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This is just so heartbreaking. Poor kid is so unable to trust just about anyone. And why should he? He's been abused and manipulated and he's still full of grief.

He swallowed hard before replying, ?I?m not like you Aunt Jes. While you were taking care of the house to keep yourself busy and worrying about me, I was helping Nayt and Traest steal what didn?t belong to us and in the process hurting and sometimes killing people to further our financial status, to keep a roof over our heads. No one has ever kept their word to me. No one has ever given me a reason?.? His throat convulsed as he fought to keep control of his rising anger and the grief he felt. Looking back at his aunt, he pleaded, ?Give me a reason.?

I loved that his aunt was willing to talk to the healer in order to help Obi-Wan heal. Hopefully, he will take the chance.

Great job.

 

Poor Obi-Wan. It's easy to understand his jealousy toward Kale and his apprentice. Reed got the one on one attention that Obi-Wan was denied and no doubt craved. I'm glad Qui-Gon is there to try and make things easier. And I like this Council much better.

 

?Your father, Obi-Wan; Kale is your reason. Your happiness is your reason. Your ability to see the past with no pain attached to it?that is your reason. Fight for the peace you so desperately crave but have not yet had the courage to pursue.?

Yet another stunning chapter.

 

Wow. This story is AWESOME. Completely incredible.
Hmmm, what else.... Can't think of anything: Awesome and incredible seem to sum this story up pretty well.
Keep up the brilliant work!!!!

 

Cole_Kenobi Wow. Has anyone ever told you how amazing your story is? At times you break my heart with the sadness, with Obi-Wan's verbal lashing at Kale, and then you make my heart warm with simple things like Jes's little speech to Obi-wan.

I'm so excited; I can't imagine what you've got up your sleeve. Can't wait for the next update. Thanks for the PM.

Thank you for the encouragement and the kind words! They made my day. Honestly, I?m not so certain what is up my sleeve either.


Valairy_Scot An update, and what a one.

Thanks!

I understand Obi-Wan's reaction, and I understand Callen's reaction as well, but Jes is so right. Obi-Wan needs to know it's safe to speak honestly and freely. I loved the maturity of Reed as well; he understands Obi-Wan's pain and doesn't take it personally, and Tahl, as always, is wonderful into seeing into the heart of things.

They?re all learning as they go. They?ve dealt with difficult situations before, but past circumstances haven?t hit so close to home as they are now. Obi-Wan isn?t the only one trying to adjust: Kale and Reed are trying to figure things out as well.

I think I'm going to love your healer, too.

Master Hebsley isn?t the Jedi?s typical soul healer. He prefers to put himself on his patients? level so he can better understand where they?re coming from. Whatever that involves, he?s willing to do it.

Wonderful update.

Thank you!


Gkilkenny Such an amazing and lengthy post well done.

Thanks! I got a little carried away with the length. The next post won?t be as long.

All the hurt and pain flaring up one minute and then seeing things how they could be.
Obi-Wan is so confused, and none of them know the right words to make it better.
However, you do and I look forward to some more. Thank for the PM

Kale and the others don?t know how to make the past, the past, for Obi-Wan. Not having been raised as a Jedi and only having received the basics from Kale at such an early age, he doesn?t know all that is involved in letting go. And the fact that he?s done some things he isn?t proud of and finds unforgivable in his own eyes, is helping to hold him back.

And your very welcome for the PM. Thank you for reading!


jedidas3 I'm doing a happy dance at my desk this morning after coming in and finding a new post! And what a post! I was absolutely riveted to the emotional depth that you have given these characters and how the reader can feel the pain of each one of them. What an absolutely incredible update!

Comments such as these are good for a writer?s ego, so long as said ego stays ?humble.? I know there are probably errors in my posts that I sometimes miss (I don?t have a beta), but I am also thankful the readers are able to overlook them and enjoy the story anyway. Thank you for reading. I am very much enjoying the process of writing this fic.

I eagerly await your next chapter on Best Intentions. I?m sitting on the edge of my seat wondering what is going to happen with Obi-Wan concerning Siri/Bant and their masters.


dianethx This is just so heartbreaking. Poor kid is so unable to trust just about anyone. And why should he? He's been abused and manipulated and he's still full of grief. I loved that his aunt was willing to talk to the healer in order to help Obi-Wan heal. Hopefully, he will take the chance. Great job.

In this next post, Obi-Wan will be given something to think about. It?s just a simple, small, non-consequential comment, but to him it will make all the difference. Nayt and Traest did a number on him, moreso than what?s actually being said and covered here. I?ve tried to show that but I'm not sure if it has come across. Obi-Wan is lucky; he has people who care about him and are willing to do whatever it takes to help him.


Itachi-Uchiha Poor Obi-Wan. It's easy to understand h

 

Chapter 15


The healer smiled; the Coruscant weather was finally cooperating for a change. After a heavy debate with the Council, Hebsley was granted his wish to take young Kenobi beyond the Temple walls. The only thing stopping him was the constant rain that had poured forth, for the last few days, from the sky above. Now that the sun was shining with no rain in sight, he could now move forward with the therapy the teen so desperately needed. The young man and his aunt had been guests of the Jedi for the last month or so, and the healer felt the teen probably had cabin fever from being inside for so long. The Temple gardens allowed some exposure to outdoor elements, but honestly, it wasn?t the same.

The physician escorted the young man to the front doors of the Temple, stepping out into daylight, the healer glanced at his young companion and smiled. Obi-Wan stepped down a few times on the duracreet staircase leading to the entrance of a building that brought various feelings to various beings. Stopping a short distance from the healer, the teen closed his eyes and lifted his face to the sun, allowing the bright rays to warm his skin. Taking a deep breath, he released it slowly before opening his eyes and turning to look at the physician. He granted the man a sincere smile. ?Thank you.?

Meeting the teen halfway, Hebsley gratefully accepted the thanks while offering the teen a welcome. ?I must admit,? the therapist began. ?I too needed to get outdoors; it?s been a while since I?ve wandered around the city, taking in the sites. I wonder if anything?s changed.?

The youth narrowed his eyes at the man. ?I thought you said you had some errands to attend to.?

?I do young one; you are my errand. Where would you like to go? The city is yours for the taking.?

The young one looked at the Jedi as if he had lost his mind. This wasn?t how it was supposed to go. This wasn?t how therapy was conducted. ?I thought you were supposed to talk to me about stuff.?

Hebsley walked the remaining distance to the street below while addressing the teen who followed him. ?Sometimes the best course of therapy is to just enjoy the day that we?re given.?

Taking the lead, the physician began walking towards Coco Town. ?Your father and Master Jinn frequent a diner in an industrial area located nearby. They claim the food is good; are you hungry??

?A bit.?

?Good. The manager is a rather jolly fella that?s a little rough around the edges. His name is Dex; he?s traveled to many areas of the galaxy so maybe he?ll have a story or two to share.? Hebsley looked at the young man walking beside him. The teen was taking in his surroundings, his eyes roaming from one thing to another before really getting a chance to understand all that was around him.

?Ever been to a city such as this before??

Obi-Wan startled at the question and shook his head. ?No. We always lived in small towns.? He went about the task of watching the people all around who were going about their daily business. ?There were often larger townships nearby that we?d?.? The teen looked at the healer, surprised that he had almost said something about his past. The therapist beside him merely eyed the populace around him as if he hadn?t heard. When Hebsley pointed across the street, Obi-Wan turned his gaze to find a small rectangular circle nestled at the base of the taller buildings around it. He stopped walking and gave it a pointed look. ?This is it??

The doctor shrugged. ?They did say it had good food. Don?t judge it by what you see on the outside. Wait until we go in and taste the food, then decide if you like it or not.?

Dex received a call earlier that morning that the two gentlemen entering his establishment would be visiting. The Besalisk watched the young man with something akin to fascination as WA-7, a waitress droid, seated them in a booth near the back of the restaurant. The boy was almost a holo image of his father. A few differences he inherited from his mother but nonetheless he was Kale?s son. Wishing he had gotten the chance

 

Hebsley stopped walking when they reached the Temple and sat down on the steps outside. When Obi-Wan joined him a step or two above from where he was sitting, he said, ?Why do you think your nothing? When I look at you, I see a young man who has yet to reach his potential. And you do have a lot of potential.?

?What good is potential if you?ve been raised to believe that all you can be is what someone molded you into?? The teen looked toward the healer. ?It doesn?t matter, really. It?s not like I haven?t heard it all before.?

?What haven?t you heard??

?That I?m worthless?that I won?t amount to much?that all I?m good for is how much the next job brings in?that people who want to help would just be wasting their time on such a messed up kid.? He tucked his foot beneath him and thought over everything he had just said.

?I don?t understand,? he whispered.

Hebsley scooted closer and placed a hand on the teen?s arm. ?What don?t you understand??

Obi-Wan looked up at the physician. ?What does Kale want from me??

?He just wants to be a father to his son. He doesn?t expect you to be anything other than who and what you are. He just wants to find a place where he fits into your life.?

It's official - I love the healer. for both of them, and Dex. It's going to take time, but I think Obi-Wan is beginning to think.

?It usually takes a while to fit in somewhere. Before long it?ll feel like home.? Dex tried to assure the youth, sensing this kid was anything but happy with the way his life had turned out.

?What if I don?t want to fit in?? Obi-Wan challenged.

?Then that?s a choice ya gotta make, isn?t it??

The youth was quiet. He wasn?t speechless by any means, but this creature had just pointed out the fact that how he viewed this new world around him was completely in his control. Dex had given him something to think on, something no one else had offered him. A small smile escaped as he gave a nod of respect toward his father?s friend.

I think Dex kick-started the process of recovery. Lovely update.

 

Your arrows fly straight and true.

The young one looked at the Jedi as if he had lost his mind. This wasn't how it was supposed to go. This wasn't how therapy was conducted. "I thought you were supposed to talk to me about stuff."

Hebsley walked the remaining distance to the street below while addressing the teen who followed him. "Sometimes the best course of therapy is to just enjoy the day that we're given."

... ...



"What if I don't want to fit in?" Obi-Wan challenged.

"Then that's a choice ya gotta make, isn't it?"

(wow)




His father had almost died and he and his mother had not even known about it. What if he had perished during one assignment or another?

(you convey the terror and grief that would hold for a child very well)




The youth bit his bottom lip, thinking of how best to answer and finding to his confusion that he wanted to answer. "Life was hard. It was demanding, and some days it just hurt. I had a difficult time handling my mother's death, though no one but Jes knew. And when Nayt started...when he started in, I felt as if I was being pulled apart. I couldn't let go of my father's teachings ... I felt as if he were trying to take the core of me and smash it into tiny bits. He wanted a miniature version of the man he had become, but I couldn't let go. After so much time of enduring all of this, I panicked. I mean, I really panicked. Aunt Jes took me to a med center where I spent some time in a drug induced coma.

... ...

When I woke up, I noticed that my memories of Kale and Cera weren't as visible as they had been and the core of who I was seemed to be hiding. So I took the next step and closed the door to keep it all safe. Over time I forgot I had done it. Being here..." He gestured the direction of the Temple, but otherwise didn't elaborate.

"Who are you now?"

"I don't know. If you had asked me seven years ago, I would have said I was Kale Kenobi's son. I would have added that I was going to grow up to be just like him."



Great story, great writing!

Thanks for the PM!

 

Awww! This chapter brought many smiles and giggles from me! Ahah! I absolutly loved the part where they "borrow" the senate's floating thingy ahaha, that was hilarous, and a brillant addition to the story. Very creative imagination, you have. Great job.

I loved Dex's insight, and the story of Kale's near death experience and Dex's help. I love how Obi-wan is so observative, superbly written. You've done an amazing job.

OOooh, this chapter was a blast to read! Thank you so much for the PM! And this brillant chapter! I can't wait for more!

 

Brilliant post.

?It usually takes a while to fit in somewhere. Before long it?ll feel like home.? Dex tried to assure the youth, sensing this kid was anything but happy with the way his life had turned out.

?What if I don?t want to fit in?? Obi-Wan challenged.

?Then that?s a choice ya gotta make, isn?t it??

Dex makes sense and I see a long friendship starting with Obi-Wan.


?You think highly of Master Jinn.? A statement of fact.

?Yes.?

?Qui-Gon has a way with people. I?ve seen him take an irate person and with just a word or two calm him as if nothing had transpired. I?ve heard many Jedi say that being in his presence brings them a sense of calm and stillness. Do you think that?s true??

Obi-Wan mentally smiled at the absurdity of the comment. But the more he thought about it, the more he found it to be true. He knew many times he had been upset about one thing or another but when Qui-Gon walked into the room, it was as if the air around him stilled and the storm within him dissipated. So yes, he guessed it could be true.

?Perhaps,? was all he offered the therapist.

Come on Qui-Gon set him on the right path.

 

Obi-Wan looked up at the physician. ?What does Kale want from me??

?He just wants to be a father to his son. He doesn?t expect you to be anything other than who and what you are. He just wants to find a place where he fits into your life.?

Lovely!

 

The poor kid. He's so confused about what has happened and what is going to happen in the future. He's so used to being treated poorly that he doesn't know which way is up.

?What good is potential if you?ve been raised to believe that all you can be is what someone molded you into?? The teen looked toward the healer. ?It doesn?t matter, really. It?s not like I haven?t heard it all before.?

?What haven?t you heard??

?That I?m worthless?that I won?t amount to much?that all I?m good for is how much the next job brings in?that people who want to help would just be wasting their time on such a messed up kid.? He tucked his foot beneath him and thought over everything he had just said.

It may take him a long time to get over that feeling. But Qui-Gon may be the key. And Dex's reminder to make your own choices.

Great job.

 

Sorry I haven't been able to reply to this or your last post sooner. Unfortunately my patience at the moment isn't strong enough to be able to reply to all my favorite parts of your last post (caffeinated coffee tends to do that) , but know that I liked it.

?I remember when I was a padawan; my master brought me here shortly after our partnership began. When we arrived, a meeting was in session.? Hebsley motioned to the pods around the room. ?I remember being awed by the fact that the platforms were able to float away from their docking point and hover before the Chancellor?s throne. I kept thinking how fun it could be if I could just get in one and see how fast it could go.?

Obi-Wan smirked while turning to look at the healer. ?There?s no one here now; why not find out??

Heh heh, doing something of this sort is something I can really see Obi-Wan doing...


The man smiled as a child would when finding some hidden treasure. ?It?s nothing I haven?t faced before. I?m forever getting kicked out of this place.?



Hebsley made a mental note: Obi-Wan was a thinker; he took in every word and pondered their meaning.

I like that sentence. It's just so... I don't know what the word for it is, but I really like it.


?He just wants to be a father to his son. He doesn?t expect you to be anything other than who and what you are. He just wants to find a place where he fits into your life.?

Again, really like this part.

Good updates, and thanks for the PMs!

~Silverfighter

 

?He just wants to be a father to his son. He doesn?t expect you to be anything other than who and what you are. He just wants to find a place where he fits into your life.?[/quote]
This was a beautiful line. I really enjoyed how the healer dealt with Obi-Wan - not the sort of 'sit down and talk' behavior he has learned to expect from other therapists that never really helped, but just letting him do what he wanted for the day, which put him more at ease, and let him actually get through to him for a bit. Great post!

 

Sorry it took me a couple of days to reply, I had some health issues going on, so I wasn't on the computer that much. Anyway, what can I say, it's an awesome update! I really like the healer and the relationship that is developing with Obi-Wan. He really needs an unbiased party to trust in while he's trying to decide what direction his life is going to take. This is such a wonderful story and I can't wait for the next post!

 

I really like Hebsley. Hopefully she can draw Obi-Wan out more and make him see that he needs his father. And more importantly get him the point where he can forgive himself for doing what he had to in order to survive.

 

Valairy_Scot It's official - I love the healer. for both of them, and Dex. It's going to take time, but I think Obi-Wan is beginning to think.

I?m glad you like Hebsley. He?s a rather fun character to write. Obi-Wan is coming around, slowly.

I think Dex kick-started the process of recovery. Lovely update.

He made Obi-Wan realize that even if circumstances are beyond his control, how he responds to them is not.


ratna His father had almost died and he and his mother had not even known about it. What if he had perished during one assignment or another?

(you convey the terror and grief that would hold for a child very well)

Obi-Wan realized for the first time how dangerous his father?s profession can be.

Great story, great writing!

Thank you!


Cole_Kenobi Dex makes sense and I see a long friendship starting with Obi-Wan.

Dex sees a lot of Kale in Obi-Wan; thereby, making the boy important to him by default.


VaderLVR64 Lovely!

Thanks!


dianethx The poor kid. He's so confused about what has happened and what is going to happen in the future. He's so used to being treated poorly that he doesn't know which way is up.

You?re so right. He feels out of sorts because he doesn?t know where the boundaries are so he?s pushing to find them. Only the reactions he?s getting isn?t what he?s used to and it?s frustrating him.

It may take him a long time to get over that feeling. But Qui-Gon may be the key. And Dex's reminder to make your own choices.

Sometimes it?s easier to take and believe advice from someone other than your parents.

Great job.

Thank you!


silverfighter Sorry I haven't been able to reply to this or your last post sooner. Unfortunately my patience at the moment isn't strong enough to be able to reply to all my favorite parts of your last post (caffeinated coffee tends to do that) , but know that I liked it.

No problem! I?m glad your still enjoying it.

Heh heh, doing something of this sort is something I can really see Obi-Wan doing...

He knows how to have fun!

Hebsley made a mental note: Obi-Wan was a thinker; he took in every word and pondered their meaning.

I like that sentence. It's just so... I don't know what the word for it is, but I really like it.

I saw the cannon Obi-Wan as a thinker. He would strategize before taking action, at least after Qui-Gon?s death. Before that, he was a bit reckless.

Again, really like this part. Good updates, and thanks for the PMs!

Thank you! You?re welcome.


wolf_kenobi I really enjoyed how the healer dealt with Obi-Wan - not the sort of 'sit down and talk' behavior he has learned to expect from other therapists that never really helped, but just letting him do what he wanted for the day, which put him more at ease, and let him actually get through to him for a bit. Great post!

The traditional therapy sessions as some would view them can be intimidating. The thought of someone bringing himself down to the level his patient was on and seeing things from that view was appealing. I?m glad you liked it and that it worked!


jedidas3 Sorry it took me a couple of days to reply, I had some health issues going on, so I wasn't on the computer that much. Anyway, what can I say, it's an awesome update! I really like the healer and the relationship that is developing with Obi-Wan. He really needs an unbiased party to trust in while he's trying to decide what direction his life is going to take. This is such a wonderful story and I can't wait for the next post!

I?m glad your feeling better! Thank you for your kind words! Hebsley has been a joy to write because he isn?t your usual Jedi. He?s willing to go against the Council if it?s better for his patient that he do so, and he has no qualms about doing so. The people he helps are more

 

Another riveting chapter! What a great surprise when I went on break and saw that there was an update. I really like how the trust is slowly coming back between father and son. Undoubtedly, this will be a long road and a difficult path for both of them. I think the trip will help them both.

I thought this line aptly described Obi's life up to this point.

"My life has been a ride that I've been trying to get off of, but every time I gain the courage to take that step, the faster it spins."

Great job and I'm looking forward to more! (Hopefully really soon...please?

Edit: ***Yippee! Snagged first response!***

 

I've been impatiently waiting for an update...and now we have one. I doubt Obi-Wan realizes it, but he has made tremendous strides forward. Not always appropriately but he is beginning to realize just what he needs to face and overcome - and that's half the battle.

Obi-Wan listened to his father?s words, noticing how similar they were to Healer Hebsley?s. He offered his own thoughts, his voice quiet, serious. "When I went out into Coruscant with Hebseley, it was the first time I can remember someone treating me as an equal. When he introduced himself, he offered his hand for me to shake as if I was somebody. He talked to me, and not at me. Don?t get me wrong, you and Qui-Gon have gone out of your way to make me feel wanted and to feel secure but there was something different in the way he and Dex approached me. For so long, I always just dealt with what life gave me because choices weren?t an option and I resented never having a say in where I was headed or what I was doing. And now that I?m free of Na?of them, I still find myself being pulled along in life?s current and not sure how to escape it."

He looked at his father and found that Kale was listening with rapt attention. He then realized that this was the most he had said to his father, in quite some time, not only about his life but about his inner most thoughts. "My life has been a ride that I've been trying to get off of, but every time I gain the courage to take that step, the faster it spins."

See, Obi-Wan is realizing what he's facing.

 

Excellent chapter.
It is good to see Obi-Wan and his father talking at length
I think they need to get away from the temple for a while.

Well done.

 

Another amazing chapter!

He looked at his father and found that Kale was listening with rapt attention. He then realized that this was the most he had said to his father, in quite some time, not only about his life but about his inner most thoughts. "My life has been a ride that I've been trying to get off of, but every time I gain the courage to take that step, the faster it spins."

Loved it.

 

Obi-Wan has made a lot of progress in the few weeks he's been there. He's had to deal with worthlessness and the feeling that no one wants/accepts him outside of a few people. It must be tough.

The teacher isn't helping at all. In fact, it's quite unethical for him to be doing that.

Releasing his emotions to the force, Kale walked over and sat down across from his son. He admitted to himself that Master Okleb was obviously looking for a way to discredit the young man. Accessing files on a mission that involved the teen and then discussing the situation in front of his class was inappropriate and unethical to say the least. Missions of current events were studied, yes, but not at the expense of having a discussion with a member of said team in the course at the time. Kale ran a hand over his face in frustration. Okleb?s behavior was causing Obi-Wan to regress where he had previously been making progress.

I hope the Council finds out and reprimands him. He deserves to learn compassion.

Great job.

 

This will be most interesting, to see what ends up happening on Nyve. I have come to find that one's gut instinct is normally correct, and since Obi-Wan's is telling him there's danger...

"Are you threatening me?"

"I don?t make threats?I make promises."

Even though it probably wasn't meant to be funny, those lines struck me as rather humorous. Heh heh...

"...I still find myself being pulled along in life?s current and not sure how to escape it."

""My life has been a ride that I've been trying to get off of, but every time I gain the courage to take that step, the faster it spins."

I really liked those metaphors (metaphors, right? I always get those mixed up with something else ). They so perfectly describe how I picture Obi-Wan's look on things.

Good work! Thanks for the PM!

~Silverfighter

 

Nice update. It was interesting to see how Obi-Wan thinks. And particularly nice to see him and Kale engaging in a calm and open discussion.

 

"My life has been a ride that I've been trying to get off of, but every time I gain the courage to take that step, the faster it spins."
This metaphor was a brilliant description of Obi-Wan's life. Very fitting.

Mace shook his head as he moved about the room. "So how fast do those things move?"
This was hysterical!

Excellent chapter! Very well done!