This is a songfic to Hilary Duff?s ?Someone?s Watching Over Me?. Go listen to it, it?s a great song! I don?t own the song or anything Star Wars. This is the first of 3 parts. The second is already written and I?m working on the third. Enjoy. ?I found myself today, Oh, I found myself and ran away.? He stared into the dark night surrounding him. He felt a whispery breeze ruffle his ginger hair, freshly shorn where his long padawan braid had been. He reached up instinctively and felt nothing. Fresh tears poured from his cerulean eyes. How had this happened? ?But something pulled me back, A voice of reason I forgot I had.? He was ashamed to say that an hour ago he had unclipped his light saber, ignited it, and raised it to his face. He looked deep into the azure blade, brightly radiating and quietly humming. With one quick movement he could pass into the Force. He raised it closer, closer still then shut it off and dropped it, collapsing into himself and an ocean of tears. His only thoughts were ?This is not the Jedi way.? ?All I know is you?re not here to say what you always used to say.? In his mind, all he saw was that thing, that horrible monster killing him. His master, his father. He knew Qui-Gon would not want him to carry on this way, but he couldn?t help it. ?But it?s written in the sky tonight.? He felt better, more at home here in the gardens. The temple stood guarding him in the background, holding all he could not bear to have and all he would die to keep. He struggled to remember Qui-Gon?s advice and calming words that had been whispered through the Force and his soft voice so many times before. ?So I won?t give up, No I won?t break down.? He had to be strong. He had to be a good Jedi and release his feelings. He had to be strong and worthy of this precious, impressionable life his master had left with him. It had been, after all, his master?s last wish. ?Sooner than it seems life turns around.? He still could not believe that two days ago he had been a padawan and now he was a master. Not only a knight, but a master who must impart everything, all his knowledge of the Force, starting now. ?And I will be strong even if it all goes wrong.? His will had always been the will of the Force, but at times his faith in his destiny wavered. He did not feel ready to be in charge of the most important element of this boy?s life. He found he wanted to keep him because it was Qui-Gon?s dying words and at times he wanted to run to the council and unabashedly admit it was all a mistake. How could he be a master? ?When I?m standing in the dark I?ll still believe.? Here in the gardens, lit dimly by the moon, Obi-Wan felt the Force swell around him. It sank some small amount of relief into his weary spirit and bones. He shut his eyes for a moment and tried to find Qui-Gon in the Force. He didn?t succeed, but in his heart he knew he wouldn?t. A single tear rolled down his cheek. ?Someone?s watching over me.?