Title: Seeing Red - The Diary of a young Mara Jade Author: mavjade Genre: Various, I'm sure. Characters: Mara Jade, with others later. Timeline Starts in Saga but may jump around... we shall see. Summary: Young Mara Jade decides to start a diary in secret, knowing such a thing could get her into trouble. Notes: For the Dear Diary 2013 challenge. I'm going to do my best to pre-write a good chunk of this so when DWB kicks in, I'll have something done. I'll warn you, I've never managed to finish this challenge before but I took a few years off from it and I'm going to give it another go. My muse was not nice to me last year and while I started a lot of things on my computer, they never got posted because they never got finished. I hope this, where things don't have to be too long, will help. Entry 1: Age 8 I don't know why I'm writing this, it's not a good idea. If I get caught I know I'll get punished. I don't want to do that ever again, but some times it feels like it doesn't matter what I do, I'll still get punishment. Sometimes it's worse than others. Anyway... My name is Mara Jade and I'm a dancer for the Imperial Palace, though I don't know that that's right either. I dance with the other girls but some of us have classes that some of the other girls don't. Or maybe they do and we just don't have it at the same time, I don't really know. We aren't allowed to talk about our training... not that we follow that rule but talking about our 'other' training could get you in a lot of trouble. We all have school together, we all learn dances together. Still I guess I do sometimes have my own tutoring so maybe so does everyone else. I don't bring that up when we talk about our classes because I don't want any of the other girls to know I need more help, or that our teachers think I need more help. I don't think I do, I'm a good dancer and I get good grades in school classes and I'm pretty good in our other training, better than some of the others for sure. Sometimes I get in trouble cause I say what I think, but it's not 'real' trouble, nothing to get a punishment for and I don't think I should have to have extra work to do just cause of it either. I guess it really doesn't matter though, because the time I'm by myself with my tutor is my favorite time anyway. The things we do are a lot more fun, hard, but fun. He always says we aren't there for enjoyment, but smiles a little bit anyway when I say something is fun. I think he has fun too. My tutor is a nice guy, but he can be mean when he wants to be. I think sometimes he teaches me things and makes me do things he really doesn't want to do, but he has to anyway. He usually gets this look on his face, it gets all pinched and he gets a little more snippy and just wants to get things done without talking or anything. I sometimes wonder if he might get a punishment if he doesn't. I've asked him before but he usually just makes me go on with whatever it is I'm doing. Well I guess I should go to bed before bed check and I get found awake when I'm not supposed to be. I guess I should find a place to hide this if I don't want that punishment. For now I'll just leave it under my pillow and in the morning I'll put it somewhere else.