Saga Sanity [AU after ROTS, hurt/comfort, OWK & QGJ]

Title: Sanity
Author: DarthManul
Genre: Hurt/Comfort
Disclaimer: We are capturing the power, but neither Lucas? characters nor their world.
Summary:
What was Kenobi going through between his exile had started till he learnt to commune with Qui-Gon? Solitude? Madness? Pain of losses?
Author?s Notes: DarthCorsa strictly prohibited me including her in authors, but I definitely could not write this without her.


Obi-Wan Kenobi, the third Jedi on that Force-forgotten planet through the entire century at least, perhaps, buckled and leant his head against the wall, grinding the teeth. Its fresh plaster crunched and shallow crumbs fell into his collar. The Jedi already did not even think about his former brilliant reddish hair?a couple of weeks would pass before some farmer neighbors come to visit the new settler; that was how he would be presented to them: ?old wizard Ben Kenobi from the hills? with dirty, clotted hair, unshaven bristle, and sorrowful eyes like gimlets.

The Jedi had been being on Tatooine already for a few days and nearly all that time he had been being fighting against the panic, which had been continuously assaulting his mind. Honestly, he considered the fact it had not come to him before that just the will of the Force. Crawling pass the clone outposts through the canyons of the Utapau, flying to the Polis Massa without navigation, making his way into the desecrated Temple shoulder to shoulder with Yoda, persuading Amidala to betray Anakin?s location, and even dueling his former Padawan on Mustafar?Kenobi always had been in some kind of both exited and stressful state, which had been keeping him from thinking further than about concrete nearest plans. Now, it was over. Obi-Wan had numerous long years on the Tatooine and even the view of that lifeless desert, on which he had to look from day to day, could calm anyone down and place anxiety in one's heart. Inactivity did not leave its victim any chance to escape from it in momentary concerns.

?In your solitude on Tatooine, training I have for you,? the Grand Master had said. ??your old Master, Qui-Gon Jinn. How to commune with him, I will teach you.? However, meditation mood and, furthermore, soul balance was far away from Kenobi due to the literal great storm in the Force. Neither mental shields nor the steel of cold mind could stand crushing blows of its waves. Every now and then the Jedi swooned dangerously in motion, hardly balancing: it seemed, the ground was being removed from under his feet and he imagined the familiar physiognomy of Sidious-Palpatine, who was smiling spitefully and pulling the next control handle to throw Obi-Wan down, to tread his last hope in rough Tatooine desert dust.

What was that last hope for? They had not even tried to discuss it with Master Yoda. Perhaps, both the Jedi encouraged themselves separately: hey, Emperor, neither you have not gotten us, nor your lackeys have done so; we are still going to fight, Your Majesty?we are the Jedi, we did not give up a thousand years ago, so we will do now, how many Sith are there left in the galaxy..? Well, Kenobi-the-booby, why have you, the Jedi, millennium smarties, been fooled as kids? Why are you hiding at this poor vault, Master? Who are those Jedi, not been gotten by the Empire? Two especially dodgy, hunted on all the planets, members of the Council, who have not more than half-a-century left to live. Indeed, they would fight: after ten or twenty years of inactivity, they would check whether it was possible to do something. They would not give up: numerous planets would starve, the entire races would be wiped from the face of the galaxy, mines of Kessel would be overfilled?but the pair of foundlings, whose destiny was still unknown, would be hidden robustly from their own father. And, of course, there would always be the famous Jedi belief in a better; it definitely could not be damaged by sensing the last Padawans (the best Padawans, the smartest ones: they obeyed the Masters? order to run away) being killed somewhere for thousands of

 

hmm interesting story. Do keep going. I think this is gonna be good!

 

I'm sorry, but this story was not originally supposed to be continued and, seems, thus it will be (throws up the hands apologetically). Anyway, thank you for the review!