Title: Light and Love Author: JediMara77 Genre: Mush Pairing: Luke/Mara (omg what a shock!) Description: Mara reflects on her relationship with Luke. Author's note: Written in response to the Monday Mush Mania 9/13 challenge. "Everyone loses someone they love, it's a fact of life and of loving. Write a vignette exploring the impact of the loss of a loved one on a character." I could not sense you in the Force when we first met. It is ironic, being that we have been so defined by it. When I first felt you, it was as if a bright light beamed down upon me, showering me with warmth that would draw me to you forever. From that moment on, I struggled against the last command planted inside me. When it was finally silenced, I was proud to call you my friend. Time passed. I kept finding myself being drawn to you. No matter how I tried, I could not shy away from your light. We passed each other, like ships in space, trying to find our own ways through the Force. It was a futile effort. After ten years of fighting the inevitable, I finally let down my walls. I allowed your light inside me, and to my surprise, your entire essence filled my soul. It was a completeness I had never expected, and never wanted, until it was there. I could not--would not--let it go. I was, for all eternity, joined to you in love. Together, we fought through dark times. We created life. We rebuilt the past. We looked towards the future. Then, as quickly as it started, it all came to an end. I felt your anguish as I was taken from you, for it was also my own. There was an emptiness inside me that I hadn't felt in years, and hoped would never return. In the back of my mind, I always expected you to go first. I knew that I could play the part, and be strong for our son. I never prepared myself to be alone. But even now, as I wait for you, your light still shines on me--never fading, never diminishing. Your love still fills me--never failing, always comforting. They are the beacons that guide my way through the Force. I try to send some of the light back to you, to fill you with the love you think you have lost. To give you strength to go on for our son. To show you what you will find when your time in the universe has ended: Light, and love. Even alone, I have found, it is beautiful. So I watch, and I wait, keeping safe for you our light and our love.