate - Strength over fear. Links to Stories in my Bio. Obi-Wan forever.
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Lincoln_6_Echo Registered: Apr '06	Date Posted: 3/6/07 1:49am Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Drama. Obi-Ani, Siriwan. Ch7 posted 030607 The Tide of Battle is chan
	Very interesting story. I like to see the Jabiim episode being explored and developed, especially now I know you are going to stick with the comics storyline and that Obi-Wan will survive. As for your questions about the topic of love, you know from a fic I recently wrote and you read, my ideas about the whole matter. I believe that Obi-Wan and Siri could be able to love each other without letting it blind them. In a way they do so in EU too. In "Secrets of the Jedi" it is clear they never stopped loving each other and given the control they both have as mature Jedi, I think it would be good for them to "consume" that love, especially if they had Yoda's blessing. I am look forward to read more of this! -----signature----- All my completed fics are listed in my profile
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Noelie Registered: Jul '05	Date Posted: 3/6/07 6:00am Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Drama. Obi-Ani, Siriwan. Ch7 posted 030607 The Tide of Battle is chan
	Poor Anakin. Interesting the way things have been left. Still it leaves for confusion, although I guess that emotion can't get much worse for Anakin. Lovely in such a sad way Valairy! -----signature----- The relationship that has been created in this unique universe is so memorable, and so beautiful. It makes the heart ache. As far as I'm concerned, it's canon.~Ratna on the Noelaverse Proud member of the UPR
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