Beyond - Legends Viggies of the heart. 10/2/03 THE NOTIFICATION J/J. Song by: Josh Groban

This is where I will post my collection of Vig's and the like. The first one is entitled "Lament over Tenel Ka"
Sorry it's so short, but it's the best I could think of. So....Enjoy, and come back again.




Lament over Tenel Ka


It?s true you know. What they say, about the hole in your heart. You know the one.
About not being able to have the one thing you love most deeply in the world.
Well for me, that one thing is a woman. Her name is Tenel Ka. My name is Jacen Solo.
Heh. Bet that surprises you, doesn?t it? Can you see the headlines? ?Galactic Famous Jedi Knight falls head over heels in teen love?.

We used to sit on the stone steps of the Great Temple, talking for hours on end.
Only one thing ever happened between us though. A small kiss. No tongue, not a peck on the cheek,
but still a kiss nonetheless. My first one, too. I have cherished that moment forever.

Even as I sit here, rambling on, she fills all my thoughts. But I know that I cannot have her.
She is the Queen of an entire cluster. Her duties would just blow away any time
that she had for me. Not to mention that I would just be considered her personal slave
to the public eye. But when you think about it, it could be good for relations between the New Republic and the Hapes Cluster.

But there is one thing I don?t get. Tenel Ka and I are just good friends.
I never considered her to be the part of wife and lover. Why am I having these feelings then? Is it that need,
that insatiable need that all species have to reproduce? That may be one reason. Another may be that
I simply want to better myself, and in the process, better the woman I love. But the first reason is more likely.

This hole fills all my time. I can?t stop thinking about her. Is it love, a crush, or a case of stalking?
Heh. I dunno. I don?t care. I just want the hole filled. I want Tenel Ka. I want the one thing that I cannot have.

But what do you care? You?re just a nameless, faceless, palace guard.

 

wow that was really sweet and yet sad.
more soon.

 

Poor Jacen! so tormented by his love. I can't wait for more that was great!

Fireyforce

 

I like! More???

 

Fine....Have more...however...this is not new...this is old...I can't write anything new right now becuase I'm busy packing for a forensics tournament this weekend. It has a simple title though, Zekk to Jaina

When this began
I had nothing to say
And I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me
I was confused
And I let it all out to find /that I'm
Not the only person with these things in mind
Inside of me
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
Nothing to lose
Just stuck/hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
And the fault is my own

When we were kids, we were the best of friends.
I didn?t know what I felt, or what I should say
When you left for the Jedi Academy
I thought you didn?t care about me anymore
Jaina, why? You left me alone, on that giant city!
Why? Life was hard without you.
Now, I know, there are people like me, out there.
Lost, confused, and alone. Then he came. Brakiss.
I went with him. I was alone. What should I have done?
Waited for you? I was poor, alone, nothing more than a beggar.
I had nothing to lose.
But it was my choice.
My fault.

I want to heal
I want to feel
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
[Erase all the pain 'til it's gone] I want to heal
I want to feel
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

He healed me Jaina.
Don?t you see? He made me feel good!
He called me his best.
The leader of a new revolution
But, I still wanted you.
I had power, and I wanted Jaina Solo
I had all that pain in me
Is it so impossible to understand?
Why I did the things I did?
The power was great.
The pain, it was gone
I felt good
I was healed
I was the Darkest Knight.
It was the realist thing I had
I had wanted to find somewhere I belonged,
And this was it.

And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
I was confused
Looking everywhere/only to find that it's
Not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
So what am I
What do I have but negativity
'Cause I can't justify the
Way everyone is looking at me
Nothing to lose
Nothing to gain/hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
The fault is my own

When we invaded the Jedi Temple
I was scared
I didn?t know what to do
Blasters firing and lightsaber?s hissing
The battle wasn?t what I had imagined
What did that make me?
All I had was the darkness
While the light won.
When I awoke, Jacen explained what I did
But it didn?t justify what I did beforehand
Everybody looked at me weird,
And did their best to avoid me.
I was alone again.
With nothing to lose
And nothing to gain
And it was all my fault.
Zekk?s fault.

I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be
Anything 'til I break away from me
And I will break away
I'll find myself today

I guess that I?ll never know
What life COULD have been like
If I stayed at the Academy
I haven?t really felt or cared about anything since
Except you Jaina Solo.
The scars have never healed
My conscious will never heal
I broke away from everything
To try and find myself
And I did
I found myself as a Jedi
And in love with you Jaina.

I want to heal
I want to feel like I'm
Somewhere I belong



Song by Linkin Park

 

wow
that was sad.
see i'm all for j/j
but man thats was rally sad
more soon.

 

Wow. Those were great! I loved the first one! I just had to laugh that Jace was telling that to a palace guard. Second one was kinda confusing for me... maybe that's because I've never read the YJK. I'm trying to get around to it but I haven't.

J&J

 

The Notification.




C://>LOGON

SCREENNAME: JAINA SOLO
PASSWORD: ********

WELCOME BACK, JAINA!

C://>MAIL

YOU HAVE MAIL FROM:

THE NEW REPUBLIC MILITARY- DEATH NOTIFICATION
JACEN SOLO- JAG
WEDGE ANTILLES- (NO TOPIC)
HAN AND LEIA ORGANA SOLO- ...
KYP DURRON- YOUR LOSS
STARLIGHT ENGINES, INC- THE INFO. YOU REQUESTED

C://> READ MAIL: THE NEW REPUBLIC MILITARY

**********************************************************************************


BY ORDER THE NEW REPUBLIC MILITARY. THIS IS A NOTIFICATION OF DEATH TO THE IMMEDIATE FAMILY OF: JAGGED FEL. WE ARE SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS.


Through the darkness
I can see your light
And you will always shine
And I can feel your heart in mine
Your face I've memorized
I idolize just you

Jaina,

This is a war.
People are dying every day.
I realize that Jaina.
It?s so dark in space.
So cold.
I see you walking in the corridor,
And suddenly,
It?s like a warm blanket,
Has been wrapped around me.
You?re beautiful, Jaina.
Deep in the blue of hyperspace,
When I am alone,
Truly alone,
I think about you.
The other girls,
Gather round me,
And I think of you.

I look up to
Everything you are
In my eyes you do no wrong
I've loved you for so long
And after all is said and done
You're still you
After all
You're still you

You?re my idol, Jaina.
I look up to that.
I respect you,
Emulate your tactics in battle.
The Vong are the toughest enemies I?ve ever faced.
You kill them with remarkable ease.
In the blink of an eye,
You destroy their fleets.
You?ve been through so much.
But through thick and thin,
You?re still Jaina Solo.
You?re still you.

You walk past me
I can feel your pain
Time changes everything
One truth always stays the same
You're still you
After all
You're still you

You have been betrayed.
By the feelings on your face,
Feelings of pain,
Feelings of grief,
Feelings of loss.
You miss him Jaina.
I know!
I?ve lost siblings too!
Granted we didn?t share
The connection you had
With Anakin.
But times changes.
People die.
It?s the harsh reality of it.
On that all pilots must embrace.
But you know what?
Through it all,
You?re still you.

I look up to
Everything you are
In my eyes you do no wrong
And I believe in you
Although you never asked me to
I will remember you
And what life put you through

I look up to you Jaina.
Yes?Me! The great Jag Fel!
Everything you do I idolize.
Every word you say I cherish.
I believe whatever you do is correct.
I believe this with an undying faith.
I always believed this.
Even though you never asked me to.
You never asked anything of me.
I will remember you Jaina.
In this life.
And the next.
No matter where we go, or what we do.
I will always love you.
I will remember the hardships you endured in life
And what you had to go through just to live.

And in this cruel and lonely world
I found one love
You're still you
After all
You're still you

This is a cold galaxy, Jaina.
With the Vong,
And the Hutts,
?Well?
Not so much the Hutt?s anymore.
And all the people on the streets
Willing to kill someone just for the fun of it.
I was lucky to find you.
You are my one love, Jaina.
I have always cherished the moments we have spent together.
Though we have not had many of them.
So, through the thick and thin,
You?re still you.

But?If you?re reading this?I?m dead.
Yeah.
Probably got shot by the Vong.
So you have to do something for me Jaina.
You have to LIVE.
Find a man.
Settle down.
Have a kid.
Stop fighting?You?ll end up like me.
No one lives forever.
God only knows how General Ant-
Uncle Wedge
Lived so long.
I kept meaning to ask him.
Guess I can?t now.
Jaina.
I have loved you since the moment I saw you.
I?m sorry we didn?t get a chance to be together.

-Jagged Fel
(Chiss, Imperial, Rogue, Twin Suns, Stalker)




Song: You're still You by Josh Groban

 

Dude . . . that was so incredibly sad! You almost made me start crying! Must go visit Valyn's now, to cheer myself up. Or get drunk on Whyren's or something.

But yeah, it was good. Funny in some places too!

Jae Angel

 

Jaggie die [face_shocked]

Why couldn't Zekk die?!

nina

 

....jaggie?.....

why?!?!

so sad

greaser

 

Dang!

I did love the line about Jag wondering how Wedge had managed to live so long!

I think TK should try to address that in Legacy- don't you guys?

-Rogue

 

That was great MJ!! Sad though. Why is everybody making sad stuff? I've been crying alot lately!!!! I agree Rouge, Commander should address that. It'd be funny!

J&J

 

*our hero sneaks in and ups his work*


*our hero battles against OPPM*

 

Awesome job, Master_Jacen! Angsty, but all of them were great!

 

So great! All so great...

 

Uppies!!! Another one soon?

J&J