Beyond The Father?s Grave (Allana Solo Vignette)

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  1. Briannakin Grand Moff Darth Fanfic Manager

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    Title: The Father?s Grave
    Author: Briannakin
    Timeframe: Post-FOTJ
    Characters: Allana Solo
    Genre: Introspection, Angst, Vignette
    Author's Notes: I?ve had this in my head since I visited my father's grave for the first time in October, but it took me awhile to have the courage to write it out and even longer to post it. It isn't very sad, but it is very meaningful for me. Allana?s relationship with her father is similar to mine with my own father.
    Disclaimer: The galaxy belongs to George, not me, sadly.


    They think he was a monster. They never say it out loud, but they never remember the happy times. Were there any happy times? They never talk to me about him and I don?t bring him up any more. I stopped when I heard my grandpa crying in the refresher after I asked a simple question about him one dinner time. I stopped when I saw the hollowness in my grandmother?s eyes.

    They prefer not to remember him at all.

    He did many bad things, this I know and accept.

    He kidnapped me. He tried to kill my grandparents and his own sister. He succeeded in killing many, including the only woman my great uncle loved and my Grandpa Isolder.

    He was a Sith.

    Does this make him a monster?

    I don?t think so.

    Does a monster use his last breath to save his daughter?

    No.

    Maybe this the idealistic wishing of a girl not wanting to admit her father was a monster.

    Maybe I?ve been hanging around my Uncle Luke too much.

    I don?t remember him well. I simply remember the kind man who visited me from time to time. Maybe that is because that is how I want to remember him. He kidnapped me, I know and remember this, but I still only remember him as that kind man.

    He was a kind man.

    A kind man who made hideous mistakes.

    I will not make his mistakes.

    I will not do that harm to my family.

    I will not tear out my own heart.

    I will not bring about my own demise.

    I promise myself this as I kneel in front of a gravestone - it took me hours to find it, here, in a small clearing, hidden deep in the woods of Hapes. No one knows I?m here. All that remains of him lays here, under the rich soil are his ashes. I run my hands over the markings for the first time in my life: Jacen Han Solo - Lest We Forget.

    At least they used his real name.

    My father?s real name.

    I grab the soil as I begin to cry.

    I am all that is left of a man.

    I am the legacy of a misunderstood man. A man only I remember.

    I miss him.


    End.
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  2. Luna_Nightshade Manager Emeritus

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    Very moving vignette. Love that Allana remembers the good things about Jacen, and I love that Tenel Ka must have buried Jacen there. Love that Allana is old enough here to think about her father so maturely.

    I'm sorry about your loss, and I know that writing can be cathartic. I hope that writing this beautiful vignette helped you wrap your head around your thoughts. [:D]
  3. CloneUncleOwen Force Ghost

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  4. Sara_Kenobi Force Ghost

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    Very beautifully written! Thank you for sharing it! :)
  5. earlybird-obi-wan Force Ghost

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    Very moving vignette.
    Allana remembers the good that was in her father.[:D]
  6. Nyota's Heart Combos & Paragraphs Host

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    Hi:

    Allana's tone is compassionate and mature & sees all sides, and she grieves for the loss that not only she has suffered but Han and Leia as well. :(

    Thank you for sharing this very touching piece.

    @};-

    @};-

    [:D]

  7. Hazel Force Ghost

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    Beautiful, Briannakin! @};-

    And you're right - little girls are entitled to see and remember their father with love, no matter what Dad has done.

    =D=
  8. mavjade It's so Fluffy Fanfic & New Movies Manager

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    Beautiful story, Briannakin! =D= @};-

    I hope that writing this has helped you. I know writing has helped me a lot in the past, it can be a wonderful thing to sort out feelings or sometimes let go of feelings.

    This story shows a wonderful thing about the innocence of a child. Because she was so young, she can know he did bad things but she doesn't remember them so she doesn't have to feel them.

    Thank you so much for sharing this with us! [:D]
  9. Lady_Misty Force Ghost

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  10. FelsGoddess Game Host

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    Lest We Forget.

    Fitting message.

    Very moving and powerful piece. Quite a burden for Allana to bear. =D=
  11. dm1 Force Ghost

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    Well done, and I truly hope writing this has helped you deal with your own grief.

    [:D] @};-
  12. Abeja Jedi Grand Master

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    Beautiful and sad vignette, Briannakin.
    Parents are still parents and will never be anything else to their children.
    Thank you for sharing this story with us @};- [:D]
  13. DaenaBenjen42 Force Ghost

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    I don?t remember him well. I simply remember the kind man who visited me from time to time. Maybe that is because that is how I want to remember him. He kidnapped me, I know and remember this, but I still only remember him as that kind man.

    This was telling... that what remained of Jacen under the layers of the darkside shone through for her to see.


    Well done. :)
  14. RK_Striker_JK_5 Force Ghost

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    One hell of a gut punch, here. :( :)
  15. haleyskywalker2 Jedi Master

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    That was beautiful. I'm also like someone else mentioned that Allana remebers the good things about her father and not the bad.

    I'm sorry for he loss and I know when something bad happens writing can be a good way to help. I hope writing this has helped you a bit. [:D] @};-
  16. SilSolo Jedi Grand Master

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    sorry about your loss.

    This story is beautiful. It's nice of Tenel Ka to bury Jacen in the middle of a secluded spot on Hapes.
  17. DarthBellumSolo Jedi Grand Master

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    I am devastated, such remarkable vignette, I cry. :_|I always was sure of that Allana will remember Jacen as person, who was always good to her, rather then as sith, and will recall his exactly such. I very pleased that not one I so consider.
    Yes and in general, me this subject of the relations father and ?????? introduce;make familiar with not on ???????? so I much well understand Allana.
    Author, for such vignette tale thank you!@};-

    [face_devil]Bel [face_devil]
  18. Team Padme Jedi Grand Master

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    Just read this and loved it.
  19. Tarsier Force Ghost

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    This is beautiful. I'm so glad Allana remembers the good in her father even if no one else does. And that she recognizes his mistakes and is determined not to make them herself. Perhaps his death was not in vain after all.
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