FIC: If I Listen Real Hard

Title: If I Listen Real Hard
Author: Obi the Kid (hlnkid@aol.com)
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: There is no money made from this. Qui and Obi belong to Lucas.
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Summary: Pre-TPM (Obi is 16), non-slash. Obi is distraught, Qui comforts
him.

Special Notes: A HUGE thank you to Brenda for giving me the bunny!!
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If I Listen Real Hard
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The Jedi Council called it, 'The Test.' The Jedi Apprentices referred to it
as,
'The Silence."

When a padawan turns sixteen, he or she is subjected to, as some put it,
"living hell." Everything they know is stripped from them. All that they
are, is ripped away. For four days they are separated from their masters,
not only physically, but mentally as well. The masters are told to sever the
training bond quickly and at a time when the apprentice would not be prepared
for such a trauma. The students are cut off from the one person they look to
for their very lives.

Once the bond is extinguished, the council eliminates the next precious
thing. Any and all ability to use the force. Without proper warning, all
falls silent. And they are left with nothing. The quiet is deafening. The
young minds, once so alive with the living force, are filled with an eerie
silence.

This longstanding tradition was designed to examine a young Jedi's mind. For
those few days, in which they are cut off, they are forced to endure long
hours of intense questioning by members of the council. Questions that test
the strength and devotion of each apprentice. Questions that push them too
and sometimes past their emotional limits.

The masters of these students are sent off-planet until the evening of the
fourth day. They are prohibited from attempting any contact with their
padawans. Silence reigns in that part of the masters mind, where there was
once an eager young voice.

Most of the youngsters break down during the questioning. With no other
choice, they give in as the young minds are probed without the ability to
fight back. Others withstand the questioning, only to lose that control
later, in the familiarity of their living quarters.
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On the outside, Obi-Wan Kenobi seemed strong and in control. Inside, his
stomach turned and his emotions warred. During questioning, he relaxed
himself by closing his eyes and taking slow, deep breaths. He tried to
remember the teachings of his master, Qui-Gon Jinn. Obi-Wan spent hours
focusing on that one spot in his mind, where his mentor's force signature
used to be. Silently he cried out.

//Master, you told me if I listened?if I listened real hard, I could hear
you. You said we would be separated, but you would be near if I called.
Where are you master? Please. I need you here. I am listening, like you
said, but I cant hear you. //

During the nights spent alone in their shared quarters, Obi-Wan would lie his
weary and worn body in his master's bed and cry until sleep overwhelmed him.
As the pressures of all that was happening became too much, his constant
fight for control ended. Left alone and in silence of all that he knew, the
boy was lost. All was made worse by the fact that the rooms held images and
memories of the one person he needed most right now. The person he was not
permitted to see until the test was complete. Until 'the Silence' was gone.
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At the end of the fourth day, Obi-Wan got word that his master's ship was on
final approach. He rushed to greet him at the docking bay. Despite the
severed training bond, Qui-Gon could sense his padawans emotional confusion.

The ship landed and the Jedi Master stepped out. Quickly he scanned the
area, and found what he was looking for. Standing by the control room, the
slumped shoulders of his apprentice only began to tell of the trauma Obi-Wan
had been facing. He approached his student. Then stopped as he stood at
arms length. The tall Jedi starred deeply into the exhausted eyes

 

Brilliant Obi the Kid?.. simply brilliant!!!!!!!

 

That sweet. Obi-wan and Qui-gon comforting eachother like that. The council is a bunch of heartless creatures if they force Masters and Padawan's to go through that. Maybe in Yoda's case they would realize what Hell that is if they were capable of remembering things when they were that young.

 

THANKS you 3 !!! Love hearing from you guys...glad ya liked this on...

 

I loved it Obi the Kid. I'm a bug softy for the mushy stuff. I always love to see Qui and Obi bond.

 

Obi the Kid that was way awesome!!! I loved this one. Truely your best work yet. Great stuff. I really hope you write more soon. This was just so touching and so funny. I loved it. Great stuff.

 

hehehe...thanks! Mush is my forte....more fics with more mush will follow in the future...I promise you !!

 

Awsum mush Kid.

 

Oh my god Kid! I so can relate to Obi-Wan!

Gods...delaying the enevadable. Heheheh

Very very touching. I loved it. I cried and laughed. ********** stars!

 

Good mush! I liked the part where Qui-Gon was playing with Obi-Wan's ponytail, and how they were teasing each other about the physics teacher. I especially liked the last line--that was great!

This "Silence" is a fascinating idea. I would have liked to heard more about what was going on in Obi-Wan's mind for all those four days, and even in Qui-Gon's, but I understand that you wanted to move quickly to your forte.

 

thanks everybody. Jane? you have given me an idea to think about for a possible future fic!!!

Although "the silence" was my idea, the rest of the bunny was provided by Brenda, and I cant thank her enough for pushing me in the right direction!!! mush!!

 

UP!!

 

That was so sweet Obi the Kid. The closeness that you portrayed between Qui and Obi brought a tear to my eye.

I have to agree with Jane Jinn. The 'Silence' test has reallt piqued me curosity. I would love to read more about it!

 

That was beautiful. I'm looking forward to many more mushy fics from you Obi-the-Kid, you're an awesome writer!

 

you guys are gonna force me to write a related fic to this one arent you???

 

you guys are gonna force me to write a related fic to this one arent you???

 

How wise you are Obi the Kid!!!!

 

Thanks kelly....i think...gotta add this one to my list....

 

TOP!!

 

up!

 

when're you going to finish?!

 

It is finished...just a one part story!!!