Beyond - Legends Love is... [Tahiri/Anakin vignette; post NJO (English/German)]

Title: Love is...
Author: Maggy
Timeframe: post NJO
Characters: Tahiri
Genre: song vignette
Keywords: Tahiri, Anakin
Summary: Tahiri is thinking about her life
Notes: song belongs to Nena



[The song Liebe ist... belongs to Nena. I took the liberty to translate it into English.

English is my second language so please be nice.
I own nothing; I'm only playing with the characters. SW belongs to George Lucas.

Thanks to my beta RedGold.

While lurking on the Resource board I stumbled over The Multilingual Writers Club. For all who are interested I added the German version of this vignette. ]




Love is...

Liebe ist...

I am sitting on this cold, hard stone and staring into the orange-blue sky above me. The meadows are whistling in the wind and leaves are dancing in it. Some red clouds hang in the sky, forming strange ornaments. You know, you would love that. The planet feels so alive. So many life forms are surrounding me. I feel old compare to them. Restless nonetheless. Useless on the other hand.

The war is over. For me. It had been over for a long time. What use to it would I be anyway? I am old and practically have my whole life behind me. What is a long time in the retrospect of the galaxy anyway? For me it lays back a life time ago. And still it is haunting me. It haunts me in the form of my love. You, my beloved Anakin. It has been a lifetime since you have left me. Death, or the Force, only offered you a short life, didn?t it? But it was very intense and ruled from destruction. With your sixteen years you had already seen more death and horror then others in a lifetime. Even with your few years you were a leader, a hero for young and old. For me you were the best friend you could imagine. And you were my one real love. Did I ever tell you how proud I am to call you my friend?

You look at me, and I go with it
Du guckst mich an, und ich geh mit,
And it?s eternal, this short touch
Und der ist ewig, dieser Augenblick.

Your eyes were as blue as the deepest mountain lake, they had always fascinated me. They sparked with mischief when you were about to play a prank on someone. They betrayed you, did you know that, whenever you didn?t tell the truth or when you were afraid of something. But in those eyes, those kind eyes, could always be found love when you looked at me. You thought I didn?t know but I did, love. I always had to fight against my knees growing weak. Those eyes would cause butterflies in my stomach and those butterflies always celebrated a party down there.

There shines the sun , there laughs the life
Da scheint die Sonne, da lacht das Leben,
There my heart opens, I offer it to you
Da geht mein Herz auf, ich will's dir geben.

It was on Yavin, a planet that doesn?t exist anymore like I had known it in my youth. Yavin IV was the home world of the Jedi Academy back then, headed by Master Luke Skywalker, defeater of the Emperor. I attended this Academy as did you, my love. But you weren?t my love at that time. You were my best friend who always got us in trouble only to save us again. We had so much fun. Every day was an adventure, every day something unexpected happened. And I think we gave our teachers some grey hairs. I treasure those memories. On Yavin it had all begun and nearly ended. You remember? Sure you remember. You were always with me.

I want to carry you, I want to love you
Ich will dich tragen, ich will dich lieben,
Because the love, had last
Denn die Liebe, ist geblieben.

And then I had to go on this fateful mission with you. I had to watch with horror and helplessness at how you grew weaker and weaker because of your injuries. At that time I didn?t want any

 

Liebe ist...


Ich sitze auf diesem kalten, harten Stein und starre in den orange-blauen Himmel über mir. Die Wiese raschelt sanft im Wind und die Blätter tanzen in diesem. Einige rote Wolken hängen am Himmel, formen seltsame Muster. Weißt du, du hättest das gemocht. Der Planet fühlt sich so lebendig an. So viele Lebensformen umgeben mich. Ich fühle mich so alt im Gegensatz zu ihnen. Aber trotzdem rastlos. Nutzlos auf der anderen Seite.

Der Krieg ist vorüber. Für mich auf jeden Fall. Er ist schon eine lange Zeit vorüber. Welchen nutzen hätte ich überhaupt? Ich bin alt und habe mein Leben praktisch schon hinter mir. Aber was bedeutet eine lange Zeit im angesichts der Ewigkeit? Für mich liegt er schon ein leben lang zurück. Und trotzdem werde ich immer noch davon verfolgt. Er verfolgt mich in der Form meiner Liebe. Du, mein geliebter Anakin. Es ist eine Lebensspanne her seit du mich verlassen hast. Der Tod oder die Macht, wie man will, hat dir nur ein kurzes Leben gestattet. Aber ein sehr intensives, beherrscht von Zerstörung. Mit deinen erst sechzehn Jahren hast du schon mehr Tod und Zerstörung gesehen als andere in einem ganzen Leben. Trotz deiner jungen Jahre warst du ein Anführer, ein Held für jüngere und auch für ältere. Für mich warst du der beste Freund den man sich vorstellen kann. Und du warst meine eine große Liebe. Hab ich dir jemals erzählt wie stolz ich bin, dich meinen Freund nennen zu dürfen?

Du guckst mich an, und ich geh mit,
Und der ist ewig, dieser Augenblick.

Deine Augen, so blau wie der tiefste Bergsee, haben mich immer schon fasziniert. Die haben spitzbübisch gefunkelt, wenn du jemanden einen Trick gespielt hast. Sie haben dich aber auch verraten, hast du das gewusst, wann immer du nicht die Wahrheit erzählt hast oder du vor etwas Angst hattest. Aber in diesen Augen, in diesen gütigen Augen, war immer Liebe zu finden, wann immer du mich ansahst. Du dachtest immer, ich wüsste das nicht, aber ich tat es, mein Liebster. Ich hatte immer dagegen anzukämpfen, dass meine Knie nicht weich wurden. Diese Augen verursachten Schmetterlinge in meinem Bauch und diese Schmetterlinge schienen dort immer eine Party zu feien.

Da scheint die Sonne, da lacht das Leben,
Da geht mein Herz auf, ich will's dir geben.

Es war auf Yavin, es existiert heute nicht mehr so wie wir es in der Jugend kannten. Yavin IV die Heimatwelt der Jedi Akademie während Luke Skywalker sie noch führte. Während unserer Zeit dort waren wir noch nicht verliebt. Du warst mein bester Freund, welcher uns immer in Schwierigkeiten brachte, nur um uns nachher wieder zu retten. Wir hatten so viel Spaß. Jeder Tag war ein Abenteuer, jeden Tag passierte etwas Unerwartetes. Ich bewahre diese Erinnerungen wie einen Schatz. Und ich denke wir gaben unseren Lehrern einige graue Haare. Auf Yavin hat alles begonnen und auch fast geendet. Du erinnerst dich? Natürlich erinnerst du dich. Du warst immer mit mir.

Ich will dich tragen, ich will dich lieben,
Denn die Liebe, ist geblieben.

Und dann hatte ich auf diese verheißungsvolle Mission gehen müssen. Ich hatte mich Furcht und Hilflosigkeit zusehen müssen, wie du schwächer und schwächer wurdest, wegen deiner Verletzungen. Zu diesem Zeitpunkt hätte ich nichts lieber getan als dich zu halten, dir zu helfen zu heilen, dich zu lieben. Aber wir hatten die Mission vorzusetzen, mussten diese Voxyn Königin töten. Du kehrtest niemals zurück zu mir.

Hat nicht gefragt, ist einfach da,
Weglaufen geht nicht, das ist mir klar.

Die Reise zurück an Bord der Trickster erinnere ich nicht mehr wirklich. Es war alles irgendwie verschwommen. Die Leute um mich bewegten sich alle viel zu langsam. Ich habe mich nie richtig von dieser Mission erholt. Ich habe dich so sehr vermisst, dass sogar das Atmen schmerzte, jeder Herzschlag schien meine Brust zu zerschmettern. Noch immer vermisse ich, dass du nicht um mich bist aber d

 

Your eyes were as blue as the deepest mountain lake, they had always fascinated me. They sparked with mischief when you were about to play a prank on someone. They betrayed you, did you know that, whenever you didn?t tell the truth or when you were afraid of something. But in those eyes, those kind eyes, could always be found love when you looked at me. You thought I didn?t know but I did, love. I always had to fight against my knees growing weak. Those eyes would cause butterflies in my stomach and those butterflies always celebrated a party down there.

I really liked that part. There are a lot of descriptions of Anakin's eyes in the canon books so one would assume it's a physical trait that stands out, and I think one Tahiri would fixate on. I especially thought the idea that he couldn't hide things from her because his eyes gave everything away to be fitting.

What I regret is that I didn?t give you that kiss. I was so stupid, so naive. I thought that we would share many other kisses in the future. Reality taught me a lesson. What would I give to kiss you again, love...?



Soon we will be together, my love, soon. I am old now... and I only regret that you weren?t here with me... and now it is again unfair because you can?t change that...
Soon I will see you, my love...

A good ending. Melancholy, but appropriate. Death giving Tahiri hope because she'll get to see Anakin

Wonderful job, Maggy A nice indepth view of Tahiri's thoughts on Anakin and the effects of his death. Very well written, and the song lyrics worked well into the theme. I've never heard of the song or artist though I also couldn't tell from reading it that English was your second language so I don't think you need to preface it with that

Anyway, a joy to read. I'll have to add this to the A/T index when we get it up and running again

 

YodaKenobi:

A review

You are making my day


I really liked that part. There are a lot of descriptions of Anakin's eyes in the canon books so one would assume it's a physical trait that stands out, and I think one Tahiri would fixate on.

There are many discriptions? Um ... I must have over read them then
You have a good point though, one I didn?t consider when writing.
Now when you say that ... ... Anakin really seams to have eyes that are calling for attention. Or is it only me to lurk on random threads and there are his eyes mentioned?

I especially thought the idea that he couldn't hide things from her because his eyes gave everything away to be fitting.

Thanks

`´

*offers tissues*

A good ending. Melancholy, but appropriate. Death giving Tahiri hope because she'll get to see Anakin

I was long thinking about the end but decided to let it that way. How else should end a heart wrenching cry for a beloved one when not looking forward to be together again?

Wonderful job, Maggy

Thanks!

A nice indepth view of Tahiri's thoughts on Anakin and the effects of his death. Very well written, and the song lyrics worked well into the theme.

Thanks again.

I've never heard of the song or artist though

That you didn?t heard of the song may be that it is a German singer and I don?t know if her songs have reached the USA.
In Germany and Austria she is well known and had some no. 1 hits in the last 20 years or so.

I also couldn't tell from reading it that English was your second language so I don't think you need to preface it with that

Um... ask Red what she had to change
Thanks though. Nonetheless my grammar sucks as hell and I am switching words and letters so a warning in the disclaimer to avoid ...um ... awkward moments afterwards like you get told that should be written or spelled that way (already happened ). When you know the person it is okay but when someone you didn?t met already tells you that it is ... um ... awkward. And telling at the start that I am not a nativ English speaker smooths my nerves a bit when posting.

Anyway, a joy to read. I'll have to add this to the A/T index when we get it up and running again

High prices for someone who had the opinion weeks back that she would never write an A/T ?fic. And here you go ...


Thank you for the long review


~Mags

 

Yay! You posted! Sorry I missed it.

Anyway, you know I'm not an A/T fan, but this was cool. You really drag poor Tahiri's heart across the hot coals in this one.

I hope she does find her love again!

 

Wow, great viggie...I've always been rather fond of A/T...I love the best-friends-into-lovers thing and you've handled it really well!
Tahiri's emtion in this was also very plainly felt, nice job!

 

Wonderful job, Maggy. You write beautifully -- I can't believe English is your second language! I really enjoyed the gentle style of the fic. This is lovely work -- sad, but sweet at the same time.

 

Awwww, Maggy. This is beautiful. Kapai.
The tone was so wistful and fond, and I could feel Tahiri's longing to see him again clearly.

I liked the way you went back into their childhood memories - and I laughed at the reference to them giving their teachers grey hair. LOL Very true, especially Corran I think.

Can we prod you into writing more A/T?

Really enjoyed this.

 

I am so happy that you all klicked to the viggy and took the time to leave a review


Red:

Yay! You posted! Sorry I missed it.

no worries I got a review though

Anyway, you know I'm not an A/T fan, but this was cool.

Yeah, you told me ... Am I allowed to say I am either?
Still I had to write this and another one. It?s back in progress because I don?t like it anymore

You really drag poor Tahiri's heart across the hot coals in this one.

yeah I do *sniffs*

I hope she does find her love again!

*hopes* yeah would be good when she does
she would be happy then

Thanks for beta reading and for the review


ZekksGoddess:

Wow, great viggie...

Thanks

I've always been rather fond of A/T...I love the best-friends-into-lovers thing and you've handled it really well!

I never really was very fond of A/T. I only know this relationship from the NJOs. When I have read Conquest the first time, I was disappointed that it was only Anakin and Tahiri. So I had skipped the pages. As I have read it the second time I liked the book more.
Now, thanks to a fanfic, I am writting them

Tahiri's emtion in this was also very plainly felt, nice job!

Thanks


Knight_Aragorn:

Wonderful job, Maggy.

Thank you!

You write beautifully ?

Thanks

- I can't believe English is your second language!

Yub it is

I really enjoyed the gentle style of the fic. This is lovely work -- sad, but sweet at the same time.

I am glad that you enjoyed it and that it works for you how I wrote it.


Tahi:

Awwww, Maggy. This is beautiful. Kapai.

Tahi!! Thanks Danke Schön Thank you

The tone was so wistful and fond, and I could feel Tahiri's longing to see him again clearly.

I?m glad that it works for you

I liked the way you went back into their childhood memories - and I laughed at the reference to them giving their teachers grey hair. LOL Very true, especially Corran I think.

yeah poor Corran

Can we prod you into writing more A/T?

you don?t even need to prod, a second one is in work
Such a well known furball is quite good in causing plot bunnies

Really enjoyed this.

I?m glad that you did


~Mags~

 

That is so beautiful. Mind strolling over to the MLWC and posting a link so that everyone will know it's here?

 

Sil:

Hi

That is so beautiful.

thanks

Mind strolling over to the MLWC and posting a link so that everyone will know it's here?

*hitshead* know I know what I have forgotten ... will do
Thanks again

~Mags~

 

a slightly up
perhaps someone eles wants to read this


~Mags~

 

Those who arrived here before me have already said everything I was going to, but this deserves more reviews. Anyway, this was truly beautiful, and oh so sad. Tahiri's longing for Anakin comes across very well, as does her general fondness for all that he was to her. Like Tahi, I enjoyed Tahiri's thoughts on their past adventures. And, as others have said, there's a sense of hope as she contemplates being reunited with her lost love. Just a brilliant piece, and thanks for sharing it with us.

Superb job, Maggy.


JD.

 

JD

Those who arrived here before me have already said everything I was going to, but this deserves more reviews.

Thanks for taking the time to type one

Anyway, this was truly beautiful, ...

thanks

and oh so sad.

I know *sniffs*

Tahiri's longing for Anakin comes across very well, as does her general fondness for all that he was to her. Like Tahi, I enjoyed Tahiri's thoughts on their past adventures. And, as others have said, there's a sense of hope as she contemplates being reunited with her lost love.

I am happy that it works for you

Just a brilliant piece, and thanks for sharing it with us.

Superb job,

Thank you



~Mags~

 

This is great Mags, I was thinking of taking German for GCSE.....

A quick BOOM!!!! for this thread!

 

Aww!!! That was very sweet, and very sad. Good job!!

 

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Rob:

This is great Mags,

Thank you

I was thinking of taking German for GCSE...

thats a good thing, soon I am able to talk with you in German

A quick BOOM!!!! for this thread!

what else from you?


Nat:

Aww!!! That was very sweet, and very sad. Good job!!

Thanks!


Leona:

Leaves my chest aching for many reasons.

awww ... understand what you mean

Truly lovely

Thank you




Thanks for reading



~Mags~

 

Soon we will be together, my love, soon. I am old now... and I only regret that you weren?t here with me... and now it is again unfair because you can?t change that...

Soon I will see you, my love...

Oh that was so beautiful, in so many ways. The words were very describing and you could really feel her pain/grief/confusion/hope.

Excellent job.

*breaks out the tissue box*

Lisa

 

Lisa:

Oh that was so beautiful, in so many ways.

Thank you

The words were very describing and you could really feel her pain/grief/confusion/hope.

yes they are, and I was so unhappy with them in the beginning, I thought of rewriting some parts but then I didn?t

Excellent job.

Thanks again

*breaks out the tissue box*

*offers `Glückshormone´ ... um ... choclate*



~Mags~

 

This was a great viggie, very moving and touching.




I love A/T, so this was a wonderful treat!!!


Sam

 

Sam:

hi hon

This was a great viggie, very moving and touching.

thanks

I love A/T, so this was a wonderful treat!!!

I know that you love them, thats the reason why I have told you of this
Thanks for reading


~Mags~

 

I will give this a chance again

 

That was beautiful! Absolutely beautiful! You're making me miss Anakin more and more.

And I love the way it sounds in German, too.

Great work!

 

Mags: what can I say - you capture Tahiri, and Anakin, perfectly in that!!

I like the sense of time passing, and the sense of movement, and memory... I find it moving - sad, poignant, because it's a very well-drawn portrait of two characters, and love, and the distance imposed by death and time...

What makes it really work, emotionally, for me the sense that Anakin is always in that past, the time before his death, while Tahiri carries on. Elegantly, eloquently expressed...

But it is beautiful.

- The Imperial Ewok