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Valairy_Scot Registered: Sep '05	Date Posted: 7/2 7:55am Subject: Truths of the Heart. AU, Romance, Humor Updated 0623. Obi's realization of life's lessons learned
	Charie: What was that part with Anakin? Did he kill Ventress? Or thinks he killed her? You question Anakin's perceptions and veracity? Ascal_Elessar: Aw, a lot of my readers are not online much and may be several chapters behind, too, so you're in good company. So glad Obi has finally saw sense and let Siri in. Well, when the Force decided to scream in his ear, he finally heard and obeyed. Thank you to all who nommed this story for various award categories - I'm humbled. Thank you! -----signature----- http://boards.theforce.net/fan_fiction_resource/b10304/25405090/p3/?52 Prolific Author thread: list & links there. Muse fueled by coffee. Often AWOL despite frequent sipping. Writes on inspiration, not a schedule. 2007-2008 the quality years
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p_stotts Registered: Jan '01	Date Posted: 7/2 8:12am Subject: Truths of the Heart. AU, Romance, Humor Updated 0623. author thanks you - Date Edited: 7/2 8:21am (1 edits total) Edited By: p_stotts
	... what about and cinnamon rolls at dawn instead of a duel? glances down at own waistline Well... maybe just for me. Yeah, just for you. ACK! Did I really write that?! I meant cinnamon rolls just for YOU! Not me. glances down again Yep! Definitely not me! Edit - Okay, I reread my original feedback and I wrote " (coffee) just for me." Of course, what I actually meant is just coffeefor me. Good Lord, I'm getting worse instead of better. And your advice about not getting old... too late! I'm already there. Can you say knee replacement? High blood pressure? Depression? Over....? Well, over a lot of things. I had to laugh outloud when I read your reply to my feedback, with the "Mas'er Obi! Mas'er Obi!" part. Reading it out of context like that gave me Gone With The Wind flashbacks. "I don' know nothin' about deliverin' no babies, Mas'er Obi!" Aside to others reading this Please don't flame me! I'm just paraphrasing the movie. No insult intended to anyone. Ack! I'll just shut up now. -----signature----- How many of you believe in psycho-kinesis? Raise my hand. - Larry the Cable Guy Proud master to Gkilkenny! Stories in my bio.
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nada_smith Registered: Jul '06	Date Posted: 7/4 10:58am Subject: Truths of the Heart. AU, Romance, Humor Updated 0623. author thanks you - Date Edited: 7/4 11:07am (2 edits total) Edited By: nada_smith
	A very delinquent reader slinks in. Hope you don't mind some overdue comments! Chapter 18 “Don’t push it, my friend, I’m still me and I don’t accept random hugs without purpose.” Oh, Obi-wan. I liked Siri and Padme sizing each other up and deciding both would look out for Obi-wan. Chapter 19 Having the healer tell Jayren not to emulate Anakin's reckless driving in his hoverchair made me wonder what chaos would have occurred if Anakin hadn't turned and grew old enough to terrorize the temple halls with his inevitably souped-up, tricked out hoverchair, running down innocent padawans and what-not. I find it telling that Aidus met his end by betting on how far he could push a Jedi...but he was dealing with Anakin--not entirely a Jedi? And this line was heartbreaking... But Anakin Skywalker would not seek redemption – he would hide from those who would save him, and in so doing, condemn them all. Chapter 20 “We really have Master Kenobi as our instructor?” It was awe in the voice. It humbled him. He didn’t deserve such a response, but he would do his best to live up to expectations. “Yes, you really have the Jedi who once got his thumb stuck in his lightsaber clip,” he assured them, hoping to lessen the untoward admiration they seemed to have for him. He was no hero, and besides, Jedi didn’t need heroes. They needed nothing but belief in the Force. Loved the whole exchange with the initiates and that Obi-wan doesn't let their awe go to his head. He probably knows Siri would just have to knock him back down to size if it did. Chapter 21 I'm glad Siri and Obi-wan were able to navigate this situation without misunderstandings or hurt feelings overcoming their love for each other. Even though Siri's ready to, um, blast off she's giving Obi-wan the time he needs to accept his feelings. That's a big deal for such a naturally impatient girl. Chapter 22 I'm disturbed by Anakin's rationalizing that keeping silent about killing Aidus is just to protect Obi-wan. He's hiding from "those who would save him" (from Ch. 19). Chapter 23 Good counsel, Adi. Chapter 24 YODA: With each other you may play later.” With a grunt that passed for laughter, Yoda limped into the room as Obi-Wan and Siri looked at each, mouthed, “Play with each other?” shrugged in unison and followed the diminutive master within. Naughty Yoda! Mace whirled and stabbed a finger at Obi-Wan. It was a look that would have made Padawan Kenobi gulp and try to unobtrusively move behind his master’s broad back. It didn’t faze Master Kenobi in the slightest. I love how you show Obi-wan's changing relationships and position in the order with this line. Really I just loved all the banter and interaction in this chapter. April Fools Post Lovely! Chapter 25 “Force, Siri, what if she was Anakin – she learned to hate. She can learn not to. If Anakin, or you, were lost to evil and hate, don’t you think I would try everything within my power to pull you back as long as I thought I had a chance? No matter the deeds you did? I would not abandon you to your fate without a fight.” Yes, this does make him Obi-wan. This was a lovely chapter...there was too much great stuff to pick out all my favorite bits. I laughed at Siri's indignation about Obi-wan's gentlemanly tendencies though! Also, I'm glad you acknowledged Siri's past during her padawan days. It was painful times but shouldn't come between them. They're finally getting closer! Chapter 26 at Qui-Gon wishing for a corporeal foot so he could boot Obi-wan in the backside! And at Siri asking if Obi-wan quite knew what he was doing. And at Obi-wan's gundark sleep pants! And “All that I am, all that I have to give, I give to you,” he whispered. “As I to you,” she murmured, just before their lips met. [Contented sigh.] Another beautiful chapter. Chapter 27 Beautiful artwork from earlybird! I loved the gentle, intimate ambience of this chapter. It glowed. The second Chapter 27 Glad Siri was there to comfort Anakin after the flashback. Chapter 28 I like the idea of the gradually increasing light program for wakening. I could really use that in the winter or on cloudy days. Neat idea. Oh, Obi-wan, ready to expediently knight Anakin to get him out of quarters and guarantee privacy for liasons with Siri! He's figuring it out! Love helped him overcome the mask. But, Obi-wan, you should listen to your uneasy feelings about Anakin's relationship with Padme. Maybe then you could help him understand about acceptance and selfless love. Chapter 29 Nice embarrassing council scene for Obi-wan! Chapter 30 Dooku perhaps plotting behind Sidious's back? How unhealthy! Chapter 31 How naughty of Obi-wan to tease her so in front of the padawans! Glad that something just happened to energize his midis. Chapter 32 Oh, slimy Palpatine! Mace: Palpatine is only a politician, not a Sith lord.” You couldn't resist could you? Chapter 33 I wonder what Obi-wan's vision will mean. I like how you weave Obi-wan's empathy for Ventress together with his concern for Anakin and his own struggle. Obi-wan, "the Guardian of the Light"...I like that. Chapter 34 Lovely musing about Obi-wan's affection for Anakin and the course of their relationship. Hmmm...why are you having difficulty getting out of bed now, Obi-wan? You're all recovered and all. “Mas’er Obi, Mas’er Obi, we met your baby!” Obi-Wan’s steps faltered and he raised an eyebrow at the Crèche Master, understandably a bit startled at this pronouncement which greeted him upon his entry into the crèche. He was quite certain - positive in fact - he had no such thing. Uh-oh! That's what tarrying in bed will get you! Aw, what a sweet moment with the younglings. And what a contrast with Anakin's current situation. That's going to be hard for Obi-wan to let go of the idea of redemption for Ventress, maybe? *************** Whew, I'm finally caught up. I don't expect you to actually read through and respond to all of this. But I did want you to know your story is appreciated. Real life (graduation, promotion, and storm knocking internet out for weeks) has been hectic this year, but procrastination has been even worse. I have too much to catch up on today, so I'll do it...tomorrow. Right. And this morning poured rain, cancelling my bike ride (I'll bike in 95 degree weather but not in the rain), so I decided to catch up. BTW, I read about your sore sit-upons and I can absolutely relate! I'm trying to get in the biking groove again and it can definitely tenderize a certain part of your anatomy! Now, I've gotta dash to work. Hope you're enjoying your summer. At the moment, I plan to reform my procrastinating ways. If that lasts, hopefully it won't be so long until next post.
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Veloz Registered: Aug '04	Date Posted: 7/7 9:28am Subject: Truths of the Heart. AU, Romance, Humor Updated 0623. author thanks you
	Ouff finally caught up with the story. My home internet is dead and i was on vacation from work, so i was pretty much doomed Wonderful chapter! the bit about Obi-Wan's baby had me laughing. I could imagine his surprised face for sure . Anakin's actions worry me. I dont think Obi's gonna be too happy when his padawan returns home sigh Thanks a lot for the pm, and i'm very much looking forward to the next chapter -----signature----- "Hello there!" "Remember the Force will be with you..always" - Obi Wan Kenobi, ANH "Who's the more foolish...the fool or the fool who follows him?"- Obi Wan Kenobi, ANH
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Valairy_Scot Registered: Sep '05	Date Posted: 7/9 12:33am Subject: Truths of the Heart. AU, Romance, Humor Updated 0623. author thanks you
	P_Stotts: 'Er, whatever. It's YOUR fault I DID eat PART of a cinnamon roll today. Now I get to watch my waistline bloom. On the bright side, I got to read your newest update today, so all's right with the world. nada_smith: Hey, I love delinquent readers. They leave such nice feedback. Having the healer tell Jayren not to emulate Anakin's reckless driving in his hoverchair made me wonder what chaos would have occurred if Anakin hadn't turned and grew old enough to terrorize the temple halls with his inevitably souped-up, tricked out hoverchair, running down innocent padawans and what-not. PLOT BUNNY ATTACK! I laughed at Siri's indignation about Obi-wan's gentlemanly tendencies though So say we all. I loved the gentle, intimate ambience of this chapter. It glowed. Aw, that is a really, really wonderful thing to say. I mean, really, that is just a great compliment - thank you. Veloz: Hope you got internet back. Glad to see you back. Chapter 35. Another Rude Awakening Part I. A Jedi grumbled at the shortness of the nights; groped for wakefulness and the alarm at the same time. A sleepy frown marked his confusion at being unable to stretch out his arm, followed by a grin as he realized what held him in place. He yawned, for he might be going to bed a bit earlier than normal but he was not getting any more sleep – and it was still dark, early in the morning, much too early to wake. He carefully disentangled himself. Siri tended to fall asleep with her arms around him and her head tucked under his chin, and he hadn’t as yet nudged her away. He did so now. The chime sounded once more. It was not, as he had thought, the alarm. An utterly content and sleepy Jedi thought about ignoring the comcall until his mind slowly groped into an understanding that the caller wanted to speak to him, not leave a message, however reluctant he was to slide away from the warm body at his side. Siri stirred slightly and Obi-Wan pressed a soft kiss against her cheek as he slid out of bed, shivering slightly as cool air met bare skin. He immediately saw it was Anakin and came wide-awake, throwing his robe around him as he moved into the common room to take the call there. Why does that boy always call at night? he wondered, thinking of the warm bed waiting for him and fighting back a sigh. Composing his face into one of quiet inquiry, he activated the link. “Padawan, I really wish you would report in more often. Are you okay? Have you news of Ventress?” * The padawan took in the rumpled hair and casually slipped on robe and sighed. He really shouldn’t interrupt his master’s sleep; the man was still recovering and needed plenty of it to recover. Since he was again using the common room com station, it was obvious he was trying to disguise the fact that Anakin had woken him. “Sorry to wake you again, Master and yes, I - have news.” “Good – shall I send a team to capture Ventress, or have you already done that without waiting for backup as instructed?” Since there was no reprimand, only a sighing acknowledgement that Anakin would do what he would do, Anakin half smiled, but he looked tired in the shifting light of a hologram, and hesitated before answering. Padmé had assured him Obi-Wan had quickly recovered from his first report; Anakin hoped he would take this news better. Obi-Wan shifted and straightened at his hesitation; his master’s stoic Jedi mask slid into place, prompting Anakin to blurt straight out his news without further preamble. “Master, she’s dead. She’ll never bother you again. She’s dead. I killed her.” Obi-Wan’s eyes widened, then his shoulders slumped forward as he covered his eyes with his hand and was silent. Anakin could offer no comfort; he could only wait and watch, and hope Obi-Wan quickly recovered from the shock. * His initial disbelief was quickly tempered by sorrow and regret. Dead? Ventress was dead? The Jedi master closed his eyes as the realization sank in, glad he was sitting down; it saved him from buckling at the knees. Dead! He had been all but certain that the Force wished him, on its behalf, to help her find her way to light. Redemption and forgiveness were beyond her now. She was dead, like Aidus before her. Dead – yet even dead, he wasn’t sure she would never haunt his dreams again. “I – see.” His words were soft, even to himself. He blinked and let his voice grow stronger as he gathered the Force about him. “Dead? This – distresses me, but, I know how dangerous she was and I did not expect you to not to protect yourself. Still, I am sorry she is dead – I wished for her to know something besides evil in her life.” He had hoped for understanding when he raised his eyes to meet Anakin’s, but the sorrow he felt was not reflected there. Anakin’s eyes had only grown hard and his voice clipped. “Don’t mourn her, Master; she was a danger, to us all. To you. As long as she lived I would worry about her pursuing you and the next time possibly killing you. You are better off with her dead. Her death was necessary.” Obi-Wan spoke more sharply than he intended, but Anakin’s words worried him. “I am never ‘better off’ because someone died, Padawan. You err if that is your assumption.” He rubbed a hand over his eyes and sighed. “Very well, return to Coruscant right away to present your report if you’re not ready to transmit it yet. I don’t need the details now; I will pass on this information to the Council tomorrow. Have a safe journey, my padawan, and may the Force be with you.” Anakin studied him a moment, apparently still concerned, then nodded sharply as if reassured and signed off. Obi-Wan sighed and rubbed his chin, not sure what emotion predominated: relief that Anakin was safe or regret that Ventress lived no longer. A pair of arms came around his neck as he switched the comlink off. “I heard, Obi-Wan. Are you okay? You’re shivering, come back to bed where it’s warm,” Siri urged, wrapping the Force around him as she wrapped her arms around him. Instead, he leaned back against her, reaching up to pat her hands with his. “I’m fine, Siri, I’m fine except - Ventress will never have a chance to know the light of the Force now.” His words were soft and sad as he twisted his head around to look up at her. “At least Anakin is safe for which I am most grateful.” With a little shake of his head, he stood up and curled a hand around one of Siri’s as she led him back to bed. After tucking Siri in, he sat down next to her and stared off into the distance. * Siri propped herself up one elbow and rubbed his back with the other hand, feeling the tension in his muscles. The scars were gone now, the skin smooth to her fingers and he no longer flinched when touched unexpectedly. He was essentially whole again, but his mind was still troubled, obviously. “If you’re truly fine, what then bothers you, Obi-Wan? Anakin is right, she was a danger, and we’re all safer now.” Obi-Wan finally looked at her. “I don’t like Anakin’s casual attitude towards her death. ‘Necessary.’ That woman died never having known anything but pain. Such a waste.” “She was too far gone to see the light, wasn‘t she? Truthfully? You think by redeeming her you can redeem yourself, don’t you, even though you have nothing to reproach yourself for.” “You didn’t hear her when I took her master’s lightsaber – see her eyes,” he replied, finally. He passed a hand over his chin, wondering how to explain. It wasn’t for himself he had wanted her. It was for the Anakin who might have been, the Ventress who had come to be. In the end, it came down to one simple truth. “She hadn’t been consumed by the dark side. There was a chance for her.” “I’m sorry, Obi-Wan.” Strangely, she was. Sorry for the woman who had almost killed the man she loved, and sorry for the woman whom that man thought salvageable Sorry for Obi-Wan, who even now mourned her, the woman responsible for brutalizing him. For several minutes they sat there, Siri kneading Obi-Wan’s shoulder and neck until she felt him relax under her hands. “You can worry about it tomorrow; tonight, just get back under the covers and sleep, okay love?” She brushed a kiss against his neck, slipping her arms under his and reaching up to clasp the front of his shoulders as she leaned into him. * “Okay,” and a crooked grin slowly broke over his face as he fought free of his regrets that a woman as full of pain as Ventress had never had a chance to know the light. Anakin didn’t understand, neither did Siri. They only saw his pain and suffering as etched on his body. He had seen the same, etched in Ventress’s soul. Siri’s concern washed over him, a soft caress against his mind, and the best way to alleviate that with her was with teasing. “You did rather wear me out earlier,” he said, leaning over her and planting a firm kiss on her lips before settling in. He reached a finger over and brushed it against her lips. “Maybe again… in the morning.” He grinned slyly at her and winked. Siri pressed in against him and threw an arm across him as one of his curled around her. She was soon asleep, but it was some time before Obi-Wan drifted off. The eyes of a child – a young Ventress – terrified and grief-stricken – continued to blaze in his mind’s eye, even with eyelids closed. -----signature----- http://boards.theforce.net/fan_fiction_resource/b10304/25405090/p3/?52 Prolific Author thread: list & links there. Muse fueled by coffee. Often AWOL despite frequent sipping. Writes on inspiration, not a schedule. 2007-2008 the quality years
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Gkilkenny Registered: Mar '04	Date Posted: 7/9 5:03am Subject: Truths of the Heart. AU, Romance, Humor Updated 0709. Obi mourns Ventress, Siri consoles him
	Obi-Wan spoke more sharply than he intended, but Anakin’s words worried him. “I am never ‘better off’ because someone died, Padawan. You err if that is your assumption.” Obi-Wan's heart is so pure he believes there is good in everyone. Including his Padawan. It is a shame that Anakin can't see that goodness also. Wonderful description of Obi and Siri being normal and loving life. -----signature----- Proud Padawan to p_stotts Peace over anger - honour over hate - Strength over fear. Links to Stories in my Bio. Obi-Wan forever.
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p_stotts Registered: Jan '01	Date Posted: 7/9 5:18am Subject: Truths of the Heart. AU, Romance, Humor Updated 0709. Obi mourns Ventress, Siri consoles him
	Anakin's words should worry you, Obi-Wan. Wake up! Quit worrying about Ventress and take a closer look at your own padawan. His soul is the one you can redeem, if only you'd see it for what it is! Ack! pulls at hair Why can't these fictional characters listen to sound advice? Oh yeah. Because they're fictional characters. gives Val a sly look Fanfic authors are another thing altogether. Please give Obi a clue. He certainly needs one where Anakin is concerned. Honestly, how can he not see problems with Anakin's attitude? As much of a stick-in-the-mud as Windu is, at least he views Anakin more realistically. -----signature----- How many of you believe in psycho-kinesis? Raise my hand. - Larry the Cable Guy Proud master to Gkilkenny! Stories in my bio.
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MiralukaJedi Registered: May '08	Date Posted: 7/9 6:55am Subject: Truths of the Heart. AU, Romance, Humor Updated 0709. Obi mourns Ventress, Siri consoles him
	Very nicely done. Looks to me like Obi-Wan might have the first hint that Anakin might be in a bit of trouble with the dark side. Hopefully it's more than just a passing hint for everyone's sake. -----signature----- I'm amusing, if only to myself ~ a twisted sense of humour can do that to a person :; Call and Answer~ http://boards.theforce.net/beyond_the_saga/b10477/28668422/p1/?3 I, Exile~ http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/29148129/p13
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Veloz Registered: Aug '04	Date Posted: 7/9 8:14am Subject: Truths of the Heart. AU, Romance, Humor Updated 0709. Obi mourns Ventress, Siri consoles him
	I'm not surprised by Obi-Wan's reaction. Is very much in his character to care for everyone, even Ventress, no matter how much harm she did to him, he would always believe there was hope for her because of what he saw. It was good that Siri was there for him when he found out. One could only hope Obi-Wan would see more of Anakin's darkness before it's too late... Wonderful chapter as usual -----signature----- "Hello there!" "Remember the Force will be with you..always" - Obi Wan Kenobi, ANH "Who's the more foolish...the fool or the fool who follows him?"- Obi Wan Kenobi, ANH
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Raptor517 Registered: Sep '06	Date Posted: 7/9 8:23am Subject: Truths of the Heart. AU, Romance, Humor Updated 0709. Obi mourns Ventress, Siri consoles him
	If there's anything we've learned from star wars, falling rarely means death. Except with Windu. There's always something to catch. I'm convinced Ventress is alive. Raptor517 -----signature----- Piercing the Darkness http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/28010631/p1/?1 His Brother's Words http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/26020497/p1/?3 Metamorphosis http://boards.theforce.net/the_saga/b10476/24997946/p5/?7 Intelligence vs Canon htt
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earlybird-obi-wan Registered: Aug '06	Date Posted: 7/9 8:28am Subject: Truths of the Heart. AU, Romance, Humor Updated 0709. Obi mourns Ventress, Siri consoles him
	“I’m fine, Siri, I’m fine except - Ventress will never have a chance to know the light of the Force now.” His words were soft and sad as he twisted his head around to look up at her. “At least Anakin is safe for which I am most grateful.” With a little shake of his head, he stood up and curled a hand around one of Siri’s as she led him back to bed. After tucking Siri in, he sat down next to her and stared off into the distance. That's Obi-Wan mourning Ventress and so unlike his Padawan And is she dead? Great update -----signature----- writer and Star Wars fan FANART [link=http://boards.theforce.net/fan_art/b10020/25793899]fanart[/link] stories in my bio
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VaderLVR64 Title: Manager Emeritus Registered: Feb '04	Date Posted: 7/13 6:06am Subject: Truths of the Heart. AU, Romance, Humor Updated 0709. Obi mourns Ventress, Siri consoles him
	Obi-Wan spoke more sharply than he intended, but Anakin’s words worried him. “I am never ‘better off’ because someone died, Padawan. You err if that is your assumption.” This is such a clear indication of Obi-Wan's character, and the difference between him and Anakin. Beautifully done, as always! -----signature----- R.I.P John, Alex, Jason, and Christian Never forgotten Soldiers' Angels http://soldiersangels.org/ 2114 soldiers waiting for someone to care
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Valairy_Scot Registered: Sep '05	Date Posted: 7/15 8:07am Subject: Truths of the Heart. AU, Romance, Humor Updated 0709. Obi mourns Ventress, Siri consoles him
	Gkilkenny: Oh, Anakin sees that goodness but sees it as a weakness. P_Stotts: Anakin's words should worry you, Obi-Wan. Wake up! Quit worrying about Ventress and take a closer look at your own padawan. His soul is the one you can redeem, if only you'd see it for what it is! <hands on hips> Now, Peggy, if Obi-Wan were perfect, he’d be a “Gary Stu.” We might think he’s capable of walking of water – but he’d probably drown if we asked him to try (notwithstanding his firm adherence to "Try, there is no try. Do."). He is blind to certain things, lets things slid he should not, maybe cracks down on things he should let slid. He's supposed to be a real person, a noble, good-hearted person, but still a person. I'd be terribly disappointed if my readers thought I wrote him without flaws. MiralukaJedi: Well, we’ll see what wakes Obi-Wan up. (Open to suggestions, actually, though I have a few semi-written ideas in the sequel. I really need something to tip Obi off about Palps, though, about the time Anakin is - perhaps - to be turned and no, it doesn't involve the Jedi posse scene from the moveie.) Veloz: Maybe Siri will clue the clueless in. She sees Anakin rather more clearly than Obi-Wan. Raptor517: So, you are convinced? Bet that’s based on the comic, right? Earlybird-obi-wan: Dead? Well, I’d think so. She fell. Anakin believes she’s dead. VaderLVR64: Yup, big difference between Obi-Wan and Anakin. Remember Anakin wants to protect others from harm, while in some respects I think Obi-Wan wants to protect others from harming themselves, which in turn protects those same others. -----signature----- http://boards.theforce.net/fan_fiction_resource/b10304/25405090/p3/?52 Prolific Author thread: list & links there. Muse fueled by coffee. Often AWOL despite frequent sipping. Writes on inspiration, not a schedule. 2007-2008 the quality years
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Valairy_Scot Registered: Sep '05	Date Posted: 7/15 6:49pm Subject: Truths of the Heart. AU, Romance, Humor Updated 0709. Obi mourns Ventress, Siri consoles him
	Chapter 35 continued “Put all you went through behind you have, strong once more in the Force,” Yoda grunted as he and Obi-Wan together left a Council meeting. “Sense a quiet contentment in you, I do. At peace in the Force you are now.” “My captivity is all but behind me now,” Obi-Wan said. “I admit Anakin’s calls, coming at night unexpectedly disturbed me, but other than that I’ve been free of disturbing memories for a while now. Now that both Aidus and Ventress are dead…I guess there’s nothing to bring it all back up. The mind healers have given me their full release as well.” “Good, that is good,” Yoda said. “Yet soon back in battle you will be; such contentment can’t last.” “We’re Jedi. We practice serenity; we don’t live it,” Obi-Wan returned dryly. “Duty has always called us away. We, as always, serve others.” “Yes, yes, that is so. Knew I did that encouraging you to follow your heart with ‘Master’ Tachi would not interfere with your devotion to duty and to the Force. Tell her, shall you?” It had been one of the day’s agenda items. Several padawans were to be allowed to take the trials and Knight Tachi was to be granted the rank of master. “It is not my place to tell her,” Obi-Wan returned, surprised. “It is either Master Windu’s as head of the Council or Master Gallia as her former master.” “Or yours as her lover,” Yoda chortled, as a faint blush spread over Obi-Wan’s face. “Neuro-biochemical processes ‘akin to physical bonding’ as Healer Neille delicately put it, is that which restored your midis. A Force bond you have as well; will of the Force for you together to be. Glad I am that my advice you followed, sought comfort in her arms. Healed you are, happy and at peace, yet no less the Jedi than ever you were. Right I was.” His stick reached out and gently tapped Obi-Wan’s shoulder. “But no making out in speeders like your padawan when the age of consent he reached.” “Oh, Force,” Obi-Wan said almost inaudibly. He gulped; how many knew of Anakin’s obviously public indiscretion? He relaxed as he realized had knowledge of this been wide spread, it would have somehow been all over the Holonet. “Tried manfully he did, but no control he had. Took pity on him, used the Force to drop him at his quarters and sent young lady home to her master as well, I did.” That night, the age of his majority! His padawan had been rather – rumpled – as if he had been, rather literally, caught with his pants down and not given much time to make himself presentable. That half-delighted, half-ashamed grin along with the swagger in his Force signature had made Anakin of a mind to lecture his master on the delights of maturity before his excess of celebratory intoxicants had made him more of a mind to get rather well acquainted with a porcelain bowl rather than a female. Rather to his master’s relief. “A few flings your padawan managed to have, not serious were they so allowed they were. Prefer not to interfere I do unless necessary. Turned a blind eye we did to Tahl and Qui-Gon; discreet they were and their relationship within bounds, until the very end.” Yoda sighed, his ears curling under, before his eyes crinkled with hidden amusement. He nudged at Obi-Wan’s ankle with his stick, just a nudge that Obi-Wan didn’t bother to dodge as they seated themselves on a bench in the Room of a Thousand Fountains, a preferred place to converse for both. “Know about them, did you?” Obi-Wan grinned, remembering his embarrassment at his master’s matter-of-fact – and short – talk with him when the truth had come out. “I think I was fifteen or sixteen or so when I figured the two of them out and when he realized that, I got a lecture on the need for a Jedi to separate pleasure from the emotions of it along with a firm admonition that I was too young to even be thinking of such things. Having no such thoughts, I think I just gaped at him; then he ruffled my hair like I was a youngling and told me to do my homework and avoid females for a few years more.” His amusement faded as he thought of the consequences of that relationship: the pain and the grief that had nearly consumed his master upon Tahl’s death. Had it been a natural death, it might not have torn Qui-Gon so apart. He had been so helpless: a bystander to all that pain in that dark night of the soul that threatened his master’s very being. “Had you as an anchor he did,” Yoda nodded. “Much like you had Siri as you faced the darkness so recently yourself.” Obi-Wan blinked and slowly shook his head. “I was of no comfort to Qui-Gon. I could only then serve as a reminder of what he lost and why; it was my injury that slowed us down. It was perhaps fortunate he barely knew I existed for some time, so lost was he.” He had so desperately wished he could help Qui-Gon; he could offer nothing the man needed or wanted. Yearning to help, all he could do was watch and worry as grief scrawled across Qui-Gon’s soul. “Found his way, he did, with your help.” “No, with the Force’s help,” Obi-Wan corrected, still thankful even after all these years that something – anything - had finally assuaged his master’s pain. “With the help of the Living Force, yes,” Yoda agreed, tilting his head to one side as he peered thoughtfully at the younger Jedi. “Looked inward Qui-Gon did, but the Force was stronger than his grief, powered as it was by his padawan’s concern, his friends – the memory of Tahl herself. Dragged him even deeper into his heart did the Force until he saw again love: that of Tahl who would not wish him to follow the path he was on – and of those yet living that remained at his side to comfort him.” A little sigh escaped Obi-Wan’s lips. Had not the thoughts of and the memory of those he cared for given him the strength to battle the mask? Yet he had not faced the same pain as his master; on Rattatuk he battled evil, not grief. Could he withstand the loss of those near and dear to him, of Siri, of Anakin, especially if torn from him by evil? “I am not as strong as Qui-Gon….” His words were not so soft that Yoda did not hear. “Fear you might follow a similar path, you do?” The ancient master’s eyes widened with surprise; he sighed and leaned forward, patting Obi-Wan’s hand. “Unlike your master, strong you are in the Unifying Force, balanced. Thoughts of future consequences shall as always stay your hand even if the pain felt in the Living Force urges you to action, should such a situation ever arise. Be vigilant, Obi-Wan, but do not be afraid to love. Loss we all suffer, yet our very losses are the Force’s gain and thus not a loss at all. Know this you do, deep within. Protect you this knowledge will as well.” Had he not affirmed that very knowledge before the funeral pyres? Obi-Wan folded his arms within his sleeves and slowly nodded. The ability to see the wider repercussions of his actions or lack of had always separated him from Qui-Gon, who tended to see only the here and now. Had the knowledge of how close to the edge grief had driven him been the catalyst for his master’s even greater grasp onto the Living Force and his insistence that his padawan follow as best he could? “The Force showed him what he had left, and what awaited him regardless of which path he followed,” Yoda murmured as if he had discerned the younger man’s train of thought. “Chose, Qui-Gon did, to interpret what he was shown in the context of what he knew best. Not incorrect he was, yet the sum he missed.” “So you’re saying –“ “That love drove Qui-Gon nearly to the dark, yes; that a greater love saved Qui-Gon; a love for all that you do not have to seek for within you it has always dwelt whether you have known it or not. Let love go you can, because inside you know it cannot truly go except into the Force, and thus it remains within you for all time.” Obi-Wan nodded mutely; while his mind was somewhat eased with Yoda’s words, he also knew he would never truly know the consequences of his love, whether for Siri, his padawan, or truly, anyone, until he was forced to face the loss of that love. Was that the purpose of his vision, if a vision it had truly been? If not a vision of a possible future, could it have been a warning to face and acknowledge his heart – to see it as both a strength and a weakness? Perhaps – or perhaps it was only a remnant of the nightmares only thought vanquished, triggered by the reminder of the impermanence of mortal life as he had stood before the flames. “Doubt me do you – or yourself?” Yoda peered at him thoughtfully before leaning forward and tapping the younger Jedi’s knee. “Know your heart and mind almost better than you, I do. Doubt me not. Always I have seen in you what you are now discovering in yourself since your release and recovery from captivity. Your heart, Obi-Wan, trust it; your strength and a gift of the Force it is when in balance with your mind.” “Not my heart alone,” he murmured. It was the hearts of all those he held within him that had saved him – Qui-Gon, Anakin, Bant – Siri. It was they who strengthened him. His strength was not his own and never had been. He was never alone: yes, he had the Force, but he had so much more than that as well. When he faltered, he had someone – he had always had someone. He cleared his throat, still somewhat reticent to speak of what he felt deeply, covered by a hint of mischief that sparked in his eyes “Love…Master Yoda, love was the weapon that freed me from that mask.” “Ah, know that now you do.” Yoda nodded, as if he had known all along. Obi-Wan tilted his head questioningly. He had never really spoken of how he had defeated the mask except to Siri – he hadn’t even known the truth himself until just recently. Yoda waved a clawed hand in slight amusement. “Gleaned much I did through the Force. Speak we must still of both your victory over the mask and your vision; after you meditate on my words.” “Yes, Master.” Perhaps it was the touch of cheekiness in his reply that had Yoda grunting noncommittally at him. Obi-Wan knew the accompanying look well; he had used it on his own padawan. Now he rather felt like the padawan. Yoda softened his gaze, though his voice was still solemn. It was the voice he used when imparting a lesson no Jedi dared not heed. “Remember, Obi-Wan, remember this well: love can be a two-edged sword, but wielded in the hands of one who loves unselfishly, it has the power to defeat the dark. It has done so once; it can do so once more.” The two Jedi locked gazes: one very earnest and one somewhat dazed. “Your strength, Obi-Wan, you must remember that. Save us all it yet may.” Had he really heard Yoda correctly? Had he really meant to imply – that Obi-Wan… the Jedi shook his head in disbelief, certain he had mistaken the implication of those words as Yoda nodded ever so gently at him. He just hoped he would have the strength that Yoda seemed to believe he had – and wonder why Yoda seemed to subtly emphasize love as if it were a weapon Obi-Wan might someday wield. -----signature----- http://boards.theforce.net/fan_fiction_resource/b10304/25405090/p3/?52 Prolific Author thread: list & links there. Muse fueled by coffee. Often AWOL despite frequent sipping. Writes on inspiration, not a schedule. 2007-2008 the quality years
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	“With the help of the Living Force, yes,” Yoda agreed, tilting his head to one side as he peered thoughtfully at the younger Jedi. “Looked inward Qui-Gon did, but the Force was stronger than his grief, powered as it was by his padawan’s concern, his friends – the memory of Tahl herself. Dragged him even deeper into his heart did the Force until he saw again love: that of Tahl who would not wish him to follow the path he was on – and of those yet living that remained at his side to comfort him.” A little sigh escaped Obi-Wan’s lips. Had not the thoughts of and the memory of those he cared for given him the strength to battle the mask? Yet he had not faced the same pain as his master; on Rattatuk he battled evil, not grief. Could he withstand the loss of those near and dear to him, of Siri, of Anakin, especially if torn from him by evil? “I am not as strong as Qui-Gon….” His words were not so soft that Yoda did not hear. “Fear you might follow a similar path, you do?” The ancient master’s eyes widened with surprise; he sighed and leaned forward, patting Obi-Wan’s hand. “Unlike your master, strong you are in the Unifying Force, balanced. Thoughts of future consequences shall as always stay your hand even if the pain felt in the Living Force urges you to action, should such a situation ever arise. Be vigilant, Obi-Wan, but do not be afraid to love. Loss we all suffer, yet our very losses are the Force’s gain and thus not a loss at all. Know this you do, deep within. Protect you this knowledge will as well.” so true and “Remember, Obi-Wan, remember this well: love can be a two-edged sword, but wielded in the hands of one who loves unselfishly, it has the power to defeat the dark. It has done so once; it can do so once more.” The two Jedi locked gazes: one very earnest and one somewhat dazed. “Your strength, Obi-Wan, you must remember that. Save us all it yet may.” that's what saved Obi on Azure. Superb update -----signature----- writer and Star Wars fan FANART [link=http://boards.theforce.net/fan_art/b10020/25793899]fanart[/link] stories in my bio
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