A wild river

Title: a Wild river
Summery: Thayet is thirteen years old and ready to be chosen to be a padawan but she fears her disabilities will stop her
Rating: G
Cat: Angst

Thayet sat at her vanity, although she could not see a reflection, what would it be like she wondered to see, to not just imagine the bright vivid colours she knew exsisted, but could not experience. To really be a part of the world, others she knew did not understand, they didn't have half of themselves missing, didn't strive to be whole.
She did.
Being a Jedi meant that her senses were more attuned but mostly Thayet did not feel attuned to anything.
Her best was never enough, and no kind words from Yoda would help her or soothe her. Her head turned and she stared sightlessly at the small table beside her sleep couch, not needing sight to see that her thirteenth birthday was approaching, for once she was glad to be blind, glad she could not see the chrono mocking her.
No one wanted a blind padawan, one who could barely hold her anger in cheak, she wasn't the smartest padawan but she was as Yoda was fond of quoting the brightest spark.
The knock on the door, drew her attention and she reconized her best grown up friend Nana "Time for bed Thayet" she whispered and Thayet nodded.
One more day lost one more hope scattered to the cruel and unfeeling wind against the sharp shapes of the towers of Courscant maybe she would never be a padawan, maybe she would never feel her master's warm hand on her shoulder but she had tried, she had proven that she could be trusted, that she was skilled. And no matter what they said nothing could take that from her.
TBC

 

Thats a great story idea!
See, I would have never thought of something like that...
Needs a little brushing up, writing wise, just spelling errors, gramaticl errors, the usual, nothing huge. Im sure you can pull it off!
Though Id like to know what the name has to do with the story

 

Thayet whipped her lightsaber away just in time, before marking her opponant which would have signalled a winning point in the lightsaber match. Thayet brushed her black hair away from her eyes, unlike the other jedi students she didn't wear a blindfold in matches becuase she was blind, she had only herself and the force to trust, and that was the problem, the force was mysterious to her, she could sense it but could not tap into it properly and that often made her impatient and angry, her emotions were to raw and to clear, she didn't have the preasence of continuing mind.
Fumbling she knelt for a towel, wiping the sweat away, feeling the victory but feeling hollow, what did it matter? she would be on the way to the Agri corps soon, she would have to climb the reassignment tower, a trip no jedi wanted to make because it meant they were not chosen to be padawans.
Thayet turned away from the smiles and hugs of her friends wanting to be alone. Her journey took her to the room of the thousand fountains, her favourite place, she was connected to the living force and she loved to watch the water run in the waterfalls and hear the birds singing. She basked in the quietness, dipping her hand in the shallow water beside her, "A wild river" she had been called her path wild and spintaneous like the water that ran over the rocks, the destination was unclear
But a straight and narrow path bored her, she sought the un walked path, the adventure but this was not the jedi way,
"So maybe I am not supposed to be A Jedi" she whispered but the thought hurt to much to contemplate