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Saga Weakness And Strength (AU Obidala OR AU Obi-Wan/OFC -- you choose! COMPLETE!

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  1. GEN_MASSIMO

    GEN_MASSIMO Jedi Youngling star 2

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    AUTHOR?S FOREWORD:

    Hello there!

    This story was originally written as on Obidala story, but then it was re-written as an Obi-Wan/OFC because some readers on another site complained about the Padmé/Obi-Wan affair. So?I decided to post both the versions here and let the readers decide which version they prefer to read.
    Have fun!

    You can see the story cover here:[image=http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v230/GeneraleMassimo/WeaknessandStrength2.jpg] Click on the image to see the cover art better.

    Thanks Ticklesivory!
     
  2. GEN_MASSIMO

    GEN_MASSIMO Jedi Youngling star 2

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    Weakness And Strength-- OBIDALA Version
    Author: Lincoln_6_Echo, formerly GEN_MASSIMO
    Genre: romance, Obidala
    rating: PG-13
    Summary: Obi-Wan's discovery of his real feelings for Padme' and his inner struggle about how express them without breaking his Jedi vows.
    Author?s note: this is an AU where Anakin never fell in love with Padmé and never turned to the dark side. The story begins about one yeas after Darth Sidious? death and the end of the Clone Wars.
    This story was inspired by the Freddie Mercury/Montserrat Caballé's song "The Fallen Priest", more precisely by these three lines:"A life of sacrifice controls me// but the promises I made// no longer hold me.
    There are also a few spoilers for the novel ?Secrets Of The Jedi.?

    PART 1

    The Temple gardens were enveloped by darkness and silence, which was not broken even by Coruscant?s heavy traffic. The sky was clouded and just a shaft of moonlight lightened the path between bushes and trees.

    It was a beautiful place, peaceful and full of Living Force, but still unable to bring serenity to Obi-Wan Kenobi?s tormented soul.

    The Jedi Master should feel happy and satisfied, for things could not go better for himself and the Order.

    The Sith had been destroyed once and for all more than a year before and the veil of darkness Palpatine had created had vanished, allowing the Jedi to foresee a luminous future stretching in front of the Order.

    The Clone Wars had ended with the capture of the Separatist leaders and the Republic was slowly but surely recovering from the devastation and the destruction.

    Anakin had finally overcome his anger and impulsivity to become the great Jedi Qui-Gon and Obi-Wan had always thought he could and would be. He had taken his first Padawan two months before and was now learning in the hard way how difficult it was to teach calm and control to a young, hyperactive child.

    Yes, Obi-Wan should have been happy, but he was not.

    He had never felt more miserable, not even in the aftermath of Qui-Gon?s death, when he had blamed and reprimanded himself for not having been fast enough, and for having left his master alone.

    Obi-Wan knew very well the reason of his torment.

    It had a name.

    Senator and Vice-Chancellor Amidala.

    Padmé.
    Amidala, with her devotion to the Republic, her razor-sharp mind, skilled diplomacy and incredible courage.

    Padmé, with her sunny laugh, bright brown eyes, shining chestnut hair and the smooth skin that begged to be stroked and caressed.

    Even now Obi-Wan?s hands twitched with the desire to touch her, and he folded them inside the sleeves of his robe, resolutely ignoring their shaking.

    He was in love with Padmé Amidala.

    No, being in love presupposed the possibility one could fall out of love, but it was not Obi-Wan?s case.

    He loved Padmé with all the depth and the intent of a man who had always committed everything he was in what he believed in ? and that was where the problem lay, the reason he had spent part of the last few nights walking the deserted halls of the Temple.

    Had it been just a passing infatuation, Obi-Wan would have not minded it. Granted, he was a Jedi, but he was also a man, with all his senses in perfect health. Being devoted to a life of sacrifices for a greater good did not mean he had stopped feeling. Physical attraction was an integral part of being human, and controlling it was a test for every Jedi, a test he had always passed since the day he and Siri Tachi had decided to break their affair, more than twenty years before.

    Yes, physical attraction was something Obi-Wan could control well, but it had been different with Padmé.

    The alarm bells had never rung and by the time he had become aware of his feelings, it was already late, too late.

    In retrospect, Obi-Wan believed everything had started on Naboo, fourteen years ago.

    It had happened during another moon-lit night, in a garden similar to the one he was prowling now.
    He had gone there seeking reprieve from his loss, his pain and his guilt. He had gone there
     
  3. GEN_MASSIMO

    GEN_MASSIMO Jedi Youngling star 2

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    Weakness And Strength-- OBI-WAN/OFC Version

    Genre: romance
    rating: PG-13
    Summary: Obi-Wan's discovery of his real feelings for an old friend and his inner struggle about how express them without breaking his Jedi vows.
    Author?s note: this is an AU where Anakin never turned to the dark side. The story begins about one yeas after Darth Sidious? death and the end of the Clone Wars.
    This story was inspired by the Freddie Mercury/Montserrat Caballé's song "The Fallen Priest", more precisely by these three lines:"A life of sacrifice controls me// but the promises I made// no longer hold me."
    There are also a few spoilers for the novel ?Secrets Of The Jedi.?

    PART 1

    The Temple gardens were enveloped by darkness and silence, which was not broken even by Coruscant?s heavy traffic. The sky was clouded and just a shaft of moonlight lightened the path between bushes and trees.

    It was a beautiful place, peaceful and full of Living Force, but still unable to bring serenity to Obi-Wan Kenobi?s tormented soul.

    The Jedi Master should feel happy and satisfied, for things could not go better for himself and the Order.

    The Sith had been destroyed once and for all more than a year before and the veil of darkness Palpatine had created had vanished, allowing the Jedi to foresee a luminous future stretching in front of the Order.

    The Clone Wars had ended with the capture of the Separatist leaders and the Republic was slowly but surely recovering from the devastation and the destruction.

    Anakin had finally overcome his anger and impulsivity to become the great Jedi Qui-Gon and Obi-Wan had always thought he could and would be. He had taken his first Padawan two months before and was now learning in the hard way how difficult it was to teach calm and control to a young, hyperactive child.

    Yes, Obi-Wan should have been happy, but he was not.

    He had never felt more miserable, not even in the aftermath of Qui-Gon?s death, when he had blamed and reprimanded himself for not having been fast enough, and for having left his master alone.

    Obi-Wan knew very well the reason of his torment.

    It had a name.

    Senator and Vice-Chancellor Lianne Chavell.

    Senator Chavell of Wragran, with her devotion to the Republic, her razor-sharp mind, skilled diplomacy and great courage.

    Lianne, with her sunny laugh, bright brown eyes, shining chestnut-red hair and the smooth, pale skin that begged to be stroked and caressed.

    Even now Obi-Wan?s hands twitched with the desire to touch her, and he folded them inside the sleeves of his robe, resolutely ignoring their shaking.

    He was in love with Lianne Chavell.

    No, being in love presupposed the possibility one could fall out of love, but it was not Obi-Wan?s case.

    He loved Lianne with all the depth and the intent of a man who had always committed everything he was in what he believed in ? and that was where the problem lay, the reason he had spent part of the last few nights walking the deserted halls of the Temple.

    Had it been just a passing infatuation, Obi-Wan would have not minded it. Granted, he was a Jedi, but he was also a man, with all his senses in perfect health. Being devoted to a life of sacrifices for a greater good did not mean he had stopped feeling. Physical attraction was an integral part of being human, and controlling it was a test for every Jedi, a test he had always passed since the day he and Siri Tachi had decided to break their affair, more than twenty years before.

    Yes, physical attraction was something Obi-Wan could control well, but it had been different with Lianne.

    The alarm bells had never rung and by the time he had become aware of his feelings, it was already late, too late.

    In retrospect, Obi-Wan believed everything had started on Wragran, ten years ago, when he and Anakin had been sent there to mediate a border dispute.

    Lianne had been a very young, junior diplomat back then, but Obi-Wan had been impressed by her dialectic skills and by her fierce love for her home world and the Republic.

    She too
     
  4. Magenta_Moonshadow

    Magenta_Moonshadow Jedi Master star 3

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    I can't decide - they're both very good! :)
     
  5. HandmaidenVeme

    HandmaidenVeme Jedi Padawan star 4

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    They're both written well and I can't decide...I'm more of an A/P fan at heart though. Either way both stories look to be very promising.

    Thanks for the PM!

    Happy Holidays!!!
     
  6. bek

    bek Jedi Master star 4

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    Jul 20, 2005
    I agree, you have done a great job in creating both aspects. =D=

    I also lean toward the Anakin/Padme relationship of the Saga. In my mind, I just can't see Obi-Wan/Padme as a couple.

    I cast my vote for Obi-Wan/Lianne Chavell. :)

    Thanks for the PM! ;)
     
  7. Mind_Tricked

    Mind_Tricked Jedi Youngling star 1

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    Dec 1, 2005
    The first parts were equally great! Please, don't make me choose!

    Whichever will you continue I can't wait for the next part. :)
     
  8. KELIA

    KELIA Manager Emeritus star 6 VIP - Former Mod/RSA

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    Great beginning.

    I have to say, I prefer the Obi/Lianne fic -I just don't see him with Padme. I always pictured their relationship as more of a brother/sister thing.

    That being said, I hope Obi-Wan looses up a bit and allows himslef to persue the relationship with Lianne.

    Thanks for the PM - please keep me on the list.

    =D= =D= =D= =D= =D=
     
  9. Windu2008

    Windu2008 Jedi Knight star 1

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    Jul 30, 2005
    Well, you know I was coming, didn't ya?

    I've got to say, when Obidala came in, I immediately rose out of my swivel chair to smite you. But, its well-written. However, whenever I think of Obidala, I wince. They were more good friends then anything. Go with the OFC.
     
  10. GEN_MASSIMO

    GEN_MASSIMO Jedi Youngling star 2

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    Then you don't have to decide! You can read them both! :)
     
  11. GEN_MASSIMO

    GEN_MASSIMO Jedi Youngling star 2

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    Happy Holidays to you too! As for the stories, they are basically the same things. I only changed a line here and there.
     
  12. GEN_MASSIMO

    GEN_MASSIMO Jedi Youngling star 2

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    :) This is not a poll. Both the story are complete and will be posted. You have just to read the version you prefer-- which, I hope, you will like!!
     
  13. GEN_MASSIMO

    GEN_MASSIMO Jedi Youngling star 2

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    You don't have to choose if you don't won't! and both the stories will be completed...they are already are.

    Happy reading!

     
  14. GEN_MASSIMO

    GEN_MASSIMO Jedi Youngling star 2

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    Obi-Wan will loose up...very much so. ;P
     
  15. GEN_MASSIMO

    GEN_MASSIMO Jedi Youngling star 2

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    Hi! I did not PM you for I was not sure you liked this kind of story.

    There is a reason behind my choice to use Padmé for the original version of the story.

    This story is not really an Obidala or an Obi-Wan/OFC. It is an Obi-Wan's story. It follows his POW, and it is about him, his feelings, his doubts, his needs to understand himself and what is happening to him. It is a character's study, for I tried to keep him as much in canon as possible. The lady involved is not really important and in the beginning I chose to "use" Padmé because she is a well known character, someone I did not need to describe or introduce to the readers, thus I could concentrate only on Obi-Wan.

    Then, when I decided to rewrite the story, I noticed I did not need to write very much about Lianne (which, BTW, is the name I gave to my Sith Obi-Wan's wife) to make her work in this story because, her role is important but not that important.

    However, I must say, I like well done Obidala stories. I have written a true Obidala titled "Ben", which I plan to post in the future. If it makes you fell less ready to smite, I will tell you it is very AU and there is no Anakin.


     
  16. GEN_MASSIMO

    GEN_MASSIMO Jedi Youngling star 2

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    PART 2 -- OBIDALA version


    Obi-Wan closed his eyes and let his memory re-live those events.

    The Senate meeting had just ended and Padmé and Obi-Wan had decided to take the longer way back to her apartment, catching the chance to take a walk in the pleasantly warm evening air.
    Things were going well in the Republic, but the Jedi Council had decided to keep the more important members of the new government under protection for the time being, thus it was rare for Padmè to be allowed to take a stroll along the several pathways and passages that led to her flat. But that evening Obi-Wan had finished his duty as councillor and interplanetary negotiator sooner than predicted, and finding himself with some spare time, he had decided replace the Vice-Chancellor?s usual protector, in order to be able to spend some time with his friend while he escorted her home.

    Once at her place, they had dinner together and then, since it was early and the Jedi on duty for the night had yet to arrive, they decided to settle on the couch to watch a holomovie, for they were both too mentally tired to play a game of strategy as they often did.

    Padmé?s choice fell on one of her favourites movies, a musical titled ?The Red Cantina?.

    ?It is a romantic story,? she said looking at Obi-Wan with an almost embarrassed expression, perhaps thinking a Jedi Master would find the movie silly or boring.

    Obi-Wan smiled and reassured her. ?Don?t worry, Padmé, I have no prejudices against romance,? he said quietly, before teasing her a bit. ?Even if I am surprised that you, Senator I-don?t-have-the-time-nor-the-inclination-for-a-relationship, like these kind of stories. As for myself, the only movies I cannot stand are those were the Jedi are showed doing impossible things, such like breathing fire or time-travelling.?

    ?Breathing fire? Why have never showed it to me?!? Padmé caught the chance to tease him back, before switching on the holovid and settling against the back of the couch.

    The movie was very well done and Obi-Wan lost himself in the love story between a Tatooine courtesan and a Coruscant idealistic poet.

    The two friends did not talk nor exchanged comments as they watched the movie, until a scene in which the idealist, romantic poet tried to convince the all-business courtesan to return his feelings by using the words of several well-known love songs.

    The scene had just ended when Padmé took her eyes away from the screen and shifting on the couch, turned to face Obi-Wan.

    ?Obi-Wan?? She began, her voice very soft and with no trace of her previous merriment. ?May I ask you a personal question??

    He looked at her and nodded. ?Of course,? he answered, curious about what she wished to know. His curiosity increased as Padmé seemed to struggle to find the words to express herself. It was very rare for her to remain wordless, and Obi-Wan felt the hair on his nape stand up in alarm. Suddenly, he had a bad feeling about the whole situation.

    Finally Padmé managed to formulate her question, making his eyes widen in surprise. ?Are Jedi allowed to love??

    Obi-Wan shook his head. ?No,? he answered, and was unsettled by the regret he could hear in his own voice.

    ?No?? she whispered. ?Why??

    ?Because attachment and possession lead to jealousy and anger, the pathways to the Dark Side.?
    In the same moment Obi-Wan enunciated the precepts of the Code, he realized, for the first time in his life how wrong or at least not completely true they were.

    Padmè, perceptive as usual, sensed his uncertainty. ?You don?t look too convinced.?

    Obi-Wan took a deep breath and said, very softly, as if he was talking with himself. ?I have always believed it and tried to obey the rules dictated by the Code, but now I cannot help but question them. I know I have loved Qui-Gon as a father and I love Anakin as a son and a brother. I was and I am deeply attached to them and yet this attachment has not led me to the Dark Side. To the contrary, the affection I feel for my friends has helped me to stay true to the Light in the hardest
     
  17. GEN_MASSIMO

    GEN_MASSIMO Jedi Youngling star 2

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    PART 2 ---OBI-WAn/OFC version

    Obi-Wan closed his eyes and let his memory re-live those events.

    The Senate meeting had just ended and Lianne and Obi-Wan had decided to take the longer way back to her apartment, catching the chance to take a walk in the pleasantly warm evening air.
    Things were going well in the Republic, but the Jedi Council had decided to keep the more important members of the new government under protection for the time being, thus it was rare for Lianne to be allowed to take a stroll along the several pathways and passages that led to her flat. But that evening Obi-Wan had finished his duty as councillor and interplanetary negotiator sooner than predicted, and finding himself with some spare time, he had decided replace the Vice-Chancellor?s usual protector, in order to be able to spend some time with his friend while he escorted her home.

    Once at her place, they had dinner together and then, since it was early and the Jedi on duty for the night had yet to arrive, they decided to settle on the couch to watch a holomovie, for they were both too mentally tired to play a game of strategy as they often did.

    Lianne?s choice fell on one of her favourites movies, a musical titled ?The Red Cantina?.

    ?It is a romantic story,? she said looking at Obi-Wan with an almost embarrassed expression, perhaps thinking a Jedi Master would find the movie silly or boring.

    Obi-Wan smiled and reassured her. ?Don?t worry, Lianne, I have no prejudices against romance,? he said quietly, before teasing her a bit. ?Even if I am surprised that you, Senator I-don?t-have-the-time-nor-the-inclination-for-a-relationship, like these kind of stories. As for myself, the only movies I cannot stand are those were the Jedi are showed doing impossible things, such like breathing fire or time-travelling.?

    ?Breathing fire? Why have never showed it to me?!? Lianne caught the chance to tease him back, before switching on the holovid and settling against the back of the couch.

    The movie was very well done and Obi-Wan lost himself in the love story between a Tatooine courtesan and a Coruscant idealistic poet.

    The two friends did not talk nor exchanged comments as they watched the movie, until a scene in which the idealist, romantic poet tried to convince the all-business courtesan to return his feelings by using the words of several well-known love songs.

    The scene had just ended when Lianne took her eyes away from the screen and shifting on the couch, turned to face Obi-Wan.

    ?Obi-Wan?? She began, her voice very soft and with no trace of her previous merriment. ?May I ask you a personal question??

    He looked at her and nodded. ?Of course,? he answered, curious about what she wished to know. His curiosity increased as Lianne seemed to struggle to find the words to express herself. It was very rare for her to remain wordless, and Obi-Wan felt the hair on his nape stand up in alarm. Suddenly, he had a bad feeling about the whole situation.

    Finally she managed to formulate her question, making his eyes widen in surprise. ?Are Jedi allowed to love??

    Obi-Wan shook his head. ?No,? he answered, and was unsettled by the regret he could hear in his own voice.

    ?No?? Lianne whispered. ?Why??

    ?Because attachment and possession lead to jealousy and anger, the pathways to the Dark Side.?
    In the same moment Obi-Wan enunciated the precepts of the Code, he realized, for the first time in his life how wrong or at least not completely true they were.

    Lianne, perceptive as usual, sensed his uncertainty. ?You don?t look too convinced.?

    Obi-Wan took a deep breath and said, very softly, as if he was talking with himself. ?I have always believed it and tried to obey the rules dictated by the Code, but now I cannot help but question them. I know I have loved Qui-Gon as a father and I love Anakin as a son and a brother. I was and I am deeply attached to them and yet this attachment has not led me to the Dark Side. To the contrary, the affection I feel for my friends has helped me to stay true to the Light in
     
  18. KELIA

    KELIA Manager Emeritus star 6 VIP - Former Mod/RSA

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    I'm impressed Obi-Wan managed to keep from loosing control of himself...

    That darn Jedi code!

    Great update!!

    =D= =D= =D= =D=
     
  19. HandmaidenVeme

    HandmaidenVeme Jedi Padawan star 4

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    BREAK THE CODE OBI-WAN
     
  20. Mind_Tricked

    Mind_Tricked Jedi Youngling star 1

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    Great update! I loved the part when Obi-Wan was fighting with himself. His will was impressive! YAY!

    But how longer can he deny his feelings? Poor thing..

    I can't wait to read more!=D=
     
  21. GEN_MASSIMO

    GEN_MASSIMO Jedi Youngling star 2

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    PART 3- OBIDALA version


    ?Would it be so bad, Obi-Wan??

    The voice, coming from behind his back, was familiar, despite the fact he had not heard it in fourteen years. It was the voice he had often hoped to hear during his most difficult moments.
    It was Qui-Gon?s voice, and Obi-Wan knew with absolute certainty he had not imagined it.
    He turned slowly around and found himself face to face with the faint, slightly transparent and glowing blue form of his late master.

    Obi-Wan grinned. A few years before, he had read a book about the Ancient Order of the Whills, people who were said to have mastered the power to retain their consciousness and even their physical forms when becoming one with the Force. The path to immortality was said to be long and hard, but he was not surprised to discover his headstrong master had been able to complete it.

    ?Master,? he said, with joy and respect.

    ?Padawan,? Qui-Gon replied. ?You have changed very much along the years, but the kindness in your eyes and soul is the same.?

    Obi-Wan felt a lump form in his throat and swallowed hard.

    There were so many things he wanted to say to his old mentor, so many memories he wanted to share, but he was only able to ask, ?Why are you here, Master?? Implicit in his words there was also another question, why did you not come before?

    Qui-Gon answered to both, with his calm, warm voice. ?The moment was not yet right, Obi-Wan. I returned from the netherworld four years ago, but the only one I have been able to commune with before this evening is Yoda. I have always wished to return to you, Padawan, and now your distress has helped me to find my way to you. I have come to see if I can help you, since you are not able to resolve the matter by yourself. Perhaps it might do good to you to talk about it with me.?

    Obi-Wan blushed and rubbed his beard. Yes, talking about it was a wise idea, but still it was so embarrassing to do it with his former teacher. He had always tried to be true to Qui-Gon?s teachings, but he knew he had left his master down more than once and-

    ?You have never disappointed me, Obi-Wan,? Qui-Gon interrupted his thoughts. ?I have watched you along the years and you have made me proud for how you have faced and passed the many trials life has put in front of you. You have trained Anakin to become a great Knight; you have played a very important role in the Clone Wars and in the unravelling of Palpatine?s plans and you are now helping the Republic return to its former splendour. You are really the wise and great Knight I thought you would one day become?a master worth to be listed among the greatest Jedi in the history of the Order.?

    ?I don?t deserve such praises, Master,? Obi-Wan commented, his voice low and self-deprecating. ?I have broken the Code, many a time.?

    Qui-Gon lowered to sit on the grass, gesturing the other man to do the same. Then he smiled and murmured, ?I know you have broken it, Obi-Wan, but it is not necessarily a wrong thing.?

    Obi-Wan?s raised his lowered head. ?What??

    ?Think about it, Padawan. You are berating yourself because you feel, because you love, because you have attachments. But, as you said to Padmé, it brought no evil to you. Instead, I believe your open affection helped Anakin to overcome his difficult past. How do you think he would have reacted, he a boy used to his mother?s love, had he been trusted in the care of a cold, emotionless master? Someone unable or unwilling to understand the boy and give him what he needed??

    Qui-Gon paused for a moment, giving Obi-Wan the time to ponder his questions, before he continued. ?It was your love that made the difference, Padawan. It made the difference with Anakin as it did with me.?

    He smiled at Obi-Wan?s surprised look and explained. ?What do you think would have become of me if you had not entered my life as a boy? It was your care, your affection that helped me to recover from the pain caused by Xanatos? turn and death, and by Thal?s loss. So no, Obi-Wan, in my eyes, your breaking the Code was not
     
  22. GEN_MASSIMO

    GEN_MASSIMO Jedi Youngling star 2

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    May 20, 2005
    PART 3 - OBI-WAN/OFC version



    ?Would it be so bad, Obi-Wan??

    The voice, coming from behind his back, was familiar, despite the fact he had not heard it in fourteen years. It was the voice he had often hoped to hear during his most difficult moments.
    It was Qui-Gon?s voice, and Obi-Wan knew with absolute certainty he had not imagined it.
    He turned slowly around and found himself face to face with the faint, slightly transparent and glowing blue form of his late master.

    Obi-Wan grinned. A few years before, he had read a book about the Ancient Order of the Whills, people who were said to have mastered the power to retain their consciousness and even their physical forms when becoming one with the Force. The path to immortality was said to be long and hard, but he was not surprised to discover his headstrong master had been able to complete it.

    ?Master,? he said, with joy and respect.

    ?Padawan,? Qui-Gon replied. ?You have changed very much along the years, but the kindness in your eyes and soul is the same.?

    Obi-Wan felt a lump form in his throat and swallowed hard.

    There were so many things he wanted to say to his old mentor, so many memories he wanted to share, but he was only able to ask, ?Why are you here, Master?? Implicit in his words there was also another question, why did you not come before?

    Qui-Gon answered to both, with his calm, warm voice. ?The moment was not yet right, Obi-Wan. I returned from the netherworld four years ago, but the only one I have been able to commune with before this evening is Yoda. I have always wished to return to you, Padawan, and now your distress has helped me to find my way to you. I have come to see if I can help you, since you are not able to resolve the matter by yourself. Perhaps it might do good to you to talk about it with me.?

    Obi-Wan blushed and rubbed his beard. Yes, talking about it was a wise idea, but still it was so embarrassing to do it with his former teacher. He had always tried to be true to Qui-Gon?s teachings, but he knew he had left his master down more than once and-

    ?You have never disappointed me, Obi-Wan,? Qui-Gon interrupted his thoughts. ?I have watched you along the years and you have made me proud for how you have faced and passed the many trials life has put in front of you. You have trained Anakin to become a great Knight; you have played a very important role in the Clone Wars and in the unravelling of Palpatine?s plans and you are now helping the Republic return to its former splendour. You are really the wise and great Knight I thought you would one day become?a master worth to be listed among the greatest Jedi in the history of the Order.?

    ?I don?t deserve such praises, Master,? Obi-Wan commented, his voice low and self-deprecating. ?I have broken the Code, many a time.?

    Qui-Gon lowered to sit on the grass, gesturing the other man to do the same. Then he smiled and murmured, ?I know you have broken it, Obi-Wan, but it is not necessarily a wrong thing.?

    Obi-Wan?s raised his lowered head. ?What??

    ?Think about it, Padawan. You are berating yourself because you feel, because you love, because you have attachments. But, as you said to Lianne, it brought no evil to you. Instead, I believe your open affection helped Anakin to overcome his difficult past. How do you think he would have reacted, he a boy used to his mother?s love, had he been trusted in the care of a cold, emotionless master? Someone unable or unwilling to understand the boy and give him what he needed??

    Qui-Gon paused for a moment, giving Obi-Wan the time to ponder his questions, before he continued. ?It was your love that made the difference, Padawan. It made the difference with Anakin as it did with me.?

    He smiled at Obi-Wan?s surprised look and explained. ?What do you think would have become of me if you had not entered my life as a boy? It was your care, your affection that helped me to recover from the pain caused by Xanatos? turn and death, and by Tahl?s loss. So no, Obi-Wan, in my eyes, your breaking the Code
     
  23. Mind_Tricked

    Mind_Tricked Jedi Youngling star 1

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    Love was passion, yes, but also serenity for there was nothing calmer and peaceful than a fulfilled heart and soul.
    Love was possession, but was also the desire to give.
    Love was?love was Padmé.


    [face_love] touching and beautiful! and so true...

    Great chapter! =D= =D= =D=

    YAY! Qui-Gon's back! I don't think there is anyone else who could help Obi with a better advice.

    Great job!
     
  24. KELIA

    KELIA Manager Emeritus star 6 VIP - Former Mod/RSA

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    Jul 26, 2005
    I'm glad to see Qui-Gon show up and talk some sense into Obi-Wan

    What he said made perfect sense and it's great that Yoda realizes that and is willing to change.

    Great update!!

    =D= =D= =D= =D=
     
  25. StarryAngel

    StarryAngel Jedi Youngling

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    Nov 16, 2005
    thank you for the PM, GEN_MASSIMO

    This is a very good story. I want to read more! :)
     
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