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Toki-chan Registered: Apr '05	Date Posted: 12/31/07 8:19pm Subject: RE: I've Had It (an Anakin Skywalker AU)
	on edge of seat Can't wait!
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darth_treyvah Registered: Dec '05	Date Posted: 12/31/07 11:03pm Subject: RE: I've Had It (an Anakin Skywalker AU) - Date Edited: 1/8 2:18pm (1 edits total) Edited By: darth_treyvah
	Happy 2008 everyone! ******* It was overwhelming. Depa drew on Obi-Wan's Bond with Anakin, and using the presence of the twins and their mother plunged deep into the eerie stillness that was Anakin Skywalker. Only, it wasn't stillness at all. She know understood two things. The first was what it was truly like to be enveloped in Vapaad. Form VII, Mace Windu's addition to Juyo was a philosophy just as much as it was a battle technique. It was forged with Dark, but tempered and powered by Light. Depa felt herself spiraling down. Down, and down, and down into the murk of Anakin's unconscious mind. It took all of her will to keep herself -- her sense of self from scattering. But she recognized the dark around her. She followed the circular posts, the Light guiding her from loop after loop. Before this, even with her spiritual training, Depa Billaba was only very proficient at the Form of Vapaad. But she never knew the spirit nor the darkness involved. Not until ... She concentrated on the Light, letting the Dark thoughts of her fall flow into her, and into it, and out of her, and in her, and out ... She had to remain strong. Here, in this place, she couldn't lie but wasn't her truth that she was seeking. Not her truth that she was attempting to find. That was the second thing she understood. As much as was possible. Depa screamed. Billions of images collided with her psyche. The Chalactan Adept felt thousands upon billions of emotions, thoughts and images. Forms merged together, and compacted. Some ceased to exist entirely. Some grew from nothing. It was like watching the Galaxy -- watching many Galaxies being born, and dying. She had ... she had no idea what to find. Burning, unforgiving golden light blazed into her mind, just as the infinite depths of the abyss threatened to open up under and over her. Whose truth was she in? What truth was she in if not her own? She floated and tried to find the centre. She saw herself reflected back. She saw herself leading missions on many worlds, sitting on the Council, having private spiritual sessions with fellow Councilors and trusted friends, the training sessions with her Master, and Haruun Kal, and Haruun Kal, and droids, and Vestor and pain, and screaming. Stop. Please, the images of slaughter became too much, No war. No conflict. Stop. Stop it. Stop! ~Depa Billaba. Remember. Your focus determines your reality.~ Remember ... That voice. It was so familiar. It reminded her of Obi-Wan, and how he said everything could be seen from a certain point of view. Obi-Wan ... Anakin ... her ... her focus ... Depa embraced the pain and let it go into the Force, driving her forward through pulses of Light and Dark. It was her pain to bear. Her sin. But it made her strong. Because she knew it was a sin. She knew. It was hard, but she knew. And that wasn't important now. But this was. A man. A powerful Jedi. A father. The Chosen One. The searing images parted. And something ... something revealed itself. It was far away. Two small shapes. Flames, and light seemed to batter her, but the Chalactan Adept let them pass through her. The background images began to simplify and condense. It was as though a star system was forming from a nebula. And something shone from the inside of the darkness and the strange lights. It shone from the two shapes. No ... on closer inspection she realized they were not shapes, but forms. A larger one. And a smaller one. There was a pathway, a dark one of shadows. They began to swirl, and change. Depa realized the steps were changing. It was all she could do to follow it. She saw the lines and details of the galaxy around her collect into a shadow-play in which the radiance in the centre was the backdrop. Stick-figures, crude but elemental. It was a Vision. An old vision. A warrior fought dark tendrils and last his hand. He gained a new hand. And saved everyone he loved, fighting the tendrils and breaking them. He went farther and farther. Until his hand, a dark tendril itself began to lash out and ... Then, she realized something was wrong. The vision was not the same. She didn't know the end, the original end, but somehow she knew something was different -- as though she had heard about a famous Holo-Film and as she saw it she knew it wasn't the real one. The ending ... it was different. The warrior went deeper into the Dark and hacked away more tentacles. A light figure of the woman he loved was behind him. But he got farther and farther away until he came to the core of the tendrils, of the Beast itself. It roared and they fought. It penetrated him and his hand grew into a tendril itself, choking him. But then, with the tendril, he slashed into the Beast's main stalk and killed it. The Beast roared and shattered, its pieces shattering into the hero. She knew the hero had been wounded, wounded long before and now the power he used was turning, his new hand was turning and choking him as he lay there. The figure lay there, as far from those he loved as possible, becoming more and more distant with each desperate rasping breath. Something terrified Depa about that breath, something beyond death. And then ... She came to. She was sitting in front of a fire. A boy was scrawling on the sand with a stick in front of the fire. He drew crude stick-drawings. It took her a long time to realize that it was the path she followed to reach this. The centre. The light, the radiance of the centre was the fire. The boy was one of the shapes. And the other ... "You made it. I knew you could make it, Depa." "Qui-Gon Jinn." The elder Jedi smiled down at her, "Be careful, Depa. You shouldn't make this too much of a habit." He helped her to her feet, "Where --" Qui-Gon Jinn began to fade away. "Qui-Gon! No. Where are you --" "That is for you both to discover. See you later, Ani." "See you later, Master Qui-Gon!" the boy next to Depa shouted back. Depa looked back at the boy. He was a small child with a mop of sandy blond hair. Blue eyes glimmered intently at the drawings he etched on the ground. It was Anakin Skywalker, just as she saw him thirteen years ago in the Council Chamber. She had almost forgotten. She had forgotten many things. Anakin stopped drawing. He looked up at the older woman. She smiled at him. She knew that now, more than ever, she would have to be very careful. "You have been drawing these, Anakin?" "Yes, ma'am." She knelt down beside him, "Why did you stop?" "The fire." Depa looked and saw the floor. It crackled merrily, bathing them both in a comfortable warmth. "The pictures," Anakin continued, "I get them from the fire." The Chalactan nodded, "I see." Anakin's brow furrowed, "Drawing them isn't enough. I need to ... I need to ..." Depa's voice became soft and gentle, "What do you need to do, Anakin?" "I need to ... tell someone something. A story." "Oh?" she settled down, cross-legged on the ground. "Yeah," Anakin stirred his stick, "I can draw too. But ... I need to tell someone a story. And I got to do it right," he looked at her, and with a very grave expression on his face, he said to her, "Tusken Storytellers have to tell their story right the way the heard it. Or they're killed." "I didn't know that, Ani. Can I call you that?" He nodded. "Well, Ani. I'll make sure no one will hurt you. You just tell your story." He gave her a quizzical look, "You sure?" "Yes. I'm sure." "Okay." Anakin started scribbling something in the dirt. It was the stick figure of a man. A tall man with an elongated head. There was a hood around him. "Someone told me this story once," Anakin murmured, "there was a man who stayed awake." Anakin made lines around the man, adding a staff in his hand, "This man was awake too long in the Dark." The boy drew masses of tendrils around the man. The sheer number and complexity of them was astounding. "But he used it, used the tentacles. He got so good at it, he even conquered Death." Depa watched as Anakin drew a series of lines from the hooded being, making them jagged like lightning. They came from the figure's spindly hands, and wrapped around something like a net, something he stood on top of. It was a skull. "But one day, the man's nets were unraveling," the lines became even more jagged around the figure's skull mount, "and Death, the skull was going to topple over. And the man would fall a far, far way down. "He didn't want that. He was afraid. Not of the skull. The ... second shadow ..." Anakin drew an indistinct, shorter figure behind the tall one. It too was cowled. "The second shadow was something he made with the tentacles, just like the ones he stole from the Beast," he explained with a very matter of fact tone, "The second shadow was going to kill the dark man. But the fire. He could read the fire too. Like me. He looked into the fire, and saw that the lines -- they could contain fire too." The boy started drawing circular lines from the dark man's hands. "They could kill, but they could contain it." The lines became circular, and smaller like a cage. Or a frame. "It burned the dark man. It burned him." The figure itself began to look jagged, even as the lines in front of it became more compact and ever smaller. "Then the dark man died." The second shadow stood where the skull mount was, with the dark man toppled, "And the dark man fell, too burned to stop him ... too weak to try." Anakin rubbed out the dark figure. "And the cage of black lines, the one around the bit of fire. They forgot it," he drew it over and over again, "they forgot it." Finally, Anakin stopped drawing, "They forgot it ... in the sand." Depa's eyes widened in dawning horror. The form, the gradual lines all came down into a small, tiny form. It was like a pod. A pod or a fetus. A baby. "The End," Anakin added. "... Anakin ... where did you ... where did you hear this story?" "Some man." "Man?" "An old man," Anakin shrugged, "maybe it was my Daddy. I never knew my Dad you know." "No, Anakin. I don't think he was your Daddy." Anakin played around with his stick in the dirt, "Yeah. You're probably right." The boy looked so sad that Depa wanted to hug him. Finally, Anakin got up. "Ma'am, can we go now?" Depa blinked, "Of ... course we can." "Yeah. I'm tired of watching pictures here," he pointed at the fire, "it'll still be here when I get back." "Yes. Yes, it will Anakin." "I want to see my Mom again. I think ... I want to see Padme too." "You will most definitely see Padme." Anakin's subdued features lit up, "Wizard!" He scrambled up and hugged Depa. The Chalactan woman found herself hugging him back, "Sssh," she whispered, "nothing is going to hurt you now, Ani," a small tear trickled down her cheek, "Nothing." Then the lines cobbled together and turned into inky blackness as the light of the sun blazed around them and vanished. * Slowly, it took everyone in the Healers' Ward a long time to fully register what happened. Suddenly, the Force blazed into perfect life around them. Some of the Masters and Healers staggered. Master Yoda actually squinted. A cold flesh hand trembled in Padme's own, over her womb as, slowly, Anakin Skywalker's eyes opened again to the world.
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emerald54 Registered: Apr '07	Date Posted: 12/31/07 11:46pm Subject: RE: I've Had It (an Anakin Skywalker AU)
	Oh! Update! Wait, make that two! I have no idea how I managed to miss the first one, but I did somehow. Anyways, interesting story, and the drawings, it's interesting all together. Hope you update soon! Emerald -----signature----- “Ideas are like rabbits. You get a couple and learn how to handle them, and pretty soon you have a dozen.” - John Steinbeck
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ratna Registered: Mar '07	Date Posted: 1/1 1:33am Subject: RE: I've Had It (an Anakin Skywalker AU)
	very nice symbolism and mythic weaving. happy new year! -----signature----- Ou n'a tu pas tellement aime quelqu'un que tu avais peur de l'aimer au peur des souvenirs?
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MoAngel Registered: Jul '05	Date Posted: 1/1 3:48am Subject: RE: I've Had It (an Anakin Skywalker AU)
	Oh WOW. And a Happy New Year too. Hey I thought I was on the pm list but apparently not, as the last two updates I found on a whim. Please add me. GREAT story. So Anakin is coming around? Good stuff... -----signature----- 'It's just like the Sith Lords, man, there's always only two of them' 'Did you just Star Wars us'? Booth on Fox's Bones
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Toki-chan Registered: Apr '05	Date Posted: 1/1 7:59am Subject: RE: I've Had It (an Anakin Skywalker AU)
	YAY! Anakin is awake! And that imagery was amazing! I read it twice to get most of it, but it truely made that post! Can't wait for more.
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shookie Registered: Aug '07	Date Posted: 1/2 7:02am Subject: RE: I've Had It (an Anakin Skywalker AU)
	Happy Happy New Year to you as well. I loved the update. Didn't quite understand all that was going on but I loved it esp that Ani is waking. Nice job.
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JediMasterJessica Registered: Jul '05	Date Posted: 1/2 12:35pm Subject: RE: I've Had It (an Anakin Skywalker AU)
	loved the last 2 updates! I can't wait to see what's going to happen w/ Anakin now that he is awake -----signature----- Proud lover of A/P, Siriwan, L/M, & TK/J Yo mamma is so stupid, she thought Jar Jar came with Pickles Pickles
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Jek_Windu Registered: Jan '03	Date Posted: 1/2 2:27pm Subject: RE: I've Had It (an Anakin Skywalker AU)
	This is really good, can't wait to see where else this goes. I love how you told the story of Plagieus, and how you twisted things in Anakin's response to his victory, going into depression instead of euphoria- definitely taking the road less traveled there. Please add me to the PM list if you have one. -----signature----- Tryanids: You don't have enough bullets! Imperial Guard: YES WE DO! R.I.P. Trini
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Waylela Registered: Sep '05	Date Posted: 1/3 12:56am Subject: RE: I've Had It (an Anakin Skywalker AU)
	What a wonderful chapter. I like the way you used Anakin drawing to relay what was happening. Gret job!
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darth_treyvah Registered: Dec '05	Date Posted: 1/8 3:42pm Subject: RE: I've Had It (an Anakin Skywalker AU) - Date Edited: 1/9 8:15am (1 edits total) Edited By: darth_treyvah
	Anakin's eyes were unfocused for the longest time. He could feel the Force flood right back into him. His body arched. "Healers!" someone called. "No. Wait." Gradually, background noise died down, and angles sharpened. He squinted. He felt something on his chest. Something warm and substantial, but not heavy. Just right. And the smell was a good smell. It -- she felt very familiar, as though she'd always been there. He opened his eyes and saw his wife. She wrapped her arms around him possessively. She was shaking, and he could something warm and wet seeping through his tunic to his breastbone. His arms felt so weak, as though he'd never used them in his life. They encircled Padme, and he held her. She looked up into his face. Her face was a mess, flushed and tear-stained. She looked like she hadn't had a good night's sleep in days. Her emotions were wild, and beyond happy. Then he sensed ... the other Force signatures. His children. He opened his mouth once and closed it. They weren't even born yet. They were close, but they were -- they were greeting him. One hand stroked Padme's face. She took that hand and cupped it against her cheek. He could feel the warmth of her tears. There were so many things Anakin Skywalker wanted to say to Padme, but they all clamored and fought each other until one of them, somehow, won out. "Wizard." "Anakin," Padme's face reddened and her hands went to the sides of Anakin's face, "Don't. You. Ever. Ever. Do. That. Again," she glared, "Ever." For a few moments, the other Jedi in the room wondered if it was a good idea to keep the former Knight's wife in the room -- the mixture of very strong, and almost volatile emotions emanating from her, plus the firm grip on her husband's face, and the glare there were not good indicators as to his continued health considering what he'd been through. But Obi-Wan knew, actually fighting back his own emotions at seeing his Apprentice finally conscious, that at this moment it would take a droideka to pry the two of them apart. "I have been pregnant for a very long time. I've been waiting for you through this entire War, and your damned Jedi Code. I needed you here, dammit! I have seriously run out of patience with you, Anakin Skywalker!" "Senator Nabarrie ..." some of the Healers tried to move closer. "That is Mrs. Skywalker to you!" she snarled, whereupon she leaned forward and kissed Anakin hard. Obi-Wan rubbed his hand down his face, not knowing whether to be horrified, relieved, or start laughing his head off. Anything was possible now, at this moment. And there was only so much emotion Obi-Wan could release into the Force. Anakin returned his wife's kiss, with almost as much force. Tears trailed down the corners of their eyes until they just rested their foreheads on each other's. Depa Billaba sat back in her chair. She looked utterly exhausted. Mace Windu put a hand on her neck, and nodded to the other Masters. "We have a hover-bed ready, Master Windu." The Korun Jedi Master picked up Depa as though she weighed nothing more than a child, and carried her away. Yoda shook his head, and went to move away -- to give the Skywalkers a little more privacy. Obi-Wan wanted to stay, to say something to Anakin. But he knew the two of them needed to be alone. Besides, he mused to himself, he was sure it wasn't every day that Padme had her husband at her mercy. Although when he thought about it ... he decided to stop thinking about it. I'm glad you're all right, Anakin. The Jedi Master paused by the doorway, briefly, before he turned and followed Master Yoda out. Amid the Healers and his wife, Anakin looked over at the retreating shape of a brown Jedi cloak. Thank you, Obi-Wan.
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Toki-chan Registered: Apr '05	Date Posted: 1/8 4:17pm Subject: RE: I've Had It (an Anakin Skywalker AU)
	Awhhh soo good! I loved the new chapter, especially Padme! You caught her so well, not weak at all! Really can't wait for more.
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Waylela Registered: Sep '05	Date Posted: 1/8 8:52pm Subject: RE: I've Had It (an Anakin Skywalker AU)
	Great chapter. I love that you brought out Padme's fire and aimed it at Anakin. Nice job.
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JediKaren Registered: Apr '07	Date Posted: 1/8 9:16pm Subject: RE: I've Had It (an Anakin Skywalker AU)
	yay! (what more needs to be said?) -----signature----- Bring Light Into Darkness Reaching Through Darkness: http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/28415147/p1/?0 Healing Hearts: http://boards.theforce.net/before_the_saga/b10475/28282728/p1
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emerald54 Registered: Apr '07	Date Posted: 1/8 10:18pm Subject: RE: I've Had It (an Anakin Skywalker AU)
	he was sure it wasn't every day that Padme had her husband at her mercy. Although when he thought about it ... he decided to stop thinking about it. Thinking smutty thoughts Obi-wan? That's alright, because I am to. Great job making Padme have a backbone, I love her fierceness, it reminds me of the females in my family. Keep writing! Emerald -----signature----- “Ideas are like rabbits. You get a couple and learn how to handle them, and pretty soon you have a dozen.” - John Steinbeck
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