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Author	Topic: Blinded By Love - Padme/Vader AU, set right after ESB - Romance/Drama/Angst/Action - UPDATE 10/3
JediXManSerenaKenobi Registered: Jul '07	Date Posted: 8/13/07 7:22am Subject: Blinded By Love - Padme/Vader AU, set right after ESB - Romance/Drama/Angst/Action - UPDATE 10/3 - Date Edited: 10/3 9:20am (7 edits total) Edited By: JediXManSerenaKenobi
	Blinded By Love By Serena Summary: Padme awakens over twenty-one years after the birth of her children. She finds that she has been encased in carbonite to keep her alive - but the process leaves an unexpected and devastating after-effect. PM List VaderLVR64 Idrelle_Miocovani snowspeeder_gunner dtdang2 KELIA SilSolo DarthVaderette darksideyesplease jedilegolas Darth_Leia_6669 ROTSFan dbelp03 Kitten Darth_Drachonus Icecruncher_Amidala Sara_Kenobi Lady_Skywalker87 darthhelinith Niju Darth_Naveu frankieskywalker LibbyJade aurrasingrules101 KellyLCrutcher Allana_Djo_Solo Prologue Must get her stabilized… pulse… weakening… losing her… She couldn’t move. She couldn’t speak. She couldn’t breathe. She was burning. Heart rate… rising… fast… Her whole body was on fire. She was drowning in that fire. Her throat constricted – why couldn’t she get air? Oxygen levels… unstable… coming out… hibernation… What was going on? Where was she? And why couldn’t she do anything? She felt trapped. Smothered. The fire was smothering her… freezing her bones in an icy hot cage that she couldn’t get out of. We… wake her… too long … hibernation… “Miss? Miss, can you hear me?” She could. But she couldn’t respond. She mentally screamed a reply, but it went unheard. “Miss, don’t worry. You must calm down so we can get your heart rate steady. Don’t worry, everything’s going to be all right. You just need to relax.” Relax… that would be hard, but if that was what she had to do, that was what she had to do. Breathe… in… out… in… out….steady… “There you go… that’s it. Good job.” The voice that was directing her, a warm, living voice, felt close to her ear. “Keep it up. You’re going to be fine.” She nodded slowly, painfully. “It will take a few minutes for you to be able to move properly – you’ve been encased in carbonite for the past twenty-one years. You’re actually lucky to have survived such a freezing process.” Carbonite? Freezing process? Why didn’t she remember any of that? Okay, okay, calm down. She had to keep her breathing steady. What was the last thing that she remembered… Fire. Death. Pain. Betrayal. No! No! She set her teeth. There had to be something else. Something else after that… wait… yes, yes, there it was! She had been on a medical bed… there were droids hovering around her. She had heard a baby’s cry – no, two babies. Her babies! Her Luke – her Leia! Where were they? Were they all right? Wait, Obi-Wan. Yoda. What had happened to them? And why had she been in carbonite for twenty-one years? Twenty-one years. Inwardly, her mind was reeling. This was too much information. She couldn’t handle it all, especially not after remembering… Him. Her beloved. Her fallen angel. Her Anakin. He had broken her heart, but she still loved him. She still needed him as the trees needed sunlight. As the earth needed rain. She couldn’t survive without him. She was tied to him – connected by some invisible bond that refused to snap, even after he had turned to the dark side. They were two halves of the same whole, two pieces that fit perfectly together in a puzzle, two people joined together as one. “You can try moving now, Miss,” the comforting voice said to her. “You should be able to move your body more easily now.” Forcing her unpleasant thoughts to the back of her mind, she focused on moving her body. First, she clenched and unclenched her fists. Then, she moved her toes, then feet, then her whole lower half. She slowly slid her arms up and down on the bed she was in. “Good, that’s good.” Finally, with a great effort, she lifted her eyelids up as she tried to open her eyes… She blinked, twice. Unsteadily, she tried to focus on something, anything, but she couldn’t. “What’s… going… on?” Her voice was hoarse, so she swallowed and tried again. “What’s going on?” Better. A sigh was heard from above her. “It’s typical for people who have just come out of carbonite to experience a thing called hibernation sickness. They’re temporarily blind, but eventually, it returns.” “Oh, good. How long?” There was a pause. “I’m afraid, in your case, you were in the carbonite for too long. I’m sorry to tell you this… but… your eyesight has been permanently damaged.” She froze. “You mean… I won’t be able to see… ever?” “I’m afraid so. They haven’t discovered a treatment for your condition yet, as very few people are put into carbonite. I’m so sorry.” The voice, however sympathetic it may have been, was little comfort to her. The realization hit her like a reek running full force into her. She would never again be able to see Naboo. See the water. See anybody. She could never watch the sunsets or sunrises, never again see the amazing architecture on her home-planet. She would never see her family again – if they were still alive. She could never look at her children again, if they happened to meet. She would never see Anakin again. If he was still alive. “I can’t see,” Padmé said, deadpan. “I can’t see.” -----signature----- Crucified, laid behind a stone, You lived to die, rejected and alone, Like a Rose, trampled on the ground, You took the Fall and thought of me... Above All. - Jesus is Love. Proud Artist and member of the Talon Family! T-Squad 4ever!
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VaderLVR64 Title: Manager Emeritus Registered: Feb '04	Date Posted: 8/13/07 3:19pm Subject: RE: Blinded By Love - Padme/Vader AU, set right after ESB - Romance/Drama/Angst/Action
	VERY interesting! I like where you're going with this. Please PM when you update. -----signature----- R.I.P John, Alex, Jason, and Christian Never forgotten Soldiers' Angels http://soldiersangels.org/ 2114 soldiers waiting for someone to care
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Idrelle_Miocovani Registered: Feb '05	Date Posted: 8/13/07 4:21pm Subject: RE: Blinded By Love - Padme/Vader AU, set right after ESB - Romance/Drama/Angst/Action
	Padme incased in carbonite for twenty-one years and is now permanently blinded... You've got me hooked. Could you PM me when you update, please? -----signature----- Nat is my new Muse. Yes, you may have one of those flowy Greek-robe things you say you can't spell. This Time Around: http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/27062943/p1/?2 DarthIshtar's Padawan
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snowspeeder_gunner Registered: Apr '07	Date Posted: 8/13/07 10:10pm Subject: RE: Blinded By Love - Padme/Vader AU, set right after ESB - Romance/Drama/Angst/Action
	Oh no, she can't see! Now I have to know what comes next! Could you add me to your PM list please? -----signature----- haha! it's like the stars are my icon!
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dtdang2 Registered: Jun '05	Date Posted: 8/13/07 10:37pm Subject: RE: Blinded By Love - Padme/Vader AU, set right after ESB - Romance/Drama/Angst/Action
	Very original story. Never read about Padme being frozen in carbonite before. Please PM me when you update again. I'd like to see where this goes. -----signature----- Reunited: Anakin's Journey in the Afterlife http://boards.theforce.net/The_Saga/b10476/20612562/?0 Reincarnation (AU/Romance with Vader, Cloned Padme) http://boards.theforce.net/message
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padawan_learner86 Registered: Aug '05	Date Posted: 8/14/07 5:29am Subject: RE: Blinded By Love - Padme/Vader AU, set right after ESB - Romance/Drama/Angst/Action
	Hmm, Padmé in carbonite ... Has the ridiculous mental image of Vader reverently putting carbon!Padmé on his wall Well, that she can't see is a minor set-back for her... but if she were to reunite her family (or at least part of it) -----signature----- One who accepts only the SW movies as canon. Thus, refuses to read any of the SW books. ^^; Fics in Bio
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KELIA Title: The Pretty in Pink Fan Fic Manager Registered: Jul '05	Date Posted: 8/15/07 7:56am Subject: RE: Blinded By Love - Padme/Vader AU, set right after ESB - Romance/Drama/Angst/Action
	Poor Padme!! So much to deal with all at once. Please add me to your PM list Looking forward to more -----signature----- "Do or do not, there is no try." Master Yoda A Light In The Darkness: http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/28150602/p1/?8 NaNaWriMo Progress: 11,018
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MarasFire Registered: Jun '07	Date Posted: 8/15/07 8:11am Subject: RE: Blinded By Love - Padme/Vader AU, set right after ESB - Romance/Drama/Angst/Action - Date Edited: 8/15/07 8:13am (1 edits total) Edited By: MarasFire
	How horrible for Padmé! She'll never be able to look upon her children's faces...but at least she won't have to see what her husband has become. Did Padmé physically age during those 21 years? It would be strange for Luke and Leia to see their mother when she only looks a couple years older than them. -----signature----- It's better to laugh than to cry, don't you think? I do. Even when the world is scary and sad. Especially when the world is scary and sad. That's when you need to laugh. —Marco
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JediXManSerenaKenobi Registered: Jul '07	Date Posted: 9/1/07 2:16pm Subject: RE: Blinded By Love - Padme/Vader AU, set right after ESB - Romance/Drama/Angst/Action
	VaderLVR64 Thank you! I hope you enjoy this chapter. Idrelle_Miocovani Hooked? Really? Cool. I hope you stay hooked for the remainder of the story! It's really fun to write, too, cause I really don't know where the story's going, either. Hehe. snowspeeder_gunner Well, here you go! dtdang2 Really? Huh. I've read, actually, a lot of stories before where she's been in carbonite, but when I read in an AU SW comic that Han lost his sight permanently from being in damaged carbonite for too long, I thought, hey, why not use that here? padawan_learner86 That does make for an interesting picture... hmm. We'll see what happens! KELIA Yes, I feel for her as well. Too much, as you'll see in this chapter. Thanks!! MarasFire Yes, very horrible!! Poor Padme... and your explanation will be in this chapter! PM List (for now) VaderLVR64 Idrelle_Miocovani snowspeeder_gunner dtdang2 KELIA PADMÉ POV I learned a few long, grueling hours after the news of my condition that I had been kept on Polis Massa. How they managed to fake my burial, I didn’t know, but I wouldn’t have survived long if I hadn’t been put into hibernation. But why encase me in carbonite? And why wake me up now? Determined to find more answers, I asked the young physician there, a human by the name of Corlif Taronel. As kind as he tried to be, it could not replace the dark thoughts that filled my mind with despair and doubt of my future. But Taronel tried to answer as many questions as he could, though he told me he was fairly new to the facility. "Do you know how old you are?” He asked me gently after telling me the date. I furrowed my brow and tried to do math mentally. “I think I’m around forty-seven,” I said uncertainly. “I’m not completely sure, though.” I self-consciously touched my hair and my face. How much had I changed? “Well, I must say, Miss, you look exceedingly well for a woman your age,” Taronel said politely. “I would’ve thought you were in your early thirties. The freezing process helped to slow down your aging process somewhat.” Despite my darker thoughts, I couldn’t help but feel just a little bit better at that news. It was nice to know I hadn’t changed too much over the years. I spent the next few days in bed, but after the first, I grew bored and asked the nurses for something to do. They gave me a holoproj, and although I couldn’t see, I could hear the latest from Coruscant. Or rather, Imperial Center. “We’ve just had an update from the outer rim,” the reporter said, “It appears that Lord Darth Vader has just found the hidden Rebel base and has launched an assault on the remote system of Hoth. Rumored to be on the base are Rebels Princess Leia Organa and Luke Skywalker, the terrorist who ruthlessly destroyed millions of lives on the Death Star. More updates shortly.” I couldn’t help it. As I listened, I began to sob. My breath hitched, and soon, I had burst into uncontrollable tears and buried my face in my hands. My babies! My children! They were being attacked by the Sith! Darth… what was his name? I couldn’t remember. The nurses ran into my room as soon as they heard me cry out, and try as they might, they couldn’t console me in my grief. I had lost twenty-one years of my life. As I sobbed, I heard Dr. Taronel say, “Miss Padmé! Miss Padmé, are you all right? What’s the matter?” Trying to regain control of my thundering emotions, I asked in between tears, “Do you know of a Jedi named Anakin Skywalker?” He didn’t reply for a long time. “No, Milady, I can’t say that I have. The Jedi have been extinct for over two decades. Why should you ask?” “I need you to look him up for me,” I hurried on, “I need to find out what happened to him.” “Of course, Miss.” He was puzzled, I knew that much, but I was determined to find out what had happened to my husband. Had he been destroyed by the Sith also? Had Palpatine, or Sidious, killed him and chosen another in his place? Hatred bloomed in me like a red, fiery rose, and I clenched my teeth as the tears dripped down my face. My hands balled into fists and clutched the blankets tightly; I despised him. I despised Palpatine for what he had done. I know that anger was of the dark side, but I was no Jedi. I was allowed anger, rage, hate. Bitterness. Palpatine needed to die. As did Vader. They would pay for murdering thousands of Jedi, hunting down my children as if they were dogs, ruling their precious Empire with an iron fist. “Miss Padmé?” Taronel’s voice caused me to turn towards the left so as to hear him better; and I wiped the teardrops off my face. “Oh, no, Milady, it’s all right,” he said consolingly, “I understand your pain and confusion. It’s not often one is put into carbonite for over twenty years. You probably don’t know what is going on, do you?” I shook my head slowly. “No, I’m afraid I don’t. I’d like any information you have. Actually, all of it.” Still the Senator gathering as much information as I could on all the past and present events, I thought wryly. “Of course, Milady. I’ll have everything I can put into sound so that you can hear it.” “Thank you, Doctor.” “It’s the least I can do. And Miss Padmé, I looked up Anakin Skywalker in the database.” I licked my dry lips in anticipation; he continued on: “And although there is little to say, the records say it is presumed that he was killed over twenty years ago by Darth Vader.” My heart nearly stopped, my mouth fell open in horror. Anakin was dead. My Anakin, dead. No. No, no, NO! I needed to get out of bed. I needed to run. I needed to think. “I have to leave here,” I said, raspy, no voice left in me. My thoughts were too jumbled; it was too much information all at once. I couldn’t handle this – “Milady, you need to calm down!” Taronel’s frantic voice had little effect on me, and my breathing grew quicker and harsher; my heart began beating rapidly – too rapidly. “Miss, you need to calm down! Your heart rate’s rising again! You’ll go into shock! Please!” I couldn’t hear him, and my eyelids slid shut, my already dark world growing even dimmer as my thoughts began to drown me, and I fell down further and further… “Anakin? Anakin, where are you?” I cried out, glancing around in a vain effort to see my beloved. But everything was dark. Why was it so dark? “Padmé… Padmé, I’m here. Just follow me.” I turned, but I couldn’t see anything. “Anakin? Ani, is that you?” “Padmé… follow me!” “I can’t see you!” I shouted desperately. “Where are you?” “I’m here.” His voice was whispers now… “ANAKIN!” “She’s awake!” My eyes flew open, and my breathing came out in long, hoarse gasps. “Anakin! Anakin, come back!” “She’s hallucinating,” someone murmured. “She’s trying to process all the data, but it’s too soon. She might go into shock.” No, wait. I remembered. Polis Massa. Carbonite. Vader. Anakin. Death. I sat up quickly, too quickly. “Miss, lay back! Please, don’t over exhaust yourself!” A hand firmly placed itself on my arm, trying to push me back, but I slapped it away, frustrated. “Don’t touch me!” I snarled. “I have to get out of here – I have to find them!” “Miss, please, you’re still hallucinating – you don’t know what you’re talking about–” “Don’t you tell me what do to, you kriffing bishwag!” I hissed. “I need to speak with Doctor Taronel!” I knew this was very uncharacteristic and extremely rude, but I was in no diplomatic mood just then. “But Miss, he’s busy–” “Well then tell him I’m leaving! I need to get off this rock!” I yelled. “I need to… I need to… I… ” As if a dam broke, I burst into frustrated tears, sinking to the side of the medical bed. A pair of strong arms gently picked me up and placed me back on the bed, and I buried my head into the pillow, allowing my despair and sorrow to pour over me like a deep river. “ANAKIN!” My mind screamed. -----signature----- Crucified, laid behind a stone, You lived to die, rejected and alone, Like a Rose, trampled on the ground, You took the Fall and thought of me... Above All. - Jesus is Love. Proud Artist and member of the Talon Family! T-Squad 4ever!
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snowspeeder_gunner Registered: Apr '07	Date Posted: 9/1/07 8:44pm Subject: RE: Blinded By Love - Padme/Vader AU, set right after ESB - Romance/Drama/Angst/Action
	Oh wow, she's pretty distraught. I wonder what she's going to do when she finds out that Anakin actually is Darth Vader. Hopefully she gets to meet her kids! Great update, and I can't wait to see what happens next! -----signature----- haha! it's like the stars are my icon!
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VaderLVR64 Title: Manager Emeritus Registered: Feb '04	Date Posted: 9/3/07 6:06am Subject: RE: Blinded By Love - Padme/Vader AU, set right after ESB - Romance/Drama/Angst/Action
	“Anakin? Anakin, where are you?” I cried out, glancing around in a vain effort to see my beloved. But everything was dark. Why was it so dark? “Padmé… Padmé, I’m here. Just follow me.” I turned, but I couldn’t see anything. “Anakin? Ani, is that you?” “Padmé… follow me!” “I can’t see you!” I shouted desperately. “Where are you?” “I’m here.” His voice was whispers now… “ANAKIN!” Poor Padme! A wonderful chapter. -----signature----- R.I.P John, Alex, Jason, and Christian Never forgotten Soldiers' Angels http://soldiersangels.org/ 2114 soldiers waiting for someone to care
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KELIA Title: The Pretty in Pink Fan Fic Manager Registered: Jul '05	Date Posted: 9/3/07 12:06pm Subject: RE: Blinded By Love - Padme/Vader AU, set right after ESB - Romance/Drama/Angst/Action
	Oh my, Padme doesn't know Anakin became Vader. As distraught as she is now, that might just push her over the edge. Especially considering the fact he is hunting their children. I hope the doctor can calm her down. Great update -----signature----- "Do or do not, there is no try." Master Yoda A Light In The Darkness: http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/28150602/p1/?8 NaNaWriMo Progress: 11,018
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Idrelle_Miocovani Registered: Feb '05	Date Posted: 9/3/07 12:18pm Subject: RE: Blinded By Love - Padme/Vader AU, set right after ESB - Romance/Drama/Angst/Action
	Oh no! Poor Padme! She's in such a bad situation... I'm going to be really scared for her reaction when she finds out that Anakin is Vader. -----signature----- Nat is my new Muse. Yes, you may have one of those flowy Greek-robe things you say you can't spell. This Time Around: http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/27062943/p1/?2 DarthIshtar's Padawan
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JediXManSerenaKenobi Registered: Jul '07	Date Posted: 9/16/07 2:36pm Subject: RE: Blinded By Love - Padme/Vader AU, set right after ESB - Romance/Drama/Angst/Action
	snowspeeder_gunner: Oh wow, she's pretty distraught. I wonder what she's going to do when she finds out that Anakin actually is Darth Vader. Hopefully she gets to meet her kids! Great update, and I can't wait to see what happens next! Yeah, that'll be fun to write. I have their meeting planned already, it's gonna be great. VaderLVR64: Poor Padme! A wonderful chapter. Thanks! Yeah, I like to make her suffer... for now. KELIA: Oh my, Padme doesn't know Anakin became Vader. As distraught as she is now, that might just push her over the edge. Especially considering the fact he is hunting their children. I hope the doctor can calm her down. Great update. No, she doesn't, which will make their meeting all the more interesting. We'll see what the good ol' doc has to say. I think he's starting to like her... Idrelle_Miocovani: Oh no! Poor Padme! She's in such a bad situation... I'm going to be really scared for her reaction when she finds out that Anakin is Vader. Unfortunately, her situation is not going to get better just yet... but we'll see what happens! I'm actually not sure how I'm going to write her reaction. Oh boy. -----signature----- Crucified, laid behind a stone, You lived to die, rejected and alone, Like a Rose, trampled on the ground, You took the Fall and thought of me... Above All. - Jesus is Love. Proud Artist and member of the Talon Family! T-Squad 4ever!
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JediXManSerenaKenobi Registered: Jul '07	Date Posted: 9/16/07 2:43pm Subject: RE: Blinded By Love - Padme/Vader AU, set right after ESB - Romance/Drama/Angst/Action
	I have an announcement to make, people. Postie! “Milord!” Darth Vader turned from his position to looking at the stars. “You found something, Admiral Piett?” The young Admiral shook his head, embarrassed. “No sir, but the Emperor demands that you make contact with him.” “Move the fleet out of the asteroid field so that we may send a clear transmission,” Vader ordered. Piett nodded. “Yes, Milord.” Vader turned to leave – “ANAKIN!” Vader stumbled, grabbed a nearby wall for support, his breathing louder and heavier than usual. “Padme…” he breathed. Piett frowned, startled. “Sir, are you… are you well?” Vader’s inscrutable helmet turned to look at him, and he swallowed. “I… I am fine, Admiral.” He straightened and continued down the corridor. Piett watched him warily, wondering what had just happened back there and who Padme was. He resolved to find out. Vader walked down the hallway, brooding. He thought that he had managed to rid himself of thoughts of his long deceased wife. But now… he was not so certain. But it had felt so real! It was as if she had cried out to him across the galaxy directly into his tortured mind. But she would have to be alive for that to even be possible. But that was impossible. She was dead. Deciding that it was merely a lapse in mental strength, he resolved to purge all thoughts of Padme and focus on the conversation ahead of him. “Padme.” My head shot up. Was that… Anakin? No. Anakin was dead. But it had felt so real! It was as if he had cried out to her across the galaxy directly into her tortured mind. But he would have to be alive for that to even be possible. But that was impossible. He was dead. Or was he? I rubbed my temples. It could be that the records were wrong. I wasn’t sure. Well, with Anakin, anything was possible. He could do anything. Survive anything. I sat in my private quarters on Polis Massa given to me by Doctor Taronel. Turns out my accounts still had plenty of credits in them, even though no one had used them, other than my family. My family… I hadn’t seen them in over two decades. But had they been part of this plot? Did they know I had been encased in carbonite? I needed answers, and I needed them soon. No one here could help me. But first, I had to find my children. I had to know they were safe. That they would be all right. “Milady?” I turned towards the sound of the voice. “Yes, Doctor Taronel?” “Milady, how many times have I asked you to call me Corlif? According to your records, you were a queen and a loved senator, I am a simple doctor.” I smiled. “If you’ve forgotten, Doctor, you’re the person who has brought me back to life. I am in your debt.” “Not at all,” he sounded offended. “Please, Milady. I don’t want you to think you owe me anything. Everything I’ve done is merely my duty. And I’m honored to serve the former queen of Naboo.” I detected fondness in his warm voice, fondness that was bordering on the edge of more than just a friendly fondness. This wasn’t good. “Thank you for everything, Doctor Taronel,” I said sincerely, “From the bottom of my heart I thank you. If you don’t mind, I’d like to ask a favor of you.” “Of course!” He exclaimed, seizing my small hand in his own. Now I was certain my instinct had been correct, unfortunately. “I need you to buy me a ship,” I said. “Just a small one, not too expensive. I can give you the money.” There was a pause. “You wish to… leave?” I nodded, uncertain of his emotions. “Yes. I’m sorry, but I have to.” “But why? Padme, do you realize how dangerous it is out there? You won’t have anyone to look after you, to protect you!” His tone was urgent, and he grasped my hand tighter. “Padme… I don’t want to say this, but as your friend, I must. You cannot survive out in the galaxy all on your own, especially because of your… condition.” “I will do what I must,” I snapped, pulling my hand back. My face softening, I continued more quietly, “Thank you for your concern, Doctor, but I’m sure I’ll manage. All I’ll need is an R2 unit and maybe a protocol droid to help me.” I smiled as I remembered Artoo and Threepio. “I can give you money to buy those, too.” “But why do you wish to leave us?” He demanded. I heard him rise to his feet and begin pacing the room. “We’ve given you everything here – we’ve – I’ve- given you your life back! Would you really give all that up? And what for? What’s left for you out there?” “Plenty,” I replied coldly. “I am a grown woman, and despite my condition, I am a free person and will go and do as I please. And in case you’ve forgotten, I once was the Queen of Naboo and can take perfectly good care of myself, with or without my sight.” I folded my hands in my lap decorously. “And I am your doctor,” he returned. “And I have the right to say whether or not my patient is in her right mind. And I’m not sure you are. You’re so torn up about your lover, Anakin Skywalker, who’s been long dead, that you’re not capable of making rational decisions.” “How dare you!” I shouted, enraged. “How dare you talk about him like that! He was more than my lover, he was my husband!” There was an awkward, stunned beat before I continued, “I thank you for your concern, Doctor Taronel, but I will be leaving, whether you like it or not. And if you will not do as I ask, I will find another person in this facility to aid me.” Taronel sighed. “Very well. I will help you, Milady.” I nodded regally. “Thank you.” Two days later, I had packed my few things and was getting ready to leave Polis Massa for the planet of Hoth. I knew it was dangerous and foolhardy to go directly into enemy territory and a war zone as well, but I had to find out where my children had gone, or if they were still alive. I needed to find the Rebellion. I was walking to the ship, accompanied by my now faithful new protocol droid, ironically C4-ME2, whom I just called See-Four-Me. I wonder if Taronel had named her (the droid had a female personality) that on purpose. The astro droid also had a female personality, and I was free to name her. I named her Artoo- DeeFive, or Dee for short. It was nice, having droids again. It was like having a piece of home. Home. I felt bad for not wanting to go to Naboo first – after all, it was my home-planet, and my family was there. Except for my children. And as far as I knew, my Nubian family was fine. They had done without me for the past twenty-one years, they could continue to do so. My children needed me. And I needed them. No, I was going to Hoth. “Padme, I really wish you’d reconsider,” Taronel jogged up next to me as I held tightly to Cee-Four-Me’s metal limb as we walked to my ship. “Think of what you’re doing! All the risks!” I turned to face in his direction. “Doctor… Corlif. Listen to me. I have to do this. There are some people out there who need me. Very much. And I can’t let them down.” “But what if I need you, too?” He asked softly. I slowly reached up with my free hand, touched his face. I heard him inhale sharply and exhale. I rested the hand on his cheek. “You don’t know me, Corlif,” I stated gently. “You don’t know what I’ve done or who I am. I have a family who needs me. And I need them. I have to find them before other people do.” I dropped my hand, but he caught it. “Padme, please,” he begged. “I do know you – I love you!” My heart began to beat faster, but not because of the effect he was having on me, but because of the effect those words - when another had spoken them to me - had had on me. “No,” I said sharply, recoiling. “You don’t know me. I’m sorry, Doctor. I have to go.” To See-Four-Me, I said, “Hurry! Let’s go!” “Padme, no! You’re making a mistake!” He cried. “I’m trying to correct one,” I retaliated, hurrying up the ramp as fast as I could; but I heard him following me. “Taronel – go back!” I ordered. “No!” He said stubbornly. “Go back, now!” I replied forcefully. I didn’t need this! “You can’t make me!” He said obstinately. “You can’t even see me – how can you expect to make me leave – I’m trying to save you!” I froze. “That’s exactly what Anakin said,” I whispered hoarsely, feeling suddenly weak. “You still haven’t gotten over him yet?” He said rudely. I lashed out and managed to catch a cheek, snarling, I said, “How dare you! I thought I could trust you – I thought you had decorum and honor!” I bit my lip. “I guess I was wrong to believe that you were a good man, Taronel.” We both stood there for a minute, breathing heavily, both irritated, both indignant. The only difference was that I was not in love with him, as he claimed to be with me. I inhaled deeply and lowered my head before raising it up to meet his. “If you wouldn’t mind…” “I’m just trying to protect you, Padme.” “I know, Doctor. But I can handle this on my own. This is my life. I will live as I choose.” I heard him sigh. “Fine. But I’m coming with you.” “What?” My eyes narrowed. “Just to wherever you’re going. I just want to see you settled in, and then you can decide if you want me to leave… or… or stay.” I shook my head. If he knew I was going to Hoth, he would never let me out of his sight. “No, you shouldn’t. You have the facility to worry about, and¬-” “I’m sure my interns can take care of it fine. I need to make sure you’re all right.” I glared. “You can’t just abandon your patients and this place because you think you’re in love with me, Corlif!” “I have to make sure you’re going to be all right, Padme,” he insisted. I turned away from him. “No, really don’t. Go, Corlif. I need to do this alone. See-Four-Me, start the engines. We’re getting out of here. No.” I turned back to him. “I’m getting out of here. Alone.” He apparently wasn’t listening. “Just as far as to wherever you’re going, and then I’m gone. Please, Padme, it’s my duty.” No, it’s really not. I saw that it was useless to argue with him, as he was too obstinate to be swayed. “Fine.” I wouldn’t tell him where we were going. “Just as far as the system, and then you’re going back.” “Of course.” He sat beside me in the co-pilot’s seat. “Would you like me to pilot?” “I’m blind, not a child,” I snapped, angry at his condescending treatment. “Of course. I apologize.” The rest of the day was spent in silence. To be continued... -----signature----- Crucified, laid behind a stone, You lived to die, rejected and alone, Like a Rose, trampled on the ground, You took the Fall and thought of me... Above All. - Jesus is Love. Proud Artist and member of the Talon Family! T-Squad 4ever!
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SilSolo Registered: Mar '04	Date Posted: 9/16/07 3:02pm Subject: RE: Blinded By Love - Padme/Vader AU, set right after ESB - Romance/Drama/Angst/Action
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