I can honestly tell you that KNOWING you are completely invisible is the worst thing in the world. To hear through others that what you are writing is boring and brainless Mary Sue's is about the most depressing feeling in the world. To have to completely borne out in competition is further worse. I can honestly tell you that just one person that doesn't have to read me because they are my sister or my long suffering co-writer, who I know is a fine writer because she has done well anywhere else she puts her mind to writing continues to make this a very difficult uphill to climb I can honestly tell you that knowing in my own personal case that I have been told by the people that have been on this board a long time that I am not being read is because what I am doing is so Mary Sue, I almost can't continue some days. I keep trying because the point is I do love doing this, but a lurker that doesn't have to read my things and come out of the wood work and says something is a friend to treasure.