VaderLVR64 posted:Tonight I sat on the bunk I share with the now two other members of my group and sobbed. I know I shouldn't have. I know I should be stronger. I was trained for this, but something about today seems worse. I'm lost. Lost in a sea of me. Very powerful writing!
CT-770492A3 posted:Somehow, these entries keep getting more and more profound... I could have pushed him aside, stepped in front. I could've done something. I just stood there and watched him be killed. Perhaps the most dangerous action is inaction. (Though in this case it just sounds like guilt over something out of his control.) I think I forgot to mention this before - if you have a PM list, please add me to it.
Corellian_Ale posted: I removed his helmet to get a good look at him after he had gone. It was like staring into a mirror which wouldn't stare back. *sigh* Very poignant.
Takianna posted:They are not the machines that many people think they are and I think that is what is starting to attract me to the clones. They really are people who are just like us, but they can really use a weapon...
Takianna posted:Entry 10 I've been referred to the medical ward due to my emotional state since E'Chin's death. My mind is failing and I can't stop it. Today they are running a few tests to see what could be wrong. So far, there has been no sign from the medical droids that there is anything wrong with me physically. I could tell them what is wrong with me. I'm sick. I'm tired of fighting. I don't even know what I'm really fighting for. Is the Republic any better than the Seps? I mean will I have rights and privileges under Republic rule that I won't have under the Seps? I don't think I'll ever get rights. In fact, I'm sure of it. My head hurts from all the thinking. Maybe the rapid aging process has made my brain about to explode. I just don't know anymore. Hopefully these tests will be over soon and I can go back to doing what I do best even though it is what makes me feel this sick, being a merciless face in the crowd.
AzureAngel2 posted:Takianna posted:They are not the machines that many people think they are and I think that is what is starting to attract me to the clones. They really are people who are just like us, but they can really use a weapon... Takianna posted:Entry 10 I've been referred to the medical ward due to my emotional state since E'Chin's death. My mind is failing and I can't stop it. Today they are running a few tests to see what could be wrong. So far, there has been no sign from the medical droids that there is anything wrong with me physically. I could tell them what is wrong with me. I'm sick. I'm tired of fighting. I don't even know what I'm really fighting for. Is the Republic any better than the Seps? I mean will I have rights and privileges under Republic rule that I won't have under the Seps? I don't think I'll ever get rights. In fact, I'm sure of it. My head hurts from all the thinking. Maybe the rapid aging process has made my brain about to explode. I just don't know anymore. Hopefully these tests will be over soon and I can go back to doing what I do best even though it is what makes me feel this sick, being a merciless face in the crowd. This up-date proves that also the ´perfect clones´ of Jango Fett can be as traumatized as any normal human being. They suffer from their experiences of this dreadful war like anybody else: loss of family members and friends, tough combat situations and so much destruction...
VaderLVR64 posted:I could tell them what is wrong with me. I'm sick. I'm tired of fighting. I don't even know what I'm really fighting for. Is the Republic any better than the Seps? I mean will I have rights and privileges under Republic rule that I won't have under the Seps? I don't think I'll ever get rights. In fact, I'm sure of it. Love the thought processes here! And so right.
MsLanna posted:Uh-oh, starting to think is not something a clone is supposed to do. It can only lead to sorrow... Seppies might be the better choise, after all, they use droids to fight and he could get a neat offcie job.
