Beyond - Legends Just Because I'm Sorry -- (K/J.... :D)

Now that I am slightly less insane from the awards (; silly Wes), I shall post the two fics I wrote during the week. First...


Title: Just Because I'm Sorry
Author: djcati
Fandom: Star Wars post-NJO
Characters: Kyp, Jaina
Rating: PG
Words: 1,228
Notes: A return to non-crack K/J from t3h dj? How many people have been waiting for this?! It's angsty, folks, and while it's K/J, it's also K/D and J/Z.


just because i'm sorry doesn't mean
i didn't enjoy it at the time
you're the only thing that i love
scares me more every day
on my knees i think clearer
goodness knows i saw it coming
or at least i'll claim i did
but in truth i'm lost for words

[ Snow Patrol -- Chocolate ]





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She says we shouldn't see each other anymore. That what we had was nice, but...we don't belong together. That she loves me...but only as a friend.

I don't understand. We were perfect for each other -- perfect! I loved her -- I love her! She was my best friend for the second half of the war, my best friend in the galaxy, and then after, when she broke up with him, we were...more. For a little while.

It was...I don't even remember.

That's a lie -- I remember perfectly. Her cousin's lifeday. I was on planet, but wasn't invited. ("An oversight," Luke claimed later.) So she left, came to my apartment, tried to convince me to come.

"Why? I wasn't invited."

"A stupid mistake. Come on, it's boring without you!"

"A Solo-Skywalker celebration, boring?"

"Yeah -- you're not there, and you should be."

"Can't you go get, I don't know, Janson, if you want to liven it up?"

"Don't even joke about that! Come on, Kyp, let's go."

"But why?"

"You should be there! You're part of our family now. You always have been."

"Have I? Sure doesn't feel like it half the time."

"Kyp, if you don't walk out this door with me right now, I'll knock you out and drag you there."

"But-"

"And I'll go get Janson to talk to you all night."

"All right, Goddess, all right, I'm coming. Guess I'll get Ben a late present tomorrow."

"Good."

"...Is that the only reason you want me there? Cause I'm 'family'?"

"Well, and you're my friend."

"And that's it?"

"What do you mean, 'that's it'? A goddess deems you worthy of being her friend and 'that's it'?"

"Ah, dear Goddess, I was merely curious. Let me apologise in a suitably humble fashion, and you may punish me appropriately."

"Good."

"Or inappropriately, if you want -- I don't really mind."

"Kyp!"

"What?"

"You're such an idiot."

"But a lovable idiot."

"...Maybe."

"Aw, come on, Jay. I'm lovable, right?"

"Oh, all right. You're lovable."

"O joyous, happy day! The Goddess has deemed me not only her friend, but lovable, too!"

"And an idiot."

"And hot, right?"

"What?!"

"Your lovable, idiotic, hot friend. Right? Come on-"

"No."

"Yes."

"No."

"Yes."

"Yes."

"Ah ha! I knew it!"

"You were supposed to get confused and say no!"

"Jaina, that might work on Jacen, but some of us are smart."

"Jacen's smart!"

"Only if I'm hot."

"Fine. You're hot. Happy?"

"Very. Oh, look, we're here now."

"Great. Let's-"

"Wait."

That's when I kissed her -- just outside the door to the Skywalkers' apartment. And you know what? She didn't pull away until Ben opened the door, giggling and grinning and hugging us both. She even kissed me back, and not just a little.

Everything went on from there. I thought I'd be in for it after the party, but we talked, and, yeah -- we got together. Kyp and Jaina. Jaina and Kyp. For six months.

But now? Like I said, she says we shouldn't be together. She doesn't love me like I love her, and she's not sure she ever has.

So we're not together. We're seeing other people. She seems to have sorted her differences with Zekk, and I'm biding my time with Danni. Oh, Danni's a great woman, no doubt about it -- smart, beautiful, pretty f

 

That was all sad and angsty, definitely. But that's not the end, is it? I mean, you left off a chapter, right...the one where Jaina realizes she's being stupid and they get back together? Please? [-o|

 

You must continue this!

It is great and sad because in trying to prevent getting hurt from the relationship, she is actually causing both of them more pain though she's in denial and kyp is trying to pick up the pieces but not very well They need to realize what they have and just accept that there is no better match then the two of them together, period.

I like how you got into Jaina's mind and expressed her thoughts.

~Goddess Jaina~

 

So, so, so sad.

I had tears in my eyes.

 

jelly -- But that's not the end, is it? I mean, you left off a chapter, right...the one where Jaina realizes she's being stupid and they get back together?

'Fraid so, or rather, not. D: But the ending's open, ne? So make of that what you will. ^^


GoddessJainaSoloFel -- hee, thanks. I'm kinda surprised that (not counting the dialogue), I wrote more from Jaina's POV than Kyp's.


Smuggler_Shidakis -- aw, lol, I didn't want to make anyone cry! Here, have a box of Wes's Ewok cookies. Paint-free.

 

*glare at Cati*

You do realize you have to fix this, don't you?

~~Jilly

 

I read this story on your LJ, Cati.

I think it's absolutely (heart-breakingly) beautiful.

Ams

 

awe!!! that was so incredibly sad

 

Now that I am slightly less insane from the awards (; silly Wes), I shall post the two fics I wrote during the week. Heeeee.

Great job, Cati, and so saaaaad! But great job!!

 

Jilly --

Ams -- heh, thank you! Glad you liked it ^_^

Amithyst_Blade -- Sorry?

Mirax-Jade -- Yeah, insanity = YOUR FAULT. o_o!

But thank ya! hee...

 

no... sad in a good way... well... yea... i hope you know what i mean...

i loved it!

 

This is so beautiful!!!

"(...) and you may punish me appropriately."
"Good."
"Or inappropriately, if you want -- I don't really mind."

LOL

"And an idiot."
"And hot, right?"
"What?!"
"Your lovable, idiotic, hot friend. Right? Come on-"
"No."
"Yes."
"No."
"Yes."
"Yes."
"Ah ha! I knew it!"
"You were supposed to get confused and say no!"
"Jaina, that might work on Jacen, but some of us are smart."
"Jacen's smart!"
"Only if I'm hot."
"Fine. You're hot. Happy?"

LOL LOL

 

You've got more coming right? Right?

 

You are going to continue this, right?

I cant imagine that you dont continue it, but what can I say. I am impacient!

~RD~

 

lovely!! Its sooo adorably saaaaaaaad!!! Post more! pleeeeaaase?

(you just like hearing people beg don't you?)

 

Amithyst_Blade -- lol, sad in a good way is, uh, good!


Jadie -- hehe, I do so love writing K/J banter. I think, writing this fic made me remember why I loved it so much last summer and wrote so much... Hopefully, it'll convince me to write even more in future. XP


AvenKiel -- Not on this fic...


RevaDurron -- 'fraid not! No more on this fic. But it's an open ending! Kinda. Almost. Sorta.


Master_Kiona -- lol! Can't say it's among my favourite pasttimes... And I have learned from past mistakes that continuing a story just for the hell of it simply makes a mess of everything. I always think that, if a story has an ending to me, no matter what the ending is, then it should stay like that.

Which is why I hope Will and Lyra don't meet up again before death, and why the news of a sixth Alex Rider book saddens me....