Phx I'm tired of...

...all the what if scenarios running in my head, which cause me to hesitate.

...projecting thoughts into other people, causing me to believe the worse.

...my fear, apprehension and self doubt.

Boy, this love thing is tough! But, no one said it was easy.

 

-being petrified to write a thought on paper for fear of someone reading it.









Did I just post this?

 

Just hide it... And w/ password protection in the Word Processing programs... Tou can even hide it plain site

 

This goes deeper than that. In junior high my journal was stolen and all the preppy cool girls got a hold of it and teased me mercilessly.

 

Oooh, poor Jada.

I can imagine how horrible that would be.

You can start a livejournal and not give anyone you know in real life your user name. It's very cathartic. (I still have a few codes for free accounts if you want one.)

 

Ooo, did I hear someone say codes for LiveJournal?

[face_hopeful]

 

hmmm....that reminds me...

**sneaks out the side door**

 

Oh yes, LiveJournal . . . so my thoughts can just be read by millions instead of just the preppy cool girls.

Kirana, I REALLY do appreciate it but I'm going to pass. If you could see the effort I made just erasing files off my old computer so that I was fairly certain only a stupid insane maniac would try to recover them . . . (incomplete sentance).

Actually, I bought a journal and I might write in it tonight. Maybe . . .

 

I'm tired of being stood up at Barnes and Noble . . . it's embarassing!

 

...the aliens abducting me every night!
It's fun and all to hang with them but I need some sleep.

 

of feeling stupid, Stupid, STUPID STUPID

 

stalkers, yet again. sigh.

 

...work. Blah.

 

my mother getting swindled by stupid people who look to her for handouts.

I'M TIRED OF OPPM!!!

 

THINGS PEOPLE SAY TO CHEER YOU UP:

1) Look on the bright side
2) Things could be worse
3) Hey, it's not so bad!

THINGS YOU CAN SAY BACK TO THEM:

1) Shut up!
2) Shut up!
3) Shut up!


(This is a card my mom is sending to her sister who is in a convelesence home.)

 

...my ***** financial situation!
Im tired of overdraft fees.
Im tired of not having any money to do anything.
I get a higher paying job and I still owe people.
i'm really fed up with it all

 

I'm tired of...

SCHOOL!!!

 

... Less then a good stockpile of thermonuclear warheads and missles. Sigh, at this rate, I'll barely stay competitive with Russia.

 

Man you're pathetic Reaper. Get it together man!

 

... being ****ing sick. I was sick and then I got better and then I got sick again. I am about to go frickin nuts!!!!! I think I would feel better right now if I went and jumped out in front of a train. Well all talk to you later have a good night.

 

...being sick with End Stage Renal Disease
...of being stuck in a nursing home
...of stupid nurses who know nothing
...lazy workmanship
...incompetant cafeteria workers
...nasty food
...nasty food being served repeatedly days on end
...slack jawed nursing assistants (literally)
...nursing assistants with 2nd grade level English speaking skills trying to talk to you all the time
...moprhine pain injections never coming on time
...dialysis
...dialysis workers not giving a ***k about their patients
...health care workers laying blame on each other instead of treating the problems at hand
...distant family members
...snow
...retarted individulas that cannot take a hint

 

...Airlines. This is why I drive everywhere, even though it takes 10 times as long.

 

- being laid off work till after the new year
- haveing a vehicle tht wont get me more that 20 miles b4 it acts up
- being engaged, planning a wedding, then not... find someone new...getting back toghter with ex...not knowing where its gunna go...haveing to end it with new person... still not knowing where current relationship is.
- watching friends and family suffer thru variuos trials and tribulations
- not being able to hang out with you all
- not knowing weither or not i actually want to go back to work for last company

(sigh)

 

- School
- Ugly Girls
- Hot Girls with ugly attitudes
- Ugly girls with ugly attitudes
- Metrosexuals
- Wiggas

 

...finals
...school. you'd think eight years would be enough for me :/
...guys who are too shy to say anything
...not knowing what a guy's intentions really are
...believing that there is more feeling than there really is
...people loosing my tape!!!!
...weather people saying how nice things are when the temp is higher than freezing. i want my snow!!!!!!!!!!!!!