Some people hurt others to make themselves feel better. I'm sorry to hear that your still getting all torn up over this girl but you can't allow it to eat away at you like this. Hell I've been down in the dumps and there have been times when I allowed guys to totally depress the hell out of me, but you have to keep telling yourself that if it's meant to be, it will happen on it's own and redirect your focus onto something postive. I know I know, easier said then done, but you have to do it anyway. Now go to the pub and I'll give you a drink on the house.