Author Topic: A Thousand Apologies
Raphire  397 posts
Registered: Dec '08
46177_Malcolm Reynolds
Date Posted: 1/1 11:05am Subject: A Thousand Apologies
Hey. This is my best Sonfic so far so please read.
Enjoy!




A Thousand Apologies
By Demon Hunter

Anakin talking to Obi-wan.


There you stood in disbelief. Trying all you could to see through these lies.

You watched me kill her.

And every word that I could breathe. Would find you more inclined to leave. But I tried.

And then I blamed everything on you.

And knowing what I’ve done to you. With every thought you suffer through.

Deep down inside I knew this was tearing you apart, but in my anger I didn’t care.

My heart as black as evil can.

The darkness inside just took over

And everything I could have been. Erased by what I wanted then.

All hope for peace in the galaxy changed that day because of my selfish ambitions.

I couldn’t think a lesser man.

I don’t actually think that you’re weak because of what you chose.

All the delicate ways.
That I deepened our graves.
My apology pales.


After all I did. I can’t make it up to you can I?

Oh. The pain in your eyes.
My regrets have never known such sorrow.
Oh. The shame that you hide.
Resolutions are the same tomorrow.


I saw how hurt you were by my betrayal and I was glad, but now I look back…

So now I reap what I have sewn. And any rapture I had shown. Had bled dry.

But it’s too late. What’s done is done and I can’t do anything. For once I feel…. Helpless.

And I have walked the streets alone. Accepting pain I’d never known. As you died.

Now I’m numb to everything. I can slaughter babies in front of their families. And yet I can’t face you.

Then I hurt myself to see it too. To feel the knife I put in you.

I brought pain to myself. I willingly embraced it.

My heart as broken as my ways.

My wife and my master, they’re both gone. One dead to me and one in unity with the force.

I never should’ve let it pass. This fall was never meant to last.

I just wanted to taste a little of the Dark side. I didn’t mean for it to take over. I thought I could control it. Turn back when I was finished.

The reason gone and damage stays.

It stole reason, love, compassion, and respect from me and gave me power. Pure power.
Power to kill my wife, hurt those I loved, and wreck havoc on everything I held dear.

All the delicate ways.
That I deepened our graves.
My apology pales.


I brought your death to you and you just said “If you strike me down I’ll become more powerful than you could ever imagine.” And you did, ever since then you have been the only thing in my thoughts, replacing everything else.

Oh. The pain in your eyes.
My regrets have never known such sorrow.
Oh. The shame that you hide.
Resolutions are the same tomorrow.

Never had I thought a person could be hurt more then I had, but then I saw what this had done to you.

Oh. The pain in your eyes.
My regrets have never known such sorrow.
Oh. The shame that you hide.
Resolutions are the same tomorrow.


And as I lie here dying I ask for your forgiveness one final time before the end.

 

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amidalachick  5121 posts
Registered: Aug '03
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Date Posted: 1/1 12:21pm Subject: RE: A Thousand Apologies - Date Edited: 1/1 12:22pm (1 edits total) Edited By: amidalachick
cry I've never heard this song, but it's quite fitting.

It stole reason, love, compassion, and respect from me and gave me power. Pure power.
Power to kill my wife, hurt those I loved, and wreck havoc on everything I held dear.
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And as I lie here dying I ask for your forgiveness one final time before the end.


These were my favorite lines, although the whole thing was very touching.

Great work! applause

 

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NYCitygurl  28193 posts
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Date Posted: 1/1 6:59pm Subject: RE: A Thousand Apologies
Aww, this is so sad!! I love the last line especially; very moving.

 

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Raphire  397 posts
Registered: Dec '08
46177_Malcolm Reynolds
Date Posted: 1/3 12:38pm Subject: RE: A Thousand Apologies
Thank you! I glad you liked it. My only other songfic that is currantly posted is called Just my Imagination.
It isn't as good as this one but it has a good finishing line as well.

 

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DaenaBenjen42  4017 posts
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Date Posted: 1/3 7:24pm Subject: RE: A Thousand Apologies
I brought pain to myself. I willingly embraced it.

My heart as broken as my ways.

My wife and my master, they’re both gone. One dead to me and one in unity with the force.



Wow... I loved this look into Anakin as Vader and how time just seem to flow into itself through the song.

Well done, Raphire. happy

 

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Raphire  397 posts
Registered: Dec '08
46177_Malcolm Reynolds
Date Posted: 1/4 2:07pm Subject: RE: A Thousand Apologies
I know I get shivvers down my spine whenever I read it. It is a lot more potent if you listen to the song at the same time that your reading it. Oh it's sung by Demon Hunter by the way.

 

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VaderLVR64  30945 posts
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Date Posted: 1/13 4:25am Subject: RE: A Thousand Apologies
Beautifully done! cry applause

 

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Raphire  397 posts
Registered: Dec '08
46177_Malcolm Reynolds
Date Posted: 2/1 12:30pm Subject: RE: A Thousand Apologies
Thank You!

 

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Arwen4CJ  51 posts
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Date Posted: 6/21 12:31pm Subject: A Thousand Apologies
This is quite good

 

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Raphire  397 posts
Registered: Dec '08
46177_Malcolm Reynolds
Date Posted: 7/3 2:14pm Subject: A Thousand Apologies
Thank you! I'm glad you liked it.

 

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*I swallowed a bug.*
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CrystalSaber_1  158 posts
Registered: Dec '08
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Date Posted: 7/4 11:42am Subject: A Thousand Apologies
Wow! Great job Raphire! applause

 

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Raphire  397 posts
Registered: Dec '08
46177_Malcolm Reynolds
Date Posted: 7/25 9:53am Subject: A Thousand Apologies
Thank you very much. Glad you enjoyed it.

 

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*I swallowed a bug.*
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Ceillean  4793 posts
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Date Posted: 9/21 1:56pm Subject: A Thousand Apologies - Date Edited: 9/21 1:59pm (1 edits total) Edited By: Ceillean
First I had to listen to the song, of course. Thank the Force for youtube. tongue
The song is great, by the way.

The songfic was sad. I read it twice and I really like it.
You see a part of Vader and a part of Anakin. His feelings of wanting to change what he's done but knowing that he can't.

Wonderful job.

applause

 

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Gkilkenny  3700 posts
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Date Posted: 9/21 9:08pm Subject: A Thousand Apologies
You did it very well. cool

Oh. The pain in your eyes.
My regrets have never known such sorrow.
Oh. The shame that you hide.
Resolutions are the same tomorrow.

And as I lie here dying I ask for your forgiveness one final time before the end.



And in the end he found forgiveness and joined his Master standing side by side, watching over Luke and Leia.

Brilliant applause

 

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