Beyond - Legends Twilight~ Post-NJO A/T songfic.

Twilight (the song is by Vanessa Carlton)
Songfic- really sad and angsty!
Tahiri?s POV

Disclaimer: SW is not mine, the song is not mine, I'm doing this for fun and not profit, yadda yadda yadda...

BIG FAT HUGE thanks to my beta Calayka_Bele! *hugs* Thanks SO much!

This is 2 years post NJO. Enjoy.

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I was stained, with a role,
in a day not my own
but as you walked into my life,
you showed what needed to be shown
I always knew what was right
I just didn?t know that I might
peel away and choose to see with such a different sight

Remember when we met, Anakin? I remember it as clear as day. We were having the same dreams. Yes, and I really believe the Force lead us together. There was always something there, a deep friendship if nothing else. I always thought you were shy, but the truth is, you just chose your words carefully. You taught me so much. I take nothing for granted, now. You were an inspiration to us all. Even if you are a dummy.

And I will never see the sky the same way,
and I will learn to say goodbye to yesterday,
and I will never cease to fly if held down
and I will always reach too high cause I?ve seen,
cause I?ve seen twilight

There are so many things that are uncertain. We aren?t guaranteed tomorrow, I had to learn that the hard way. War teaches us how to survive in ways we never thought possible.

Oh, didn?t we have a heartless enemy! I bet they loved killing you, and everyone else they killed. There was no way they could have any sympathy and mercy in their black hearts. I hated them for the longest time, for what they did to us. But everyone has one of those instances where all you can do is... forgive.

Never cared, never wanted
never sought to see what flaunted
so on purpose so in my face
couldn?t see beyond my own place
and it was so easy not to behold what I could hold
but you showed me I could change
whatever came within these shallow days

People tell me I shouldn?t still be grieving, that I should just let go. I want to, but I can?t bring myself to. It?s just wrong. I want you to come back so badly, I can?t let go. The moment I do I have this feeling I?ll regret it. I?m so torn, I don?t know what to do. Help me. Help me.

And I will never see the sky the same way
and I will learn to say goodbye to yesterday
and I will never cease to fly if held down
and I will always reach too high cause I?ve seen
cause I?ve seen...

As the sun shines through it pushes away
and pushes ahead
it fills the warmth of blue
and leaves a chill instead and
I didn?t know that I could be
so blind to all that is so real
but as illusion dies
I see there is so much to be revealed.

I realize I?ve got to let go, to say goodbye. Oh, I promised myself I wouldn?t cry. Take the tears away, take away the regrets, take away all the pain. It hurts too much for words. I don?t want my heart to be empty anymore, I want to be free of the burden of blaming myself for your death. Please, I don?t want to live like this anymore! I don?t want to lose everything to grief! I won?t cry, tears are stinging at my eyes, but I?ll be strong, I won?t cry.

And I will never see the sky the same way.
and I will learn to say goodbye to yesterday
and I will never cease to fly if held down
and I will always reach too high cause I?ve seen,
cause I?ve seen twilight

Thank you for your friendship. Thank you for your love, your support, your undying care, and most of all, your faith in me. I know this is what you would want me to do. Oh, forget the promise. Tears are falling too steadily now. I?ll never forget your eyes, your smile, everything. I?ve memorized your face. I have an image burned onto my mind, and I?ll never let it go. I?ll never let you go. I?ve just got to let go of the pain.

I was stained, by a role,
in a day not my own
but as you walked into my life,
you showed what needed to be shown
I always knew what was right
I just didn?t know that I might
peel away and choose to see

 

*Runs to Chie's fic*

*reads thoughtfully*

*shouts* WOW!!!!

That was great! Loved how Tahiri said she promised she wasn't going to cry. That was insightful.

Looking foward to more of your work!!

~Ambyr-Rose~

 

oh that was really good. you had me crying. for real and i hardly cry. oh wow. god thats was so sad but good really good.

 

*sniff* That was so sad. *sniff*

Great little viggie.

Oh, and this is Whitey, BTW.

 

That was just beautiful. I have no idea how else to describe it. You got Tahiri down perfectly.

Now please excuse me while I go look for some Kleenex.

 

Thanks everyone!

This needs an up...

Jedi-Tahiri-Veila: Love the username!

JainaSticksSolo19- Yeah, I cried while I was writing it. Just thinking about poor Anakin... *sniffs*

Thanks again everybody!

 

Yeah! You posted it. Once again...great job!

~Calayka

 

Thanks, JediMasterChie. I know it's not incredibly creative, but I like it.

Thought I'd comment again, since last time I was momentarily stunned and my use of words was somewhat disabled. I usually don't really much care for fics like these, because most are too angsty. I really like this one, because you had Tahiri move on at the end (some fics don't do that, and the ones that do sometimes have her move on with another guy). Again I want to comment on how you got her characterization down perfectly (at least in my opinion.)

Will you be writing anything else? I really hope you do.

 

That was so sad! But in the end they will be together. That's so true! But it still sad because she has to live the rest of her life without him. I miss him!

 

*sniffles* That was really beautiful, Chie. Tahiri learned to let go and move on, but she promised to remember Anakin. It was encouraging to read that she knows she'll see him again sometime, but she needs to live her life while she has it. Wonderful job on your first fic.

 

Shamelessly upping my own fic!

Thanks SO much everyone! And yes, I'll be writing more. Have paitence.

 

[face_stunned] Wow.

 

UPping this one more time...

 

*sniff* that was *sniff* so sad . Wow, that's something that no one *sniffs, wipes eyes and starts again* no one has ever been able to me cry, at least not while reading a fanfic, but i'm in tears over here *finds tissues* Really good job. Keep it up, hope to see more fics by you.

Fireyforce *sniff*

 

nice, very nice! g2g can't write any more