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Veloz Registered: Aug '04	Date Posted: 7/1 6:28am Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Siriwan, Ani. 0701 That troublesome Council! Thanks for noms!
	Wonderful update Oh man, the Council is just pissing me off why cant they just let him heal and work on this in his own time? now they have to push and lord knows how this will go I think the Council should put a bit more trust in Obi-Wan I do wonder what happened over at Ranull with Qui-Gon and Obi sounds like a wild story Cant wait for the next chapter, i'm on the edge of my seat here! -----signature----- "Hello there!" "Remember the Force will be with you..always" - Obi Wan Kenobi, ANH "Who's the more foolish...the fool or the fool who follows him?"- Obi Wan Kenobi, ANH
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Raptor517 Registered: Sep '06	Date Posted: 7/1 11:37am Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Siriwan, Ani. 0701 That troublesome Council! Thanks for noms!
	Hm. Interesting update. I sorta hope Cielan's messing around with Obi's mind causes him to unknowingly slam a couple of Council members around with the Force. Raptor517 -----signature----- Piercing the Darkness http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/28010631/p1/?1 His Brother's Words http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/26020497/p1/?3 Metamorphosis http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/24997946/p5/?7 Hunter's Vendetta http://
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dianethx Registered: Mar '02	Date Posted: 7/1 4:32pm Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Siriwan, Ani. 0701 That troublesome Council! Thanks for noms!
	I don't blame the Council at all. After all, they have to think for the good of all, not just their own members. It is best that it be out in the open rather than have the questions fester below the surface. I just feel really badly for Obi-Wan. It will likely make him much more fragile - for a while. I can certainly see why he would want Anakin away from him but Anakin will NOT understand, especially if it isn't explained to him very clearly and carefully. “I don’t think so.” Cielan pursed her lips, but honesty compelled her answer. “His records indicate great personal strength – and if we get the Force functioning within him again – no, I don’t think any lasting harm will be done – except possibly to his ability to trust us – you, the Council – fully. In the short term – I foresee the possibility of harm. I don’t like it, not in the slightest, but as I said, I’ll compromise. We must obtain Obi-Wan’s permission – and I shall be the one to broach the subject.” A sad smile graced Adi’s face. “He will give it. He will consider it his duty.” “Yes, he will and I’m afraid that means he’s not given a real choice.” Adi shut her eyes as if she hated to ask her last question. Leaning forward she fixed the healer with a solemn gaze. “Do we tell him that failure to consent may mean his dismissal from the Council or will that knowledge alone affect any possibility of a full recovery?” Meeting Adi’s eyes with her own, Cielan said, “It depends on what doubts he harbors already. He may be relieved to have this out in the open and it may create doubt where none exists. As yet we have not been able to touch the mental aftereffects to any degree and his nightmares shed little light as he seems unable to recall them upon waking. If the Council insists on this, and he agrees, we will find out. The Force is giving me no guidance on this.” “May the Force forgive us for what we are about to ask of a good man,” Adi said heavily, standing up. A look of pure sadness crossed her features as she added softly, “Whether or not it does, Obi-Wan certainly will. He has a stunning capacity to forgive that exceeds even his compassion. He will forgive us; it’s not in his character to do otherwise.” A great description of Obi-Wan. Wonderfully done. I really liked this post a lot! -----signature----- Betrayal - http://boards.theforce.net/s/b1/10935143 updated 9/22/08 Fragments of Illusion- http://boards.theforce.net/bts/b10475/28456473 updated 8/16/08 Freeze frame - http://boards.theforce.net/s/b10476/27820434 Master to jedidas3 Impeach Bush!
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Lolly_Tolly Registered: Apr '08	Date Posted: 7/1 8:13pm Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Siriwan, Ani. 0701 That troublesome Council! Thanks for noms!
	No Obi! Don't give in! Make them suffer! A wonderful update. Thanks for the PM! -----signature----- Proud to be Padawan of ZaraValinor! Siriwan shipper! Rise and Fall - (Good character bad) ROTS AU http://boards.theforce.net/Message.aspx?topic=28470791&brd=10476&start=28584936 Remember Stressed backwards, is DESSERTS!
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smoke20ts Registered: Jun '05	Date Posted: 7/2 4:32am Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Siriwan, Ani. 0701 That troublesome Council! Thanks for noms!
	“I don’t think so.” Cielan pursed her lips, but honesty compelled her answer. “His records indicate great personal strength – and if we get the Force functioning within him again – no, I don’t think any lasting harm will be done – except possibly to his ability to trust us – you, the Council – fully. In the short term – I foresee the possibility of harm. I don’t like it, not in the slightest, but as I said, I’ll compromise. We must obtain Obi-Wan’s permission – and I shall be the one to broach the subject.” A sad smile graced Adi’s face. “He will give it. He will consider it his duty.” “Yes, he will and I’m afraid that means he’s not given a real choice.” I can understand that the Council needs to know just how deeply Obi-Wan was affected by the horrors that he had to endure. They cannot take the risk that if he has been changed by the darkness that he could bring harm to his fellow Jedi. However, their methods might not be the best. They are essentially backing him into a corner -- and like backing a wounded animal into a corner the results could certainly be ugly. “It’s just water, Obi-Wan.” How many times as younglings had they played these pranks on each other, delighting in their growing control of the Force as they learned to direct even water droplets down each other’s backs? “No, it’s not. It was a memory, okay.” “Oh, Obi, I’m sorry – I didn’t know. Tell me.” For a minute she thought he might. He opened his mouth as if to speak, then closed it and rubbed a hand across his face. “I overreacted – I’m sorry, Siri. It’s in the past where it belongs. No.” Before long, they were in another argument about how he just couldn’t expect to live in the present – not until he dealt with the past. If Qui-Gon were still alive, Siri would have liked to wring his neck. “Live in the moment,” had become so deeply trained into Obi-Wan that he held onto the very thing that was preventing him from actually becoming able to live in the present. This shows part of the reason why the Council needs to push Obi-Wan. If something as simple as a few drops of water can set him off, how will he react to being back in battle. If a memory affects him at a dangerous time, it could well get him or his fellow Jedi hurt or killed. I also have to agree with Siri about wringing Qui-Gon's neck. There is nothing wrong with living in the present. However, Obi-Wan can never truly live in the moment as long as deep inside he is not dealing with the past and letting it go. “If I erect blocks and re-establish your mental shields as I go, you should remember nothing until you are ready to do so. My purpose would be to exam – I suppose you could call it your commitment to the light, your moral center. Everything else you hold within I should be able to avoid until you wish to share those details. When I’m done, my sole duty would be to report to the Council my findings, not the details, and to you, as well, should you wish it.” “Report if I’m tainted,” he said bitterly, running his hands through his hair. “If the Sith have reached your inner core – or failed to do so. Obi-Wan, you are affected by what was done to you. Affected does not mean tainted, and tainted does not mean we can’t work to reverse anything planted in your mind. It means ascertaining what work we have to do – together. It will take time, but you will recover.” She placed a gentle hand on his shoulder, feeling the tenseness of his body underneath – the struggle to overcome his aversion to the very idea. “If there’s something – twisted – within me,” he paused, shuddering at something he’d already started to bury so deep he had almost forgotten, “I want it untwisted. You’re right – it’s not what that mask made me, but what I can make myself again. You have my consent. I ask only one thing – that if you find anything, any reason – you protect my padawan. Keep him away from me if there’s anything within me that may harm him.” I am really beginning to like Cielan. I could feel her compassion and caring in trying to reassure Obi-Wan that nothing that may have been done to him could not be undone -- it might take a lot of time and hard work, but that it is possible to recover from this. Well done! PS -- Taz (the cat) is back to his normal self now.
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earlybird-obi-wan Registered: Aug '06	Date Posted: 7/2 5:57am Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Siriwan, Ani. 0701 That troublesome Council! Thanks for noms!
	the horrors of war and the council wanting their member back. poor Obi-Wan and I hope he will have Siri and the healers to help him. The tension is building. Whew. -----signature----- writer and Star Wars fan FANART [link=http://boards.theforce.net/fan_art/b10020/25793899]fanart[/link] stories in my bio
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VaderLVR64 Title: Fan Fic Manager in Combat Boots Registered: Feb '04	Date Posted: 7/2 6:11am Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Siriwan, Ani. 0701 That troublesome Council! Thanks for noms!
	That was heartbreaking! “The healers and those who know him best are fully convinced that Obi-Wan’s integrity is not compromised, only his health.” Using his first name was deliberate on Adi’s part; a pointed reminder that they knew this man as friend and colleague. When she finished speaking, there was silence in the Council chamber. “He has not been compromised by his ordeal – the healers can swear to that?” Without looking, Adi knew Yoda’s eyes were cast to the floor; he was leaving it to her to speak what they had wished not to speak, to damn a good man by the truth – their lack of utter and complete certainty. “There is something Obi-Wan has not been able to speak of; it is locked within him. The nature of this – is yet unknown.” “He could be – tainted, then, and unfit to sit on this Council.” The unthinkable – had now been voiced. This would KILL Obi-Wan. I know it would. -----signature----- If you have to choose between tears and laughter, remember that laughter burns more calories. Proud New Army Mom - off to bootcamp!
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tallie_tachi Registered: Jan '08	Date Posted: 7/2 8:49am Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Siriwan, Ani. 0701 That troublesome Council! Thanks for noms!
	PHEW! I am tired...just did a marathon read to catch up. So very awesome! I'm loving the relationship issues he has with Anakin...how desperate he wants to keep him safe. Again gives more powerful emotion to the end of ROTS. Sometimes I feel Siri is a little harsh...maybe uses that as a defense mechanism for her own pain. ?? Just a thought. Maybe I just have a harder time picturing her reactions and emotions and such because we haven't seen her character portrayed on screen. It's just so much easier to see the Council, Anakin, and Obi. What I wouldn't give to see this story acted out in a movie?! So much emotion, drama, mystery...ugh ok Hollywood time to hire this girl for a screenplay! Awesome awesome continuation to this story! PS - a favor...I'm going on vacation in September and I am in need some excellent reading material. Any idea how I could print this story all together without comments and such? I'd like to read it all over from the beginning again.
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Ascal_Elessar Registered: Feb '04	Date Posted: 7/2 12:26pm Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Siriwan, Ani. 0701 That troublesome Council! Thanks for noms! - Date Edited: 7/2 12:28pm (1 edits total) Edited By: Ascal_Elessar
	Great post. I hate what the Council are doing but I can understand why they're doing it. Congrats on the nomination, well deserved. -----signature----- "HELLO THERE!" Member of the Obi-Wan Kenobi Fan Club "He's like fire and ice and rage. He's like the night and the storm and the heart of the sun. He's ancient and forever, he burns at the centre of time and he can see the turn of the universe."
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ObiWans_Gurl86 Registered: Nov '06	Date Posted: 7/3 9:25pm Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Siriwan, Ani. 0701 That troublesome Council! Thanks for noms!
	omg its getting soo tense. I hope Obiwan's mind isn't uh tainted and I hope he doesn't have Sith stuff in his memories he is too good for that. Great Job I can't wait for more. -----signature----- ObiWans_Gurl86 Obi Wan is the best Jedi Ever!!!! "The meaning of life is change."-Obi Wan Kenobi "Do or do not there is no try."-Yoda "Patience exists to be tested."- Count Dooku
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Valairy_Scot Title: PT Rewrite Winner Registered: Sep '05	Date Posted: 7/4 12:06am Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Drama, h/c. Siriwan, Ani. 0704 The Demons Came Out to Play. Thanks for no - Date Edited: 7/6 12:16am (1 edits total) Edited By: Valairy_Scot
	Gkilkenny: Even though I dislike what the council is asking they are probably right. If he cannot function as a Jedi he cannot be on the Council. Um, it’s not functioning as a Jedi, it’s being tainted by the dark – a real possibility. BTW, thanks for pointing out the “those issues.” I stand corrected. JediMasterJessica: Sadly, the council is pretty much right on this. You can't have Obi-Wan go AWOL 1/2 way through a mission now. I doubt they’re worried about him going AWOL – just deserting to the other side. Charie: The tension will be up and down for the next few chapters. I’m hoping as “dramatic” as this chapter is, it doesn’t eclipse the real emotional climax a bit later. Jedidas3: Bravo, my friend. I am sitting on the edge for the next post. Such emotional intensity in this post....It is clear to me that Obi not only wants to convince the Council that he's not tainted, but himself as well. You know what’s coming – right? ( ) Veloz: Would you want a potential turncoat sitting in on your war discussions? I think not. The problem is they didn’t (other than for the plot} have to push this issue at this time. …do wonder what happened over at Ranull with Qui-Gon and Obi Me, too. Raptor517: Nope…the opposite of “slamming anyone around.” Dianethx: I don't blame the Council at all. After all, they have to think for the good of all, not just their own members. It is best that it be out in the open rather than have the questions fester below the surface. High Five! I just feel really badly for Obi-Wan. It will likely make him much more fragile - for a while. I can certainly see why he would want Anakin away from him but Anakin will NOT understand, especially if it isn't explained to him very clearly and carefully. Don’t worry, won’t happen…and thank the Force someone (Siri) will be there to keep Anakin from exploding. Lolly_Tolly: Not give in – you’d blow this chapter as it’s the ONLY reason for, ‘er, the behavior you’ll see. I needed something to precipitate – what’s coming (and it’s you, the readers fault for wanting ). Smoke20ts: I can understand that the Council needs to know just how deeply Obi-Wan was affected by the horrors that he had to endure. They cannot take the risk that if he has been changed by the darkness that he could bring harm to his fellow Jedi. However, their methods might not be the best. They are essentially backing him into a corner -- and like backing a wounded animal into a corner the results could certainly be ugly. Hey, who gave you a sneak preview of what’s coming?!? Though do remember he was not told his seat on the Council was dependent on his agreement. There is nothing wrong with living in the present. However, Obi-Wan can never truly live in the moment as long as deep inside he is not dealing with the past and letting it go. THAT’S MY THEME! I am really beginning to like Cielan. I could feel her compassion and caring in trying to reassure Obi-Wan that nothing that may have been done to him could not be undone -- it might take a lot of time and hard work, but that it is possible to recover from this. He needs that reassurance, as you will see. Sam gives a “high meow” to Taz! Me, too, give Taz a chin-rub and/or ear-scratch, whatever Taz prefers. Earlybird-obi-wan: the horrors of war and the council wanting their member back. poor Obi-Wan and I hope he will have Siri and the healers to help him. Oh, yeah. VaderLVR64: This would KILL Obi-Wan. I know it would. Umm, you’ll see, but he has a lot of buried doubts and fears inside. He fears confirmation of those fears, yet once he knows the truth, a big weight will be off his shoulders and he’ll be better able to deal with whatever they discover – it just might not be what you the readers expect. Tallie_Tachie: Sometimes I feel Siri is a little harsh...maybe uses that as a defense mechanism for her own pain. ?? Just a thought. Oh, dear – you aren’t going to like a chapter or so down the road – but it’s just what the doctor ordered. Anyone else think Siri is too harsh? Any suggestions on how I should write her? I’m afraid certain aspects of these characters are parts of my own personality I use to flesh out these characters.... Ascal_Elessar: I hate what the Council are doing but I can understand why they're doing it. That’s the response I want – the “error” is the timing, not the request, and by waiting, perhaps they would not have to make that request. Thanks so very much. ObiWans_Gurl86 omg its getting soo tense. I hope Obiwan's mind isn't uh tainted and I hope he doesn't have Sith stuff in his memories he is too good for that. Well, something’s in his mind, as we’re discovering. Chapter 55. At the Edge of Insanity Obi-Wan’s eyes fluttered open. It was dark, so very dark – the darkness surrounded him, whispered to him. He was back there! He put a hand to his brow and winced. A million things were clamoring at each other thing within his skull. Hate – anger – oh, the faces – blood and pain. Whispers – evil whispers – no, no, no! He had to get away – before they came – before he fell. Must get- get away! He tried to get to his feet and crashed to his knees instead, only his hands keeping him from falling flat on his face. Somehow he made it upright, to stand wavering on his feet, dizzy and disoriented. His head, oh, his head. His eyes could barely focus. The will of a Jedi somehow propelled him forward – away – away from the dark. He stumbled forward, gradually straightening into a wobbling walk as he progressed. Blind instinct led him through deserted hallways to his quarters. The dim light of the Temple at rest barely registered, only the voices of the ghosts seeking admittance to his mind had that power. Voices: so tiny sounds itching at his ears. The silence, what little there was, whispered to him. The whispers grew swollen with dissipated pain, shrieks torn from those who had nothing else left. Screams of the dead …it was all there: the sounds, the smells, the hopelessness. Clinging to the molecules of the air, stale and heavy, Obi-Wan could sense the despair and pain of the tormented. The dead did not want him to escape; the chains of their despair followed his wavering footsteps – you are damned just as we are – damned – damned – damned. No, he moaned, but the voices would not be silenced. Obi-Wan. He heard his name, a whisper across the wind. They called to him, they wanted him. Obi-Wan, listen, listen, please. He hung his head in his hands and moaned, nearly falling to his knees. He was hallucinating his master’s voice, for he knew the tone should be sharp with disapproval, not soft with worry. No, it’s not Qui-Gon. So you do hear me! I hear my mind grasping for the impossible- I can’t deal with this master, I can’t live in the moment, I can’t get beyond this. I can’t find sanity… I’m sorry. You can my padawan. Do as you did before, to defeat the dark – face it! Allow yourself to face it all. Allow yourself time to heal rather than blame yourself for your illness. I’m not ill! Merely crazy, for a sane man would not converse with the dead. Get out of my head, false master of mine – I try, Force I try, but I cannot live in the moment – I can’t, I’m so sorry, but I just can’t. Oh, padawan mine…I know. Listen for once to your own mind, to others, not words from your past. Don’t cling to what you know for what you think is saving you is only hurting you. Go back – there - and face it, so you can free yourself of it. Find the truth and it shall set you free. No…just shut up. Jedi – I’m Jedi. Won’t be – won’t be – if go back there. His knees nearly buckled and he leaned against a wall, hands splayed out to brace himself. Somewhere along the way, perhaps when he pushed himself away from the wall, he looked at his hands – and the saner part of him startled to a confused realization: they were clean. He had been sure that red spilled between his fingers, drip – drip – drip. He’d always thought the hands of those who killed were stained with their victims’ blood, but proof he was wrong was before him. Had someone passed by him, someone who hesitated and stood looking after him? If so, it was someone who had gotten no further than that hesitation. That body now lay behind him – all that was left was another voice, another whisper in his mind. Yet his hands, still, were clean. Funny how it didn’t take shedding of blood to kill someone. There were so many ways to inflict death, some messy and some - apparently not. Death by lightsaber was familiar, quick, virtually blood free. It had been the only way he killed those he had killed. He had killed all too many, seen their eyes from mere feet away as his blue beam found its target via swipe, jab or thrust. It was an elegant way to kill someone. It was a quick death, if the blow was intended to be fatal. For suffering, other means were more desirable. Other means allowed the killer to see cords tightening in necks, lips curled to stave off pain, the clench of hands as the body sought… No, no. Force help me, no! He moaned and pressed his head to the wall. The demons were there, trying to get out, pounding for release. The demons he’d spawned himself; the offspring of nightmares. Because of them, he’d turn and catch another Jedi’s eyes, and he would watch the life drain out of them as he squeezed, until the body dropped at his feet. At the thud he would blink and realize that there was no body at his feet and no blood on his hands. Not yet. They were clean; still oh-so-clean. And he would remain rooted in place until the trembling stopped, and then he would move on and try to forget that he had just killed another person for no reason at all – other than the sheer shiver of delight that ran down his spine. And the death toll mounted as the bodies piled up in his wake. Make it stop! Take me, not them, he begged the Force. But the Force refused to wrap him in eternal peace. It, too, damned him. His feet could finally carry him no further – and the voices caught up to him. The door closed behind him, shutting him in with them – the screams and the cries of the damned. The weight was too much; his knees buckled – and the Jedi collapsed. Already tense and edgy, Siri was on her feet and running towards Obi-Wan’s quarters at the Force’s sudden and abrupt urging, knowing she needed to be at his side, knowing he needed her – someone - anyone. He needed her; his anguish twisting within her as clearly as if he was calling her name. She found him rocking on the floor of his quarters, with his head slowly moving side to side as he whispered repetitively “no,” over and over, his fingers raking desperately through his hair. “Breathe, please breathe. Don’t want – don’t want to do it – Force stop me!” The broken whispers scared Siri more than any screams or loud protests could do. This – whatever this was – hurt so deep inside that she could not believe this was Obi-Wan Kenobi before her. Jedi master, Jedi Council member, self-contained man who never displayed his emotions so openly before others. Now they were all on display, as it were, with no regard – indeed no notice of – her. He had indeed to be lost within whatever anguish he was living – or reliving. She could feel him desperately reaching out to the Force; his need an unanswered ache in him. He sat back pressed against the wall, knees against his chest as his reality crushed in against him – all the pain, all the horror, all the fear. His inability to touch the Force when he needed its strength. A low moan escaped his lips. Siri kneeled next to him, unsure of the best thing to do, but needing to do something – anything – to comfort. “Hey, it’s me, Siri,” she said, slowly reaching forward. He flinched but didn’t try to escape. Her hand was on his shoulder now – he shuddered. “No, don’t make me – please don’t make me.” Broken words, from an all but broken man. “I don’t want to hurt anyone.” “Look at me, Obi. It’s me, Siri.” She cradled his head within her hands, brushing the dampness of his cheeks with her thumbs. The sheer desolation in his eyes froze her; bleak despair and utter hopelessness. “Obi – should I call a healer? What’s wrong? What hurts?” She summoned as much of the Force as she could to brush against the tortured mind. “Siri?” He choked out her name as if just barely recognizing who was before him. At her nod, he collapsed against her. “Siri…Siri.” He was calling for her, wanting her, when her arms were already around his shoulders – so lost in whatever he was lost in that he was not fully in touch with his reality. “Who do you think would be here, you gundark; who else would be letting you get away with bunching your hands in her tunics?” Not that she minded, of course. She gently patted him on the back as his breath hitched with his attempts to control his emotions, but he was in the grip of something so powerful that she could not entirely reach him. If he was this distraught, something really ate at him from the inside. This was no passing storm, but an emotional tornado of such overwhelming power that it had shredded the control of a man known for such. “Go ‘way, please – go ‘way before I – I don’t want to hurt you, Siri.” Despite his words, he was holding on for dear life, using Siri as a lifeline. If a heart could break, Siri’s would be shattered into a million pieces. Only the Force and her love for this tormented man kept her in one piece, to be Obi-Wan’s anchor. “Whatever this is, release it, Obi, cry.” “I can’t,” Obi-Wan whispered, trying to pull away but Siri wouldn’t let him go. She cradled his face within her hands, then leaned forward so her face rested on his forehead. “Why not?” “I have no tears left within me. She took them – she took them away – too, the screams and the tears until there’s nothing left. Nothing left to hold onto, nothing. No tears, none left, none.” “Then I will give you mine.” Siri no longer tried to hold back her own tears, letting them spill forth. If only tears had the power to heal. “Oh, love, hold on to me. It’s time to let it out, let it all out and hold on to me.” Ever so gently, she wrapped her arms around him and hugged him. At first he was stiff and resisting, then with a soft cry of “Siri,” fingers clutched at her tunic as he buried his face in her shoulders - and all the tears she offered became his to spill forth; crying, finally crying. Silently, letting loose all the tears that had been bottled up inside. She tried to reach the comlink in her belt, but hesitated, not wanting to push Obi-Wan away. She rubbed his back; the rough weave of his tunic at the edge of her awareness, trying to be gentle though she knew the skin underneath was not tender. One of the few places Obi-Wan had been unmarked, Bant had said, the muscles of his arms and back affected by the weeks of hanging in chains, but the skin – that part of him had been otherwise unmarked. Obi-Wan huddled within Siri’s embrace; two Jedi’s tears mingling as if they were one. A thud of boots drew Siri’s attention and a disheveled Anakin skidded to an out-of-breath stop beside them, face intent and worried. He looked so distraught and anxious that any thought of asking just where he had been fled Siri’s mind. “The bond,” he said tersely, running his hand through his hair as he dropped to his knees by his master and laid a hand on his shoulder. “Master, stop crying; stop crying, please.” He sounded desperate and uncertain, and Siri realized he had probably never seen any Jedi, let alone Obi-Wan, ever cry. “Let him cry, Anakin, he needs to cry,” Siri said, though everything within her wanted to stop the flow of tears. Something stronger than herself told her to let him be. Apparently that same something didn’t speak to the apprentice, for Anakin put both hands on either side of Obi-Wan’s face and Siri felt the Force pulse between them as Anakin tried to calm his master. It worked, or at least the crying sputtered to an end as Obi-Wan sagged against the waiting arms, too exhausted to continue. The padawan gently stroked a hand through his master’s hair, his touch both tender and uncertain. Confusion and worry, as well as affectionate caring, radiated through the Force, bringing a faint smile to Siri’s face. The two Jedi exchanged glances; Anakin looking for Siri for direction. She nodded her head to his bedroom. Obi-Wan needed to sleep right now; tears still dimmed his usually bright, now weary eyes. Siri dried Obi-Wan’s face as Anakin lifted his master to his feet; each took an arm and wrapped one of their own around the Jedi and together they walked him to his room. Siri pulled back the blanket as Anakin gently deposited his master onto the bed. Together they removed his outer layers, with Siri discretely turning away as Anakin stripped him down to his underclothing. Obi-Wan clutched at her hand as Siri stood to leave. “Stay with me. Please,” he mumbled. “Safe…with you.” “Stay with him,” Anakin urged, his earlier fears turned to amusement at the sight of his master all but begging that someone keep him company as if he were a crechling who’d woken from a bad dream. “I’ll fix some tea for us.” “Good idea,” Siri said, trying to smile at the young man. “Call the healers, too, will you?” She sat down at Obi-Wan’s side, smoothing his hair back from his eyes with one hand as he tightly held onto the other. “Don’t worry, Obi. I’m not going away. I promise. I’ll be at your side as long as you need me, probably far longer than you’ll want me.” “Forever works,” he mumbled, tightening his grip even more. “See, there is a romantic hidden somewhere inside you, Kenobi,” she whispered, dropping a light kiss on his forehead. “Forever, huh? Sounds nice.” -----signature----- http://boards.theforce.net/fan_fiction_resource/b10304/25405090/p3/?52 Prolific Author thread: list & links there. Muse fueled by coffee. 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earlybird-obi-wan Registered: Aug '06	Date Posted: 7/4 12:25am Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Drama, h/c. Siriwan, Ani. 0704 The Demons Came Out to Play. Thanks for no
	Poor Obi-Wan, not knowing that his master is really helping him. yes Siri help him. Awsome update -----signature----- writer and Star Wars fan FANART [link=http://boards.theforce.net/fan_art/b10020/25793899]fanart[/link] stories in my bio
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Gkilkenny Registered: Mar '04	Date Posted: 7/4 5:33am Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Drama, h/c. Siriwan, Ani. 0704 The Demons Came Out to Play. Thanks for no
	Beautiful and yet haunting. His Master, try as he will to get through is blocked by the very stubborness that was Qui-Gon. implanted into Obi-Wan, through years together. If only he could believe his master is there for him, in his time of need. Ah, but Siri is there, and he is clinging to her. Fantastic post Well done -----signature----- Padawan to p_stotts Peace over anger - honour over hate - Strength over fear. Links to Stories in my Bio. Obi-Wan forever.
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JediMasterJessica Registered: Jul '05	Date Posted: 7/4 5:38am Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Drama, h/c. Siriwan, Ani. 0704 The Demons Came Out to Play. Thanks for no
	Valairy_Scot posted: She sat down at Obi-Wan’s side, smoothing his hair back from his eyes with one hand as he tightly held onto the other. “Don’t worry, Obi. I’m not going away. I promise. I’ll be at your side as long as you need me, probably far longer than you’ll want me.” “Forever works,” he mumbled, tightening his grip even more. “See, there is a romantic hidden somewhere inside you, Kenobi,” she whispered, dropping a light kiss on his forehead. “Forever, huh? Sounds nice.” There isn't a big enough "Squee!" I can post to describe my feelings on that. Great chapter, Obi's really having a tough time. And he's, well I'd say, mentally stronger than lets say Anakin. I love this story so much, It's probably my favorite on going fanfic right now. -----signature----- Proud lover of A/P, Siriwan, L/M, & TK/J Yo mamma is so stupid, she thought Jar Jar came with Pickles Pickles
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charie Registered: Oct '07	Date Posted: 7/4 9:54am Subject: RE: What the Heart Hides. Drama, h/c. Siriwan, Ani. 0704 The Demons Came Out to Play. Thanks for no
	Wow. That was perfect. You amaze me with your words. More soon please.
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