Saga Secrets of the Jedi (post-AotC AU; Siriwan; A/P) **Updated 3/13/12-Epilogue** Complete

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  1. JediMaster_Jen Force Ghost

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    Title: Secrets of the Jedi

    Summary: Anakin and Obi-Wan make a few confessions to one another that change their relationship, as well as the Jedi Order, forever.


    Disclaimer: George Lucas owns Star Wars, not me. I'm not making any money off of this endeavor. The title of this fic belongs to Jude Watson, the author of a Clone Wars novel of the same name.


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    Prologue

    “You did what?” Obi-Wan Kenobi questioned as if he thought he’d misheard Anakin’s words.

    “Padme and I were married, Master,” Anakin repeated as he and Obi-Wan walked along slowly though the crowded lower levels of Coruscant. Anakin hadn’t wanted to remain in the Jedi Temple and risk the prying ears of the Council hearing his news.

    The ringing in Obi-Wan’s ears was deafening. Upon seeing his young Padawan Learner return to the Temple after his mission to escort Senator Amidala home, he’d known that the boy had something to say. He’d never imagined that his nineteen-year-old apprentice would return home a married man.

    “What in blazes were you thinking?” he asked as they stopped walking.

    Anakin turned unblinking eyes onto his mentor. “I love her, Master. She loves me and we wanted to get married. I didn’t do this lightly, Master, I swear to you. I know that I’ve broken the Code and that you’re now obligated to report my actions to the Council. I’ve accepted my fate and the fact that…” he rambled, but stopped when he noticed the twinkle in Obi-Wan’s eyes and the slight grin on his face.

    “You find this funny, Master?” Anakin demanded of his teacher.

    Obi-Wan chuckled for a few moments before heaving a heavy sigh. “No, I don’t find this situation funny at all. What you’ve done is very serious, Anakin.”

    Anakin’s head dipped, his eyes focusing on the ground beneath his feet. He knew the moment he’d feared was at hand. Obi-Wan was going to tell him that the Council would be informed of his transgression and that he would be immediately dismissed from the Jedi Order. That’s what he was thinking and that’s why the next words out of Obi-Wan’s mouth shocked him so.

    “I’m not going to inform the Council of your marriage, Padawan,” Obi-Wan stated as calmly as if he’d been describing the color of the Tatooine sand, knowing he’d stunned his student with his words.

    Anakin’s head snapped up at once. His wide blue eyes caught and held Obi-Wan’s own blue orbs. His shock was evident on his handsome young face.

    “Why?” was all managed to ask.

    Obi-Wan hesitated for a few moments before he spoke. He gazed up into the sky and watched the traffic in the busy space lanes. Taking a deep breath, he turned his eyes back to Anakin.

    “I’m not going to tell them because if I informed them of your marriage I’d…I’d have to inform them of my own marriage,” Obi-Wan confessed quietly, finally giving voice to his own violation of the Jedi Code; finally bringing to light one secret he’d carried within his heart and mind for the last six years.

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    Siri Tachi moved quietly into the crèche where they youngest Jedi in the Temple were housed before being moved to the Initiate dorms. Infants and children up to the age of six were housed together, separated into age groups for their lessons and instructions on the Force.

    She walked slowly towards the back of the large common room and was very nearly there when she caught sight of the person she’d come looking for this day; four year-old Zakk Zhantari. The little boy was quietly playing with a model ship, sitting all alone in the corner of the room. His red-blonde hair was tousled and hanging down into his blue-gray eyes.

    “Hi there, Zakky,” Siri quietly said as she sat down on the small bed next to the child.

    The small child looked up and a brilliant smile lit his entire face. “Hi, Masta Tachi,” his little voice called out.

    Siri smiled back. The boy’s happy demeanor was infectious. She always felt better after having spent time with her favorite little Jedi.

    “What do you have there?” she asked, pointing a slender finger at his toy.

    “A Jedi fighta,” he told her, his small mouth unable to pronounce the word correctly yet. “Masta Ben gived it to me.”

    Siri smiled fondly at the mention of Ben, formally known as Obi-Wan. As he did for her, Zakk Zhantari brightened up even the darkest of days for Obi-Wan as well. With the Clone War having broken out just days before, she knew that neither of them would have much time to spend with the little boy now.

    Siri reached into her robe and pulled out a small necklace with a holocube hanging from the end. She reached down and slipped the necklace over Zakk’s head, the holocube resting against his small chest. He looked down at it for a moment, and then raised his eyes to Siri herself.

    “I want you to keep that with you at all times, Zakk. Whenever you get scared or frightened, you press that button and Master Ben and I will be there looking at you,” she told the young boy.

    Zakk set aside his ship and pressed a finger to the holocube. Two small glowing figures appeared before Zakk’s eyes, the figures of Obi-Wan and herself. They were both smiling, having been happy when the holograph had been taken.

    “Pwetty,” Zakk murmured to himself before shutting it off and going back to playing with his ship.

    Siri ran her hand through his soft hair once before standing. “You be good, Zakk, and Master Ben and I will come see you again soon.”

    Zakk merely nodded. He’d taken to using the Force to move his ship and had become quickly disinterested in Siri. Brushing away an escaping tear, Siri swept from the room and turned around outside the door and continued to watch Zakk play.

    She raised a hand and placed it against the glass view-port. “Be well, my son.”
    Last edited by JediMaster_Jen, Aug 4, 2013
  2. DarthSabe Jedi Knight

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    Oh, that's sweet! So Obi and Siri have a son? Having Siri give him the holocube is a nice touch, it kind of mirrors Anakin's giving Padmé the jappor snippet. Despite being a persistent Sabewan/Obidala-ist, I know in my heart of hearts that Siriwan is the right pairing . . . sigh . . .
  3. LadyPadme Manager Emeritus

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    How sweet and sad that Obi and Siri had a baby they couldn't acknowlege. Although, how did Siri manage to have the baby without the rest of the Order knowing? My personal opinion is that Obi wouldn't be able to keep up a deception of such a thing so long, but the mush lover in me loves the idea.

    Great job!
  4. CrystalKenobi Jedi Master

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    Wonderful story, I hope to see more of this soon. I like the idea of Obi-wan telling Anakin that he is married also. I think their relationship will be even better. Will you be giving us any background into how Obi-wan and Siri finally got together? I hope so. And poor Obi and Siri not being able to ackowldge their son, but at least they do get to see him some even if its as Jedi Masters.
  5. Kazzy Jedi Master

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    Obi-Wan and Siri are married? :eek: and have a little boy? :eek: :eek: Golly.

    Nice start, but I can't wait to see you continue this, particularly to see what Anakin's reaction to that little tidbit, might be.

    Great! :)
  6. JediMaster_Jen Force Ghost

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    DarthSabe So Obi and Siri have a son?

    Yes they do. :)

    Having Siri give him the holocube is a nice touch, it kind of mirrors Anakin's giving Padmé the jappor snippet.

    I hadn't thought about that.

    Despite being a persistent Sabewan/Obidala-ist, I know in my heart of hearts that Siriwan is the right pairing . . . sigh . . .

    I'm a bit of an Obidala fan myself, but I just love the Obi/Siri potential. :)


    LadyPadme How sweet and sad that Obi and Siri had a baby they couldn't acknowlege.

    I agree. :(

    Although, how did Siri manage to have the baby without the rest of the Order knowing?

    Ah, that's where the real story begins. ;) Quite easily actually.

    My personal opinion is that Obi wouldn't be able to keep up a deception of such a thing so long, but the mush lover in me loves the idea.

    I totally agree. I think Obi-Wan is most likely a terrible liar and would never be able to lie for so long a time, but.... :)

    Great job!

    Thanx a bunch.


    CrystalKenobi Wonderful story, I hope to see more of this soon.

    Thank you. More is coming very soon.

    Will you be giving us any background into how Obi-wan and Siri finally got together? I hope so.

    Fret not, my friend. There will be an explanation for everything. :)

    And poor Obi and Siri not being able to ackowldge their son, but at least they do get to see him some even if its as Jedi Masters.

    Yep, poor them. :( They can see him all they want, but never tell him who they really are. Or can they? o_O

    Thanks for reading.


    Kazzy Obi-Wan and Siri are married? :eek:

    Yes they are. :)

    and have a little boy? :eek:

    Yes they do. [face_laugh]

    Nice start, but I can't wait to see you continue this, particularly to see what Anakin's reaction to that little tidbit, might be.

    Thanks. As for Anakin's reaction, let's just say it's not gonna be what you might expect, at least at first.




    Chapter 1 coming this evening. Glad you all enjoyed.
  7. Jeditheskyisblue Force Ghost

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    Anakin could react with surprise alittle anger that Obi-wan had been always telling him to follow the code but didn't himself.

  8. Aelan_Greenleaf Jedi Knight

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    Oh, I very much like this, and I can't wait for the next chapter! I love Siriwans! :)
  9. jacen200015 Force Ghost

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    *Gapes* You didn't happen to use the Force to look into my mind did you? :D Awesome start. I can't wait to see Anakin's reaction.
  10. Moons_of_Iego_angel7 Jedi Knight

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    ooo this is very interesting...post soon? :)
  11. VaderLVR64 Manager Emeritus

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    Oh I can't wait to read more of this! =D=

    Hurry up and post another chapter! [face_praying]

    Loved it! :D
  12. leandrastar2000 Jedi Knight

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    Love it, love it, love it. Can't wait for more.

    Please shoot me a PM when you update.
  13. serendipityaey Force Ghost

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    Looking forward to more, interested to see where this will go... :) Post soon! I have to go see Star Wars again tonight!
  14. Kynstar Jedi Grand Master

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    Oh liking this so far! Obi admiting that he was married as well! [face_laugh] No wonder he said he couldn't tell the Council! ;)

    Awwww :( So the lil'un is Obi and hers? That definitely had to suck not being able to claim the child as their own :(

    Looking forward to more! :D
  15. Senator_Leia73 Force Ghost

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    Awwww Obi and Siri have a son :D Awwww
  16. JediMaster_Jen Force Ghost

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    Jeditheskyisblue Anakin could react with surprise alittle anger that Obi-wan had been always telling him to follow the code but didn't himself.

    He certainly could. ;) We'll just wait and see.


    Aelan_Greenleaf Oh, I very much like this, and I can't wait for the next chapter!

    Glad you like it. You won't have to wait long.

    I love Siriwans!

    I didn't used to, but I'm fast becoming a fan.


    jacen200015 *Gapes* You didn't happen to use the Force to look into my mind did you?

    I didn't have to look, you were broadcasting pretty loudly. {face_laugh] I'm glad you are enjoying it.

    Awesome start. I can't wait to see Anakin's reaction.

    Thanks so much.


    Moons_of_Iego_angel7 ooo this is very interesting...post soon?

    Yes, post coming very soon. :)


    VaderLVR Oh I can't wait to read more of this!

    Hurry up and post another chapter!


    I certainly will. :)

    Loved it!

    Thank you so much.


    leandrastar2000 Love it, love it, love it. Can't wait for more.

    Thanks so much. More coming soon.

    Please shoot me a PM when you update.

    Certainly.


    serendipityaey Looking forward to more, interested to see where this will go...

    I'm glad you're enjoying it.

    Post soon! I have to go see Star Wars again tonight!

    Post coming soon, I promise. Have fun seeing the movie again. I've seen it five times already. [face_laugh]


    Kynstar Oh liking this so far! Obi admiting that he was married as well!

    Glad you're liking it. :)

    No wonder he said he couldn't tell the Council!

    Yep. He would have been spilling his own secret. Can't have that.

    Awwww So the lil'un is Obi and hers? That definitely had to suck not being able to claim the child as their own

    Yep, the little one is theirs. It totally sucks for them that they couldn't tell everyone he's theirs. :(

    Looking forward to more!

    More soon.


    Senator_Leia73 Awwww Obi and Siri have a son Awwwww

    Yes they do.
  17. AP4EVER Jedi Master

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    Wow! A double-couple wammy! I like it! Can't wait to read more!
  18. Malz4JESUS Jedi Grand Master

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  19. Jadie Jedi Master

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    This is so sweet!!!
    I can't wait for more! :)
  20. JediMaster_Jen Force Ghost

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    AP4EVER Wow! A double-couple wammy! I like it! Can't wait to read more!

    Thanks a bunch. More is coming up right now.


    Malz4JESUS Niiiice

    Thanks. :)


    Jadie This is so sweet!!!
    I can't wait for more!

    Thank you. More is on the way.


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    Chapter 1

    “Married?” Anakin asked quietly, his tone of voice betraying his shock. “How can you be married?”

    Obi-Wan smiled a bit at his stunned apprentice. “The same as you, Anakin, I fell in love and…” he started, but was immediately cut off.

    “No!” Anakin yelled. “You can’t be married, Master. You don’t break the Code, ever. You’re always following the rules and telling me what I’m doing wrong.”

    Obi-Wan sighed deeply. “Anakin, I didn’t…don’t want you to make the same mistakes as I have; that’s why I point out things you do wrong and that’s why I didn’t tell you the truth years ago. I didn’t want to set a bad example for you.”

    Anakin scoffed. “That’s not why. You’re a hypocrite, Master. You’ve spent every day since I became your apprentice telling me to follow the Code, to not let my personal feelings cloud my judgment. I can’t do that and you knew all along that I couldn’t. You knew that I wasn’t capable of being a model Jedi and you were afraid of how that reflected back on you. That’s why you tell me everything I do wrong.”

    Obi-Wan wasn’t surprised by Anakin’s outburst. In fact, he had expected it, and more from the young man.

    “Anakin, listen to me,” he began. “You’re right, I am a hypocrite. I’ve spent the last ten years warning you against the very same pitfalls, the same attachments and feelings I myself have. That’s not fair to you, and I’m sorry.”

    Anakin was momentarily taken aback. “Why?” the young Jedi asked finally, his voice harsh and his normally warm glowing eyes suddenly very cold.

    Obi-Wan ran a hand through his shoulder-length hair. “Like I said before, I had hoped to steer you away from making the same mistakes that I have made in my life, both as a man and as a Jedi.”

    “So falling in love and being married has been a mistake for you, Master?” Anakin wanted to know.

    Obi-Wan considered his next words carefully before speaking. “No, it hasn’t been a mistake by any means. I love my wife Anakin, but my life as a Jedi, and hers as well, haven’t allowed us much time together at all. Our lives have been filled with secrets and deceptions and lies. Stolen moments here and there, shared looks across crowded rooms or spaceports; that’s what our marriage has been, Anakin. We’ve been separated far more often than we’ve ever been together. Longing is a constant part of my daily existence. I long to be with her and I simply can’t. Our lives as Jedi don’t allow time for anything but being a Jedi.”

    “Sounds awful,” Anakin commented in a soft voice.

    Obi-Wan nodded. “It is awful, Padawan, and I had hoped you would never have to experience it for yourself, but it seems my hope has been dashed.”

    Suddenly, Anakin’s blue eyes widened. “She’s a Jedi, your wife?” he inquired.

    “Yes, she’s a Jedi,” Obi-Wan said. “She broke the Code the same as I did, because she loves me as much as I love her.”

    Anakin sighed deeply. He walked a few yards away before turning around moments later. “You lied to me, Master. I’ve always believed that you were the perfect Jedi, and now I find out the complete opposite is true.”

    “I’m not perfect, Padawan,” Obi-Wan explained. “I’m far from perfect. I’m simply human, and a man. It took more than half my life for me to realize that being a man and being human have overpowered being a Jedi.”

    “As they have in my life, Master; I love Padme with my whole heart and soul,” Anakin confessed. “She doesn’t make me weak, she gives me strength. With her by my side, I feel like I can face my future without having to be afraid. She pushes the darkness away.”

    “I can understand that, Padawan. As I said, I am not going to inform the Council of your marriage,” Obi-Wan told him again.

    “Thank you,” Anakin breathed, immensely relieved.

    “However, since we’ve both confessed secrets here today to one another, I think it’s time we tell every truth. We need to be completely honest with each other of we’re going to continue on as Master and Padawan,” Obi-Wan told the younger man.

    Anakin turned wary eyes onto his mentor. “What do you mean, Master?”

    “I want you know what really happened on Tatooine when you went to rescue your mother.”

    Fear immediately crept into Anakin’s body. Confessing his marriage was easy compared to the truth of his brief touch of the dark side of the Force.

    “Nothing happened, Master. I found her in a Tusken camp. She’s been beaten and was…was bound to a post when I found her. She…she d-died in my arms,” he told Obi-Wan softly, tears gathering in his eyes. A few managed to fall down his tanned cheeks.

    Obi-Wan stepped directly in front of his apprentice to look into his youthful face. “I never told you what happened in that power station on Naboo, did I?” he suddenly asked.

    Grateful for the change in subject, Anakin answered quickly. “No, you’ve never spoken of it, Master.”

    Motioning Anakin to follow him, Obi-Wan began walking again. “During the fight with the Sith, I fell off the cat walk at some point. Qui-Gon pressed ahead and we were separated.”

    “I didn’t know that,” Anakin commented.

    “No one does, except for Master Yoda,” he said. “An energy field was activated and when it dropped, Qui-Gon went after the Sith.”

    “Did you follow him?” the young Jedi asked curiously.

    “I tried, but they energy field activated again,” Obi-Wan said quietly. “I was caught behind that field as I watched that evil thing kill my Master, the only father I had ever known.”

    Anakin was silent. His eyes were downcast. He understood the message Obi-Wan was sending him. His Master had lost a parent as well, just like Anakin himself.

    “Were you…angry?” he finally managed to ask.

    “Yes, I was more than angry though, I was furious. I was much angrier than I had ever been in my life,” he said easily. “When that energy field dropped, I attacked the Sith with everything I had. Every emotion I was feeling at the time went into that battle: anger, hate, despair, loathing, and most of all, fear.”

    Anakin stopped walking and turned to face Obi-Wan. “But you let those feelings go, right? I mean, you’d never…you fought as a Jedi should.”

    Obi-Wan met Anakin’s stare, their eyes connecting. “No Anakin, I didn’t fight as a Jedi that day. Every swing of my saber had anger and hate behind it.”

    “You killed in anger?” Anakin questioned.

    “Yes, I did. I cleaved that Sith monster half in two with all the rage I felt at him for killing Qui-Gon,” Obi-Wan told him. “I touched the dark side that day, Anakin. I killed in anger and hate and it left a scar on my soul that remains to this day. Eventually I was able to let those feelings go, to recognize my failure. I meditated on my mistakes and I was able to release my feelings to the Force.”

    “So you never get angry anymore?” Anakin wondered.

    Obi-Wan laughed. “I get angry far more often than I should, Anakin. When we were fighting in the arena on Geonosis, I was angry. I was watching my Jedi brothers and sisters die without cause, without reason. When Dooku hit you with that lightening, I was angry and I wanted nothing more than to kill him for hurting you.”

    Tears had begun to once again in gather in Anakin’s eyes. “Why didn’t you?” he asked softly.

    “I kept thinking about Qui-Gon and I knew he would have been so disappointed in me for my actions on Naboo and it would have been the same if I had killed Dooku in the same manner,” he explained, his voice gentle and caring.

    Anakin sniffled a bit. He wiped his eyes, but the tears continued to fall. Obi-Wan rested his hand on Anakin’s broad shoulder.

    “What happened on Tatooine, Padawan?” he asked again.

    In a broken voice, Anakin spoke. “I killed them, Master. I killed them, and not just the men, but the women, and the children. I slaughtered them like the animals they are. I hate them,” he finished as he collapsed against Obi-Wan in tears, sobs wracking his body.

    Obi-Wan held his young apprentice in his strong arms, not caring one bit about the looks they were getting from people passing by. He placed a gentle, fatherly kiss on Anakin’s head before pulling back.

    “It’s all right, Padawan. It’s okay; we’ll get through this together. I promise you,” Obi-Wan told him.

    Anakin nodded. He felt like a little child for crying and needing to just be held, but so much better for having Obi-Wan to do just that.

    “Come on, we need to get back to the Temple,” Obi-Wan said after a few minutes.

    “Yes, Master.”

    Together they headed back to the upper levels and towards the Jedi Temple, one of the largest and certainly the most majestic-looking structures on Coruscant.

    “Any more secrets, Master?” Anakin asked as they were sitting together in the air taxi.

    Obi-Wan looked at his apprentice and smiled. “Actually, yes there is something else. However, it can be saved for another day.”

    Anakin understood. They’d covered enough ground for one day. Their relationship had taken a turn and both men felt like they were better off for having confessed their secrets.
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  21. Jadie Jedi Master

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    Now, Anakin and Obi-Wan are more than Master and Padawan. They are brothers, and you did an excelent job writing this moment JediMaster_Jen. Moreover, I liked the fact of Obi-Wan not beeing perfect.

    =D=
  22. Kynstar Jedi Grand Master

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    Oh that was awesome!! Loved how Obi admitted his failure (well sorta hehehe) on Naboo against Maul. Poor guy... one has to feel for him watching his Master being killed.

    I'm glad Obi did that, cuz it made it easier for Anakin to admit his failure on Tatooine.

    Yay!! Mush!! [face_love] I'm soooo glad they have cleared that up. I bet that other secret is the munchkin ;) I wonder if he'll actually tell Anakin... [face_thinking]

    Great work!!! :D
  23. AP4EVER Jedi Master

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    The truth shall set you free, indeed. A great heart-warming moment between Anakin & Obi-Wan. Lord knows that these two definately need & deserve it.

    Needless to say, I think we can all guess as to what Obi-Wan's other 'secret' is. (cough) Zakk (cough) [face_whistling]

    Good job, I eagerly await to read more! :D
  24. Senator_Leia73 Force Ghost

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    I liked Oni admitting that he had touched the Dark Side. And now Ani and Obi are much closer together. :D
  25. Vivid_Scripts Jedi Master

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    0_o

    A fan-fic version of SotJ! :) Definitely something to latch on to... Great posts so far! I wonder how Anakin and Siri will respond to each other next time they meet.
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