Ki, You don't wait, you go after. With everything you've got, heart and mind, but most importantly, honesty. Find time to honestly talk to the Lord, in Jesus name, as though He were your best friend and truest confidant...just be honest. If you've doubts tell the Lord, but seek His face, not His hand. Seek Him, as you would have someone that would love you seek you. Just talking. Start there...that's what I was told to do by a stranger. I have no way of thanking that man, but one day in Heaven...so I pass it to you. This is digressing from the thread topic, but it's far more important.